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top 10 movies (as of jun.29) : 1. bend it like beckham , 2. before sunset , 3. voicemails for isabelle , 4. the princess diaries , 5. call me by your name , 6. challengers , 7. bones and all , 8. 50/50 , 9. mcfarland usa , 10. the drama
WHAT/WHO I WILL WRITE FOR:
JAMES COOK / SKINS UK , CHRIS STURNIOLO , ART DONALDSON , MOVIE CHARACTERS , SHOW CHARACTERS , ANYONE (ASK BEFORE REQUESTING!) different type of aesthetic!reader , harry potter , smut/fluff/angst , afab reader
WHAT/WHO I DONT WRITE FOR:
CERTAIN KINKS , ANIME , men who have no interest in women WHATSOEVER , family au (?) , breeding kink , rpe , sa , anything without consent , video game characters (idk much) , underage actors/characters , age play (?) , changing someone's sexuality for writing purposes
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pairing: owen brompton x fem!reader
summary: after one disastrous date too many, Owen decides he needs honest feedback—and somehow convinces you, his closest friend, to take him on a practice date. What begins as an awkward evening of supermarket pasta, handwritten assessments, and painfully earnest flirting quickly turns into a kissing lesson neither of you is prepared to treat as pretend.
wc: 8.4k
a/n: i sailed the seven seas last week to watch finding emily since it doesn’t release in the us until august 28th, but i’ll still be catching it in theaters when it does. i missed writing for spike so much—he’s literally why i made this blog, hence the username—and i’m so glad his beautiful, kissable face will be back on the big screen next month. owen was awkward, earnest, hopelessly romantic, and painfully lovable, and spike was easily the best part of the film. i’m usually not a rom-com person because they can be too cheesy, but this one balanced the comedy and heart pretty well. i def plan on writing a few fics for my pathetic wet cat bf <333 now i just have to hold out until 4 Kids Walk Into a Bank, where he plays a bottle blonde bank robber, which is going to make me lose my mind. not beta read.
warnings: explicit sexual content, piv, oral (f!receiving), fingering, handjob (sorta), multiple orgasms, condom use, dirty talk, praise kink, nipple play, messy kissing, light biting, marking, risk of getting caught, first time together, eager to please!Owen, alcohol consumption, friends to lovers, mutual pining, practice date, love confession, getting together, fluff
MASTERLIST
Owen Brompton had been back from his date for exactly eleven minutes before deciding it’d been a catastrophe.
This was impressive, considering he’d spent the first six of those minutes insisting it had gone “reasonably well, actually” while pacing the narrow stretch of carpet between the sofa and the telly with his coat still on. The remaining five had been dedicated to tearing that claim apart in such painful detail that you suspected he’d started preparing the postmortem before the woman had even finished saying goodnight.
“She didn’t laugh.”
You looked up from your corner of the sofa, where you’d been waiting with two cans of cider and an increasingly cold box of chips balanced across your knees. Matt had let you in twenty minutes ago, taken one look at the food in your lap, and announced that Owen had apparently arranged his own emergency response team. He and Freya had disappeared upstairs not long after that, though you’d heard Matt laughing through the ceiling when Owen came stumbling through the front door with the expression of a man returning from war.
“At anything?” you asked.
“She laughed twice.”
“Then she did laugh.”
“Not properly.” Owen stopped pacing long enough to look genuinely offended that you couldn’t understand the distinction. His hair had caught the rain on the walk home, leaving the ends damp and curling around his forehead. “One of them was more of an exhale.”
“That still counts.”
“It absolutely doesn’t. People exhale all the time.”
“They’d die otherwise.”
“That’s not the point.”
He started pacing again.
The front room was small enough that three strides took him from the secondhand sofa to the cluttered shelf where Freya kept framed photos, candles and a ceramic dish full of loose change. Owen’s guitar leaned against the radiator beside one of the speakers he’d spent an entire Sunday repositioning, despite Matt repeatedly threatening to throw both of them into the street. Sheet music and unopened post had spread across the coffee table, and a single sock had somehow ended up on top of Owen’s battered amp.
The ceiling light was off, leaving the room lit by the amber lamp beside you and the blue standby glow from his equipment. Rain ticked faintly against the front window. Somewhere upstairs, a floorboard creaked, followed by Matt’s muffled voice and Freya telling him to leave Owen alone.
Owen pushed both hands through his hair.
“I asked too many questions.”
“You were on a date. Questions are usually encouraged.”
“Not in the manner of a police interview.”
“What did you ask her?”
“What sort of childhood she had.”
You stared at him.
Owen’s shoulders dropped. “It were relevant at the time.”
“To what?”
“We were talking about crisps.”
A laugh escaped before you could swallow it.
His expression sharpened with vindication rather than embarrassment. “See? You’re laughing now. That’s what’s meant to happen.”
“I’m laughing because you somehow interrogated a woman about her formative years over a packet of salt and vinegar.”
“She said she didn’t like them.”
“And that concerned you?”
“It suggested a sheltered upbringing.”
You moved the chips before you spilled them. “Owen.”
“I panicked.”
“I can tell.”
He finally shrugged out of his wet coat and tossed it toward the armchair. It hit the back, slid off and landed in a heap beside the leg. Owen looked at it, seemed to consider picking it up, then apparently decided his romantic failures needed his attention more urgently.
“She was lovely,” he said. “That’s the worst part.”
“How’s that the worst part?”
“Because if she’d been horrible, I could blame her.”
“You can still blame her. I won’t tell anyone.”
“I’m trying to grow.”
“That sounds exhausting.”
“It is.”
Owen dropped onto the sofa beside you. The cushions dipped beneath his weight, nudging your thigh against his, and the damp chill clinging to him came with the smell of rain, lager and whatever cologne he’d put far too much of on before leaving. You’d taken the piss out of him for it when he’d come downstairs earlier, and Freya had agreed with you while Matt stood behind Owen pretending to choke.
Now it had faded into something softer beneath the warmth of his skin.
He reached for one of the ciders and pressed the cold can to his forehead.
“I don’t know what I’m doing wrong.”
“You decide you’re in love before the starters arrive.”
“I didn’t decide I was in love.”
“You sent me a message from the toilet saying she had soulful eyes.”
“That was an observation.”
“You’d known her forty minutes.”
“Some things are immediately apparent.”
You pulled the can away from his face before he could freeze his brain and cracked it open for him. Owen accepted it with a mumbled thanks, still looking personally wounded by the entire concept of dating.
The problem was that you knew he meant it. Owen might dramatize every awkward silence and attach ridiculous significance to minor details, but he never treated affection carelessly. Every crush became a possibility. Every possibility became a whole story he could already hear playing beneath the rest of his life, complete with swelling strings, a key change and the perfect final chorus.
Then reality failed to follow the arrangement, and he came home confused.
“You need practice,” you said.
Owen looked at you over the rim of the can. “I’ve been on dates.”
“That’s not what I said.”
“I know how dates work.”
“You asked a woman what emotional damage led to her crisp preferences.”
“I didn’t phrase it like that.”
“That somehow makes it worse.”
He nudged your knee with his. “All right, then. Dating expert. What do you suggest?”
“You need someone to tell you when you’re being weird.”
“You already do that constantly.”
“Someone who can do it during the date.”
Owen lowered the cider.
His attention sharpened in a way that made you suddenly aware of how closely you were sitting, your legs still touching because neither of you had bothered to move.
You’d known him long enough to recognize the exact second an idea took hold. It appeared first in his eyes, then gathered behind his mouth while he tested the wording. Usually, this process ended with him suggesting something unnecessarily complicated and insisting it was the obvious solution.
“You could,” he said.
You blinked. “I could what?”
“Go on a date with me.”
The words settled between you.
Owen immediately started waving one hand, trying to physically rearrange them into something less dangerous.
“Not a real date.”
“Obviously.”
“A practice one.”
“Right.”
“So you can observe.”
“You make it sound like a wildlife documentary.”
“You know what I mean.”
Unfortunately, you did.
The suggestion should’ve been ridiculous. It should’ve joined the long list of Owen’s ideas that only sounded reasonable after midnight, alongside buying a smoke machine for his bedroom and trying to write an entire song using nothing but things he found in Matt and Freya’s kitchen.
Instead, your stomach tightened.
You covered it with a laugh. “You want me to grade you?”
“Not grade. Just offer constructive feedback.”
“I’m giving you a failing mark already.”
“We haven’t started.”
“You’re arguing with your instructor.”
“I thought you were my date.”
“You can’t afford my rates.”
Owen’s smile appeared slowly, crooked at one corner and far more charming than anything he’d probably attempted across the table that evening. “Come on. It’ll help.”
