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Vent Blog| he/him | 25 | please dni if under 18 I'm an adult MAIN BLOG: http://celestial-sugar.tumblr.com/

[jebiwonkenobi]

you ever just minding your business and then you feel The Grief

[peribirb]

*immediately after having trauma flashbacks instead of sleeping* actually it wasn't that bad and I'm overreacting

[stuckinapril]

Honestly it boils down to reparenting yourself & rewiring your own neuronal pathways & telling yourself a firm “stop” when you notice your mind slipping down negative loopholes & being present in the moment & enjoying being mid task rather than waiting for it to end & not thinking of inertia as your baseline and natural way of living

[stuckinapril]

So tempting to keep embarking on the same self destructive cycle over & over & over again . But at some point you have to put ur foot down w ur own behaviors & be the thing that truly saves u

[sicsicthewolves]

#this is unfortunately true#it’s not easy to tell yourself Hey Drop It#like you’re your own dog furtively eating pinecones and rocks#but you gotta#sometimes it’s a Hey We’re Not Doing That#you gotta though

[maachine-deactivated20250630]

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[inkskinned]

fucking hate it when the stuff everybody says "actually works" does actually work.

hate exercising and realizing i've let go of a lot of anxiety and anger because i've overturned my fight-or-flight response.

hate eating right and eating enough and eating 3 times a day and realizing i'm less anxious and i have more energy

hate journaling in my stupid notebook with my stupid bic ballpoint and realizing that i've actually started healing about something once i'm able to externalize it

hate forgiving myself hate complimenting myself more often hate treating myself with kindness hate taking a gratitude inventory hate having patience hate talking to myself gently

hate turning my little face up to the sun and taking deep breaths and looking at nature and grounding myself and realizing that i feel less burdened and more hopeful, more actually-here, that i am able to see the good sides of myself more clearly, that i am able to see not only how far i have to grow - but also how much growth i have already done & how much of my life i truly fill with light and laughter and love

horrible horrible horrible. hate it but i'm gonna do it tho

[maculategiraffe]

[lasenbyphoenix]

[konoko]

[corpsecoded-deactivated20250106]

— The Incest Diary

[konoko]

[fidelcostco]

BUT WHEN I SLEEP YOU ARE STILL ALIVE!

[anneemay]

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[anneemay]

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[2spirit-1spoon]

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[acepumpkinpatrick]

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[anneemay]

1 September 2024

[celestial-sugarvent]

I hate having no money to help people I hate it I can barely afford to feed myself and my family all I can do is reblog donation posts and spread awareness offline and I feel sick

[b4st4rd-420]

[cyberxbattalion]

[collectivewarmth]

one of the most important things about dissociative identity disorder and generally being a system that i wish people would understand is that it truly isn’t as cut and dry as it may seem for member count.

you’ll see people who say they have “six alters” and then immediately assume it’s six fully fleshed out equal individuals with no confusion or fuzziness regarding identity. that’s simply not true in a majority of cases, as i have seen.

most systems still VERY much deal with confusion regarding potential splits, go through dissociative episodes where they’re unsure of who they are, sometimes feel no attachment towards any identities, feel like they might have split and then suddenly that person is gone, unsure if alters they haven’t heard from often have gone dormant, not sure how to react when alters do come out of dormancy, etc.

it’s not a fun feeling and it’s genuinely unfair in certain situations to force systems to list every single alter to you with full certainty, as if it will never change. because it will. for so many different reasons, systems will grow, they will shrink, they will fuse, they will develop. you can’t expect the person with the dissociative disorder and lack of core identity to be able to keep up a perfected list of forever, it’s simply impossible. you may have alters who stick with you, but that doesn’t mean changes won’t happen.

and systems who may be reading this — please don’t feel bad. you are not a hassle, you are not a headache, and you are not an inconvenience for simply coping with something like this. it’s out of your control and the only thing you can do is continue to cope to find ways to help yourself retrain from these reactions. please don’t allow yourself to be harmed by others who don’t understand what you are going through. there are people who will accept and love you for who you are, all of you.

past, present, and future.

[celestial-sugarvent]

I'm a totally normal guy with a totally normal relationship with sex. :)

I did not cry when my girlfriend told me she'd never expect sex from me and then was true to her word :)

that would be not normal. and boy howdy I'm s so n normal

[steamandcream]

thinking about how when you experience a lot of shame in your formative years (indirectly, directly, as abuse or just as an extant part of your environment) it becomes really difficult to be perceived by other people in general. the mere concept of someone watching me do anything, whether it's a totally normal activity or something unfamiliar of embarrassing, whether I'm working in an excel spreadsheet or being horny on main, it just makes my skin crawl and my brain turn to static because I cannot convince myself that it's okay to be seen and experienced. because to exist is to be ashamed and embarrassed of myself, whether I'm failing at something or not, because my instinctive reaction to anyone commenting on ANYTHING I'm doing is to crawl into a hole and die. it's such a bizarre and dehumanizing feeling to just not be able to exist without constantly thinking about how you are being Perceived. ceaseless watcher give me a god damn break.

[howlsnteeth]

24/05/2022

[nova-dracomon]

[Image description: Two panel comic.

Panel 1: "It's usually said you learn the rules, the meaning of the world, as you age." The text is written around a close-up sketch of a wolf's back, their ears held back flat against their head. Then there is a close-up of their paw and mouth as they lean down to drink.

Panel 2: "But sometimes you learn them young, and those secrets cannot be carried easily." The full body sketch of the wolf is now shown. They are covered in scratches, their neck dripping blood and their head completely blotted out and distorted.

End description.]