The Stanzas Of A Dreamer

Carnage of thoughts in my head, and a wreckage of words out of my mouth

[chaoticlifeofapoet]

The soul in my chest is desperately trying to rip itself from my body.

Running from the darkness that is taking over.

Escape

[chaoticlifeofapoet]

I guess I found a love worth waiting for

A love worth fighting for

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I have spent so much time

Spilling my heart all over these walls

I have put up just because of you

So much time wasted on deaf ears

In wandering eyes

On constantly moving lips

Our bodies becoming one when we embrace

In a darkly lit room

As our minds became distant

I’m in another world completely

Lying next to you

Holding you

Loving you

As your energy slowly retreats to the confines of your heart

And mine reaches out frantically

Begging for you to come back

Getting thrown back away from you

As I’m falling falling falling

Into a hole that will never be full

As I’m falling from you

Nothing is different

But nothing will ever be the same

[chaoticlifeofapoet]

Put my sadness to rest

Next to your beating heart

I can find the strength to live again

When I give myself to you

Bleed

[chaoticlifeofapoet]

I found myself wishing for something more

More than this life will ever offer

More than this mediocre love can provide

More than dreams are worth

Just give me more

I’m so lost

I’m yearning for more

more

[chaoticlifeofapoet]

Find me selfless love

And maybe then I’ll learn

What it feels like to be completely content

Selfless

[chaoticlifeofapoet]

Living my life in moments

Day by day

Breath by breath

Capturing every memory silently

Heart beat

Breathe

[chaoticlifeofapoet]

I love you with my eyes

I love you with my breath on your neck

I love you with every caress

Every sigh

Our bodies make

I love you with all of me

Love

[chaoticlifeofapoet]

How much more vulnerable can I be

Than when I am lying in your embrace

Captured by your arms

Naked and at peace

Near your warmth

Your steady heartbeat against my spine?

How could I ever show you

More love than I do

Falling asleep to the sound of you breathing?

Vulnerable

[chaoticlifeofapoet]

My handsome autumn man

I fell in love with our first kiss

At the way you smiled at me

Half curled lips and only one deepset dimple

My world shines brighter when you laugh

We were a number of firsts

My handsome autumn man

Now

Oh now

It is time for you to become my last

My last kiss

My last touch

My last love

I want you or nothing at all

My handsome autumn man

From here till forever

Autumn man

[chaoticlifeofapoet]

I have gotten used to the sound of your heartbeat before I close my eyes at night

And now from here to forever

I will listen to silence

And the sound of my heart breaking

Silence

[chaoticlifeofapoet]

“There is no love Unless there is reason And with that being said I had many”

— - so much love to give

[chaoticlifeofapoet]

“Blur the lines between heart and mind The discoveries we make in the midst of that chaos Will allow us to breathe again”

— - Stop Overthinking Is All I’m Saying

[chaoticlifeofapoet]

Your idealistic love is a little too little for me

For I am too much woman

For you to handle gently

You’ve Given Me Half Your Heart | I’ve Given it All

[chaoticlifeofapoet]

I live my life

Moment by moment

Day to day

Wearing the same face

Stuck in the same pattern

Like walking through an empty field

Expecting flowers and sunsets

But only finding fallen trees and missing grass

I live my life in a cycle of disappointment

An endless circle

And I’m waiting for the day to come along

Where I meet that someone

Who will break my walls and plant beautiful gardens

In my empty field.

Moment

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I give my body to you

And with that comes my heart

I give my all

Not just parts

Soul

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I am the saddest human alive

My thoughts are empty

My heart an aching mass of muscle

I need a different perspective

Than the bottom of the hole I’m in

Thoughtless