The ease of his expression didn’t quite hide the way his thumb kept rubbing against the side of the can. Owen was nervous. He was trying not to look it, but you’d spent too many evenings beside him not to notice the little signs: the restless fingers, the slight tilt of his head, the way he filled every silence before it got the chance to reject him first.
You should’ve said no.
Instead, you leaned back against the cushions and pretended to think about it.
“We’d need rules.”
“Course.”
“We pretend we’ve never met.”
“Fine.”
“I’m allowed to stop you whenever you say something embarrassing.”
“That seems unnecessarily broad.”
“You asked for my help.”
“Carry on.”
“You don’t argue with the feedback.”
Owen opened his mouth.
You pointed at him.
He shut it again.
“And nothing that happens during the date counts.”
Something unreadable moved across his face before he nodded. “Because it’s practice.”
“Exactly.”
“Right.”
You held out your hand. “Deal?”
Owen looked at it, then at you.
His palm was warm when he took yours. His fingers closed firmly, lingering a beat longer than a handshake needed to.
“Deal.”
For a man who claimed to need emergency romantic intervention, Owen took the practice date alarmingly seriously.
Matt and Freya were going out on Saturday, which meant Owen had the house to himself for most of the evening. This information arrived in a string of messages that began with Matt and Freya won’t be here and was followed, less than thirty seconds later, by Not that I arranged that and Don’t make it weird.
You arrived just after seven to find the usual clutter from the front room stacked in precarious towers beside the stairs. Owen’s guitar had been moved into the corner. The sock had disappeared from the amp, though you suspected he’d hidden it rather than washed it, and two candles burned inside mismatched glass holders beside plates of supermarket pasta.
Owen had put on a clean shirt.
It was dark green, slightly wrinkled and buttoned incorrectly.
You stood on the front step staring at the uneven collar.
He followed your gaze and looked down.
“Fuck.”
“That’s our first note.”
“The date hasn’t started.”
“You opened the door.”
“Wait there.”
“Owen.”
He shut it in your face.
Movement thudded through the hall, followed by a muffled curse and the unmistakable sound of something being knocked off the little table by the stairs. Less than a minute later, the door opened again.
His shirt was fixed. His cheeks were pink.
“Hello,” he said with painful formality. “You must be…”
“You know my name.”
“We’re pretending.”
“You’re terrible at pretending.”
“Can we start again?”
“You’ve already used your restart.”
“You never said there was only one.”
“This is why people need contracts.”
Owen glanced past you towards the empty pavement before stepping aside. “D’you want to come in?”
You crossed the threshold, and he closed the door behind you.
The candles were excessive for a practice date. So was the bottle of wine waiting in a metal bowl full of rapidly melting ice. A tiny vase stood between the plates with a single flower inside it.
You touched one of the petals.
It was made of fabric.
“Did you buy this?”
Owen pulled out your chair. “It was already here.”
“Why did you own one fake flower?”
“I don’t. Freya does.”
“Does Freya know you stole her fake flower?”
“She said I could borrow it.”
“Did she know what for?”
Owen looked away. “Eventually.”
You could already imagine that conversation.
You sat down, mostly because the tips of his ears had turned red. Owen pushed your chair in with more force than necessary, nearly trapping you against the table, then hurried around to the opposite side. He paused before sitting, apparently trying to remember what people who’d just met were meant to say.
You waited.
He waited.
The candle flame leaned in the draft.
“So,” Owen began, “what sort of childhood did you have?”
You burst out laughing.
His composure broke with a grin. “All right. Had to get it out of the way.”
“That would’ve ended the date immediately.”
“You’re still here.”
“Only because I know where Matt keeps the wine.”
“That’s my wine.”
“Then why did he tell me not to let you open the expensive bottle?”
Owen’s eyes shifted towards the kitchen. “He’s a liar.”
He poured you a glass, briefly missing the rim and splashing a little across the table. You watched him blot it with a tea towel while muttering that this part would be edited out of the official assessment.
Once the initial performance wore off, the evening became surprisingly convincing.
Owen asked normal questions.
Mostly.
He wanted to know which place you’d return to for a single afternoon if distance didn’t matter, what album you wished you could hear for the first time again and whether you thought people were more honest in the dark. The questions were still unmistakably his, too earnest and specific for polite conversation, but they pulled answers from you that he hadn’t heard before.
You’d known Owen for nearly a year. You’d watched him fall asleep against your shoulder during a film and wake up with the seam of your shirt imprinted across his cheek. You’d sat on the floor of his bedroom while he played half-finished melodies and watched your expression before deciding whether he liked them. You knew he hated mushrooms, loved the hum of old amplifiers warming up and pretended not to care when people forgot his birthday.
You also knew he never talked about his mum for long. Her absence still sat quietly throughout the house, in the photographs Freya dusted and the way Matt’s jokes sometimes stopped too suddenly. Owen could turn almost anything into a love story, but grief was one of the few things he couldn’t arrange into music and make sense of.
Still, he surprised you.
Owen listened differently when he imagined he only had one evening to learn you.
His gaze stayed on your face, soft but steady. He didn’t interrupt unless excitement got the better of him, and even then, he always remembered where you’d stopped. He brought up details you’d mentioned months ago and disguised them as guesses, smiling whenever he got one right.
“You’re cheating,” you said eventually.
Owen paused with his fork halfway to his mouth. “How?”
“You already know me.”
“You know me too.”
“That isn’t the point.”
“Seems relevant.”
“You’re using prior knowledge to impress your date.”
“That’s called preparation.”
“No, it’s called fraud.”
He leaned back in his chair, looking far too pleased with himself. Candlelight caught in his eyes and warmed the damp curls near his forehead.
“Are you impressed?”
You took a drink instead of answering.
Owen’s smile deepened.
“That’s not a no.”
“Your pasta’s overcooked.”
“I didn’t ask about the pasta.”
“You should. It’s the main issue currently facing us.”
“Interesting.”
“What?”
“You’re avoiding the question.”
“You’re getting cocky.”
“Is that bad?”
“It can be.”
Owen rested his forearms on the table. “D’you like it?”
Your pulse stumbled.
He asked it lightly, but his attention had changed. The room felt smaller than it had a second ago. Rain whispered against the window, quieter than the other night, and the music playing through Owen’s speakers had reached the space between songs.
You looked down at your wine.
“Your date shouldn’t have to reassure you constantly.”
“That wasn’t feedback.”
“It is now.”
“I think you’re abusing your authority.”
“You asked me to evaluate you.”
“And you’ve been very thorough.”
His voice had lowered.
You lifted your eyes again.
Owen was still smiling, but the nervousness had returned beneath it. You could see it in the tension around his mouth and the way his fingers curled against the table. For all the ridiculous confidence he could find when he was performing, he was waiting for you to decide whether he’d crossed a line.
You could’ve backpedaled.
Instead, you said, “You’re leaning.”
“So are you.”
You realized with some irritation that he was right.
You sat back.
Owen laughed under his breath.
“Don’t look so pleased with yourself.”
“I’m not.”
“You are.”
“I’m receiving mixed feedback.”
“You were doing better before you started congratulating yourself.”
He took another drink, but the glass didn’t hide his smile.
After dinner, Owen cleared the plates while you inspected the handwritten card he’d left beside your place setting.
PRACTICE DATE ASSESSMENT, it read across the top.
Beneath it, he’d drawn several categories with boxes ranging from poor to exceptional.
Conversation.
Table manners.
Emotional availability.
General romantic intrigue.
Kissing.
You held up the card when he came back from the kitchen.
“Kissing?”
Owen nearly dropped the plates.
“It’s a standard category.”
“According to who?”
“Everyone.”
“You made this.”
“Based on accepted criteria.”
“You left all the boxes blank.”
“I assumed you’d fill it in afterwards.”
“You assumed a lot.”
He set the plates down and wiped his hands on his trousers. “You said it was meant to be a full assessment.”
“Dinner. Wine. Candles. Luring me into some elaborate kissing evaluation.”
“I haven’t lured anyone.”
“You shut the door behind me.”
“That’s generally what doors are for.”
“Owen.”
He lowered himself onto the sofa, leaving a very deliberate stretch of cushion between you.
His knee started bouncing.
“It was just a category,” he said.
“You could cross it out.”
“I could.”
Neither of you moved.
The music continued at a low volume. A guitar line drifted through the room, soft enough that you could hear the faint electrical hum beneath it. The candles had burned lower, wax spilling unevenly down the glass holders.
Owen stared at the assessment card in your hand.
Then he said, “I do think it’s relevant.”
“Of course you do.”
“What if that’s what’s going wrong?”
“You think women are rejecting you because of your kissing?”
“I don’t know. No one sends a detailed exit survey.”
