"Am I a robot or a doll? Am I anything at all?"

"Maybe a soul like me doesn't even need to know." | he/star/they/she | AuDHD | legal criminal | MAKES SUGGESTIVE AND DRUG JOKES. NSFW DNI HOWEVER.

[cintagonisupset]

Hey there! I'm Cin, Cee, Cincee, Himrod, Concord, Casey, Rincle, Star, or whatever name you wanna call me! I use he/star/they/she pronouns and masculine terms and feminine terms in joking manners! I'm transgender male, aroace + romance repulsed, and I am greyromantic.

I have ADHD, suspected autism and I suspect I have some kind of personality disorder. I also suffer from GAD.

My anxiety often presents itself as aggression, I am learning to not be a dick when I am angry or stressed, and I apologise in advance for any aggression I show to others. I have no idea if it's mental health related or personality related

@cintagonisupset-ramble-hub < This is where all my art and rambles go! My main (this blog) is mostly reblogs!

@cintagonisupset-messages < If you can't talk to me for whatever reason, message me here! We may be able to work things out!

Here are some warnings before you interact with me:

I am easily angered, annoyed, and anxious. This results in aggression and large but short angry bursts. I get over these quickly so I will go from angry to fine.

I use a LOT of words!

I swear a lot.

I make lots of suggestive and sexual jokes, if these bother you, let me know! I won't make them around you! I will also tag them as "tw suggestive"

I'm often unaware of my behaviours, let me know if something I do bothers you! This also goes for me overstepping boundaries. I'm working on being better about these things

I speak in caps sometimes! Rarely I am ever mad, I'm just excited or shocked

I need tone tags and use them myself! Not often though

I have trust issues (untrusting and overly trusting)

A lot of what I do seem to be either mental illness related or trauma related

I am very sensitive, but you can treat me like anyone else

Tell me anything that bugs you, even if it's small!

I'm a multishipper!

My DNI

Basic DNI

Pink Corruption, Heroic Six, and other fandoms of Brittany's works are on thin ice I am selective on who I interact with from these fandoms.

Helluva Boss/Hazbin Hotel fans who condone Viv's actions/support her actions will be blocked on sight.

People I have blocked or have me blocked, I won't interact with you either.

People I just don't really like

Anybody who follows, interacts with, associates with, is friends with, or is Goldey (goldeythehamster/golden--goofball). THIS IS FOR MY OWN SAFETY.

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[teaboot]

I hate that thing some people do where it's like. "I left my wallet on the table to see if you'd say anything" or "I wanted to see if you'd wash the car if I stopped doing it"

Cause like

I dont know about anyone else

But I am perpetually hovering three inches above the strong subconscious belief that everyone knows what they're doing at all times except me, so if you change your normal patterns and I notice, then I will assume it is an intentional choice with a thought-out plan behind it and I will avoid interfering

And if I don't notice, because I won't, because why would I, because not much bothers me and if you don't say anything to indicate you are bothered then how would I KNOW

[teaboot]

Alternatives to experimenting on me like a lab rat when you suspect me of being inconsiderate:

"I feel like I'm the only one who does this chore. Can we start taking turns?"

"I'd like you to ask me how I'm doing more often."

"It bothers me when this area stays messy so long. Can you do X when Y happens?"

"I feel like the onus is on me to initiate X, and it's wearing me down. Could you try making the first move more? Like 3-4 times a week?"

"I'm feeling upset right now and I'd like to spend some time with you."

"When X happens, I feel like you're taking my work for granted."

"I'm feeling neglected. Could you do X?"

"I'm burnt out and need help."

"I feel like I'm the only one putting effort into X."

"Do you notice this?"

"Are you bothered by this?"

"I am bothered when this happens."

"X habit of yours bothers me."

"When X is like this, I feel bad. Can you [action] when you notice X?"

[hug-your-face]

[cintagonisupset-ramble-hub]

Friendly reminder:

If you follow or interact with golden--goofball, you are breaking my DNI and putting me in DANGER.

They have been stalking me for a little over a year now.

[kasaneteto]

im getting really fucking sick of all this “it gets better!” bullshit. im going to have depression for the rest of my life. it’s not going to “””get better””” fuck you

[kasaneteto]

i have really great news guys, despite it all

[kasaneteto]

to everyone reblogging this and saying that you’re the exception, or this will never apply to you, you are not alone. back when I made that first text post I felt the same way. but something I realized in between the first half and second half of this post is that it starts with you. it starts with wanting to be done with the misery. it is so much easier to give in to whatever mental health issues you’re dealing with, especially in a world that is built against us. however it is so worth it to not give in. it is so worth it to do things that make you feel good even though it can feel impossible to start. it’s so worth it to fail at something because at least it means you tried.

getting yourself out of the hole is hard, and can feel damn near impossible at your lowest. but it isn’t impossible. i am living proof of this. nobody is responsible for your emotions but you, and if you want to be happy, you have to create your happiness. do whatever you can to surround yourself with joy. not hedonism, but actual joy. accomplishments, good relationships, engagement in healthy hobbies and habits. it can be hard, there’s no denying it, i still struggle myself sometimes. the reward is so worth it. feeling like you’re the best version of yourself is so worth it.

to quote the queen kali uchis: i know it’s hard, but did you even really try?

