That Officer is a BOSS. The reporter, not so much🙄
Okay, am I the only one that’s peeved by that Huff Post guy on the news? The reporter that was with the single, Black officer facing a crowd of radical, rioting Trump followers...?
“I was so worried that they’d attack me, you know sometimes they go after the reporters in those situations...he [the officer] didn’t seem to have things under control...”
WHAT??
Gimme a break, we all KNOW who was in the greatest danger at that moment. And the dismissive way that he talked about the SINGLE officer not having a *MOB OF ARMED RIOTERS* under control also pissed me off.
IMO, that officer is a BOSS. When the backup shows up, you see two things that make you think:
- the SUPER quick dispersal of the rioters, that really makes you think about what would’ve happened to that officer if the backup *didn’t* show up when they did...they were ready to chase (and I’d bet attack) ONE man...but when they didn’t have that ridiculous ratio advantage (and some of those cops were white), they ran off like cowards.
- look at the body language and breathing of the officer once he’s no longer on his own...it seems to be a pose like you would have after escaping a lion pit, and realizing that you miraculously made it. You can tell his heart was beating out of his chest.
That must’ve been TERRIFYING, and that officer had MAD courage to stand his ground as much as he did, and to not just jet for safety against an armed mob of fanatics.
I don’t know if I haven’t seen/heard his name on media for privacy reasons (I.e., protection against fanatics), or because the media doesn’t care...but that man is a BADASS, and an ACTUAL hero.
Total opposite with the reporter, who comes off like a jackass...his clear worry they’d get HIM, and his gall to judge the sole officer facing a mob willing to invade a federal building. I feel like most normal people facing a mob with another person would be like “I was so afraid they’d attack US...?”🤷🏼♀️🤔 NOPE. “It was just me and him.” This guy is all over the news worrying about himself, and lowkey blaming the officer while he gets his 5 minutes of fame on the screen🙄
I dunno, to me it’s just cringe AF, white people white peopling.
“Male presenting nipples(?!?!)”, Progress with hair de-matting, and some RANDOM AF 1980s-2000s references!!
Check out the latest edition of Chaotic Collagen! Including Dan’s ridiculous ideas to get more followers, Kelly’s hair detangling progress, and some jokes based on random AF pop culture! PLEASE like/comment/subscribe if you like what you see!!!
Though this is a channel by a couple where the female has a chronic illness, it’s not all we talk about (it’s touched on at times, though not in this episode). So join us for some laughs for all, and occasionally learn a little something about chronic illness, Ehlers-Danlos Syndrome, MCAS, trauma-induced anxiety and agoraphobia, and more! See our progress and setbacks with my health, how we cope with my conditions, and how we’re working with Mikka, my service dog in training, to be able to help with my physical AND mental conditions.
Also, as a reminder...chronic illness channels should not be a competition over “who is/appears to be the most ill.” I think it’s a depressing way to look at things, and I don’t want my life to be centered around my conditions any more than it needs to be. Often the sickest patients are the ones who are at a frustrating “in between” point, where doctors will not treat certain aspects of illness, based simply on their own opinions on what should be treated and when, and the fact that these conditions are rare (as well as the fact that they’re conditions predominantly suffered by females, and research has long shown that women are not taken as seriously as men!). Some of us are even too ill to make doctor appointments until a 3rd or 4th try, if at all! So definitely hoping to address/show understanding/raise awareness for the many of us in this situation, without being “the Sick Olympics,”as well 😊
The Power Outage - “This F*cking Sucks” is now up on YouTube! Our first video with a (super quick) cold open, intro, & edited content, with some graphics & shit. Check it out and let us know! Hook us up with a like/subscribe on YouTube if you like what you see...this is my job atm! There CAN be humor in chronic illness and human struggles. I can still laugh (and make OTHERS laugh!) while working to fight out of a long path of depression...even during a power outage!! 💕
BREAKING NEWS: Earlier clips we were recording for the Chaotic Collagen YT channel had a little more cheer, despite the power outage. 2 hours later and we’re already at the “THIS F*CKING SUCKS” stage, with an EXTRA-shitty “I love you” (that I mocked, yeah, I’m cranky😂). I cut recording once he mentioned his “hot ass.” (And BTW, sick flattering lighting, right...?🤦🏼♀️)
“The ship is going down, Captain!!”