“Maybe you should add a link after the next date.”
“I’m being serious.”
That softened you despite your better judgment.
Owen turned towards you, one arm stretched along the back of the sofa. “You said I think too much.”
“You do.”
“So I’m asking.”
“Asking what?”
“Whether you’d let me kiss you.”
The humor left the room so quietly that you almost didn’t notice until it was gone.
Owen’s face had gone very still. His knee had stopped bouncing. Whatever answer he expected, he’d committed himself to hearing it.
You looked at his mouth.
That was your first mistake.
The second was imagining it.
You’d done that before, though never anywhere Owen might see it happening. You’d wondered during late nights when his shoulder pressed against yours, during gigs when the stage lights sharpened every line of him, during conversations that drifted dangerously close to confession before one of you ruined them with a joke.
Wondering had always felt safe because it belonged to you alone.
This didn’t.
“One kiss,” you said.
Owen swallowed.
“For practice.”
“For practice,” he repeated.
“You’re not allowed to make it weird afterwards.”
“I never make things weird.”
“You once apologized to a chair after walking into it.”
“It were someone else’s chair.”
“That doesn’t make it better.”
He moved closer.
Not much. Barely the width of your hand. Still, you felt the shift through the sofa before his thigh touched yours.
Owen looked at you as though he was waiting for another rule.
You should’ve given him one.
Instead, you said, “Well?”
His hand rose towards your face, hesitated for a second, then settled lightly beside your jaw. His fingers were warm. The careful touch sent a far stronger reaction through you than it had any right to.
He leaned in slowly enough for you to stop him.
You didn’t.
Owen kissed you.
It was soft. Almost painfully so.
His mouth brushed yours with cautious pressure, lingering for only a few seconds before he pulled away. His fingertips stayed against your skin. He was close enough that his breath warmed your lips, but his eyes had already opened, searching your expression.
“Well?” he whispered.
You hated how unsteady your voice sounded.
“You were too careful.”
Owen blinked. “Too careful?”
“You asked for feedback.”
“I know. I just…” His gaze dropped to your mouth again. “Wasn’t expecting that.”
“What were you expecting?”
“I don’t know. More technical language.”
“You barely kissed me.”
“I was being respectful.”
“You looked like you were defusing a bomb.”
His eyebrows lifted. “That bad?”
“I didn’t say bad.”
Owen’s thumb moved once along the edge of your jaw.
“No,” he said quietly. “You didn’t.”
The second kiss was different.
He closed the distance before you could make another joke, one hand sliding behind your neck as his mouth found yours with enough certainty to steal the breath you’d drawn. The caution hadn’t disappeared, but it’d changed into control, his attention sharpened by permission.
Your fingers caught in the front of his shirt.
Owen made a low sound against your mouth.
It broke whatever was left of the exercise.
He kissed you again before the last one had properly ended, mouth still warm and damp against yours as he tilted his head and pulled you in until your knees pressed hard against his thigh. His hand slid around your waist, fingers spreading against the small of your back to hold you there while his tongue traced slowly across your lower lip, teasing once before slipping into your mouth the second you opened for him. The taste of wine lingered on him, sharp and sweet beneath the heat of his breath, and the low sound that caught in his throat seemed to vibrate straight through you when your tongue met his. After that, whatever restraint he’d been clinging to disappeared. He kissed you deeper, wetter, his tongue stroking against yours with a hungry, almost desperate rhythm while his grip tightened at your waist and dragged you closer until there wasn’t any space left between your body and his.
Instead, Owen kissed the same way he listened to music: completely, intensely, with his whole attention fixed on every tiny change in rhythm.
By the time you pulled back, your grip had wrinkled his shirt.
Owen’s lips were flushed. His eyes stayed on yours.
“Better?”
The hint of smugness should’ve irritated you.
It didn’t.
“You need more practice.”
He laughed once, breathless, and kissed you again.
The assessment card slipped from your lap and disappeared beneath the coffee table.
Owen shifted closer, following the pull of your body until his chest brushed yours. His hand moved along your side, stopping whenever your breathing changed, learning the response before continuing.
“Is this part of the lesson?” he murmured.
“You wanted practical feedback.”
“I’m committed to improving.”
“You’re talking too much.”
“That’s never been one of the categories.”
“It is now.”
He kissed the corner of your mouth, then your jaw. “And how am I doing?”
You pulled him back by his collar.
“Still under review.”
Owen’s smile disappeared into another kiss.
The worn fabric sofa creaks under the weight of him half-covering you, his mouth hot and wet against your neck. Too hot. Too wet. Too fast. He's kissing you like he's trying to win something, like there's a timer counting down somewhere, and the soft scrape of his barely-there stubble against your skin is the only part of this that actually lands—rough, alive, real.
His breath comes in quick, uneven bursts against your throat, and the hand that had been moving so carefully along your side is suddenly fisted in the cushion beside your hip, knuckles white beneath the thin skin stretched over them, like he’s pulled it away before it could reach for something he doesn’t quite know how to ask for. No longer on your waist. No longer following the line of your thigh. Not touching you at all.
You let him have a few seconds. Enough to register what’s wrong. The way his lips move too fast, skipping over the skin just below your ear where he could’ve stayed for an hour. The way his body hovers instead of settling, all that earlier confidence tightening into restraint as he braces for you to stop him.
Then you do.
“You’re rushing.”
Your voice comes out steady, almost bored, and the effect is immediate. His mouth freezes against your neck. His whole body goes still, arrested and caught mid-motion, like a record needle lifted mid-track.
He pulls back, and the shift in his breathing is sharp. A caught breath. A recalibration.
"What?" He blinks down at you, blue eyes wide and dark in the dim lamp glow, hair falling across his forehead in that shaggy mess that makes him look younger than twenty-three. "I'm—I thought—"
"You thought faster was better." You hold his gaze. "It's not."
His mouth opens. Closes. A flush crawls up his neck, visible even in the low light, and he lets out a breathless laugh that's half-embarrassment, half-relief. "Right. Yeah. No, you're—you're right. I'm just—" He runs a hand through his hair, disheveling it further. "I've been thinking about this all night. All week, actually. Since the pasta."
"I know."
"And I got ahead of myself."
"I know that too."
He laughs again, quieter this time, and the sound is warmer now, less frantic. His hand finally moves, uncurling from the cushion and settling on your hip, palm flat, fingers pressing just enough to feel the heat of you through your shirt.
“Okay. Okay, I hear you. Slower.”
“Slower,” you repeat. “Let it build.”
“Build.” He parrots, saying it like he was testing the word's weight on his tongue. “Right. Build-up. I can do build-up.”
You don't smile, but something in your posture shifts—a softening, a permission. "Show me."
His jaw tightens. Not in frustration. In focus. He drops his gaze to your mouth, then to your throat, then back to your eyes, and this time when he leans in, it's different. Slower. Deliberate. His mouth brushes the corner of yours first—barely a kiss, more a question—then drags down your jaw, lips parted, breath warm against your skin.
He pauses at your pulse point. Breathes there. Lets you feel the weight of him waiting. Then his mouth closes over the spot just below your ear—the one he missed before—and stays. No frantic movement. No rushing. Just the wet heat of his lips, the gentle suction, the soft scrape of teeth that makes your breath catch before you can stop it.
"Better?" he murmurs against your skin, and his voice is lower now, rougher, the nervous edge blunted into something almost cocky.
"Getting there."
He huffs a laugh against your throat, and the vibration of it travels down your spine. His hand slides from your hip to your thigh, fingers splayed, palm pressing heat through the denim of your jeans. He takes his time—one agonizing inch at a time, his thumb tracing a slow arc along the inside seam, feeling the curve of muscle beneath.
The dust motes float in the lamplight, suspended and golden, and the faint smell of rain on pavement drifts through the cracked window—wet asphalt, ozone, the memory of a storm that passed hours ago. His cologne mixes with it, something clean and slightly sweet, and the combination is so specifically him that it makes your chest ache.
His thumb presses higher. Deliberate. Finding the spot where pressure turns into something else, where the seam of your jeans meets the heat of you. Your hips shift before you can think about it. A small movement. Involuntary. He notices. Of course he notices. His thumb stills, then presses harder, exactly where you need it, the pressure of denim against sensitive flesh making your breath stutter. He pulls back just enough to look at you. His eyes are dark now, focused, the boyish softness sharpened into something hungrier. "Yeah? Is this better?"
You don’t answer with words, you answer him with a kiss.
Not a gentle one, but not rushed either. Your hand finds the back of his neck and pulls him down, and your mouth meets his with a hunger that surprises you both, all teeth and tongue and the wet slide of lips finally taking the time to feel each other. He makes a sharp, startled sound against your mouth that melts into a groan as the hand on your hip slides down to your thigh, fingers digging into the denim like he’s afraid you’ll pull away.
