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waiting for a chance to see it up close

i’m praying one last chance to see it exposed

maybe now

i’ll look to you

and the words spill out

haven’t been myself in some years

it gets better i hope

forever ago, i was never alone

i’ve been saying, i haven’t done enough to be complaining

i know that i can’t do it alone,

nobody made me

is this how we make it?

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not hard to understand; hard time to comes to term with

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all of the dates i missed

diplomas and doctorates

hotel in austin

florida wedding

tickets for airplanes

boredom and birthday cakes

groceries for holidays

hospital pillowcase

dinner at 7

what’s better than heaven?

could you be more than?

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get broken up with

drink with friends

fall asleep on alex’s couch

wake up, shower

breakfast at the diner

sleep all day

she drops off your stuff

talk in the car

say goodbye

grab takeout

get in a car accident

fight with your dad

see an old friend

shaken up

go home

sleep again

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a simple thing

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often worried and paranoid but today peace felt tangible

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is that what a friend would’ve done?

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what do you know about sorrow

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i am not a machine; often times i wish i was

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mistook

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there’s another side,

i know because i’ve seen it

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what to do when u feel like the world’s against u

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there is guilt where fear lives

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restlessly inspired to the point that i fall asleep at five a.m. most nights

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surrender