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18 // enfp // cancer // 444 // priv vent

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me all the time

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free me from the cage that is my mind

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Waco, Texas by Ethel Cain truly unlocks some deep animalistic hurt in me 😭😭 like god damn everytime I listen to this song I feel awkwardly in-tune with my emotions idk if it’s good or bad. I wish more people were into Hayden’s art because it’s so beautiful 😓😓 some of these lyrics are deadass gut wrenching like damn bruh 😭 here’s my favs not that anyone asked lol:

“I hope I die today

Save me from another late night of red eyes”

“Terrified on this side of a conversation

A conversation we'll never come back from”

“How much of a cruel year can you call my fault?”

“Not even the memories are immortal”

“I loved you when it hurt inside to”

“Yeah, you've changed

But did I ever know you?

Or did I hold you

Facing away from me”

“Do you hate me?”

“I've been picking names for our children

You've been wondering how you're gonna feed them”

“Love is not enough in this world”

“'Cause I'd rather die

Than be anything but your girl”

“I never meant to hurt you

But somehow, I knew I would”

“Will it be like this forever?”

“'Cause you're right

I can wait if I want

But it'll never be good enough like I

Want to believe it is, is, is”

[mikesbasementbeets]

Do you want to be friends?

[choverse]

hi this is so me core

[aidashakur]

[aidashakur]

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i feel so sad and unloved when I realize my bf dosent revolve his entire life and feelings around me …😣 but then on the other hand when he’s too clingy at certain moments, I feel so avoidant and want to run (I feel guilty for that too). I wish I could just function and love normally.

[scorpionlafemme]

[teetheater333]

played ptolemaea live without me life isn’t fair

[choverse]

I’ve always believed i was unlovable and if not that, it is of great pain to love me. Despite that, I’ve been given a man who describes the experience of loving me is as easy as breathing. I am not quite sure what I did to deserve such a blessing. But I do know I would kill to be able to relish in his love for the rest of time.

[thoughtkick]

“Go and love someone exactly as they are. And then watch them transform into the greatest, truest version of themselves.”

— Wes Angelozzi

[choverse]

love someone who guides you to fall in love not with only them but yourself aswell

[thoughtkick]

“I think we cry to release the animal parts of us without losing our humanity.”

— Veronica Roth, Insurgent

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tldr: I’ve been bedriddenly sick this past week and my lovely bf has been there for me every minute ❤︎

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I’ve always been the kind of person who takes care of everything on my own. Growing up as an only child, doing things myself was the only option. I never really had anyone to depend on, so I learned early how to handle everything alone.

But lately, being sick and having my love here for me, making sure I’m warm, fed, and comfortable, even helping me with my hair, it’s made me realize how special that kind of care really is. It’s something I didn’t even know I was missing until now.

I also appreciate how patient he’s been with me, even when I can’t stop complaining about how awful I feel. He never gets annoyed or tired of hearing me, he just listens and reassures me. There’s something so sweet about being truly heard—it makes me feel safe in a way I haven’t felt before.

I’ve spent so much of my life being strong out of habit, convincing myself I didn’t need anyone. But it feels different this time. It feels safe, soft, and new. Letting my love take care of me, letting myself depend on him, it’s strange in a way but in the safest, sweetest way possible.

It’s teaching me that being cared for doesn’t make me any less independent. It just means I finally have someone who wants to meet me halfway, and that’s such a comforting feeling

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