I need coffee and silence

|25| Cat Lady | Books and Random fandom musings (mostly The Inheritance Games)

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I finished The Grandest Game. My cat tried to eat the book. That's all I'll say for now

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@hwqdbncxowasqebclo this adorable floof attempted to eat a book (among many other things)

[callese]

refseek.com

www.worldcat.org/

link.springer.com

http://bioline.org.br/

repec.org

science.gov

pdfdrive.com

[growing-yet-into-magic]

Worldcat is my bestie and my one true love!! Not only does it tell you what library a book is at, but it also price compares different used book sites against each other for easy view! It's how I got Tarot For the Master for $10!!

[growing-yet-into-magic]

Oh, and since I have your attention: z-library (books and textbooks) and sci-hub (gatekept scientific journal articles.) I just ripped a textbook for class off z-library and snatched a required reading from sci-hub. Life is good and education should be accessible at every stage and station of life.

[mckitterick]

information wants to be free

[cherryschaos]

Ordered Glorious Rivals, it's supposed to be here in about a week...do I dare try to read all the other TIG universe books before it gets here like last year?

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Glorious Rivals has been released, apparently...I want to know what happens next, mostly to see how things will turn out for Rohan. He's become my favorite (after Gigi of course) of the characters introduced since The Brothers Hawthorne

Haven't seen many shipnames for Grayson and Lyra, so I'll propose a few: Grayra, Lyrson, or Lyry (pronounced leery)

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When you tell your boyfriend about your fanfic writing block and he gives you that look before offering to help with inspiration

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About to read Onyx Storm, thought I'd share the predictions I made for it after finishing Iron Flame

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Guess I know how the Hawthorne Brothers felt in book 1

[lilliejareau]

cm x spongebob is something i didn’t know i needed

[lilliejareau]

cm x spongebob is something i didn’t know i needed

[kiwriteswords]

I'm rewatching the scene where Haley and Hotch are in their big fight before she leaves, and it makes me wonder if she just wishes he would yell back or like "physically" fight for her more? He obviously doesn't want her to leave, and he expresses that to Spencer (of all people), and the idea of divorce or failing his family is likely his biggest fear. Yet, it's almost like he doesn't know how to communicate that with her? I could be...so wrong and off about this, but he doesn't know the "right thing" to say about how he feels and what he wants. He just assumed and knew right off the bat that it "didn't make a difference".

Sure, as we know, in Haley's world, the perfect thing would be for him to take a back seat at his job. She knew deep down that he was never him, and she married him, knowing fully who he was. But Hotch didn't seem to know how or what to say to even reason his feelings in it all with her further.

And this is no criticism towards him, more of just an observation into how his character functions. How he could reason the job and the hours, but not have anything compelling to say to Haley (that we saw) on why he WANTS her to stay. It's as if, he felt he had zero say? And sure, maybe we didn't see this on the screen, but it surprises me, but also intrigues me that he never says, "I don't want a divorce," "I want to stay a family," "You're the love of my life," "We've always made this work," and so on, and so forth.

Makes me think back to dream!Haley calling him out for being not great with words and how Jack needs words. I could have seen when Haley was alive, her being vigilant in showing Jack how to express his feelings because of this. I'm sure it was a lot to deal with coaxing feelings out of Hotch for years, given how private and closed off he is, but he's also so deeply sensitive. We see him choked up at so many things. I am kind of going all over the place. No hate or shade to Hotch or Haley, but I find his position in this situation very interesting to his character. Would love to hear other's thoughts.

[cherryschaos]

We know he grew up in a physically abusive home and it's likely that he also experienced a lot of verbal abuse as well. It's possible that while he was able to process and heal from the trauma from physical abuse, he never did that with the verbal abuse and internalized the things that were said to him. Hotch "just taking it" could be a trauma response from his childhood.

I think he also gets stuck in "profiler mode." Day in and day out he's getting into the minds of these violent killers and planning every move, every word, around how best to catch them AND keep local law enforcement willing to help the team. Hotch may physically leave the BAU, but he never does mentally. So in situations like the fight before Haley leaves, he's mentally profiling her and the situation. It's possible that he's come to the conclusion that it's something Haley really does want and it will be the best thing for her. Even though he doesn't want her to leave and he wants to make it work, he doesn't say anything because he thinks it would be selfish and cruel to ask her to continue to put herself through the mental/emotional difficulty she's already had to by being married to him.

[cherryschaos]

Can someone explain why I can read and even listen to smut with a straight face, but when he offers her his gloves because her hands are cold and her gloves are wet, I'm a blushing, squealing mess

[kiwriteswords]

Which is your most canon hotch smut fic you’ve ever written? 💘

I feel like the first thing that comes to mind for most “canon” would honestly be some of the smut fics I deleted from 2019-2022 😂 which honestly isn’t helpful I’m sure as a reader, but I do feel like I was more carefree with what I felt comfortable writing and sharing back then. I was way sluttier (in a good way) back then when it came to writing, haha.

I dunno, I’m getting more comfortable sharing so maybe I will write some more smutty Hotch stories, but ones that come to mind that “feel canon” are a brat-tamer!Hotch story I wrote then, switch/sub!hotch story, and then a multi chapter I wrote that was about Hotch and his Secretary called Cashmere, Cologne, and White Sunshine.

Who knows, maybe I’ll continue to re-share some of these! But open to receiving smut requests as I do feel like requests always spark inspo!

[cherryschaos]

I loved reading Cashmere, Cologne, and White Sunshine!

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I feel like Jameson Hawthorne is the kind of person who would put Elmer's glue on his hand or arm just so he can peel it off

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Is Games Untold worth getting?

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hi I love ur fics! Do u plan on posting anymore in the future?

Thank you!! Yes I'm going to be posting more fics. I have too many wips 😅 I'm too indecisive about how I want the endings to be. I want them to be happy/happy-ish endings, at the same time I want them to be so angsty and heart wrenching

Thank you for being patient

[cherryschaos]

"Sometimes I just want to drink a glass of milk. Not like milk and cookies or milk and cake, just plain milk. Does that make me a psychopath?"

-Gigi Grayson at some point

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Hoping we get to see everyone interact with Libby and Nash's kids in the next books or just Nash being the best dad.