"Music makes everything hurt less"

Self Made Man | He/Him | 27/05/20 | 26/11/22 | 11/01/24 | 18/03/25

[blackbluecherryblossom]

i’m tired. but not just “didn’t sleep” tired. soul tired. bone tired. like my body keeps going but nothing inside knows why.

[charlie-blogs16]

That is the problem. If she wanted to dance I would let her wreck the furniture. If she wanted to cook I would let her burn down the house. And if she wanted to scream I would let her deafen me. I've never loved anyone enough to let them destroy me but God, she could take me by the throat and my eyes would sparkle at the mere inches between us

[qvotable]

I think of you so often you have no idea.

James Joyce; Ulysses

[nostalgiaishere]

Sleepy eyes and a mind full of you.

[thoughtkick]

“Two souls dont find each other by simple accident.”

— Jorge Luis Borges

[emotionalwords]

[emotionalwords]

[minimalistquotes]

You deserve a healthy love with someone who hears you, sees you, understands you, appreciates you, supports you, and loves you. Someone who is patient, communicates clearly, and creates a calm safe space to heal, grow, and bloom together. A love you don't have to heal from.

[charlie-blogs16]

I feel blessed to have parents and family and friends who support me and love me just the way I am. I've never felt as loved as I have today, and if you need to hear this, give them time. Time is the biggest healer and I never imagined I'd be where I am today and yet as I sit writing this I've never felt happier. I have a village surrounding me and I'm so happy to feel the love that I do today. Hang on tight, your time will come.

[charlie-blogs16]

[noahsfault]

So excited to not have boobs

Literally thrilled at the concept of not having to bind

Oh my god I can’t wait to get dressed and just wear the first tee shirt I put on

I can’t wait to not spend three hours before every social event trying on all of my clothes over and over and then canceling because I can’t find anything to leave the house in

I can’t wait to start dressing according to my own taste instead of what makes me look flat chested enough

I can’t wait to give away the clothes that I don’t need anymore

I can’t wait to have top surgery

I can’t freaking wait

[charlie-blogs16]

Dysphoria is crippling. It's in the way I tie my shoes and it's seen in the way I adjust my strides when I walk. It's in every smile after being called "love" and it's in every sigh after people correct themselves once I open my mouth. It's in the way I smile and the way I slouch after binding my chest for a few hours too long. It's in the way I wear hoodies in summer and it's in the way I haven't been to a swimming pool in years. It's under my skin and etched into my brain. It isn't something to glorify and it isn't cute. It's depressing and tiring and some days it makes you question if everything is worth it. I wish more people would understand how much we fight to be happy every day.

[charlie-blogs16]

I've realised recently that people have an issue with using the correct pronouns even when I use my preferred name. Does anyone have any ideas on how to make it obvious that I use he/him pronouns? Or how to correct people but do it in a way to save embarrassment for everyone involved? It sucks at work when people assume and they get it wrong :/

[charlie-blogs16]

When the men's toilet only has one cubicle and it doesn't have a lock on the door 🙃

[charlie-blogs16]

You will always think closure feels better than it actually does. Don't make decisions based on the idea that things will be like they once were

[charlie-blogs16]

What do the dates in your bio mean? (/genuine question)

Hi! So the first date is the date that I came out as trans and the second date is the date that I legally changed my name :)

[charlie-blogs16]

It's difficult to keep going when you feel like everyone's making more progress in life than you. People you know from high school are having kids, getting married, celebrating anniversaries and milestones like passing college and moving through university. And yet you seem to be stuck, floating in life not achieving anything and the differences hit you all at once. It's hard feeling like you don't belong anywhere because you'd give up everything just to disappear.