old noise.

how is your psyche?

[chippedset]

Epiphanies at Parties:

[portraitofglue]

a story within a story.

(excerpts from my novel)

[portraitofglue]

back in my home country, my mother's childhood home was this large stone house; inside, it was actually quite small. I remember the green-stone floored corridor and the red stairs winding to only room on the second floor, a large bedroom with a dark wooden armoire next to the bed that I always stared at because it had a round mirror attached to the door. The stairs kept going to the rooftop, this strange, vast expanse, that my sister and I hung out whenever we went back. We would stare at the sun so close to us and the mango tree on the edge and the roofs of our neighbours, remembering the story our mother said about jumping from roof to roof.

the house is long gone and we haven't been back in years. An apartment takes place that we still haven't seen. My mother's parents are gone, but I imagine them in the space where the house used to be.

[portraitofglue]

over again. over again.

[portraitofglue]

Excerpts from Today by Victoria Chang

a beautifully constructed poem on death and grief

[portraitofglue]

december consumption

these are forms of media that i frequently associate with december

books

Devotion, Patti Smith

A Spy in the House of Love, Anais Nin

After Dark, Haruki Murakami

The Woman in the Dunes, Kōbō Abe

Sleepless Nights, Elizabeth Hardwick

Untold Night and Day, Bae Suah

Paradais, Fernanda Melchor

articles/essays

Everything Visible Is Empty: Toshio Matsumoto, Stuart Monro-Mousse Magazine

As a city, Hong Kong confounds. The sheer aggressiveness, people jostling for trains or shouting from afar, somehow feels more intimate than unsettling.

A Mexican Novel Conjures a Violent World Tinged With Beauty, Julian Lucas-NYT

(on Hurricane Season by Fernanda Melchor)

Our Doppelgängers, Ourselves, Alan Glynn-Lit Hub

Cannibal Manifesto, Oswald De Andrade

Strange Fruit: the first great protest song, Dorian Lynskey-The Guardian

poetry

The Denial of Death, Louise Glück

Funeral Blues, W.H Auden

A Quiet Poem, Frank O'Hara

Giving Up Smoking, Wendy Cope

I Walked Past a House Where I Lived Once, Yehuda Amichai

Last Curtain, Rabindranath Tagore

Perhaps the World Ends Here, Joy Harjo

[seekingstars]

The Years - Alex Dimitrov

[frankencain]

define hole / is a hole a real thing? / Marco Poloni, Black Hole, from The Majorana Experiment, 2010 / Flatfields Fotografien / What We Talk About When We Talk About Holes / Dark (2017-2020) / post / Disco Elysium / Twin Peaks: The Return (2017) / Donnie Darko (2001) / Outer Range (2022) / Kaveh Akbar, from “The Miracle,” Pilgrim Bell / post / Weizmann Institute of Science / Mathworld / post / post / post / post / Anne Boyer, from “Woman Sitting at the Machine,” in A Handbook of Disappointed Fate / Star Wars: Knights of the Old Republic II: The Sith Lords / Dennis Patrick Slattery, The Wounded Body: Remembering the Markings of Flesh / The Incredulity of Saint Thomas, Caravaggio, 1601–1602 (detail) / The Incredulity of St. Thomas, Bernardo Strozzi, 1582-1644 (detail) / Don McKay, from “Twinflower,” Field Marks: The Poetry of Don McKay, intro. Méira Cook (Wilfrid Laurier University Press, 2006) / thierryetherve / Pathologic / post / Gregory Orr, from How Beautiful the Beloved / Tomas Tranströmer, tr. by Robert Bly, from a poem titled “Track” / Disco Elysium / Anne Carson, Economy of the Unlost / Pathologic 2 / Jonas Burgert, Sand brennt Blatt (2010) / Disco Elysium / Carl Phillips, from “Givingly”, Wild is the Wind / from “The Man With a Hole in His Head” by Rick Bursky / Rosario Castellanos, ‘Memorandum on Tlatelolco’ (tr. Maureen Ahern) / post / Pathologic / The Juniper Tree (Nietzchka Keene | 1990) / John Banville, Eclipse / Twin Peaks / Disco Elysium / VectorStock / True Detective / Night in the Woods

[chippedset]

Maybe we’ll see each other soon enough; maybe it’ll be years before we meet again. 

[chippedset]

GLOOM, DOOM AND THE NIGHTHAWKS: A LONELY CITY 

[portraitofglue]

a playlist dump-2022

- velvet express ; walking with a silent acquaintance underneath a frozen blue night - siren noise; the sapphic pirate tragedy we’re all looking for - miserable bravado ; insanity before stage, what would be in a neo-noir/thriller movie of mine -trailing sleeves; missing the friends who have left you alone -rabbit holes; periods of a party

-the tearoom ; a slow day at a night cafe

-outline; songs for the speaker

[frankencain]

“I DON’T WANT TO BE THIS KIND OF ANIMAL ANYMORE.”

the book of images, rainer maria rilke / orestes pursued by the furies (study), john singer sargent / letter to felice bauer, franz kafka / disco elysium / study for solstice with two trees, jon joanis / “the return of june”, a river dies of thirst, mahmoud darwish / disco elysium / “the night. the poem”, extracting the stone of madness: poems 1962-1972, alejandra pizarnik / joseba eskubi

[mamma-wolf]

heat 2, new mexico by denis piel

[chippedset]

what does death feel like? 

why did you do this? 

[chippedset]

eye to eye. 

[mel0tune]

[electraheart2012]

glass animals / solenne spitalier / kristin bethge / david hockney / japanese breakfast / devin lunsford