ChickenRoost

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[chickenroost]

Sometimes even I have to remind myself that it's so easy to be angry in this world and that I need to remind myself as much as it's okay to be frustrated and it's absolutely valid to be angry and emotional and vents, it also needs to be said that we need to remind ourselves to be kind sometimes to and even be kind to ourselves, because at the end of the day, we're all just trying to survive in any way we know how We don't know what we're doing, and we don't always have it all together. And even as adults, you gotta admit that times are hard at times and we don't have all the answers and I wish more people would admit that at least, and that not everybody has a solution to things as an adult or even as a child and I wish more people would talk about that when you're growing app, because I feel like some people struggle, and there's always a struggle out there somewhere for someone and we just don't know what they're going through and sometimes we need to remind ourselves that their pain. Isn't invalid?Just because we're also going through something or someone else is going through something

[chickenroost]

Hey guys, I just wanted to let you know the reason why I've been so quiet lately is because I've been having some health issues which is ongoing. But we're working on getting it better. I have mobility issues, but those are better handled now that I have more equipment. But on top of that, I've been having trouble with vision, I had to use voice to text to even do this announcement, I just wanted to let you know that I have a surgery upcoming that we learned about on Friday. I am going to be having eye surgery first with my right eye them with my laugh.But we're starting with the right and i'm gonna be on break for a bit , so I just wanted to give you guys the heads up

[chickenroost]

On an upbeat note too! We have a state assigned case manager who has been wonderful. She's with the home health program.

We finally got the paperwork settled and we got approved for the hone health care waiver. They will be able to provide help on days my hubby has to work or I would otherwise be at home alone.

We are working with the program too, because it allows the hubby to get paid as. My caregiver for now too. Which is awesome.

Plus the program helped us request a wheelchair for me for safer means of me being transported when outside the house. Then just with the walker alone. Since I still have the low blood pressure causing mobility issue and making me a fall risk. The wheelchair will be delivered to our house too. For free.

[chickenroost]

We were able to apply for some aid with the low grocery situation as well.

One has us on a wait list, but they deliver for free and will help out me and the hubby both, and even the cat too. We don't mind it. Every help is welcome. Lol

The second is through the state. They will be delivered tomorrow. We got the call earlier today. They will drop off at least 2 weeks of a daily mail in one go.

[chickenroost]

I was able to apply through my state to get into a program for a medical alert device. It's really nice. Has a GPS function and both a speaker as well as a microphone. It detects falls too.

You can also press the button for assistance and it works anywhere a cell tower is in range.

It will be nice for times when I am at appointments or out In town. Or even if hubby is at work.

[chickenroost]

Update - I finally got things going on the resource/medical issues, etc. front .

I had that falling out with my mom back on Halloween white in the hospital. We have gone no

Contact with her ever since. It kind of hurt us temporarily because she was my transport for doctors appointments. But, we found out my insurance provides a few free rides so we are able to get the doctors appointments going again

[dianasson]

Where I live, November...

Sounds still, like the moment before you see snow falling. The shifting of leaves or the crackle of frost are both crisp, and the birds that are left aren't singing. In city streets or away in the parks, your ears would tell you that humans are alone with our cars tires whooshing on pavement — until the frantic squirrel tending to her stores rustles the leaves on the still-soft ground.

Smells strange as the fresh paint and old dust mix with the incense of rekindling my offering routines in a new home. Smells like hot metal and grease smoke as I clean the oven today. Smells like the inside of scarves and the damp smell of warm tea.

Tastes of Turkish coffee (but isn't that every month?), sweet sodas and candy, of warm bread, of peanut butter shakes after the gym, of sweat and medicine, amaro and fruit juice.

Looks like winter and fall cuddled together under an open sky. Looks bright, then dim, then bright again before darkness swallows the day so much earlier than you were imagining. Looks closer to home, but still out of place. Looks empty and inward. Looks tired.

Feels so far from summer, I forgot the cold is something you have to ceaselessly fight back. Was I really just wearing shorts? Feels like new legs, walking back to my routines and projects as if I hadn't been practicing everything for years before the pause for just two months to move. Feels like warm lights at dusk, remembering that friends are still here, and books are still here. Feels like a siege in every street, worrying if the neighbors might be stolen away. Feels ecstatic in the gay bar. Feels like trepidation and eagerness both as I wait for the snow.

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[elizabethswitch]

November in these parts

Sounds like the port and the ship fitters pulling double shifts. Boat after boat booming across the river, railsong that never pauses. In the morning, like an absence when the sun rises unheralded. Even our crows announce less. The sex crazed squirrels bark and purr alone. Dogs are more vocal, more irritable. The raccoon gang and the possum gang have come to terms for now. For now.

Smells like fallen leaves and pinestraw, sweet and yet unrotten. More like deisel fuel and ship fuel, less like road dust and rubber. Smells like woodsmoke nobody is cooking on. Like narcissus blooms. Smells like soup, at least on Tuesdays when it's my turn at dinner. Smells like the dust I can't quite get out of the radiators.

Tastes like butter cookies and hard squash. Doesn't taste like lightning, nor won't until spring. Tastes like blood where my lips split. Tastes like ice when the wind is right.

Looks like a haemorrhage of amber and oxblood, stripped and wind-whipped as soon as it appears. Like carmine berries tested by incarnadine and impatient finches. Like too much sunlight for not long enough.

