#thoughtswrittendown

[written-down-thoughts]

You’ve been on my mind recently

I wonder how you’re doing

If you’re happy or sad

If you ever think of me

It’s been a while since you’ve occupied my mind

It’s hard for me to think of anything else, but you

[chaoticlifeofapoet]

I live my life

Moment by moment

Day to day

Wearing the same face

Stuck in the same pattern

Like walking through an empty field

Expecting flowers and sunsets

But only finding fallen trees and missing grass

I live my life in a cycle of disappointment

An endless circle

And I’m waiting for the day to come along

Where I meet that someone

Who will break my walls and plant beautiful gardens

In my empty field.

Moment

[littlerandomthoughts]

My last celebration..

Light up some candles at front, put some flowers out to justify my existence. Because with every candle lit; the memories will brighten. With every flower it will consist of the doubts there were about how much I was loved. As those words repeated in my head, whilst tearing away at another part of nature, the nature inside of me was hoping it wouldn't tear me just as much. "He loves me, he loves me not," right until the very last petal, basing someone else's feelings on something extremely surreal. Although it does not justify anything however, thats the only explanation i'd ever received. 

Along with the candles and flowers, throw the biggest party you've ever been to- to imitate my personality, because those far from me knew me as the quite one in the corner. But those near to me knew me as the crazy, wild and immature one.Let there be a rainbow to feast off as every colour of each skittle represented how sometimes my moods can change from angry red to magical purple and nature green. The emotions at the party will amount to my life time feelings. The cries when I lost someone important, the laughs for every night out I had with someone special, the inhumane feeling for every struggle I had been through and the dazed for when life beat me down to the dust. Because for once that will be MY night, and even though the struggle of the emotion to some may be hard, just know that I'd prefer the laughter for my 'disappearance' rather than heartache. Because i'm with angels and those whom I never got to meet, knowingly they'll have open arms for me.

-R♥︎ ☓

[merchantson]

Small Running Tale

Run away, away from me But I don't know where to go You can't see what you made of me Wish to be different Alive, free

Run away, away from me Because I don't want to stay this way I'll have to live my life I'm going home I'll be going my own way I won't stay