intro post!
hello, my name is toby. i use they/them, it/its, and hy/hymn/hys/hymnself pronouns. i am twenty two years old.
i'm a gay aromantic genderqueer lesbian. my gender is very butch if i had to describe it.
i'm mentally ill, psychotic, adhd and autistic. i also am physically disabled. i’m currently learning asl to help with communication issues related to certain disabilities, although most the time i am able to speak english.
i am also part of a system. i'm the only one who uses this blog as far as i'm aware, but i may talk about my headmates, since they are very important to me.
i do generally hold 'delusional' beliefs.
i was a church grim in a past life, n physically looked like a disheveled n bloodied black german shepherd. i have shifted into this form before. i am/was also an angel/angelic being. i often feel phantom angel wings, and do have wings in headspace. i would label myself as alterhuman/nonhuman, both in relation to how i'm literally not human and how i feel othered from humanitiy.
i have a fascination with christianity, and especially angels, because of my delusions. i am also tend to regard myself as a dog in how i talk about my relationship dynamics.
please do not try to reality check me. not only does it do more harm than good, it will not work. i have the ability to label something as a delusion, but in my mind it is completely true.
this blog is like my cooler main (lol). i might talk more on here about my experiences but that's kinda rare. i do tend to talk in the tags though sometimes.