[showertimereminders]

Putting in the effort to shower when you can will be so worth the effort. Just small things here and there to help yourself feel better. I always found if I could manage to get myself into the shower, I’d feel refreshed after. I’ve used the image like a dirty jar got cleaned. And a little more light would shine in for a bit of time.

[cintagonisupset]

Cintagon's the type of guy to go: "I got stabbed in an alley once" while everyone's eating then proceed to ask Cube what the skibidi rizz ohio is happening

Cube just sits there, TERRIFIED.

[cintagonisupset]

And Cube has to remind him that he's old enough to be his dad, and Cintagon has a whole existential crisis about it

[cintagonisupset]

Cintagon's the type of guy to go: "I got stabbed in an alley once" while everyone's eating then proceed to ask Cube what the skibidi rizz ohio is happening

Cube just sits there, TERRIFIED.

[cali]

2018 tumblr post:

1: why do they call it a boner when theres no bone in it

2: there used to be

3: why does this sound so ominous

2025 tumblr post:

1: forward my shambling soldiers and slay without thinking. let blood flow into every crevice of this rotten land

2: yes my lady

3: yes my lady

[catmask]

meowdy! looks like our move to a new apartment is not going to be so peaceful after all - our old apartment is currently leaking sewage water and we have to evacuate four people and two cats! donations are appreciated, but im opening an emergency sale + commissions too! (more under the cut)

KO-FI SHOP SALE + EMERGENCY COMMISSIONS ARE OPEN!

DISCOUNT CODE IS 'LEAK' IN ALL CAPS

so for this section, i'm going to break down everything thats happening + when things will come off hiatus! i'm hoping that everything will be set up in the new place by JUNE 1st, so that is the hard deadline i'm setting to start all functions up again as usual.

WHAT'S HAPPENING?

two years ago, my fiance and i were offered emergency housing when we (very suddenly and tragically) became the parents to his orphaned little sister. both of us are only 26 and had to move 8 hours from where we had been living at the time, so the housing we had was the best 2 people with few connections and no established jobs could find within a single weeks notice.

since then, we have been saving up and working to finally have a proper place to live. and we did so! at the beginning of this month we found an apartment where all of us can move to. we have a friend staying with us who is helping with the move as well.

i really wanted this move to be seamless - basically, you wouldn't have had to know it was happening. we were going to pay double rent for two months while i would stream and work from the old place, and begin sleeping at the new one. its expensive, but i didn't want my real life to trouble anyone here.

unfortunately this is no longer possible. the old building we were staying at had a pipe begin to leak, then eventually flood our entire apartment. this has been a reoccurring problem the landlord hasn't seemed to find a solution for, and it's led to a biohazard where we were planning on slowly moving from - leading to an immediate and emergency evacuation for the safety of everyone in our family.

SO... STREAMING?

will be back online as soon as possible! we moved out our tech as soon as we could due to fear of water damage, and it seems like everything is A-OK. we just need to rebuild my desk and sound proof the new room, so this will probaaabbly be back online within a week? im just going to take the week off to make sure everything is set up and there are no bugs. (digital. digital bugs.)

LAIKA'S COMET?

for the sake of not losing my buffer crazystyle, i'm pausing laika's until JUNE 1st. but i'm going to post one more page right now to leave you guys on a cliffhanger because i think it's funny. (the ko-fi will still update as regular as i finish pages! tbh, in between moving i am going to be drawing.... a LOT... it's like my only self soothing activity i have access to right now </3)

SHOP STUFF?

you basically won't notice a difference. orders go out every 2 weeks anyway, and literally the day before this happened we completely caught up to date. that + all of the goods we had were already moved over because (similar to the tech) we were worried about water damage, so nothing will be yucky... (i dont know if i can say the same about our furniture or clothes ; _ ; )

FINAL NOTES

while we did manage to get out with emergency bags and a weeks worth of outfits + things to sleep on + cook with, we have no real means of knowing the extent of damage until we bring things out of the apartment and clean them here. thankfully *most* things appear undamaged, its largely the flooring and the smell that are unliveable... walking through puddles of sewage water and having to wear a mask to breathe is not really liveable conditions.

however, considering this move is sped up way faster than planned, and i wont be able to work during it - any sales or donations are hugely appreciated. ; w ;

i'm sorry to ask for help like this, and its only if you are comfortable to do so!!! i can work hard, so i don't mind doing a little extra art to make money, this is just if you feel okay to help out and would like to.

if you read this far, thank you so much - hopefully next time i will return with good news - and maybe a new apartment tour...?