You don’t.
His tongue meets yours, and it’s messy, sloppy in the best way, all heat and spit and the taste of the wine from dinner still lingering at the edges. He kisses like he talks when he’s nervous: too much, everything spilling out at once. But there’s something else underneath it now. Something focused. His free hand comes up to cup your jaw, thumb pressing against your cheekbone as he angles your head and kisses you deeper.
“Fuck,” he breathes against your mouth, the word half-lost between kisses. “That’s—you’re—”
He breaks off and kisses you again, harder this time. His tongue slides against yours, wet and insistent, and you feel it everywhere: in the ache between your thighs, in the way your toes curl inside your socks, in the heat spreading steadily through your chest.
“Sorry,” he says, pulling back just enough to look at you, his pupils blown wide. “I’m doing it again, aren’t I? The talking thing. When I get nervous, I just—I talk, and I know I should stop, but the words keep coming and—”
You kiss him quiet.
His laugh vibrates against your lips, and this time, when his hand slides from your jaw down your throat, it’s deliberate. Slow. His fingers trace your collarbone, feather-light, and you shiver.
“Better?” he asks, that hint of cockiness slipping through the nerves again.
“Getting there.”
His grin flashes sharp and bright before he dips his head to your neck.
His mouth finds the spot below your ear again, the one he rushed past the first time, and he works it with a patience that makes your hips lift beneath him. Open-mouthed kisses, the wet heat of his tongue, the careful scrape of teeth that pulls a gasp from you. His hand trails lower, palm gliding down your chest, and when his thumb brushes over your nipple through your shirt, you arch into him.
“Yeah?” He breathes the word against your skin as his fingers find the button of your jeans. “Can I—?”
“Yes.”
The word comes out rough, almost a command, and he doesn't waste time. He has your jeans unbuttoned and unzipped in seconds, his hand sliding inside, palm flat against your belly, then lower. His fingers find the heat of you through your underwear, and he groans—a low, desperate sound that sends a pulse of heat straight to your core.
"You're so wet," he murmurs, and there's wonder in his voice, like he can't quite believe this is happening. "I can feel it through—you're soaking, and I've barely even—"
He presses harder, his middle finger finding your clit through the damp fabric, and you bite your lip to keep from making a sound.
"Don't do that," he says, looking up at you, and his eyes are dark and serious. "I want to hear you."
He pushes your underwear aside and slides a finger inside you—slow, deliberate, watching your face the whole time. The stretch of it, the wet slide, the way your breath catches and your head falls back against the sofa cushion—he takes it all in, pupils dilating, mouth falling open.
"Christ," he whispers, and his voice is wrecked. "You feel—you're so tight, and so wet, and I haven't even—" He pushes a second finger in, and you gasp, your hips rolling against his hand. "Is that good? Tell me that's good."
"It's good." The words come out strangled. "Owen—"
He groans at the sound of his name, and his fingers curl inside you, finding that spot that makes your vision go white at the edges. He works you slowly, deliberately, his thumb circling your clit in time with the thrust of his fingers, and you can feel yourself getting closer, the heat building in your belly like a coil winding tight.
"Not yet," you manage, and your hand closes around his wrist, stopping him. "If you make me come like this, I'm going to be useless for the rest of the night."
He laughs, breathless and bright. "That's the goal, though. Isn't it?"
"The goal is mutual."
Something shifts in his expression—a softening, a warmth that cuts through the heat. "Yeah?"
"Yeah."
He pulls his hand out of your jeans, and you feel the loss of it like a physical ache. He brings his fingers to his mouth, and you watch, transfixed, as he licks them clean, his eyes never leaving yours.
"You taste incredible," he says, and there's no shyness in it. No nervous chatter. Just fact. "I want to taste you properly. I want my face between your legs until you can't remember your own name."
The words hit you like a punch to the chest, and you're already reaching for the hem of his shirt, pulling it up over his head. He helps you, tossing it aside, and then his hands are on your shirt, tugging it off, and the cool air hits your skin as he unclips your bra and slides the straps down your shoulders.
He stops. Stares.
"Jesus," he breathes, and his voice is reverent. "Your tits are—" He swallows, hard. "Can I—?"
You nod, and his mouth is on you before you finish the movement. He takes your nipple into his mouth, tongue circling, sucking gently, and the sensation arcs through you like electricity. His hand finds your other breast, thumb rolling over the peak, and you moan—a real sound, raw and unguarded.
He groans against your skin, the vibration making you arch into him, and his hand slides down your stomach, back into your jeans. He finds you wet and ready, and he pushes a finger inside you again, then two, fucking you slowly as his mouth works your nipple.
"Owen." His name comes out broken, desperate. "I need—"
He pulls back, looks at you with dark, hungry eyes. "What do you need?"
"I need you to fuck me."
The words hang in the air between them, raw and honest, and something in his expression shifts—a crack in the confidence, a flash of the earnest boy underneath. "Yeah?"
"Yeah."
He looks around the living room, at the sofa, the lamp, the dust motes still floating in the golden light. Then he looks back at you, and there's a smile playing at the corner of his mouth—nervous and hopeful and so fucking endearing it makes your chest ache.
"We should—" He runs a hand through his hair, disheveling it further. "My room. Upstairs. Because if Matt and Freya come home and find us going at it on the sofa, I will actually die. And not in a sexy way. In a 'my brother will never let me live this down' way."
You laugh, and it breaks something open between you, the tension easing into something warmer. "Lead the way."
He stands, offers you his hand, and you take it. He pulls you up, and you're both half-undressed, flushed and breathing hard, and the absurdity of it hits you—standing in his living room, jeans unbuttoned, bra discarded, about to follow him up the stairs like this is the most natural thing in the world.
His hand stays wrapped around yours as he leads you up the narrow staircase, his bare back warm in the dim light. His room is at the end of the hall—small, cluttered, an acoustic guitar propped in the corner and sheets tangled on the bed. He kicks the door shut behind you, and the click of the latch feels like a seal.
He turns to face you, and for a moment, he just looks at you. Takes you in. The flush on your chest, the way your jeans hang loose on your hips, the mark he left on your neck.
"This isn't practice anymore," he says quietly. "I need you to know that. Whatever this is—it's not a lesson. It's not feedback. It's me wanting you so badly I can barely think straight."
Your heart hammers against your ribs. "I know."
"Good." He steps closer, his hands finding your waist, sliding under the waistband of your jeans. "Because I don't think I could fake it if I tried."
He kisses you again, deep and slow, and his hands push your jeans down over your hips. They fall to the floor, and you step out of them, standing in just your underwear as he pulls back to look at you.
"Fuck," he breathes. "You're so beautiful."
You reach for his belt, unbuckling it with clumsy fingers, and he helps you push his jeans down. His cock springs free, hard and leaking, and you wrap your hand around it without thinking. He gasps, his head falling back, and you feel the weight of him in your palm, the heat, the throb of his pulse.
"Assessment," you say, and your voice is steadier than you feel. "You're very hard. That's a good sign."
He laughs, breathless, and his hand covers yours on his cock. "Yeah? What else?"
"Good size." You stroke him slowly, watching his face. "Nice shape. Looks like it would feel good inside me."
He groans, his hips thrusting into your hand. "Fuck. You can't just—say things like that. I'll—"
"You'll what?"
He doesn't answer. He pulls you onto the bed, your bodies tangling in the sheets, and his mouth finds yours again, hungry and desperate. His hand slides between your legs, pushing your underwear aside, and he groans when he feels how wet you still are.
"I need to taste you," he says, and it's not a request. "I need my mouth on your pussy. Right now."
He doesn't wait for an answer. He slides down the bed, his mouth trailing down your stomach, and when his tongue finally touches you, you cry out. He eats you like he's starving, like he's been thinking about this for weeks, his tongue finding every sensitive spot, his fingers curling inside you as his mouth works your clit.
You're close again, the heat building, and you feel yourself tightening around his fingers. "Owen—I'm going to—"
He doubles down, his tongue flat against you, his fingers fucking you faster, and you come with a gasp that turns into a moan, your hips bucking against his face as the orgasm rips through you. He works you through it, licking gently as you shudder, and when he finally surfaces, his mouth is slick and his eyes are dark and satisfied.
"Assessment," he says, grinning. "You taste incredible. Ten out of ten. Would enthusiastically eat again."
You laugh, breathless, and pull him up for a kiss. You taste yourself on his lips, and it's intimate in a way that makes your chest tight. Your hand finds his cock again, stroking him slowly, and he groans against your mouth.
