Ann

they/she Asian 18+ I know I'm problematic

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not gonna lie kitten, the only thing that's getting daddy through the week right now is toxic musical yaoi of pathological liar boy and his nonconsenting ghost situationship.

Ann

any pronouns, they/them or neo-pronouns preferred

18+

DEH defender

musical discourser

queer YA brainrotter

check #RAT (Readings Arts Theatre) Talks for mini essays on musical room temperature takes

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细思极恐，你竟然可以在end of May or early June庆祝骄傲月😱

Happy Pride to the girls, the theys, the gays and no-not-because-we-are-gays !!

感谢对象妹 @thekingofsleepy 绘制非常美qpr pride图

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Idomeneus and Meriones the weirdest guys ever

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本来是520521的图但一直懒得画。

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in reference to the french production of deh that put connor in that hideous “I’M NOT OKAY” shirt

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treebros + jared and some random text i found on pinterest bc i have no energy to draw smt actually good

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Since everyone is posting treesis for some reason here's mine...but very specifically in a Stonewall genderbend AU, that's why Evan has that Brigitte Bardot haircut and gingham dress. I retained their original names. Connor was Connie at home, in a Catholic girl's boarding school in Charlottesville before she got caught reading Sappho and canon-compliantly getting expelled. Then she had enough and ran away to New York. She works in Jared's Barbershop on Christopher Street (where stonewall inn is) and is an illegal tattoo artist by night. She goes by Connor as a dyke name. Evan is a Midwestern daughter who came to look for job and husband in NY but getting dragged by Connor into Stonewall Riot and like, the whole thing paid heavy homage to Chappell Roan's album. The entire fic is like, in Chinese, which I absolutely do not bother translating, so. here's the art i've done in-universe with the fic.

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national treebros day when??

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everyday is national treebros day

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this needs to be mandated

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Epilogue - Part 2

The end.

Thank you for everything.

Read Heartstopper Online

More info/buy the books: https://aliceoseman.com/

The Heartstopper webcomic has now concluded.

Epilogue letter in text form:

Dear Heartstopper readers,

The Heartstopper webcomic’s first update dropped on September 1st 2016. Today, on April 11th 2026, the story has concluded.

I don’t quite know how to put all of my feelings into one letter. Heartstopper means more to me than words can express, but I’ll try my best.

Heartstopper has defined the past decade of my life. It started as a fun side project and quickly grew into something much bigger, eventually becoming my career. Despite that huge and unexpected change, making the Heartstopper comic feels the same to me as it did on day one. When I sit down to make Heartstopper, I feel at peace. When the world feels so scary and difficult, I have been able to return to Heartstopper, and everything feels okay again for a little while. 

Nick and Charlie first appeared as supporting characters in my first novel, ‘Solitaire’. In Solitaire, Nick and Charlie represent the idea that hope, love, joy and connection can persist and thrive despite the trials and tribulations of being alive. So maybe it’s ironic that Nick and Charlie have come to represent this in my own life. They have brought me joy. They have given me purpose. They have given me everything, really. And I’m so grateful for every moment I have spent with them.

Heartstopper is profoundly special to me. Which makes it extremely hard to say goodbye.

But it is time. I always knew that Nick going to university would be the end point of the story. And despite how sad I am to be bidding farewell to these characters, I am so, so proud and excited to have made it to the end and concluded the story exactly the way I wanted to.

Any webcomic creator can tell you that making a webcomic requires a heavy amount of determination and endurance. To draw a page almost every day for the past ten years has required a lot of sacrifice and a lot of energy. But every moment was worth it. And now that it is complete, Nick and Charlie’s story can be experienced from beginning to end, for the rest of forever.

I wouldn’t have made it here alone. From the very start, Heartstopper’s readers have offered so much support, love, community, conversation, and enthusiasm. Knowing that there are people out there who love these characters just like I do has given me the strength to keep going. I’ve also had the support of many colleagues, friends, and family members, who’ve all helped in different ways at various points in the past decade. Thank you so, so much to everyone who has been here for the journey. 

I have no idea what I’ll make next. For now, I’m taking a break. And I know that Nick and Charlie won’t simply vanish. I expect I will always return to drawing them and writing about them, probably in smaller ways, for the rest of my life, as long as my body allows.

Nick and Charlie will forever be in my heart, hand in hand on a beach somewhere.

Thank you, everyone.

Lots of love,

Alice x

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DEH and the Archetypes of "Seven Deadly Sins" (a very, very long essay)

In this essay I will use the character templates from the 99th Class and Starlight in Shojo Kageki Revue Starlight to map onto DEH to explain the character archetype issue. Not recommended for those afraid of spoilers who haven't watched Shoujo Kageki Revue Starlight or Neon Genesis Evangelion, but considering there's no overlap in my feed anyway, read if you want.

