I just realized I made a Birthday letter for @rhainebows last April but never got to send it to her, so let me post it here :P
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(04/16/2020)
Happy 22nd Birthday to the most badass bitch I’ve personally met. How do I event start? I mean it’s your birthday, yes you’re getting old, we are and that’s great. Lol, no.
You know both of us are not the kind of gal who’s fond of long, cringe messages and you’d probably feel uncomfortable reading this, but please bear with it until the end because I clearly made an effort here, you-- *flips my hair*
So yeah, days prior to your birthday I’ve been reminiscing how we even started out being friends and wonder why are we still friends today, hahaha (pls know that I’m laughing hard right now) ‘cause you see, were the kind of friends that are the opposite of one another. I won’t elaborate why because if I do, this might really become the end of our friendship, lol.
Kidding aside, we started out being mere HS classmates with totally different personalities, interests, and group of friends. But I remember that summer after 3rd year when we got to text each other on several days. It started pretty boring haha, you know, like the typical getting-to-know-each-other kind of talks until one day, I just found myself sharing my deep wearies and insecurities in life. You said you were surprised that I was carrying such heavy thoughts ‘cause you don’t see me that way. And then, you told me some advises I never expected that totally changed the way I see myself that time. You told me that I should look past those insecurities and instead, look at my strengths and appreciate myself for who and what I am. You mentioned the good things you saw in me like how you even admire me for being smart, how I shouldn’t equate myself to my friends whom I think have progressed far ahead of me, and that I should focus on the things that I can do instead of those that I can’t. And I’m sure as hell have never imagined hearing those words of encouragement from someone like you. When I say ‘someone like you’ well it’s because that time I thought you were the cold, mean, self -centered kind of classmate hahaha. But it turned out, you were the kind of friend I needed not just that time, but the friend I need for the rest of my existence.
(You probably don’t recall any of this anymore for you have a very very very short-term memory, my God. Why is that? HAHA)
Moving forward to when we came 4th year HS. Things back then were pretty much intense, but we somehow managed to become even closer and shared a lot of common interests like watching anime, asian movies, writing and reading wattpad, dancing and how can I forget, our addiction to EXO! Kkaebsong~ And you were like the leader of the gang, lmao. You’ve even written a wattpad story about the Exo candies, where each one of us represents the characters you made out of that story. Gurrrl, the things we do for fangirling XD
That story continued ‘til we entered College. Though we studied at different universities, we still managed to update your story and text each other over the weekends. It gives me a nostalgic feeling when I remember how we set weekend as our catch up days and we’d even save money from our school allowance to make sure we load our sim when weekend arrives. Wow.
But then, some things really did change as we became more involved in our college years, separately. The wattpad updates stopped, as well as the weekend catch up session. But we were okay with it, no issues, no dramas. And I think it’s the best thing about us that I really like the most. We still get to catch up on some occasions, like when we attend BCE activities, YP, our former classmate’s birthday and our own birthdays. Feeling old yet? Hahahaha.
College was tough for the both of us, especially when it comes to financial aspect. There were instances when we would meet and then we’ll simply buy snacks and drinks then stay at our favorite tambayan- Lianas. Lmao! (Chills)
We were already happy with our simple act of catching up. We’ll sit there for hours, talk about our new friends, crushessss and pretty much all of our life shits that time. You were that kinda long-distance-friend I got to rely on at any time and you won’t get annoyed with my vague dramas in life but instead, you’d tell me things to make me feel good about myself. Just like always, and I want you to know that you’re so good at doing that. Uplifting other’s morale even with your blunt expressions. (Love yah, friend. Hahahaha)
Then now we entered adulthood, which we both kinda loath up until now, except for the fact that were already earning our own money and now we got to eat and hang out at malls, parks, and travel places. Time flies pretty fast for us when we started working. Have you noticed that? We ought to meet almost every weekend, eat out and do random things but mostly, shopping. Wow, gurl. We spend a lot when were together and we should stop. Hahahaha.
So much for this long backstory, my point here is I want you to know that we may be aging, stressing so much about life, uncertain of the future and feel as though were not making any progress, but please know that we, you, have made it this far. I hope you realize that you’re doing great, and you’ll be fine. Don’t ever lose your sense of wonder, talent and confidence in you because you have so much potential more than you ever realize. I hope once again, you see the beauty of growing outside the comfort zones, of reaching for more and not settling for anything less.
I hope you realize that we were just simple living brats when we still got nothing, and yet we managed to make the most of what we have. Now that you have resources, may you strive to do more of what you love, what you want or just simply do what you got to do. Bottom line is, live the most out of this life. I know there are times when you feel bad about yourself too. You feel not good enough, unappreciated and maybe you also feel left behind ‘cause I feel the same way, sometimes. But, please don’t let these thoughts ruin what you can do. As I said, you are the most badass bitch I’ve ever met not just simply because you’re “small but terrible” but also because you are stubborn yet a leader, blunt but reassuring, achiever yet humble, and most importantly, struggling yet always overcoming. So go out there and be the badass woman you were so lazy to be today!
You got this, bits. And as far as you’ll go, I want you to know that you’d always have me even when you don’t feel like u need me anymore, hahaha.
Happy birthday, partner! Time is passing by quickly and were not getting any younger (like what we always say to one another) so let’s make the most out of this life! We can always leave our anxieties behind and restart if we need to, so let’s do this. We still got plenty of time ;) So, see you after quarantine? Hahahaha.
P.S. Please also stop thinking that you’d get left behind when your friend gets a boyfriend or a girlfriend. It always depends (on who’s that friend, lolsss). And I hope you have you meet your jowa soon, hahaha.
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