"Condom," you murmur. "Do you have—"
"Nightstand. Top drawer."
You reach over, fumbling blindly, and your fingers close around the box. You pull one out, tear it open with your teeth, and he watches you roll it down his length with an intensity that makes you shiver.
He positions himself between your legs, the head of his cock pressing against you, and he pauses. Looks at you.
"You sure?"
"I'm sure."
He pushes in, slow, and the stretch of it makes you gasp. He's bigger than you expected, filling you completely, and he pauses when he's fully inside you, his forehead pressed against yours, both of you breathing hard.
"Fuck," he whispers. "You feel—I can't—"
He starts to move, slow at first, his hips finding a rhythm that makes your eyes roll back. He kisses you as he fucks you, deep and messy, his tongue sliding against yours in time with his thrusts.
"Harder," you breathe, and he obliges, his pace quickening, the sound of skin slapping skin punctuating the air. His hand finds your clit, rubbing in tight circles, and you feel yourself climbing toward another orgasm.
"Come for me," he says, his voice rough and desperate. "I want to feel you come on my cock."
The words undo you. You shatter, your cunt clenching around him, and he groans, his thrusts becoming erratic as he follows you over the edge, his body shuddering as he comes inside you.
He collapses onto you, his weight a warm pressure, his face buried in your neck. You feel his breath, hot and uneven, and your hands find his back, tracing the lines of his shoulder blades.
After a long moment, he pulls out, disposes of the condom, and returns to the bed, pulling you against him. The sheets are tangled, the room smells like sex, the rain having stopped by the time the room went quiet again.
The rain had stopped by the time the room went quiet again, leaving you with the soft whir of Owen’s laptop on the desk and the occasional car moving through the wet street outside. The candles downstairs had probably burned themselves out, the abandoned pasta plates were still beside the sink, and somewhere beneath the coffee table was an assessment card neither of you had finished.
Owen lay on his back with one arm beneath your shoulders, his other hand moving absently along your arm and tracing the same path over and over, as though he needed the reassurance of finding you there each time. His hair was a mess against the pillow, and he looked exhausted, pleased and increasingly troubled.
You watched the concern gather across his face.
“You’re thinking,” you said.
Owen looked at you. “I do that sometimes.”
“You’re doing it loudly.”
“I haven’t said anything.”
“You don’t need to.”
He stared up at the ceiling again. For the first several minutes after he’d pulled you against him, he hadn’t been able to stop smiling, but then you’d made the mistake of mentioning the date. Not what had happened afterward, but the date itself. Owen’s arm had tightened around you when you jokingly announced that he’d passed and was officially ready to try the real thing with someone else.
You hadn’t expected him to go quiet.
“So,” you said, trying to drag the mood back toward something safer, “final assessment.”
“Right.”
“Conversation was good once you stopped behaving like you’d memorized a list of interview questions.”
“Generous.”
“Table manners need work.”
“That wine glass was unstable.”
“You elbowed it.”
“The table’s too small.”
“General romantic intrigue…”
Owen turned his head toward you, and you stretched the pause out until his mouth twitched.
“Acceptable,” you said.
“Acceptable?”
“You shouldn’t argue with the feedback.”
“After everything I’ve done for this course?”
“You’re getting marked down for attitude.”
“I cooked.”
“You boiled pasta until it turned to mush.”
“I bought a flower.”
“You stole Freya’s.”
“I had permission.”
“It was fake.”
“It’ll last longer.”
The reply was so painfully Owen that something tightened beneath your ribs, and you looked away before he could see it.
“And kissing?” he asked.
“You’re very invested in that category.”
“I value comprehensive results.”
“You passed.”
“Just passed?”
“Owen.”
He smiled, but it faded before it had the chance to settle.
“And that’s it?”
The question was quiet enough to change the air between you.
You pushed yourself onto one elbow. “What d’you mean?”
“We finish the assessment. I’m apparently ready to be inflicted on the general public, and you go home.”
“That was the arrangement.”
“I know.”
Owen’s fingers stopped moving against your arm. It should’ve been easy to tease him after he’d given you enough material to last for weeks, from the handwritten evaluation card to Freya’s immortal fabric flower downstairs, but instead, you studied his face.
“You’re upset.”
“No.”
“You are.”
“I’m thinking.”
“You’ve already admitted that means you’re upset.”
“I admitted nothing of the sort.”
“Owen.”
He let out a long breath and rubbed one hand over his face.
“This was a stupid idea.”
Your stomach dropped. “You’re the one who suggested it.”
“Exactly. Historically, that should’ve warned us.”
“You didn’t seem to think it was stupid an hour ago.”
“That was before.”
“Before what?”
He gave you a look, and heat climbed into your face, but you refused to back away from the question.
“Owen, it was your rule too. Nothing counted.”
“I never said that.”
“You agreed.”
“I repeated what you said.”
“That’s usually how agreeing works.”
“I didn’t want to argue.”
“You always want to argue.”
“Not when you were offering to go on a date with me.”
The words came out sharper than everything else, and Owen closed his eyes beneath your stare, seeming to realize there was no way to drag the admission back. His hand dropped onto the duvet, fingers curling into the fabric.
“What does that mean?” you asked.
Owen opened his eyes again but didn’t look at you. “It means I wanted the date.”
“You needed practice.”
“No, I didn’t.”
A startled laugh escaped you. “You spent an entire evening listing everything you did wrong.”
“Yeah, well, there’s no shortage of material.”
“So you invented the practice date?”
“I didn’t invent the concept.”
“You tricked me.”
“I didn’t trick you.”
“You made a form.”
“That was for structure.”
“You put kissing on it.”
He finally looked at you, frustration and embarrassment fighting across his face. “Because I wanted to kiss you.”
The room went still.
Owen swallowed, but once the confession had started, it seemed to pull the rest out with it.
“I wanted to take you out,” he said. “I wanted to buy you dinner and sit across from you while you laughed at me. I wanted to know what’d happen if I asked you to kiss me. But I couldn’t ask you on a real date, because if you said no, I’d still have to see you all the time and pretend it didn’t bother me.”
“Owen…”
“And this seemed safer.”
“You thought sleeping with me on a fake date would be safer?”
“I didn’t plan that far ahead.”
“You made an assessment card.”
“That’s different.”
“How?”
“I planned the date. I didn’t plan…” He gestured vaguely between you, the duvet slipping lower across his chest. “Everything.”
You sat up farther, pulling the sheet with you.
“So you didn’t need dating help.”
“I probably do need dating help. Just not for the reason I said.”
“What reason, then?”
Owen’s expression softened into something almost apologetic.
“Because when I like someone, I become a complete nightmare.”
Your irritation cracked. “A nightmare?”
“You know what I mean.”
“I really don’t.”
“I get ahead of myself. I think about everything all at once, then I try to act normal, but in my head I’m already imagining how they’ll fit into my life, and apparently that’s considered intense.”
“Generally, yeah.”
“You’re doing a terrible job of reassuring me.”
“You lied to me about why we were doing this.”
“I created a controlled romantic environment.”
“You manipulated me with supermarket wine.”
“It wasn’t cheap.”
“The label was peeling off.”
“It tasted fine.”
You tried to stay annoyed, but Owen watched your mouth betray you.
“You’re smiling,” he said.
“I’m not.”
“You are.”
“I’m considering suffocating you with this pillow.”
“That’s still emotional investment.”
You shoved his shoulder, and Owen caught your wrist before you could do it again. His grip was gentle, but he didn’t let go.
“I’m sorry,” he said, the humor disappearing from his voice. “I should’ve just asked you.”
“Yes.”
“I was scared you’d say no.”
“You had no reason to think I’d say yes.”
His face fell so quickly that you nearly laughed again.
“That’s not the same as saying I wouldn’t have,” you clarified.
“Oh.”
Owen’s ears turned red. Despite everything that had happened, despite the confidence he’d found once you touched him, that single syllable contained the same awkward man who’d buttoned his shirt wrong before opening the front door.
You lowered yourself beside him again.
“This was still a terrible plan.”
“I know.”
“The fake flower was unsettling.”
“I’ll give it back to Freya.”
“The pasta was awful.”
“You had two portions.”
“I was hungry.”
“The kissing category was obvious.”
“I panicked while making the form.”
“And you could’ve saved yourself a ridiculous amount of trouble by asking me on a real date.”
Owen’s thumb brushed across the inside of your wrist.
“Would you have said yes?”
You let him wait.
It was cruel, maybe, but after a year of watching Owen build entire romances out of glances and coincidences, it felt fair to leave him without the ending for a few seconds.
“Yes,” you said.
His face changed, relief appearing first, then disbelief, followed by the beginning of a smile so open and boyish that you suddenly understood why he kept risking humiliation for the possibility of feeling exactly this.