Disclaimer: this is an archetypal reading, not what I think were the writers' intentions, nor accusing the characters of possessing actual sins. Archetypes are just a writing shorthand the same as "the four knights of apocalypse" or "angel and devil" that are replicated in different media for duo/group dynamics.

Some fan theories and methodology

1) Revue Starlight

I subscribe to the "Hikari and Karen are one entity + all stage girls are one entity" theory. Therefore, each revue actually represents different aspects of one person (Karen; though ultimately Karen represents an abstract "stage girl"). For example, the TV series revues focus more on exploring different personality elements (pride, jealousy, passion for hobbies/career, nostalgia, interpersonal relationships) and self-challenge, while the movie version has only one theme: whether to indulge in interpersonal stability or face the uncertainty of walking alone. So, back to the TV series, the Seven Goddesses of Starlight are actually metaphors for each person's character flaws and what personality components each represents. For instance, Futaba representing Wrath and Mahiru representing Jealousy is obvious enough. I am adopting this because they represent a gentler version of interpreting the traits of Seven Deadly Sins.

2) NGE

Here I adopt a theory I've considered but am not deeply convinced of: that each Eva pilot represents a personality disorder/mental illness. Shinji represents Avoidant, Asuka represents Narcissistic, Rei represents Schizoid. I also think they somewhat resemble Id, Ego, Superego, but I'm too lazy to delve into deep theory; roughly speaking, Asuka represents the desiring Id, Shinji represents the ordinary Ego, and Rei represents the Superego that transcends human morality.

In short, this is the foundational setting where "everyone represents different aspects of the same image."

"The Seven Deadly Sins"

Pride, Envy, Wrath, Sloth, Greed, Gluttony, Lust

(The Seven Goddesses of Starlight don't correspond exactly to these)

How these map to specific personalities and settings:

The first five are relatively self-explanatory. I interpret Gluttony as a kind of indulgence (in modern terms, roughly "self-degradation"), and Lust as an exploitation of interpersonal relationships and self-centered release. Of course, after mapping, the specific concentrations might differ somewhat; I just need to be able to explain it myself.

Characters

Evan - ? Karen/Shinji type He is a neutral container, a mirror. When interacting with others, he reflects and amplifies others' "sins" through his behavior, creating an echo. So he is the most ordinary social "ego", without any morality (Superego) or desires (Id) above or below others. I'm not saying Evan's character is this kind of blank slate personality; I mean his positioning is this type of protagonist.

Connor - Wrath Literal. Wrath, disrespect, the self-centered violent rage that harms others. Whether it's the real Connor or the later "For Forever reprise" ghost Connor, this is the case. Interestingly, in official interpretations, Wrath usually carries connotations of "revenge," "retaliation." What does he want to retaliate against? Parents, society, himself?

I think Evan, when together with Connor (especially the "ff reprise" ghost Connor), rarely exhibits retaliatory rage, but more of a passive, pessimistic anger at his own incompetence—a feeling of being angry at himself. Undeniably, this anger is when he has the most clarity and is the sharpest in self-analysis—just like how Connor, every time he gets angry, is actually facing his ugliest parts.

Jared - Greed Also literal. Wanting fame, wanting friends, wanting social currency, wanting to obtain easily without diminishing himself. His feelings toward Evan, for example, are greedy—wanting Evan to be his die-hard sidekick and sycophantic friend without any input on his part.

Evan, when with him, also becomes greedy. In the "Sincerely, Me" reprise, he monopolizes Connor's friendship; around the "Good for You" period, feeling Jared crossing his personal boundaries, he wants to desperately retain Zoe's love and the Murphy family's love. It's just that this isn't what Jared wants, so Evan doesn't appear greedy toward Jared.

Alana - Pride Still literal. To me, she has many similarities with Maya Tendou, both representing a kind of top student's confident pride/arrogance that feels superior. This pride is lonely, but loneliness can also intensify pride. It leads her to look down on others (directly ignoring Evan's arm), to look down on emotions.

Later in the Connor Project, her act of making public all of Evan's forged letters is the ultimate pride, because she feels public trust lies with her. Similarly, Evan accusing her of doing the Connor Project only for reputation, sending her the fake suicide note to protect himself, is his most self-centered, selfish, and proud move.

Zoe - Envy Still literal. She envies Connor; more precisely, adopting the original definition of envy, she feels "sorrow" for what others possess. The fact that Connor inherently possesses more is unfair to Zoe, so envy isn't necessarily negative. The difference from greed is that greed doesn't have a specific object, while envy does, and it also reflects that Zoe's life, whether love or hate, revolves around Connor as its anchor.