No, seriously...PSEG F*CKIN SAVE US ALREADY, I’m tired of living like it’s 1900. This is like camping in your own house or some shit.
I’m from Brooklyn. I don’t DO camping. (And no, not hipster Brooklyn. BROOKLYN Brooklyn. “Fuhgeddaboudit,” gold chains and juicebags, REAL Brooklyn.) I’m not down for “let’s make this fun and crafty!” shit ATM.
Unreal. Meanwhile I’m using all I have to pay for shit insurance that decides they’ll keep pulling treatments I’ve had for years. And meds that can truly help me with some conditions are in the thousands per month...yup, never seeing those. But live it up, rich, health pharma bros👊🏻
Lesser-Known forms of self- harm to be aware of so you can start loving yourself and living your best life:
Denying yourself food
Denying yourself sleep
Denying yourself going to the bathroom, basic hygene and other forms of self-maintainence.
Intentionally not going to the doctor/dentist/psychiatrist when you’re not well.
Intentionally Exposing yourself to media that wil trigger yourself or otherwise aggravate your mental health issues. This includes: Hate-following people, reading articles you know will piss you off, exposing yourself to the news more than is safe for you to ‘stay aware’, watching TV shows that are too violent for you, and starting fights on the internet.
Picking at your skin/re-opeinging cuts/pulling your hair out/over-grooming: this is basically cutting without the blade.
Intentionally Eating foods you know will make you ill: eating foods your’e allergic too, drinking milk when lactose intolerant, etc.
Substance abuse like excessive drinking or drug abuse
Intentionally taking excessively risky behaviors, justin in case an ‘accident’ happens: driving while tried, going out during thunderstorms, jaywalking on busy roads.
Intentionally spending time with/emotional effort on people who are not good for you: Going back to/not breaking up with someone who doesn’t treat you right, spending time with abusive family, following people you hate on social media etc.
Talking down about yourself: “Im such a fuck-up” “I don’t deserve to be alive” “I should just kill myself” etc.
Basically- If it’d be a form of violence if someone else did this to you, it’s self-harm when you do it to yourself.
The underlying cause of self-harm is almost always some kind of untreated mental health issue. It could be anything from being abused as a kid, to pschyotic illness to anxiety to unmet emotional needs. If you find youself doing ANY of these, or things that are vaguely similar- see a mental health professional ASAP, or bring it up in your next session.
@gallusrostromegalus this is amazing, and thank you so much for sharing it. I’m in the middle of de-matting a full head of hair, that’s been like this for MONTHS. It wasn’t just the tiredness from my chronic illnesses...it was because of panic, depression, low self-worth and more, after work traumatized me by pushing me out for being disabled...at the time I was using a chair, but still fine to work (but was denied accessibility that I was legally due). Many of my tangles are actually from picking at my scalp (I was obsessed with letting it heal, then re-opening the wounds, just as you said). I’d love to tack this to my wall, to avoid ALL of these things. When I became agoraphobic, listening to online trolls became a way of letting the abuse continue...no more. Again, thank you SO MUCH for posting 👍🏻💜🙌🏻
Omg, how crazy that this popped up in my feed as I was about to post...because I feel that what has happened to my hair was a lot out of self-hatred, and giving up on myself...and have a history of what people think of as more “traditional” self-harm in the past. For me, agoraphobia/panic disorder/depression, even more that being bedbound, caused me to “let this happen” to my hair...somewhere, subconsciously, I knew that it was helping to perpetuate me hiding in my home, where, while lonely, I felt less “exposed” to the world, and to the dangers of dealing with bad people, after workplace trauma.
But now, despite all of the above, this chronically ill EDSer has freed up about a third of her matted hair, despite having MORE health issues, and despite still needing to be mostly bedbound. The harder side of my hair is yet to come, but I’m going to embrace whatever happens, with self-love, and acceptance...even if that means getting an edgy cut to fix this (which I’ve always kinda wanted to try, but I DO want it be my choice). I’m sick of internalizing what the world expects me to be (whether they know about my conditions, or not)!