Feels like. It feels like dread. She is stirring along my salt rimed bones. Feels like beginning to blister in her frozen cauldron already. Feels like the wrong end of a long road.

I'm no photographer, you must use your imagination.

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[chickenroost]

Tried to do a reblog., but i messed up on my phone and ot posted by itself.

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[chickenroost]

NOVEMBER in these parts

I was tagged by @elizabethswitch

Photo is my own. (Also on my deviantart and Instagram)

NOVEMBER starts out vibrant.

October has just ended, it's dropped to just above freezing at nights, smelling like rain and wet grass.

The feeling of impending dread falls in, creeping like a chill of that heaviness that weighs on you and pressures you to do your final preparations.

It smells crisp yet gives off a feeling of wet socks never quite fully dry. It rains heavily during the day. Sometimes, it even flickers over to ice as well as snow, warning of the winters yet to come. They fade with the sun rise and daylight, but the cold lingers whike the earth holds it's breath.

The heaters have to stay on, lest it make it your final slumber in the night. You try to have warm drinks, break out the long sleeves and sweaters, as well as questions about gloves.

Neighbors whisper of shoveks and swapped tires, while locals stock on sand and rock salt. Visitors joke about the chills while we smile less, knowing they will not last long if they can't even bear this.

[chickenroost]

July 2024, I could still walk unassisted. Still take the bus alone or with company. Still do stairs while standing. No cane, no walker.

By November of 2024 (this time last year), I had to rel on a cane to walk. I needed it even indoors for balance but I coukd cook go places, etc.

Now it's late November of 2025.

I am struggling with my own physical limitations. I feel restricted in my own body, even as my mind is going a mile a minute. I am honestly kinda of angry.

I struggled for years with mental health issues. Asthma and being allergic to most antibiotics were usually the main physical troubles. Besides injuries or bruises, or at worst, the initially uncontrollably diabetes that is very better managed now.

But this? I have a hard time pushing up to stand, let alone walk. I am wobbly as hell when standing and walking is impossible without tge walker. My blood pressure drops so bad/liw when I stand , I am a fall risk within two minutes let alone walking anywhere more than a few steps. I can't sit uo for long or my ears ring from tge pressure dropping. And I usually have to lay down to get it to go backu. .if I want to be up fir the day, i need to stay mostly laying, , but with my upper body propped up on elbows.

I am not giving up. My hubby has been incredibly understanding, helpful, and supportive.

But, we are also just kind of exhausted of it. It is a lot for any one.. I kind of just am understandably just kind of constantly saying, fucking damn it.

[chickenroost]

I am finally indulging / giving in to give the Doctor Who franchise a chance. I am starting with the first season from the 2005 one, that i guess continues it? Or so I was told. Let's see how this goes. Lol. Other then random short clips over the years and memes, i have never actually watched any of it or seen much

[brucebocchi]

[20th-centuryghost]

sorry this was going to be a tags addition because I only get to use my coated pantone swatchbook like 6 times a year when i have a new enamel pin to design, but...

METALLIC GOLD PANTIES ????

[purlturtle]

[mayfay]

[chickenroost]

I had a big blow up with my mother back on Halloween day, when I was still in the hospital. we've always had a complicated relationship at best, with good days and bad days. I've gone no contact with her multiple times over the years. we were working on moving past things, especially since I am no longer in the adult guardianship she had the courts placed on me in the past. {I was in it from may 2009 till november 2022} though my rights have been fully restored. - I have had mixed feelings towards my mother for a long time. that day kind of way a really bad one, but the way she walked out of the hospital room after calling me ungrateful when i finally snapped and confronted her about the guardianship, when i finally asked her if she still believed i deserved to be placed in it all these years later, and she said yes, still, kind of broke me. i don't know what to feel or if i even want to feel anything about her. She'll always be my mother and I love her, but I can't be around her right now.

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[chickenroost]

So glad to be finally back home from the hospital. Still a work to get things improved, but progress is being made! Stairs were a little less trouble at least so far.

[chickenroost]

I came across a nurse whike at the hospital, who had purchased these tiny plastic ghosts in bulk and was passing them out to patients, visitors, and staff during October. She would ask if you liked ghosts. If you said yes, she would say "get boo'd" and hand you a ghost. I drew her a ghost in pencil as a thank you.

[chickenroost]

I had a bit of an upsetting yesterday. I was on the physical rehab floor, till the evening. Long story short, the rehab unit made the decision to have me removed from their floor due to the severity of my mobility needs. There was miscommunication too, which made it more stressful. They sent me back to the ER initially, without explanation or telling me about the removal. So I didn't initially know about the change or have any of my belongings either. I also had no way to contact family either till that night. 5+hours later. As of today, I am in a new room on a different floor. - main issues are still the mobility but we have learned it's partly due previous damage from diabetes to my kidneys. I have kidney injury as a result. Working on it with the medical team. I am understandably upset. My kidneys might end up with me on dialysis if it comes to that. We will know in the next few days. And, there's been discussions so far of me possibly needing put on the transplant list. - while the fluids have gone down that made me swell, they are still a problem. I'm losing protein when peeing out the fluids, which is causing my kidneys to be a bit worse. On top of it, my blood pressure is still an issue. Apparently, I had falls with my legs getting weak because when I stand or walk too much, because of my blood pressure dropping way too low