“You would?”
“You’re ruining it.”
“Sorry.”
“You’re doing it again.”
“Right. Calm.”
Owen visibly tried to rearrange his expression into something more restrained, but he failed, and you laughed as you leaned down to kiss him. His hand immediately settled behind your neck, keeping you there when you tried to pull back; the kiss stayed soft, but there wasn’t any uncertainty left in it, and Owen smiled against your mouth before following you in for one more quick kiss when you finally drew away.
“Tomorrow,” you said.
“What about it?”
“You can take me on a real date.”
Owen’s eyebrows lifted. “Thought we just had one.”
“This one didn’t count.”
“It counted to me.”
The simple certainty behind it left you quiet for a second, and Owen looked far too pleased with himself, so you recovered by pulling the pillow from behind him and pressing it into his face until his laughter came muffled through the fabric.
“Tomorrow,” you repeated. “Start over. No forms, no false pretenses and preferably edible food.”
He dragged the pillow down far enough to look at you.
“Can there still be kissing?”
“We’ll see how you behave.”
“I think my previous assessment should carry over.”
“You’re assuming you passed.”
“You said I passed.”
“I’ve reconsidered.”
“That’s completely unethical."
“You slept with your dating coach.”
Owen tossed the pillow aside and pulled you against him again. “You let your student kiss you.”
“You asked if you could.”
“And you said yes.”
“Only for educational purposes.”
“Course.”
His grin had become unbearable.
You placed one hand over his mouth, but Owen kissed your palm, then your wrist, his expression softening as he looked at you.
“For the record,” he said, “I’m glad you’re a terrible teacher.”
“And why’s that?”
“Because I haven’t learned a thing.”
You narrowed your eyes, and Owen tightened his arm around your waist before you could reach for the pillow again.
“Except,” he added quickly, “that you’ll go out with me tomorrow.”
You settled back against his chest, listening to the quick beat beneath your ear.
“That depends.”
“On what?”
“Whether you’re planning to interrogate me about crisps.”
hiiii i was wondering if you write smut? i looovee harry and he's soo underrated it's hard to find good smut for him and like good series for him:((.
late at night ౨ৎ
summary: after another late night at work, harry comes home exhausted. you can't sleep, all you want is a little attention from him, so you wake him up.
warnings: after war, smut, established relationship, dom harry, thigh riding, fingers in mouth, praise kink, p in v.
a/n: i noticed i really like to write adult harry. this request was my excuse to post this btw.
hjp masterlist.
"harry..." you were nuzzling into his neck like a cat, his arm still wrapped around your waist as the two of you slept — or at least, you tried to.
it had been a hard night for you.
harry had gotten home late from work, again, and you had missed him badly. you had gotten used to spending less time with him, to his irregular schedule, to having less intimacy because of his job. you didn't blame him; being an auror was hard, and it demanded a lot from him. but that didn't mean it stopped hurting.
"hmm," he hummed, barely conscious as he felt you calling for him.
you insisted, your lips pressing softly against his cheek before trailing down to his neck. "can't sleep," you whined.
it was almost 1am, and you felt guilty for waking him up. at least he didn't have to work tomorrow since it was the weekend, you thought.
harry sighed, pulling you closer against him with his arm. he tilted his head, giving you more room against his skin as his eyes slowly fluttered open.
"i noticed," he murmured. harry knew you better than anyone, and he'd already noticed how restless you'd been. he always did.
one thing led to another... and somehow, you ended up sitting on his thigh, riding it. your clothed clit, still hidden beneath your panties, rubbed perfectly against the hard muscle, making your breath hitch.
"god, you're so needy," he groaned. you hated how much you liked that rough edge in his voice. "you couldn't even wait, could you? you had to wake me up for this? to make you feel good like the greedy girl you are?"
"m' sorry... m' sorry," you could only whimper.
your eyes fluttered shut, your head tipping back toward the ceiling as your vision began to blur — your mind going completely blank — while your hips kept moving. even if you wanted to stop, his firm hand on your hip made it impossible.
after a moment, his other hand left your chest to cup your face, making you look at him. you let out a small sound at the sudden movement.
"look at me when i'm talking to you." his thumb slid across your lower lip, his gaze following the movement. his eyes were dark now.
you looked at him with wide eyes, a faint frown of pleasure written across your face.
he slipped his thumb past your lips, and you took it into your mouth, never once breaking eye contact. you hummed softly around the digit, sucking gently on it, and heard him swear under his breath.
"hm, good girl," he praised, and your whole body went pliant, practically melting on top of him at the sound of his voice.
his tone was softer than usual. only you ever got to see this side of him—your harry, more confident in himself, more certain, determined to ruin you.
he slipped his thumb from your lips, now damp with your saliva, and gently rubbed your jaw as it went slack with the warmth pooling between your legs.
you were already a mess, just from grinding against his hard thigh. one of his hands remained firm on your hip, sliding to your waist only to guide you into moving harder.
"gonna come like this, sweetheart? so desperate, and i haven't even touched you properly," he says, though you caught the slight breathlessness in his voice, the way he was just as affected by this as you were.
you shook your head. "no... please. want you... need you, please," you whined, your hips rolling harder.
it wasn't that you didn't want to come; you could feel the knot in your stomach tightening, threatening to snap, but you wanted him. you wanted to feel him, to be taken by him.
his jaw tightened at the sound of your voice, your needy, desperate tone as you kept grinding shamelessly against his thigh.
"fuck... you're gonna drive me insane."
with a groan, he rolled you onto your back, making you gasp as the pleasure from his thigh disappeared. his hips pressed against yours instead, and you could feel the bulge beneath his trousers pressing perfectly where you needed him most, making you shift beneath him.
his hands quickly slipped beneath your nightgown, his fingertips tracing along your ribs while his lips found that spot just behind your ear that always stole your breath away.
your legs wrapped around his waist, pulling him closer than ever, while your hands tangled into his hair, needing something to hold onto as his kisses slowly made their way down your neck.
one of his hands came up to cup your breast, gently squeezing the soft flesh, drawing a whimper from your lips as his thumb brushed over your already hardened nipple.
he leaned back just enough to look at you, pressing an almost sweet kiss to your lips while his fingers played with your other breast. when he pulled away, you looked up at him with a pout and furrowed brows, holding back a whine as he continued teasing you.
"don't give me that look," he raised an eyebrow.
"don't tease," you tried to sound stern, but your big, pleading eyes betrayed you.
his hand slid down to the waistband of your panties, cupping you through the fabric before tracing a finger over the damp patch.
"oh, poor baby... so wet she can't even handle a little teasing, hm?" he teased, his lips brushing against your cheek. you could feel the twitch of his smirk against your skin as his thumb pressed gently against your clothed clit, drawing another whine from your lips.
he chuckled, the sound almost dark, and finally slid your panties down your legs.
your frustration was quickly replaced by the tip of his cock gliding through your folds.
you were so lost in him that you didn't even notice when his trousers had come off, or when the slow press of him began stretching you.
"harry..." you whimpered, your eyes widening as you felt him sink all the way in, not giving you a second to adjust.
"i know, i know..." his lips pressed against your cheekbone, then your jaw, trying to distract you as he began moving in and out of you with an almost rough rhythm. "merlin... i swear, feels s' good," he mumbled between grunts, his lips brushing over your skin.
your fingers tangled tightly in his hair, your nails digging lightly into his skin as you searched for something to hold onto, wanting to keep him as close as possible. your eyes rolled back, your head falling against the pillow as he kept hitting that sweet spot inside you.
"you get so impatient... always end up fucking you. can't help it," he murmured, his voice softer this time as he noticed just how far gone you were.
with a gentle tug on his hair, you pulled him down into a kiss. your lips met sloppily, all teeth and tongue. your mind had gone completely blank, only able to feel him—the way he hooked your thigh higher around his waist to sink even deeper, the warmth of him brushing your walls with every thrust, the quiet little grunts slipping from both of you between kisses. it was overwhelming, in the best way.
you leaned back just enough to catch your breath, feeling him so deep it stole every bit of air from your lungs. his hand left your thigh for a moment, sliding over your stomach, his thumb stroking your skin without his rhythm faltering.
"feel me there, love? all deep inside you?"
you did. and the thought alone made you clench around him even tighter. "yeah, yeah," you nodded.
your noses brushed together, and all you could do was nod as you whimpered helplessly, biting down on your lower lip.
