chronically romantic

[chornicallyromantic128]

if life feels shit, go outside.

i mean it.

go somewhere with no people, no one to bother you. it can be as close as your backyard or you can get in the car a drive somewhere. anywhere.

take in the sky. isn’t it beautiful? if you can see the stars, count them. make your own constellations. if there are clouds, give them names and watch them race each other. be childish and find pictures hidden in them that only you can see.

breathe in the air. breathe it out. let it fill your lungs and your veins. feel the power that single breath can have, the way it shows that you are alive. breathe.

go outside. reconnect. stop, look around. feel the breeze kiss your skin. this world made you and is as a part of you as the blood you bleed. embrace it.

[chornicallyromantic128]

i mourn who i used to be.

silent tears roll down my cheeks as i scroll though old photos. and by old i mean not more than two years. oh how time flies. the artificial light from my screen burns my nerves and my eyes feel like their on fire but i keep on scrolling, craving that endorphin producing pain. i mourn myself tonight, so that tomorrow i can paint on a smile and ignore the weight of years worth of memories contained in a box big enough to fit in the palm of my hand.

[chornicallyromantic128]

current vibe: a single voice softly singing from a lone radio box in the middle of a sleeping caravan park. the sky is streaked with soft orange as the sun starts to make its daily climb. the only person awake slowly packs away their van. they will be gone by the time the park wakes up. it is cold. it is peaceful. i can’t make out the words of the song, but the melody is sweet. haunting. the birds join in. the sun climbs higher.

[radium901]

[chornicallyromantic128]

the question “what if…” circles around and around, my mind’s vulture. it picks at the carcass of my memories, leaving behind only speculation of what could have been.

[chornicallyromantic128]

what do you do when you feel as though your world is caving in? i scream.

i scream and i scream and i scream. as long and as loud as i can, until my vision starts to blur and my throat is raw.

yet, no one ever seems to hear me.

[waxingmoon7]

So many things I’m learning to live with, live without, and live through.

[chornicallyromantic128]

when did i realise i grew up?

was it when i looked at my friend and realised she no longer looks twelve and therefore i mustn’t either?

was it when i sat eating my nuggets with chilli sauce instead of tomato? younger me would have had to drink a whole bottle of water. i didn’t bat an eye.

was it when scary movies no longer gave me nightmares or when i didn’t sneak into my mum’s bed when dad was away?

was it when i looked up at the moon and wished to go out into the world alone, happy with who i am?

i don’t when i grew up, but i did. all i can hope is that younger me would be proud of who i’ve become.

[remanence-of-love]

[chornicallyromantic128]

relatable.

[perfectfeelings]

“So many years of education yet nobody ever taught us how to love ourselves and why it’s so important.”

— Unknown

[chornicallyromantic128]

i die and come back time after time if only to see my mother’s smile.

[thoughtkick]

“The saddest truth is realising you have fallen madly in love with what can never be.”

— Michael Faudet

[chornicallyromantic128]

when will you stop haunting me? i haven’t talked to you in a month yet you frequent my dreams and inhabit my thoughts. i am nothing but a house for your ghost to walk to through. i can only hope i am haunting you too.

[chornicallyromantic128]

another new year and this time, i feel different. when that clock struck midnight i wanted to cry. i had made it. even when i didn’t think i was going to.

i survived and i’m going to find a way to not just survive but to live. just you watch.

[chornicallyromantic128]

i know she hurt me. i know she’s never coming back. i don’t want her to. but why can’t i delete her smile off my phone?

[chornicallyromantic128]

i did it.

[chornicallyromantic128]

friends are one of the greatest joys in life. cherish a good friendship. they may just save your life.

[alonewolf52]

you are gone,but what i felt is still here.