11:19 pm
On a Friday night, 21st of August is when I made the conscious decision to end my life. For anyone wondering, it was something long in the works and tonight was kind of just the catalyst that set it off. I've lived selfishly, in debt, made poor moral decisions and lacked the integrity to own up to my misdoings, relying countless times on luck to bail me out of a bad situation. So suicide seemed like a great alternative. To the friends I've made over the years, I love you guys. You've given me great memories. To my coworkers, I'm sorry I dropped the ball. I thought I could be stronger and I know you guys will persevere. To my family, I wish I was more supportive and I desperately wish I could go back in time and repair our relationship. Mommy, I love you so much. Daddy, I wish I could've made you proud. And to Amanda, I'm so sorry. I really wish I could've been the man you deserved. This is my last post.
