"fuck, harry..." the only thing leaving your lips, besides desperate little sounds, was his name. and god, he loved it. loved knowing he could have that kind of effect on you—the same one you always had on him.
his nose brushed beneath your ear, his own breathing growing uneven. "c'mon... cum for me. let me feel you around me, sweetheart," he groaned, holding himself back. he always wanted you to come first.
you could barely hold on any longer, finally letting go around him with a soft cry, your head tipping farther back into the pillow, your nails pressing firmly into his back.
harry followed only moments later with a low grunt, spilling inside you.
his body went limp above yours, your heartbeats gradually falling into the same rhythm. for a few seconds, the only sound filling the room was the quiet rise and fall of your breathing. your fingers remained tangled in his hair, still resting there as though they belonged.
after a moment, he leaned back, pressing a gentle kiss to your forehead before carefully moving away. when you opened your eyes, harry was between your thighs, cleaning you up. you sighed softly, watching him through heavy, sleepy eyes, already drifting off.
he noticed how drowsy you'd become, how you were already on the verge of falling asleep, and gently pulled you back against his chest, wrapping his arms around you.
"sleepy now?" he asked, brushing a few strands of hair away from your face so he could look at you properly.
you only hummed, already half asleep.
"you tired me out."
"sorry, got a little carried away," he said warmly, his eyes softening as he pressed a kiss to the top of your head. "love you."
you snuggled even closer, a lazy smile spreading across your lips.
"love you too."
finally, sleep claimed you, and you drifted off peacefully in his arms.
i've been binge watching riverdale for the first time and the soundtrack is so good omf im jealous. i love it. why does no one write for jughead btw ..
pairing: james cook x fem!reader
summary: When you show up at the bakery after hours certain your boyfriend has forgotten your first anniversary, you’re already halfway to heartbreak. But behind the flour, the bad attitude, and the long day, James Cook been planning a surprise of his own—one that turns the empty shop and the flat above it into the hottest, softest night of your relationship.
wc: 8.3k
a/n: here’s my fic for the two cakes event hosted by our lovely fox <333 the prompt was: age gap, anniversary, bakery. i know cook owning a bakery is not the most obvious career path in the world lmao, but i loved the chance to lean into his softer, domestic side while still keeping that canon cook edge. fingers crossed he doesn’t feel too ooc—bone apple teeth!! not beta read.
warnings: established relationship, age gap, rough sex, dirty talk, praise kink, possessive Cook, oral (f!receiving), fingering, piv, unprotected sex, creampie, softdom Cook, tender smut, anniversary sex, little bit of angst in the beginning, baker!Cook being disgustingly soft
MASTERLIST
The bell over the bakery door gave its usual tired little jangle when you pushed inside, thin and bright against the hush of the closed shop.
It was late enough that the high street had gone soft around the edges. Streetlights shone in streaks across the front windows, gold against the dark glass, and the sign hanging in the door had already been flipped to CLOSED. The front counter sat neat for once, display case mostly empty save for a few lonely pastries under glass and a row of loaves cooling on the rack by the wall. The real heat of the place was in the back, though, where the kitchen lights still burned warm and white and the air held onto the day’s labour—bread and sugar and butter, burnt coffee at the bottom of a pot, a dusting of flour so fine it seemed built into the room itself.
Cook was behind the counter with his back half-turned, shoulders broad under a black T-shirt gone soft with wear, apron tied loose and low over his jeans. Sleeves shoved up. Forearms dusted pale. He was bent over the till, counting notes with his mouth pulled into that sharp, distracted line he wore when he was working and somebody had the misfortune of existing near him.
He looked up at the sound of the bell.
That look hit first, same as it always did—quick and direct and a little too intense, like your presence landed somewhere under his ribs before it ever reached his face. But all he said was, “Door’s locked behind you.”
No smile. No kiss. No there you are. No happy anniversary.
Just that.
You pushed the door shut and heard the bolt catch. “Nice to see you too.”
He snorted once, attention already dropping back to the till. “Didn’t say it weren’t.”
There was a paper bag tucked under your arm, still warm at the bottom from the takeaway cartons inside. You’d nearly not brought it. Nearly not come at all, actually. Nearly gone home and told yourself you were above sulking over something as stupid as a date on a calendar.
Only that would’ve been a lie, and you were tired of lying to yourself tonight.
All day long you’d been waiting for some sign—some text, some wink, some half-smirked comment that proved he knew what day it was. You hadn’t expected flowers. God, not from him. You weren’t deranged. This was Cook, not some polished bloke in an advert with a watch and a reserve wine list. But you had expected something. A phone call. A filthy remark over morning coffee. A muttered got plans later spoken like it was accidental and not at all a big deal.
Instead he’d been short with you when you stopped in before lunch, more concerned with a busted delivery and a tray of croissants that’d gone too dark than he had been with anything else. He hadn’t texted all afternoon. Hadn’t rung. Hadn’t even sent one of his useless, two-word messages that usually turned your phone screen into something stupidly precious just by virtue of coming from him.
And still, like an idiot, you’d put on the nice bra.
You set the paper bag on the counter and shrugged off your jacket. “Brought food.”
“Yeah?” He licked his thumb and flicked to the next note. “For me?”
“No, James, I just hate carrying cash.”
“Funny girl.”
You leaned your hip against the counter and watched him count. The radio in the back was playing low enough to be more mood than music, some old song with a rough guitar line under it. The fridge hummed. Somewhere in the kitchen metal ticked as trays cooled. It would have been cozy if your stomach hadn’t felt so annoyingly heavy.
“How bad was it?” you asked.
“What?”
“The day.”
He shoved the till drawer shut with his hip. “Could’ve stabbed three people by noon.”
“Only three?”
“Business is slow.”
That got the smallest twitch out of your mouth, though not enough to count as a smile. He glanced at you then, brief and sidelong, as if checking whether he’d managed to drag one out anyway.
“You eaten?” he asked.
“Not really.”
He nodded toward the bag. “What’d you get?”
You told him. He grunted approval like you’d passed some test you hadn’t known you were taking. Then he came around the counter, close enough that the heat off him reached you before his hands did, and snagged the bag to peek inside.
His knuckles brushed yours. Casual. Barely there. It should not have mattered half as much as it did.
“Chips’ll go limp in a minute,” he said.
You looked at him. “Tragic.”
“Heartbreaking.”
He set the bag back down but stayed close for a beat too long. Up this close he smelled like coffee and warm flour and the faint trace of nicotine that never quite left him, no matter how often he washed his hands. There was something almost unfair about it, the way he could look like this—tired, messy, blunt as a brick—and still make your whole body feel awake.
A year together, and that part hadn’t gone anywhere. If anything it had only gotten worse.
He moved away before you could say anything to ruin the moment by needing too much from it. He crossed into the kitchen, grabbed a cloth, and started wiping down the stainless counter nearest the ovens.
You followed more slowly, trying not to look like you were following.
The back room was warmer, the light brighter. Bowls nested by the sink. Cooling racks lined with trays. A faint sheen of butter on one worktop where he’d obviously been finishing something. There was a white cake box in the corner near the tall fridge, lid closed, neat enough to look important.
Your eyes snagged on it before you could stop them.
Probably an order for tomorrow, you told yourself.
Obviously.
Cook noticed anyway. He noticed everything, more than he liked to admit.
“What?” he said, wiping at the counter with one hand.
“Nothing.”
“You’re starin’.”
“At a box.”
“Right. Mental behaviour, that.”
You folded your arms. “You’re the one making it weird.”
He shot you a look over his shoulder, mouth twitching. “You came in here weird.”
That pricked. “Did not.”
“Did.”
“Maybe I’ve just had a long day.”
“Mm.”
That stupid little sound. Not quite agreement, not quite disbelief. Just enough to say he’d clocked you and was filing it away for later.
You moved to the rack by the window, where a tray of danishes sat cooling under a towel. Your favourite ones. Apricot with that glossy jam finish and the sugar scattered over in a way that was almost careless if you didn’t know better.
Your chest gave a small, ridiculous turn.
“You made those again.”
“Yeah,” he said. “And?”
“You said last week you were sick of laminating dough.”
“I say loads of things.”
“You did. You called it a bastard of a process and threatened to start buying them in frozen.”
He scrubbed at a spot on the counter harder than it needed. “Maybe I fancied proving a point.”
“To who?”
He looked at you full on then, blue eyes sharp, hair fallen a bit into his face. “Must there be a who?”
You should have said something clever. Instead you just stood there, too aware of the heat in the room and the little pulses of almost-meaning that kept rising and vanishing before you could get hold of them.
He went back to cleaning. You went back to pretending not to care.