The Chaotic Collagen team is really busy atm! We’ve got that hair to untangle from our FIRST YouTube video, Mikka will be starting more intense training towards becoming a service dog soon (she’ll be in training for a long time, she’s doing GREAT so far)...but first, another transformation...our first edited video!! It’s our intro/teaser...check it out!!! Don’t forget to like and subscribe! So super proud of this!!😊💕🐾
Do videos just not post if they are over 1 minute long? I was trying to post something that’s only 90 damn seconds, and it disappeared. Twice. You think you’d get a warning instead...? 🤦🏼♀️
My baby saving my tail. I don’t know what I’ll do if the one day she had barking issues because of one dog becomes a thing now...if she wasn’t my SDiT and couldn’t become a full SD I’d be heartbroken 💔 (Also still don’t even know wtf this is exactly that’s happening to me in this clip yet, it’s daily.)
Teen With Epilepsy Has A Seizure When Her Service Dog Is Distracted
This article is too important for me to just post a link that you probably won’t click through to read. THIS is why you DO NOT EVER pet service dogs. They are working and it can mean serious injury or even death if you are distracting them from doing their job.
Omg!!! This article is about someone like me, many of the same conditions, including this DAMN EDS that I feel is a primary thing that makes other stuff fall apart. All of these conditions SUCK. I’m having either seizures or cataplexy (waiting to be tested), but my SDiT pulls me out of attacks too!
I have no income and we’re doing a lot of owner training (classes are upcoming, they were supposed to be two months ago, but I got really sick...luckily PetSmart rolled over the fee when we mentioned a hospital trip, and will give us the classes anyway...and they know we’re prepping for service work). We also have a traveling trainer that understands service training stopping by to do an evaluation, but I’m afraid of the prices (and it’s a bit of a mess that we contacted her, when we didn’t know PetSmart would still honor the classes).
My girl is usually SO good and focused on me, and has done PA practice for socialization and to learn to not get distracted by places (my state allows this for SDiTs, PA is allowed for dogs that “have been or are being” trained for to mitigate disabilities as working dogs, and mine has alert and response tasks I want her to learn to do in public). She has aced PA practice every time, and I wanted her to have that experience for more socialization training, and to transfer her alert and response skills out of the house to different environments (tricky, as I’m agoraphobic...luckily the law has helped us BOTH get out, because she’s a great dog and well-behaved). And she always has a bandanna on, that says she’s in training, and a leash wrap as well (because I don’t want to misrepresent her, she’s about a year and a half out from an SD if things work out).
She has always ignored other dogs, like the ones on BOTH sides of the house, that bark at her when she shits🙄 But after doing well at PetSmart several times,Target, the mall twice, my doctor, a Starbucks (her first time in a place with people food smells), she barked at another dog at a pet-friendly store she’s been to before (she ignored it first, I praised her, but then this little angry dog was getting closer and louder, and my SDiT went bananas with the barking and pulling with my BF). We had to leave because NO WAY was I having that, but I’ve never even seen it before (she’s 10 mos, got her at 6mos.) She also barked at other dogs a bit after this, where she INITIATED it (WHAT??? Never before), but we moved her away with some mega NOs, and she was back to acting like an SDiT again. Then this SAME AWFUL DOG followed us to the second pet store (I wanted to end on a high note and went to Petco after leaving the PetSmart ), and started barking at my girl again, this mean, nasty bark even though it was a little shih-tzu.
My Mikka stopped after the NO and walking away much easier, but I was in double panic!! Like with OMG WILL SHE WASH, I NEED HER, she alerts to my migraines, presyncope, saves me from these attacks (will attach video if it works), and panic attacks when I’m crying, that I want to shape for BEFORW I’m crying...she makes my quality of life SO MUCH BETTER, and I’m her person, she’s my best friend in a VERY lonely, hard life. I know that dogs even without the perfect initial temperament have been shaped into full, successful SDs...but I’m panicking at this ONE day out of four months, like no one’s business.😰
Wondering if there’s a second fear period? Or what could have happened...the last time I yelled NO at her she stopped, but looked DEAD at me, like she was SUPER, genuinely confused with her head cocked, when I said NO!! (And she KNOWS what no means). I’m wondering if she thinks she was protecting me...? But I need this to stop, she otherwise does things on her own without training that have been remarkable (like automatically doing a down-stay at my feet at home, licking me out of a POTS attack when I overheated on an early walk when we had her two weeks...I got to the couch, and she was sniffing, watching, licking me, then would go to get water and coming back to do it again, like a babysitter rushing back 😂 Her nose is amazing, and she’s learned other stuff so well, like peeing on a bath mat-sized area of artificial turf, for when I can’t get out (like if it’s raining...I use a powerchair).
