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[changeandstars]

Hi! Hi everyone!!! This is another side blog of @berrisweetsiren!!!

And!!! I guess!!! A secondary account to @brokenstarwishes!

For those who don't know, we're a dissociative BPD system, and have a handful of side blogs for our other selves to! Post? From???...I'm still figuring it out myself, admittedly.

🍄 || Mirabelle Belladonna • 22 • She/Her • AroAce • Solaris's Mirabelle!!! Not too different, uhhh, mostly!! Just!!! Trying to change my hair more.

🔮 || Rene Camembert • 23 • He/They • Abro Polyam • A Seer from ∆@+;$#

We're uhm!!! Some of the other family!!! Solaris has! So we'll be posting from here, so as not to take up too much space on his own blog.

Tag List:

🔮 || Seer's Song: Rene's posts

🍄 || Mira's Entries: Mirabelle's posts

🔘 Memories ☄️: Personal memories and/or source discussions

[hey-bigday]

Change Parade!

(static version under the cut 🖤)

[alurkerlieshere]

Woman who hasn't been held in a decade: oh I'm pretty low maintenance, yeah honestly I think I'd find that overwhelming or something, can I just hold your hand instead? If that's okay of course?

[alurkerlieshere]

Woman who feels ill at the notion of taking up space: yeah I can stand. Yeah honestly it's no biggie I like standing. Do you mind if I lean here? It's okay to say no.

[alurkerlieshere]

Woman who would rather die than be considered selfish: I'm really sorry to ask I'm probably just being annoying but could I ask for another pillow? Yeah there isn't one in the room. Yeah no worries I can just bunch up some towels if needed.

[alurkerlieshere]

Woman who's most outlandish and fantastical fantasies are a coffee date and seeing a movie with someone: oh I don't get out much. Yeah I don't really like being around people. I'm pretty much an introvert. Or something like that yeah.

[alurkerlieshere]

Woman who would break down screaming and crying if someone showed even a hint of affection in person, who would fall apart at the seams if you held her still and asked her if she was okay, woman who if allowed too would wrap herself around you and sob and weep until she became severely dehydrated: oh yeah sorry I spaced out for a second there. Yeah I'm doing alright.

[solanumwarrior]

Mirabelle Plums!! 🎀

My attempt at coloring Mira... i had no real direction for this until i looked up the actual fruit!

[orionis13]

Hiiiii Euphrasie hiiiiii

[souppotat]

awawa hi !!! gift part 2 for @littlestar000 for the platonic gift exchange ^^

also have a bonus page

[morphebun]

Hi i love Mirabelle

[catdile]

PLEASE PLEASE PLEASE PLEASE PLEASE PLEASE I BEG OF YOU PLEASE DRAW EUPHRASIE/HEAD HOUSEMAIDEN SHE'D LOOK ASTONISHING IN YOUR STYLE!!!!!

EUPHIE!! I haven’t drawn her in a while !

[chevelierrr]

Idk I think they are silly

Also have an additional doode of Mira and Isa I care them very much (especially Mira she is so fun to DRAAAWWWWWWW)

[playingwithmytouys]

[ontologicalsynaesthesia]

Yesterday I told a guy I was ace/aro and he asked what “aro” meant, so I told him, and he responded, “Oh, I thought it might be like A-E-R-O and I was confused.”

Yes.  I am asexual/aerodynamic.  At the slightest hint of sex or romance I launch myself into the air and land several miles away.

[ontologicalsynaesthesia]

Happy 10th birthday to the most popular post I’ve ever made. I have learned about so many aroace characters with the ability to fly from this post and I love that.

[aromanticofficial]

official aerodynamic post

[changeandstars]

Hmhm... As the year ends it's important to consider how we change as the year turns anew.

What can we control? What can we change?

...what can we clean and burn to renew together?

Maybe if we become full of fury enough- if we breathe in the fire- then we can cleanse everything around us to become new...

Burn like a shooting star, to bring about the change you desire.

...Ha. I should tell Mira that one later.

[kosmogrl]

changing is scary but so is staying the same changing is scary but so is staying the same changing is scary but so is staying the same changing is scary but so is staying the samechanging is scary but so is staying the same changing is scary but so is staying the same

[changeandstars]

New cute icon curtesy of the currently very sick host,,, at like 5:30 am,,,

[brokenstarwishes]

Note to selves: I am Going to get answers on your anxiety later.

[changeandstars]

Wow, Ren totally blinding forgot to ask them about this. Yep, that sounds about right.

[changeandstars]

Oh dear!! Yes you all take care of yourself please! It sounds like you need it. Rest as much as necessary to recover from everything that's been going on, your body will thank you!

Unfortunately, we have daily tests here... Our school system is a bit, y'know, MESSED UP! that way... Been studying at least 11-12 hours daily for the past 3 months... I can only hope for Christmas break haha! A little worried about the host... he pushes himself way too hard

Ah, apologies this took almost a week to respond to! We have been in an...odd but depressive headspace as of late, and it's caused our lovely host to go into some sortve autopilot feuge state.

I do hope that the studying and testing pays off at least, I do remember my time in school wasn't a cakewalk either... And it constantly feeling like I had to sacrifice everything just to achieve even a modicum of a future, though that comes with being a highly skilled seer ahahaha--!!!

< Dear STARS shut you up- >

Remember to rest yourselves. Even if that means spending an hour just having some tea or otherwise outside in the sun. Believe me, you would not BELIEVE the power a good few hours in the sun can do for those ~brain chemicals~... Rest comes in many forms, for many individuals- and the least I recommend is doomscrolling for 3 hours.

< Yes, you're calling your own host out as well. >

I do hope you, yourself have been doing well though!! 🩵🤍

[changeandstars]

Stars. It may have been a millenia ago, but the ache is still there.

The ache in my chest of loss.

...I don't think I'll ever get used to it.

I shouldn't...bother Arwyn with it. 🧡 Needs her sleep, and if I start rambling about it I'm going to start crying and then he'll start crying and--

Blinding- breathe.

< . . . >

Lately, as things have been... Calming down. We have been taking the rest we so sorely need and yet it's only caused complicated feelings.

The feeling that none of the games they enjoyed are any fun anymore, and no current game is either A. In their budget or B. Piqued their interest... The feeling that nothing will ever be "normal" again. The feeling that every breath and question they ask is just another "burden" on everyone...

...their medicine has stopped working. Then again, they've barely taken it all month. Then, then again- it's expired by like a year.

< ... >

Everyone here has been having complicated feelings as well. Thinking of family, of the past and future, thinking of what it means to be free and...

Home.

Lately, all I can think about is home. And how much I miss being me. How I miss seeing the open sky without the suffocating light pollution, and how much staying in this singular room is suffocating on a psychological level and yet-!.... It's...all we know.

I miss my wings. I miss being able to fly. I miss my home and the people, although certainly not my mother, and I miss...home.

I miss feeling home.

< ... But home is a feeling you haven't felt in a long, long time. >