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[brokenballerinababy]

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[briceortina]

ribs <3

[fragile-and-ethereal]

food ritual

i feel obligated to do these things and forgetting them makes me stressed and upset so i’m gonna really try always following through

measure and log ALL food items

no singular item can weigh more than 50 grams if it contains more than 100 cals per 100 gram

no reading or watching anything while consuming food

i refuse to drink anything that contains more than 5 cals / 100 ml

eating is only allowed at the dining table at home

drink a sip of water after every 2 bites

chew evey bite at least 28 times

always wash the dishes after finishing the meal

ABSOLUTELY no snacking

cravings must be reflected on in written form

[edventblog]

some of my safe foods and why <3

popcorn, you can get some that is only 170 for 4 cups and maybe even less and it's good

waffles & pancakes, can make them yourself and can get some for rlly

sandwiches, can help give you protein and are filling

popsicles, really low calorie depending on the kind and make ppl think you eat normal

rice cakes, i loved these even before i developed ana, they taste good and are lowcal

fruit and vegetables, usually low cal and healthy

gum, lowcal and good

baby food, as always it's lowcal and yummy

soup, it taste good and you get a lot for a little bit of calories

applesauce, comes in different flavors is lowcal and filling

if there is anything you'd like to add on go ahead Id love to listen and add to the list :)

[xxwrenxx]

TW for meanspo

Giving into hunger is one of the most humiliatingly stupid things you can do. Think about it, really. You promise not to eat, swear to every god you know because for some reason you decided to starve yourself for some body you’ll never be satisfied with. That isn’t the problem. The problem is that you then decide to stuff your face with hundreds of thousands are calories- so I figure you’re a dirty liar. It doesn’t even feel good after you’ve given in so selfishly; no, you just feel a weight in your stomach and a sick sensation at the mere thought of food. It’s pathetic, really, you can’t even starve yourself right. Get a new hobby if a hobby is all this is to you, you deplorable swine.

[mrss-grscm]

I need that feeling of having control

I need that feeling of being empty and clean like a new house

It is still about looks, I want to look skinny af, but it's not just it

I crave the feeling of being pure, untouched

It makes me feel like a god.

[chewinguprocksagain]

I want to find art in myself

[czerwony--motylek]

Th1nspø ✨

[chewinguprocksagain]

💕the happiness I feel knowing how well I’m doing at restricting right now 💕

I won’t let this feeling go

It’s time for me to change now

[chewinguprocksagain]

I have to believe it is possible for me despite the odds

It is possible I can do it

This won’t destroy me

I can do this

This is euphoric

This gives me power

This gives me everything

I feel amazing

The future is nothing to worry about

It will feel amazing to know I’ve beaten all of my obstacles and remained strong

[chewinguprocksagain]

Hungry for feeling skinny

[chewinguprocksagain]

An empty stomach feels so fucking good

[chewinguprocksagain]

Day 2 of success

[chewinguprocksagain]

I didn’t binge last night and I’ve restricted today and I feel so much better

[chewinguprocksagain]

My ultimate goal behind this is to stop letting food control me

[miathinaf]

i figured that the best way for me to lose weight and stay in my calorie limit without feeling the urge to binge is eating a meal or two a day. from monday to friday i only eat one meal, because in the morning before school i never feel hungry, but to stop my hunger at school i always drink lots of green tea (makes you feel full, helps with digestion), water or black coffee. i’m usually home around 4/5pm, so then i eat my dinner (max. 400kcals). i go to sleep as early as it is possible for me, which is around 10/11pm so before that i always keep myself distracted but productive at the same time by studying or reading. and i repeat every day. however, weekends are a bit harder than that. when i wake up (around 10am) i drink a cup of green tea, so it keeps me full to around 1pm, so that’s when i eat my breakfast (max. 200/300kcals). i always make sure to eat protein for breakfast and try not to consume carbs (like bread, pasta) because they cause you to feel full, but after a short time they hit you with a very sudden hunger. i usually feel hungry around 3pm, but it’s still too early for my dinner, so i’ll have a glass of warm skim milk or a cup of hot white tea (supresses apetite, makes you feel full). it’ll keep me from being hungry to around 5pm, so that’s when i eat my dinner (max. 300/400kcals, depends on how much i’ve had for my breakfast). even at weekends i try to go to bed around 10/11pm so again, before that i keep myself distracted and productive by studying, working out or reading. i’ve also uninstalled tiktok around a week ago, and let me tell you. THAT HAS HELPED ME SO MUCH WITH CRAVINGS (not to mention my productivity). tiktok had me spending most of my free time on it. it also had me staying up late and feeling bored often. staying up late increases your cravings for food and slows down your metabolisim. also, boredom makes your cravings drive you crazy!! when your brain isn’t busy it’ll think about food.

[mariannesbones]

i hate being the fat girlfriend