[unikhroma]

how it feels to look at/listen to your own creations and enjoy them and appreciate how far you've come as an artist

[polymoth]

The thing they don't tell you about fried egg runny yolk is that if you put it in a sandwich it will be the best most delicious thing and you can mop up the egg with the bread, but in exchange you Will get so so messy and covered in egg yolk

[bane-of-technology]

[clementine-kesh]

not all character interpretations are valid some of you are sexist

[clementine-kesh]

not all character interpretations are valid some of you are racist

[going2hell4everythingbutbeingbi]

yall gotta learn the difference between "this character is an asshole" and "this character was supposed to be super cool but the author is an asshole" and "this character is a teenage girl who was mean once"

[dramatic-dolphin]

you guys are so fucking stupidddd omg "rapists and pedophiles should be chemically castrated, this is a good thing" quick tell me about historical precedents of this idea and who or what ideology they are connected to......... 🤔

[dramatic-dolphin]

and the thing is you can't argue with these idiots bc they always ""shut down"" every argument with "ummm so you support rapists and pedophiles" like wow guys great job convincing me you're not a reactionary who will cheer fascists as long as they use the right words. i'm sure you actually arrived to this conclusion based on actual reasoning and not revenge fantasies.

[dramatic-dolphin]

IN CASE you don't know why this is bad and would like to bc you aren't a stupid reactionary weirdo:

rape and child molestation have historically been the accusation leveled against any group the group in power doesn't like, exactly because it's a heinous accusation that makes people lose their critical thinking abilities

this includes: gay people being painted as child molesters, black men lynched for allegedly molesting white women, and many more examples.

it is crucial that people will twist the meaning of words to fit the situation. if a black man looks too long at a white woman it is flirting, which is basically the same as molestation. a gay person existing near a child is a sex crime against children, because being gay is inherently sexual. and so on.

when conservatives say "protect the children", this is a dogwhistle. they are counting on you to lose your critical thinking because sex crimes, especially those against children are so heinous.

it is also crucial that these laws NEVER come from an actual intent to protect children/women. the real intent is always, ALWAYS weaponizing it against marginalized groups.

why? because once you have a created a group you can act in inhumane ways towards with full support from the populace (in this case, pedophiles and rapists), it is now in the state's vested interest to classify its opponents as part of that group.

[endogenesis-evangelion]

7. note how the people advocating for harsher laws/sentences against pedophiles keep being outed as actual child abusers.

if the laws and sentences actually worked to stop child abuse, rather than being a smokescreen, they wouldn't advocate for them. if these people thought for one moment that they would be chemically castrated, they wouldn't support it. it's always about the imagined harm others might do, to distract from the real harm they're doing.

also the most famous victim of chemical castration? alan turing. you know, the gay guy, whose crime was being gay, not hurting kids

[ex-riddlecats]

some blogs i follow for fan content but others i am 100% just there for the person so when theyre like oh sorry for turning into a so-and-so blog im like. i would watch you liveblog the phonebook.

[mindblowingscience]

Scientists develop antivenom that neutralizes the neurotoxins of 19 of the world's deadliest snakes

By using antibodies from a human donor with a self-induced hyper-immunity to snake venom, scientists have developed the most broadly effecti

By using antibodies from a human donor with a self-induced hyper-immunity to snake venom, scientists have developed the most broadly effective antivenom to date, which is protective against the likes of the black mamba, king cobra, and tiger snakes in mouse trials. Described in the journal Cell, the antivenom combines protective antibodies and a small molecule inhibitor and opens a path toward a universal antiserum.

Continue Reading.

[charyou-tree]

Ok, that’s fucking wild.

This guy Tim Friede wasn’t any kind of researcher or doctor. He was just a snake collector who thought it would be cool to try and become immune to snake venom by injecting small amounts and working up. For 18 goddamn years. He nearly died at least once.

Later, actual scientists heard about him and realized that since he survived his blood must be full of antibodies that neutralize many kinds of snake venoms. Using a sample of his blood they were able to develop an antibody cocktail that seems to be effective against many types of tropical snake bites, a sort of universal antivenom.

Absolute mad lad benefiting humanity.

[memories]

My body is but a #shitpost temple.

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