樊长玉

[changyuu]

樊长玉 — FAN CHANGYU

16岁 she thy did npd adhd cd

host cat (kin) lord ... maaoo ! 玉妖

asks & dms always open ♡ (excl. -15)

♡ — tagging system

# ♡ — fan changyu ;; regular posts from me.

# ♡ — fan changning ;; an alter's tag. use thym/thyne.

# ♡ — butchering pigs ;; rants, usually about endos.

# ♡ — chasing jade ;; responses to asks.

byi — i am attached to my sources (ming yi, fan changyu, the herta) and due to my npd, i see myself as the one true person that understands them. attempts to argue with me on this will fall on deaf ears. em, i can be pretty confrontational and am inept at talking to people who are emotionally sensitive...

no dni — it doesn't mean i won't make fun of you if you're an endo, radqueer, etc. though. ^_^

this is a side blog. main blog stays undisclosed because i know some of you are absolute freaks! unless you somehow befriend me..

[tpwrtrmnky]

Guy who has a non-research degree in a field that never studies human subjects: Here are my opinions on what needs to be done for me to respect this field I've decided to become a denier of.

[Extreme breach of scientific ethics]

[Violent abuse of power]

[Method that actually doesn't obtain any information]

[Controlled double-blind studies of phenomena where that is literally impossible]

[Seeking empirical proof that a word has the meaning that it's defined as]

[Study that would have a dropoff rate of 100%]

Additionally, how do we know that [best currently available theory] is true, and not [dominant theory from 100 years ago that repeatedly failed in the face of evidence]? I have found some minor methodological flaws in [studies that were not designed to prove the best available theory, but rather examine edge cases within that theory], so we should really consider [nonsense with no evidence backing it whatsoever].

[changyuu]

telling people you have DID feels like a humiliation ritual.

[changyuu]

if someone could compile a bunch of negative effects endos have on the cdd community , i would love to hear it . . . (⁠人⁠ ⁠•͈⁠ᴗ⁠•͈⁠)

[purrfriend-deactivated20260525]

Pisses me off when a pro-endo blog reblogs a trauma-gen systems or a anti-endo systems vent and says some bullshit like "im sorry that happened to you but", "thats disgusting and im sorry but", or just tries to defend endo systems on someones post about how they were hurt by an endo system. Shut the fuck up. 😭 it so irritating to see y'all do that. genuinely fuck off. Stop trying to defend endos on anti endo posts especially vents. You are not changing anyones stances so piss off.

[changyuu]

don't freely share information about your system. especially not triggers, including positive ones. even on your system blog, you are not required to make alter intros or even use their real names. do not assume everyone online will be kind to you.

[sysfreak-official]

developing a system is like making toast. hear me out on this one.

sure, there are multiple ways you can make toast. you can use a toaster, a grill, a pan, an oven, even a flamethrower if you like it REALLY toasted. but you know what all of those methods have in common?

they all require heat.

if you have no heat source, you can't make toast. sure, you can use a sharpie and scribble on bread to make it *look* like toast, but it's still bread. it still isn't toast without the heat.

developing a CDD (aka system/plurality) is the same way. trauma can look vastly different, but it's all still trauma. abuse, neglect, bullying, it does not matter. trauma is required for the formation of a system just like heat is required for toast.

endos can try to look like systems all they want. they can use a whole box of sharpies trying to pretend they're the same as us. but at the end of the day, they're still bread and we're still toast.

[changyuu]

https://www.tumblr.com/changyuu/816072798683430912/i-was-forced-into-syscovery-by-an-endo-system-when

I had a really similar experience except I don’t know if the others were pro endo or not. Its insane how much misinformation there is in the community

i know right. poking around with trauma like that at such an early age should not be encouraged. i was 11-12 when the floodgates opened, when i discovered what world I truly lived in. i don't remember much about it but i do remember crying every day.. i do not recommend!

[changyuu]

i was forced into syscovery by an endo system when i was extremely young and in an unsafe environment. almost immediately, they pushed me into using pluralkit. they treated my alters like circus freaks and got annoyed whenever i expressed discomfort.

for the longest time, i felt completely alone in my experiences because i didn't match what they insisted was "normal." i didn't consistently have a headspace. my gatekeepers couldn't just summon alters to front at will the way theirs supposedly could. everyone around me seemed to experience things in the same neat & tidy way while i felt pressured into pretending that i was just like them to avoid scrutiny.

i had to redo my syscovery from scratch last year because so much of what they taught me (& what the community normalized in general) felt harmful and incorrect.

you know what happened once i did that? i could actually see experiences similar to mine reflected in medical texts, rather than feeling like i was forcing myself to fit some standard. funny, isn't it? somehow, i was more of a "faker" in their community than i ever was in ours.

so yes, i am anti-endo, and i do believe endogenics are harmful to our community. i was a victim of that environment. there's a lot more i could say, and i know i'm not alone in this.