Evan's envy also takes Connor as its object, operating through Zoe. In "Words Fail," what he says—not having a father like that, not having a mother like that, not having a perfect girl like that—is textbook Seven Deadly Sins envy (as opposed to general envy)—it contains this pain of self-pity and self-sorrow, a lonely yearning, rather than the resentment of wanting to possess. This is the same as Mahiru.

Cynthia - Lust I CAN EXPLAIN THIS As I mentioned above, Lust isn't about sex; it's about excessive dependence on and exploitation of interpersonal relationships, almost like the desires of a sentimental and overflowing id. For example, here it's her maternal love and family love. She infinitely wants to perform the role of a tender good woman, good wife, good mother, and satisfies herself through the acceptance of this performance.

Evan, when with her, clearly gets stimulated with the same emotional dependence. Cynthia was the first to encourage him to continue, to keep talking about his "friendship" with Connor. She's also the last to finally accept that everything Evan said was a lie. Evan's dependence on her directly mirrors his unmet needs from Heidi. Cynthia's words to Evan before "Good for You," treating him like her own son, represent their emotional resonance.

Larry - Sloth Sloth here combines with the old concept of Acedia; I interpret it as dereliction of duty, neglect, denial, unwillingness to change—more about inertia than laziness. Larry's non-acceptance of Connor and his stubbornness represent a kind of Stoic sloth.

Evan doesn't spend much time with him; take "To Break In A Glove" as an example. Evan positively responds to Larry's sloth, completely avoiding the fact that Larry was a terrible father to Connor—refusing to accept this fact, refusing to consciously recognize that Larry's treatment of Connor was just like his own father's neglect. Treating Larry's kindness as a substitute for paternal love—isn't that also Evan's sloth, his unwillingness to face his own real trauma?

Heidi - Gluttony I CAN STILL EXPLAIN

I think Gluttony is an action that can be both egoistic and altruistic, like Heidi towards Evan. Gluttony is self-destructive, yet one finds satisfaction within that self-destruction. Heidi loses herself in overwork, but simultaneously feels this reasonably explains her neglect of Evan. So from Evan's perspective, Heidi is just indulged in the empty promises of love she herself weaves.

Evan's attitude toward Heidi is also one of gluttony. He excessively enjoys/consumes the limited affection she has, similarly in moralising his own dissatisfaction and loneliness. "It's not my fault that other people can" means Heidi's affection isn't enough for him to indulge in, so he chooses to continue to amplify his own "appetite," projecting it towards the Murphy family's love. Love is limited, it can be drained dry; he indulges to the point where he might choose lies, which is like quenching his thirst with poison.

Ferally yapped. Don't even know what I said. Hope someone can understand. Actually, DEH, in a pop media sense, is very anti-archetype, but if you look deeper, you can still see some characterisation habit, or maybe I'm just hallucinating.

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me n @thekingofsleepy in qpr flag colour

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❤️

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me n @thekingofsleepy in qpr flag colour

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also i'm reading Kath Weston (Families we choose, which is like the academic cousin of Angels in America and gay bible for chosen family) for class and a coming-out verbatim in the book is really giving Evan:

"I'd try to say, 'This is really me. This is all of me. And will anybody be left liking me?'"

(Weston, pp.49)

and the Tok™ people still be like "well actually ☝️🤓 Evan is straight" like genuinely fvck that. !! He has never been straight-read by me ever since his first appearance on stage. comphet at best. He is like, heterosexual by birth queer by choice.

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also just a side note i'm old AF like reaching 23 this year. I understand on Tumblr and in Western fandoms there is a minor DNI thing but to be fair I grew up in Chinese fandom which has none of that, but whatever makes you feel comfortable!

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it's essay o' clock and today's topic is WHY is everyone on TikTok/IG Reels calling Evan an incel.

An incel, by simple English, is:

Male

Heterosexual

Want to get laid

Think they deserve to get laid

Cannot get laid

Think it is society's fault

thus hating women and men who have women

Aaaand Evan is almost none of that. Like I dare say Jared Kleinman or Jeremy Heere are closer to this textbook definition of incel.

Evan doesn't think he deserve Zoe-as-girlfriend, or any sort of real connection with anyone, at all. He doesn't resent the society or people with privilege/friendship for it. He resents HIMSELF for it. Also his goal was not "get the girl" but "get anybody to notice me and care about me and stay for me". Connor was his imaginary friend. He did not conjure him up to get Zoe. Zoe is more like a surprise surprise within-reach byproduct of his lie which granted proximity to the Murphys first and foremost. The telos is misaligned. I see some productions try to emphasize the heterosexuality of it and they are WRONG.

The line between queercoded soft masculinity and incelcoded beta male (is that what you call it) is NOT blurry and Evan is clearly NOT in the latter zone.

Thank you for coming to my TED talk.

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