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[abluescarfonwaston]

Thinking about Yor trying to have the "You can't die please take your life and health more seriously. What would we do if something happened to you?" Conversation again and Loid just going: Oh! I've been meaning to have this conversation!

Going and pulling out a will. Loid Forgers bank information. His life insurance policy.

So if (when) I die obviously you get Anya as my wife but Franky is listed as the godfather (no don't tell him he'll think we're friends I can't have that.) Just in case something Also happens to you.

This is my life insurance plan from the hospital. It should cover you for a while, especially if you pull her from Eden. (Or she gets expelled.) This account has Anyas Mothers life insurance which I only use for Anyas expenses. (Explaining how he sometimes spends insane amounts on her but does live fairly frugally. It's a wise account. He's definitely not putting part of his actual check in there for them. Nope. Definitely not.) And the car vehicle title is in here too. You can sell that. I set the fire box code to your birthday so you won't forget it.

Yor just standing there as he outlines exactly how to live on after him. Like. That wasn't the conversation. I want you to live a long life. I want you to rely on me. To be healthy and happy.

Not to discuss how you've already covered the cost of cremation at X facility (wise run) just in case so don't worry about that. The details are here. It's all sorted.

"Loid are you... Planning on dying?"

And if course he is. Loid Forger has an expiration date. Making sure it's as painless for her as possible is- well it's just-

"My wife died suddenly. Young. It made me realize how important being prepared for that possibility is. Because of Anya."

"Oh. I see." Coming and sitting next to him by the fire box safe. "Thank you. But please. Never make me use any of this." Taking his hand. The one she didn't fractured. "We need you. Anya needs you. So please rely on me a little more. We need you to live a long life."

"I'll... I'll try."

[doodleandcry]

⚠️ch 137 spoilers!⚠️

now presenting my unserious predictions for ch 138 :D

and so a plan is formed…

[pink-street-gallery]

Idk it just popped in my head. I would suggest Loid to enroll into Yor’s training but I don’t think he’d survive.

[chimeraxf]

Usual mog sunday

[lulipoparts]

I found this doodle of TwiYor on my iPad and I had to finish it. Goodness they're so cute 🥰💖

[ceramicthing]

They're so cute I'm going to be sick.

[oshldi]

[the-stars-and-the-moon]

Hilarious to me that he was genuinely more flustered about the hand-holding at the time than the fact that she literally broke a bone in his hand. Truly idiots to lovers

[ideksams]

loid was so funny this chapter- he actually ran away to the bathroom to put makeup on "just to be safe" 😫

[derpysnoopy]

Just a random connection that occurred to me witb this chapter 136. Yor is caught up between two men in her life who she loves both, and struggles with how they depend on her and vise versa.

Yuri, her brother, who Yor loves unconditionally and she raised him on her own. Yuri absolutely is struggling to not be dependent on Yor. He wants to become a child around her as an adult to some extant. He's internally conflicted about it as chapters go on, and especially as this arc shows he's not in denial but still frustrated. He remains over the top, and for a while I did think it was almost like a bit. But he physically dies over Yor telling him "no, you're an adult, also i want to cuddle with my husband"

But then, Loid is just the foil to Yuri in the other direction. Loid/Twilight is so independent. That's part of his trauma and who he is and how war shaped him. His perfectionism is literally giving him stomach pain but he fears without perfectionism he'll not survive. Yor wants Loid to have depend on her, but he says "i'm not perfect enough as a spy" mentally. He's running away from Yor being intimately caring of him but also his body fails to follow his brain about it.

Yor is then stuck in the situation of, with Yuri, having a brother who won't stop bothering her even though he's older and can take care of himself. And Yor doesn't want Yuri to rely on her anymore, because what would the parenting have all been for?

And, with Loid, who she asked to continue the marriage. From Yor's perspective, Loid is the man she chose to be with -> she wants to take care of him, and her reasoning is perfect -> he's the first man who has reciprocated emotional needs she never realized she had. She wants him to fall apart, so she can do his laundry and make him breakfast at least once in a while. She loves him. And she has agency and can set conditions on this love for Loid (especially for when the eventual reveal may happen) unlike her inherent unconditional love for Yuri.

But Loid is currently trying to avoid all of that, because his childhood had parents and friends dying, father telling him he's not good enough, and just the lived reality of being a war orphan. Getting into a relationship is dangerous to his fragile emotional security.

If Yuri and Loid could swap their mindset, Yor's dealings with both of them would probably make her a whole lot happier. But, the point is Yuri and Loid are two sides of what I think Endo is articulating as what are the faults of relying on tools from childhood to live life when those tools aren't necessary as adults. And it leaves this question of who the child in Yor is innately (not the one Yuri remembers in flashbacks): what does it all mean for Yor to want to take care of an adult man she hardly knew, and in less than 6 months(?) after wanting to move on from needing to care for her baby brother because he's old enough to actually work for a living.

[ideksams]

❕️❔️

[chimeraxfamily]

A little detail about ch136 translations (can be considered as chloeyuri crumb)

In eng translation it seems like Yuri got indignant by the whole sentence (or just the «obnoxious» part)

But first i read this chapter in ru translation so i noticed some differences

Chloe says that she finds Yuri's behavior cute yet exhausting.

And instead of "Hey!" he exclaims "Cu..." (cute) here.

So this is the only thing that confused him lol

I checked the original to make sure and it goes the same here!!

His half-word is «かわいい» - «kawaii"

I just found it funny cause.. Yuri's coworkers insult him regularly, he's so used to it to the point where he gets mad at a positive take about him lmaooo

Ik it's kinda long post for a simple thought, i just wanted to show this panel in different versions😅

[chimeraxfamily]

[ceramicthing]

It would be funny if this resulted in a repeat of the butt wound date, where something intended to negatively affect Yor ends up helping her. Twilight succeeds in sticking her with the tranquilizer, and she just goes Wow! I've been so tense from work lately, but now I feel so relaxed :) Maybe seeing Yuri get along with his friends and coworkers put me at ease :) We should do this again Loid :) and proceeds to invite Chloe and Captain Curtis out to lunch. Twilight dies of tummyache on the spot

[ceramicthing]

This manga is so much

[kobrafangs]

the domestic forger life

[ceramicthing]

I'm sure someone's mentioned it already, but another lovely thing about the last 2 chapters is the abundance of Twilight's polite "Loid" smile.

I counted 14 total over both chapters. He's so fake lol

Bonus Yuri that I thought was cute

[buf309-art-binder]

Useless Tool - Part 1

!!!CONTENT WARNING!!! Depression 💀 Just... pure depression 💀 Also, long post, a 14-page long post 💀

You have been warned. Enjoy your treat 😌

Summer heat melted my brain, so I chose (fictional) violence 💀

Inspired by a discussion with @beannoss/@nossbean about spyboy and his sense of usefulness. And the musebunny did what the musebunny did best and kicked this idea into my brain and demanded it be done first 💀