I will be crushed if this happens again, or at least maybe it will be an opportunity to teach her NOT to, because it wasn’t an issue before (though, oddly, occasionally with dogs on TV...maybe that can be used as practice? Anyone know until I see my trainers?) But you know what somehow made me feel even worse? “BF” that “forgets” a lot of my important things, put her in her new vest (which we just got after several access attempts went well, but was maybe her third time wearing it, didn’t want an issue at the doctor we’d stopped at beforehand)...and FORGOT HER BANDANNA. I was like WHERE IS IT?!?, really f*ckin pissed, from the outset of the trip. She’s always had the bandanna, even with this new vest...like, ESPECIALLY with the new vest, to not mislabel her.
Even though the little leash wrap says “in training,” AND we were in a pet-friendly store, I felt like on top of the MASSIVE heartbreaking panic of her maybe somehow changing and being a wash instead of my lifeline to the world, that people would think that she was a goddamned “fake service dog,” because of his lack of attention to goddamned detail, and her missing bandanna (getting a larger leash wrap when I can afford it, and probably going to keep it with ME so it’s not “FORGOTTEN”)...I have to double check EVERYTHING and it’s exhausting, I can’t always do it...and he always forgets the most important thing, and REFUSES to follow the checklists that soothe my Aspie brain. I was almost in tears thinking that someone might have seen that short bit of the day and been recording her, saying she was a “fake service dog,” when she’s the reason I’m still here right now 😩
Any tips on helping an SDiT that’s early in training, and needs to extinguish barking? I feel like it’s harder because it’s been rare and was unexpected, though I certainly don’t want this to become a thing. Also any info on fear periods, or anything reassuring, would really help. I’m so down and worried, and STILL upset with him for only having a little leash wrap on that said in training, TBH (can’t afford more patches yet, I needed them to be matching on both sides in terms of shapes and colors, because...I just NEED to, can’t help it)😰😩😡 If the video shows, here’s my Mikka helping me...she really IS an SDiT, and I don’t know what I’d do if someone treated me/her like she wasn’t, or if God FORBID she was a wash. 😭 UGH...I’ll have to link it elsewhere...it says 1 minute limit and that I only have 3 seconds left. UGHHHH
OMG, this Chris Cornell laptop sleeve though!! FREAKIN LOVE ITTTTTT!!!!! First order this damn place has done right for me, but the one I wanted most 😍😍😍 My TOP Aspie SpIn.
The first desktop pic on new MacBook, CC. The first YouTube video I watched...I bet you can guess 😂 The song was actually that ProShot version of Scar on the Sky...it looks AMAZING on the screen 😍💕❤️ 💻And since it’s gold, my new MacBook has been dubbed C3PO. Yeah, I know...I’m sure I’m not the first, OR the last 🤣
I have been fighting since 2013 to find a tumor in my head ,that I knew I had all along .and no one believed me.
. In 2019 my endocrinologist told me “it was always there since 2016 “ yet the reports show that it grew 8mm and it was not always there. My old records said I had nothing till now.it grew super quick .
The last mri before this one prior my endocrinologist told me I was fine and nothing was there .
Now all the sudden he said it was always there ...
He has told me to get mental help until now .
I am being tested for cyclical Cushings ,which is a tumor that secrets enough stress hormone for 7 ppl, then it drops and u can barley get out of bed ..
I struggled with extreme weakness
•infections or cold/flu at least once every month
•minor convulsions
•extreme weak gain-> extreme weight loss
•nausea
•vomiting alot
•extreme fatigue —> extreme energy (want to do everything )
•my mental state is terrible now
(I have had 4 suicidal trips to the hospital since I have had this terrible diease take my life .
