baby steve who's young enough that his mama is still around, whose dad has always been a deadbeat, who watches his mama get mistreated by his dad every night when the man gets home from work or from drinking.
baby steve who starts to try and raise his voice and fight back like the action heroes he watches when he goes to the curtises to watch cartoons, whose mama always hurriedly sweeps him behind her skirt or urges him to go to his room when things get bad.
baby steve who wakes up one night at some ungodly hour to his mama sitting on the end of his bed crying. she's dressed in her long tan coat that she wears when they go travelling and she looks like an angel. he crawls into her lap and hugs her so tight. she whispers that she loves him and that she's sorry, but he's already asleep.
baby steve finding out the next morning that she's gone and she isn't coming back.
steve growing up wishing he could have gone with her, but never resenting her. steve growing up wishing he was strong enough, big enough, brave enough to save his mama. maybe then she would have stayed. maybe then his dad wouldn't treat him like shit.
canon-age steve who flinches every time a bottle breaks against a wall or a curse is screamed in his direction, but who thinks it's better him than her. canon-age steve who will never ever get over the fact that he couldn't save his mama but he can at least grow into being what he couldn't be. canon-age steve who is mean and who fights and who has learned to be the way he is because of how he grew up, because now he's big and strong enough to fight back.
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