Living A Little Less @charleesanjel - Tumblr Blog

“Sometimes you tell someone to never call you again, and then the phone rings and you hope it’s them. It’s the most twisted logic of all time. ”

John Mayer (via amargedom)

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If you need someone to talk to, just message me or send an ask :-)

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I’ve found myself in a sort of rut. Part of me wants to contain my anxiety and depression, wants to destroy it, abandon it. But then, part of me doesn’t want to. It’s so familiar it feels like a part of me. I’m afraid that if I try and get rid of it I won’t be myself anymore. I’ll be a watered down version of what I once was. My name will no longer fit. I don’t know if this is only me or not and I wasn’t sure where to turn. Thank you for your time.

I’ve spent years listening to “You just have to change the way you think” and all the other cliches.

Let me chose how I wish to feel, for how I feel is majorly none of my concern—being an unconscious manifestation.

I embrace it, all of it, who I am. If that involves all this darkness that resides in me, then I will be still.

I will be me.

- Promethean Dread

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“i didn’t raise you like this”.

you’re right you raised me to flinch, to grovel, to cry quietly, to mask pain, to swallow my words, to take rage out on myself. you raised me to cower, to respect authority without any reason, to live with your words riding in me.

you raised me wrong. i’m just reteaching myself how to be right. i’m sorry that doesn’t look like what you wanted it to. but i’m learning to love myself in the way parents were supposed to do.