•I can have days where I’m panicking all day and no amount of Ativan would help
•Dizziness
•gullstones
•gerd
•terrible hair loss
•exhaustion
•Brian fog
•constant unitination
•I’ve lost so much bone mass I trying to find doctors that can repair them because they’re so small and weak
*blurry vision
•dissociation
(This has caused my mental state to be absolutely insane)
I feel I go insane once a month
•I have extreme depression
•extreme anxiety
•Terrible mood swings
•terrible body pain and aches
•exhausted I can barley do anything
No amount of anti psychotics work they make me worse as do mood stabilizers
Adderal seems to help and Ativan
(Some times **)
I cannot work because of all my ailments. I feel horrid.i use to be so strong and determined.i feel like a shell of who I was
Listen when I say this isn’t me. I don’t act like this . Fk .I don’t even tell people my problems . I’m ranting right now beside I have suffered too fucking long with all these stupid doctors and just now ,June 15th my doctor tells me ,”you could have somthing in ur tumor that’s killing u“ ie cancer .i have lost 15+ lbs in the past month and a half .im so scared .my tests came back posative for somthing that indicates cancer ,I now have to wait till July to see what he says . I also could possibly have somthing called a pheochromocytoma. Which is an adrenal disease
(I’ll insert pics here -TRIGGER WARNING FOR PEOPLE WHO STRUGGLE WITH AN EATING DISORDER OR BODY ISSUES)
After so long I told him I felt I was dying .(I am losing weight rapidly and I now have a bump growing that hurts.i told the doctor yeaturday and I’m getting an MRI tomorrow -hopefully it’s nothing )
(I do not have it on my left side )
My mother is schizophrenic and she runs off every few years ,she ran away to god knows where ,to live on the streets . She leaves me and my sister like we’re nothing .but I know it’s cuz she’s sick . The cops tell us every few months where she’s seen .and usually because she’s arrested for drugs or some shit.i was last told she was in Montreal (we live in Ontario )
My dad is an alcoholic and I live with him right now . I’m on welfare trying to help him pay the house (we need to be moved out within two weeks and he can’t afford anything ) but he is my abuser and someone I do not want to live with .for many many many gross reasons (dm if u want to know)
I’m stressed out of my mind trying to get us a place . I want to be in Halifax with my gf but I legally can’t rn , and I can’t afford two places on welfare.
So I have to wait ,in the mean time I have to pay off my rent in Halifax so she can move ,and wait for my tests to be done.i really need a house ASAP .
My girlfriend and I have a ...sticky relationship. The cops got called last time and she got charged with a domestic abuse charge . I love her and I didn’t want that (that’s a whole different story) . I’m also still trying to pay rent for the house I have down there in Halifax.(which she is going to have to leave soon because I can’t afford it.)
I’m not really allowed too many friends in Toronto ,on top of which no one really gets what I’m going through . When I was in Halifax last I went to the hospital for self harm and I owe 700$ for the ambulance when the police told me they would drive me due to my money situation.
I’m absolutely stressed out of my mind .i don’t really have a support group or a family minus my sister .
If you read this all thank you(each person has a story ^^)
I’m asking for donations right now ,
•One- to pay off my stupid ambulance fee
•Two- to pay the rest of the rent for my gf to live in with her mom and leave the appartment
•And three to help my dad pay his first months rent for this house we need to be moved into within two weeks
😓😓
I’m so depressed more then I have ever been , I have separation anxiety to the extreme and I sit in a room all day going up and down up and down
Panic attacks -hysterical
Then suddenly I’m ok and I can live one normal day and be fine
I’m just so fed up with all these doctors telling me bullshit
And I feel like I have absolutely no where to go in life
I hate being a beggar but it’s worth a shot
Every dollar counts
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@daniellekrivex so sorry for what you’re going through. I too have conditions where I’ve been sure and it took doctors years to catch up, and between that and a job that refused to provide “accommodations” that were actually just the school’s own rules, I’ve become unable to work, as well. It’s been coming up on two years. The trauma from work made me agoraphobic/bedbound, which is a bad mix with EDS, so I now need to use a powerchair. My home life is messy too, and I also wonder how long I’ll be able to stay in my house...and many doctors STILL don’t take me seriously, or don’t know enough about my main conditions to understand that, YES, issues in their specialty are INDEED affected, and FREQUENTLY 🤦🏼♀️ You’re not alone in dealing with this, even though it sucks that so many of us are going through it, and that doctors don’t seem to be getting any better at trying to understand rare/complex issues.
I don’t have many followers yet, and no money to donate, but definitely wanted to reblog. It’s happening too often that we’re being told that things are psychosomatic (I’d say all in our heads, but that seems to be LITERALLY/TECHNICALLY true for both of us, I’m having seizures and stuff leaking from every hole in my face!). Physical illnesses is treated like mental illness, and mental illness often isn’t treated at all. No matter how much research we do, or help we seek. Glad you got your sleep study, and good luck with your lesion...I have a rapidly growing fibroid/solid mass that I’m worried about, myself. My service dog keeps alerting to the area, and it causes a ton of pain. I hope we both get the help we need, and soon 💜
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