isopodlover3000

dek / 18+ / he/him art account @dekdraws

[eddieintheocean]

having a strop in the slop

[pocketss]

It was important to me that she puts emphasis on the TOK

[garbagedisp0sal]

[soulofthedeep]

Foggy day on the Cranberry Isles

[cottoncandylesbo]

(alien being shown yaoi) and you're saying, the men... have sex with each other? the men?

(alien being shown yuri) ohhh ya we do this shit too lmao

[temothylol]

[myfairynuffstuff]

Erika Toliusis (b.1969) - Pacific Angel. 2022. Oil with palette knife on canvas.

[garbagedisp0sal]

[gremlininho]

let me. innnnnnnnnnnnnnnnnnnnnn

[sailorbrazil]

thursday..... and i bet you wish you were her

[qqchurch]

the Ice War on Europa...

[qqchurch]

[deep-state-partisan]

[somestrangeangels]

[bedupolker]

Scans of my C&O Canal trip! I know I draw a lot of rocks but it's really nice to draw some lush foliage now and then too

[batmanshole]

crisp glass of water moodboard

[road0flife]

[389]

[4sqre]

You’re glowing

[thewatcherinthewoods]

Life stuff under the cut

Iiii broke up with my girlfriend of five years yesterday. We had been together since the end of highschool and had been friends even longer. We were long distance and it was tough but even still I think for a while we had something truly beautiful. We built entire worlds with our characters and lore and writing because she was the only person I'd ever met who obsessed over that type of thing like I did. She introduced me to Ghost, a band that's so important to me.......we literally thought of ourselves as sister and nihil if you know you know. She came down to the US for my college graduation, and she organized a party for me. When my family was failing me she was always there for me. I loved her so much. I still do, and I hate that I had to make this decision.

Our communication just totally broke down in the end, and the worst part is I know it's not her fault, I know it was her mental health stuff, but it was hurting me over and over. And I couldn't keep spending days at work trying not to cry or frantically waiting for 5 pm so we could call and try to sort things out, especially when she would escalate problems where all that was needed was a simple "my bad I'm sorry". And it sucks knowing that I was shoving past all of my issues, my anxiety, my depressive moments, etc because I was determined to be good for her, and....she just couldn't do the same.

Now idek. I blocked her on almost everything and yet I still keep hoping she'll try to reach out somehow, that she'll change like she always promised she would, something. Something! I fought for this relationship so hard and for what. How will I move on? She was such a huge part of my life. I hate this. I'm so mad it had to end like this.

[lookcaitlin]