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Please don't ask me to promote anything. I don't care if it's for a good cause, I just don't want to be used as a promo guy, capice?
I hate tiktok
just in case you need to be reminded
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TW// Grooming
Just remember! If you were 14 years old when your 16 turned 17 year old boyfriend made you get sexual with him on discord back in 2021, your anger towards the blatant grooming you experienced is valid. Even if it lasted for 4 years.
It is also valid to still be angry at one of your old friends who replaced his best friend with your ex after he learned about how he used you. Especially if that includes that same friend posting to Twitter about how great your ex is the day after you told him what he did to you.
It's okay to be hurt even after several years go by. Its gonna be okay when that pain resurfaces because there's people that love you. Don't let David and Draven ruin what makes your life worth living.
Oh yeah and also its valid to still be mad at Draven for only wanting to cover his own ass while he supports David instead of caring about you as the victim.
People like that will never deserve forgiveness. If you don't forgive or forget, your guard will always be up.
It still hurts. 4 years later.
im reading a book & uh. wow. trans men&mascs really have been getting institutionalized as insane and killed for centuries huh
In the mid-1870s the police regularly arrested a person called Jeanne Bonnet who always wore “male attire.” In contrast with DeWolf’s dress reform clothing, Bonnet preferred the stylish “hoodlum” suits worn by the city’s young and rowdy working-class men; with her short hair, narrow build, and a penchant for hard liquor, she regularly moved through city space as a man. Bonnet hung out in the bars and brothels along Dupont Street, befriending Barbary Coast women and persuading at least one local sex worker, Blanche Buneau, to leave prostitution and her exploitative lover. The police arrested Bonnet more than twenty times for cross-dressing and occasionally brought additional charges. For example, when the police realized that the masculine figure drinking at the bar was a woman in men’s clothing, they arrested Bonnet for violating not only cross-dressing law but also the local dive laws that banned women from entering bars. This harassment ended only in 1876, when an unidentified gunman shot and killed Bonnet in Blanche Buneau’s bed. The murder was never solved, and Buneau disappeared from the historical record. [...]
In October 1890 a judge sent Dick/Mamie Ruble to the state insane asylum because of “a hallucination that she should wear men’s clothing and wants legal authority for doing so.” Ruble was arrested for violating cross- dressing law, but the case took a dramatic twist in court, when Ruble refused to identify with available gender categories and explained to the judge, “I’m neither a man nor a woman and I’ve got no sex at all.” While many cross- dressing offenders pled for mercy and claimed their crimes were innocent “pranks,” Ruble challenged the judge to locate femininity on his/her muscular body: “Did you ever see a woman with a hand like that Judge . . . ? Look at that muscle. Oh I tell you I couldn’t pass for a woman anywhere, even if I tried.” Unimpressed by Ruble’s declarations, the judge called in the police surgeon, who referred the case to the Insanity Commission, located in a small basement room in city hall. The two-member commission reviewed the case, declared Ruble insane, and ordered his/her indefinite commitment to the Stockton Asylum, where the admitting doctor noted that Ruble “imagines she is a hermaphrodite. Wears male clothing. Wishes to have legal authority to wear men’s clothing.” Such “evidence of insanity” doomed Ruble to life in the asylum; s/he remained there for eighteen years, until dying from tuberculosis in 1908. [...]
Similarly in 1899 the commission found Sophie Lederer to be insane, noting that the twenty-three-year-old domestic worker “talks irrationally— acts silly and claims to be a boy.” Pohlmann spent two months in the Stockton Asylum before being deported to Germany, while Lederer effectively received a life sentence, dying in the asylum of heart disease in 1908.
From Arresting Dress: Crossdressing, Law, and Fascination in Nineteenth-Century San Francisco by Clare Sears
Its just like. wow. we will never know how many cases of this there were. everytime someone talks about how "oh they just didn't care that much" "women crossdressing was never a threat" "trans men can pass effortlessly" like!!! survivorship bias!!! this book specifically highlights how wealthy socialite women were treated totally differently & could get away with crossdressing by appealing to their status and cisness. while poor, non-white, and sex worker people could not.
Ruble and Lederer died in asylums. Lederer was twenty-three and he lost the rest of his life- nearly a decade- imprisoned for expressing transmasculine desire. Ruble lost nearly two decades. Both in famously misogynistic institutions where they were seen as insane, sexually deviant failed women; God only knows what they experienced during those lost decades. Bonnet was actively and constantly targeted by the police, and their murder was never solved- which reminds me of Big Cliff Trondle, another working-class FTM crossdresser (& sex worker) who was harassed by police and ended up murdered. They also remind me of other instances of institutionalized like Harcourt Payne, Edward De Lacy Evans, and Evan Keleman (who is a modern example).
two other modern example are Pauli Murray, a Black feminist legal scholar and the coiner of the term "Jane Crow" (from a biography of the same name by Rosalind Rosenberg):
Although Murray always denied being a lesbian, she occasionally admitted to “homosexual tendencies” as the only available descriptor that people would accept. As for the report that she was taking hormones, nothing in her correspondence with doctors supports that claim. She wanted testosterone badly enough, however, that she may well have told the corrections officer that doctors had agreed to give it to her. Barry did not arrest Murray for hitchhiking but rather escorted her to the New York City Police Department, where officers decided to take her to Bellevue Hospital. There, Murray poured out her story to a psychiatrist, who gave her a diagnosis of “schizophrenia.” In the doctor’s view, she suffered from a delusion: she believed that she was a man. Permitted to call a family member, Murray contacted her “cousin” Mac. The next day, Mac checked her out of Bellevue and, probably on the recommendation of Dr. Chinn, took her to a private psychiatric facility, Dr. Rogers’s Hospital, at 345 Edgecombe Avenue, on the corner of 150th Street. Murray was lucky. If Mac had not come to her rescue, Bellevue psychiatrists were prepared to seek her commitment to one of the vast, overcrowded state hospitals for the mentally ill. On the typewriter Mac brought to her, Murray itemized the causes of her “nervous collapse”: overwork; lack of desire to either eat or sleep; anxiety over parental responsibilities; and the “temporary disappearance of a friend.” All of these factors played a part; however, Murray believed that the principal source of her emotional crisis was the same problem with which she had wrestled for a decade: the fact that she repeatedly fell in love with women without having any “opportunity to express such an attraction in normal ways,” that is, as a heterosexual male in love with a heterosexual female. The only people who seemed to accept her for who she was were “the unsophisticated people in the environment” [people like her aunts and the ever-loyal Mac] who “accept me pretty much as one of nature’s experiments; a girl who should have been a boy, and react to me as if I were a boy.” Doctors at the Rogers hospital proved no more willing to cooperate in Murray’s efforts to become the man she knew herself to be than those elsewhere. When they released her in mid-March, she had nothing to show for her stay beyond a medical bill for $80, which she could not pay.
As well as Dylan Scholinski, who wrote a memoir called "The Last Time I Wore A Dress" about their experience being institutionalized from ages 15 to 18 in the 80s for being a gender non-conforming girl. They recently re-released the memoir under their chosen name and with a new foreword; I recommend reading it but massive TW for all kinds of child abuse, sanism, and queerphobia. From this interview:
Alison Stewart: You were able to access your medical records and you put them actually in the memoir. Dylan Scholinski: Right. Alison Stewart: What did the medical records reveal to you about how the medical establishment was thinking about you and then they were thinking about your treatment? Dylan Scholinski: Well, some of it was very diagnose-based. Like I said, I think they saw the cure for my depression if I would just learn how to be more feminine. That was the treatment that I was supposed to learn about what boys like. They actually put me in some really unsafe situations, hoping to inspire sexual behavior in order for me to be more feminine. They were putting me in situations that seem really unreasonable and unsafe. Alison Stewart: Could you share a few? Dylan Scholinski: When I was put into my third hospital, they put me on an all-male unit. I was the only girl on an all-male unit. I was the first girl to be. That's when it switched to not being an all-male unit. That in and of itself, you're like a little piece of meat there in the middle of 20 young men. That would be an example, or having me in four-point restraints and having male patients sneak into my room while I had no way of defending myself. Alison Stewart: At one point, you had to start wearing makeup in order to gain good points for good behavior. Dylan Scholinski: Right. Alison Stewart: What did it feel like when you wore makeup? Dylan Scholinski: Oh, my God, you feel dead. It causes a separation from your body. That is kind of hard to explain. I was on a point system. I would receive points for good behavior and lose points for bad behavior. My treatment was I was supposed to learn how to apply makeup and then say something nice about myself. Nice not being like I'm really good at baseball or I can really hit the ball or I can run really fast or any of these other things, or I can draw things that I was really proud of. Instead, I had to say things like, "I love looking pretty." I would feel like such a liar that I was performing and deceiving. I think they were hoping if I repeated it enough that it would change who I was going to become.
You cannot understand the history of (anti-)transmasculinity without seeing how massive a role sanism, medical trans/misogyny, and institutionalization has played.
TW// Grooming
Just remember! If you were 14 years old when your 16 turned 17 year old boyfriend made you get sexual with him on discord back in 2021, your anger towards the blatant grooming you experienced is valid. Even if it lasted for 4 years.
It is also valid to still be angry at one of your old friends who replaced his best friend with your ex after he learned about how he used you. Especially if that includes that same friend posting to Twitter about how great your ex is the day after you told him what he did to you.
It's okay to be hurt even after several years go by. Its gonna be okay when that pain resurfaces because there's people that love you. Don't let David and Draven ruin what makes your life worth living.
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Get a load of this guy who looks older than my father hitting on someone who's 1, taken by a much younger, prettier lady and 2, barely legal
Some of you haven’t fully unpacked the Gender Traitor view of trans men and transmascs and it shows.
You may not be calling us gender traitors outright but then you act as if we’re uniquely more likely to be misogynistic (including transmisogynistic or lesbophobic) than cis men. You imply that by transitioning we’ve escaped misogyny, as if that were the point in the first place. You’re quick to prescribe things like male entitlement to us with zero attempt to understand what might lead us to the decisions we make. You pull us aside to lecture us about how we have to watch ourselves to make sure we’re not misogynistic and how we as men have to use our male privilege to protect women (hey, why do you think the women need the men to protect them like that? It’s a bit patriarchal imo), all while never giving cis men the same spiel.
And then we’re stuck dancing around your assumption that we hate women because we’re trans men! We can’t just say we’re not women without going off about how womanhood is great even if it’s not for us, even though it’s perfectly reasonable to imagine we might have a lot of negative feelings about having been forced to live as girls and women when we aren’t women, even though the type of person who expects this out of, say, people who were raised Christian but aren’t as adults is generally someone most of us can agree is an unreasonable douche looking to convert the person back. And when anything about us makes women uncomfortable, regardless of whether it’s reasonable, we’re the ones who are supposed to accommodate you at our own expense. Trans men get forced into a separate waiting room at the gynecologist’s office because cis women “feel unsafe” about there being a man in the room. We ask to have our voices heard in the conversation surrounding abortion access and reproductive rights and we’re scolded for “making a women’s rights issue about men”. We find historical figures who show every single sign of fitting the description of trans men and cis women crawl out of the woodwork to yell at us for “erasing women from history.”
And with all this in mind, all I can think is that you just see us transitioning as a betrayal towards women. We turned our backs on the Sisterhood or whatever and now we’re the enemy. But as a trans man myself, all I’ve wanted was to just exist in peace as a man. I don’t see any gender as being some opposing force. It’s like hair color to me, just something different about everyone. It’s not my fault I was assigned the wrong gender at birth. It’s not my fault I was born with primary and secondary sex characteristics that give me gender dysphoria. It’s especially not my fault that for thousands of years women and those forcibly assigned as women were regarded as property and treated as such. And yet, somehow, it seems that I’m expected to apologize several times daily for all of this purely because I’m a trans man.
It’s so fucking infuriating. Just let me live, damnit.
Some of you haven’t fully unpacked the Gender Traitor view of trans men and transmascs and it shows.
You may not be calling us gender traitors outright but then you act as if we’re uniquely more likely to be misogynistic (including transmisogynistic or lesbophobic) than cis men. You imply that by transitioning we’ve escaped misogyny, as if that were the point in the first place. You’re quick to prescribe things like male entitlement to us with zero attempt to understand what might lead us to the decisions we make. You pull us aside to lecture us about how we have to watch ourselves to make sure we’re not misogynistic and how we as men have to use our male privilege to protect women (hey, why do you think the women need the men to protect them like that? It’s a bit patriarchal imo), all while never giving cis men the same spiel.
And then we’re stuck dancing around your assumption that we hate women because we’re trans men! We can’t just say we’re not women without going off about how womanhood is great even if it’s not for us, even though it’s perfectly reasonable to imagine we might have a lot of negative feelings about having been forced to live as girls and women when we aren’t women, even though the type of person who expects this out of, say, people who were raised Christian but aren’t as adults is generally someone most of us can agree is an unreasonable douche looking to convert the person back. And when anything about us makes women uncomfortable, regardless of whether it’s reasonable, we’re the ones who are supposed to accommodate you at our own expense. Trans men get forced into a separate waiting room at the gynecologist’s office because cis women “feel unsafe” about there being a man in the room. We ask to have our voices heard in the conversation surrounding abortion access and reproductive rights and we’re scolded for “making a women’s rights issue about men”. We find historical figures who show every single sign of fitting the description of trans men and cis women crawl out of the woodwork to yell at us for “erasing women from history.”
And with all this in mind, all I can think is that you just see us transitioning as a betrayal towards women. We turned our backs on the Sisterhood or whatever and now we’re the enemy. But as a trans man myself, all I’ve wanted was to just exist in peace as a man. I don’t see any gender as being some opposing force. It’s like hair color to me, just something different about everyone. It’s not my fault I was assigned the wrong gender at birth. It’s not my fault I was born with primary and secondary sex characteristics that give me gender dysphoria. It’s especially not my fault that for thousands of years women and those forcibly assigned as women were regarded as property and treated as such. And yet, somehow, it seems that I’m expected to apologize several times daily for all of this purely because I’m a trans man.
It’s so fucking infuriating. Just let me live, damnit.
(Minor Ch4 Spoilers?) Horrifying situation I just thought up. [COMMISSIONS OPEN if interested]
How it feels to regularly be in the trenches of trans discourse on the daily and then you see that TikTok’s discourse lgbt topic of the week is trans men and how we’re allowed to identify
I swear. People are so transphobic towards us.
How it feels to regularly be in the trenches of trans discourse on the daily and then you see that TikTok’s discourse lgbt topic of the week is trans men and how we’re allowed to identify
HELP I DONT HAVE ANY SHELDON LISCENCES AND I 1 STARRED EVERY WEAPON ALREADY
Apparently you get Sheldon Liscenses when you level up
HELP I DONT HAVE ANY SHELDON LISCENCES AND I 1 STARRED EVERY WEAPON ALREADY