It was absurd, really. You were in your early twenties, not some teenager with a crush, and James was pushing thirty with a business to run and keys to the place jangling in his pocket. This wasn’t some new thing. You lived half your week above this bloody bakery anyway, clothes in his drawers, shampoo in his shower, your mug shoved in among his mismatched collection in the kitchen upstairs. You knew how he loved—crookedly, loudly, without polish. In action more than words. In the way he always slid your coffee across the table already made right. In the way he kept your charger at the flat because you always forgot it. In the way he touched the back of your neck in passing like it belonged to him and had since the first time he kissed you in the alley out back on a break he swore wasn’t a break.
It wasn’t that you needed roses and speeches.
You just hadn’t wanted to feel forgettable.
He moved to the fridge, bent to check something inside, then shut it with his foot. “You can sit down, y’know. Lurkin’ about’s off-putting.”
“I’m helping.”
“With what?”
“Moral support.”
He barked a laugh. “You’re terrible at it.”
“Sorry I’m not clapping every time you wipe a surface.”
“Wouldn’t hate the recognition.”
You set your hands on your hips. “Do you want food or not?”
“In a sec.”
“You said that ten minutes ago.”
“Been busy.”
“Yes, I’ve noticed.”
Something in your tone must’ve landed wrong that time, because he straightened a fraction and looked at you properly.
Not long. Just enough.
Then he went right back to what he was doing.
And somehow that made it worse.
You stared at the back of his head and thought, fine. Fine. Maybe he had forgotten. Maybe he remembered and hadn’t got round to saying anything. Maybe this really was just another Thursday to him with a little extra work and a bit less sleep. The bakery had been slammed all week. He’d been up before dawn every day. Maybe you were being unfair. Maybe you were being clingy and childish and exactly the sort of girlfriend he’d take the piss out of in somebody else.
Your throat tightened with a mix of embarrassment and annoyance. Mostly at yourself.
“Here,” you said, sharper than you meant to. “Eat before it gets cold.”
He came over, took the bag, and pulled out a carton of chips. “Knew there was a reason I kept you around.”
“Only one?”
“At least.”
You waited.
He reached past you for forks from the drawer. Opened one carton, peered in, nicked a chip.
Still nothing.
The ugly little weight in your stomach settled deeper.
“Right,” you said after a second. “Well. I should probably head.”
His attention stayed on the carton. “Thought you’d just got here.”
“I know.”
“Then why’re you off?”
You grabbed your jacket from the chair by the office door. “Because you’re clearly in the middle of stuff.”
“I’m eating chips.”
“You know what I mean.”
He frowned at the back of you as you shoved an arm into your sleeve. “No, I don’t, actually.”
You laughed once, breathless and thin. “Doesn’t matter.”
“It obviously does or you wouldn’t be stomping about like that.”
“I’m not stomping.”
“Bit hard to miss, sweetheart.”
You hated that endearment in that moment. Hated how much you loved it every other time. “Forget it, Cook.”
He went still.
Not dramatic. Not theatrical. Just the sort of stillness you only got from him when something had knocked into his understanding sideways and he was trying to decide whether he was pissed off about it.
You headed for the back door that led to the little stairwell up to the flat, because if you went out the front he’d have to come unbolt it and the thought of that felt unbearable for reasons you couldn’t have defended in court.
“Oi,” he said.
You kept moving.
“Oi.”
“What?”
“Where d’you think you’re going?”
You turned then, jacket half-on, bag of takeaway abandoned on the counter between you.
The look on his face made it worse before it made it better—confused first, then irritated, then suddenly something else when he got a proper look at you.
You crossed your arms tight over yourself. “Home.”
He stared. “This is home half the week.”
“You know what I mean.”
“No, I don’t. Keep sayin’ that. Still don’t.”
“Good for you.”
He dragged a hand over his mouth. Flour marked his knuckles. “For fuck’s sake, what is your problem?”
There it was. That did it.
“My problem?” You gave a short laugh. “Seriously?”
“Yeah, seriously.”
“You’ve been weird all day.”
“I’ve been working.”
“You haven’t texted.”
He blinked. “I’ve—”
“You’ve barely looked at me properly since this morning, and now I come in and you act like this is any other night and I just…” You stopped, heat rising in your face. God, you sounded pathetic. “Forget it. I feel stupid enough already.”
That made him freeze for real.
A beat passed.
Two.
Then he said, flat and unbelieving, “You think I forgot.”
You looked away. “I didn’t say that.”
His laugh this time wasn’t amused at all. It was one sharp sound cut clean in the middle. “Jesus Christ.”
You hated the defensive sting in your chest. “Well?”
“Well?” He set the carton aside and looked at you properly. “Well what?”
“Well, did you?”
He stared at you for a long second, then shook his head once like he couldn’t actually decide whether to laugh or pick a fight. “You are unbelievable.”
That did not sound like a man about to reassure you.
You lifted your chin. “Right. Good talk.”
You made it one step toward the stairs before he moved.
Fast, as always. One second across the room, the next right there, hand closing around your elbow—not hard, never hard, but enough to stop you cold.
“Don’t,” he said.
You looked down at his hand, then up at him. “Let go.”
“Not till you stop bein’ daft.”
“Daft?”
“Yeah.” His jaw was tight. “Daft. You think I’d forget?”
“I don’t know, James, would you?”
His eyes flashed. “No.”
The answer came so fast it knocked the breath out of you.
“No?” you echoed, smaller.
“No,” he said again, as if speaking to someone who’d sustained a head injury. “Course I bloody wouldn’t.”
You opened your mouth, closed it.
He released your elbow only to drag both hands through his hair, already a mess from the day. “Been up since half four. Had three custom orders, the card machine went down, Dave was late, one of the fridges started making that demonic noise again, and I’ve been trying to get the place shut so I could have one quiet hour without some old cow askin’ whether we do gluten-free scones.” He jabbed a finger toward the corner. “And that’s been sat there since three.”
You followed the gesture to the white cake box.
The room went very quiet.
“You…” You looked back at him. “That’s—”
“What d’you think it is?”
You swallowed. “I thought it was for tomorrow.”
“It is for tomorrow if you keep standin’ there lookin’ thick.”
You stared at him.
He stared back, still annoyed, but now there was colour high in his cheeks that hadn’t been there a minute ago. The sort of colour he got when he was embarrassed and trying to cover it with aggression.
“Oh my God,” you said softly.
“Don’t do that.”
“Do what?”
“That face.”
“What face?”
He pointed at you again, helplessly furious. “That one. Like I’ve just kicked a puppy.”
“You were acting like a complete arsehole.”
“I was busy.”
“You could’ve said something.”
“Would’ve ruined it, wouldn’t it?”
“That was your grand romantic plan?” A laugh escaped you despite yourself. “Ignore me all day?”
“I did not ignore you all day.”
“You barely kissed me this morning.”
“You were late.”
“Because you stole my towel.”
“Borrowed.”
“That’s not the point.”
He made a low sound in his throat, half exasperation, half reluctant amusement. “Come here.”
You didn’t move.
He rolled his eyes, came to you instead, and took your face in both flour-dusted hands.
Not gentle at first. Just firm, grounding, making you look at him.
“You really thought I forgot,” he murmured, the annoyance gone strange around the edges now, softer without going soft. “A year. Thought I’d just let that slide.”
You searched his face. “You’ve been impossible.”
“Been knackered.”
“That’s not an answer.”
“It’s the one you’re getting.”
It should not have been enough. It was, though. Because he was here, because his hands were warm on your cheeks, because behind the stubborness there was something almost offended that you’d believe yourself ordinary to him.
Your voice came out quieter than you intended. “I felt stupid.”
His mouth shifted. Not a smile. Something sadder, fonder, rougher. “Yeah, well. Don’t.”
You huffed a laugh against the tightness in your throat. “Very helpful.”
“I’m good at this.”
“At what, exactly?”
“Being charming.”
“That’s what this is?”
“Course.”
He leaned in then and put his forehead to yours, an absurdly tender gesture made ridiculous by the flour on his hands and the apron still hanging crooked round his waist. “Happy anniversary,” he said, like the words had been sitting badly in his mouth all day and he was only now giving in to them.
The room seemed to tilt slightly.
“Happy anniversary,” you whispered back.
He drew away at once, as if embarrassed by himself, and jerked his chin toward the cake box. “Go on, then.”
“What?”
“Open it.”
You laughed properly this time. “You’re not even going to hand it to me?”
“Don’t be greedy.”
“You are impossible.”
“And yet.”
You went to the counter like you were approaching something fragile. The lid came loose with a little crackle of cardboard, and when you lifted it your whole chest ached.
It wasn’t perfect. Of course it wasn’t. It was a little lopsided on the left, icing swirled on thick in places and thin in others, strawberries arranged in a way that had clearly started neat and then gone to hell by the final corner. But it was beautiful in exactly the way anything made by hand for one specific person was beautiful.
Your favourite sponge. Your favourite icing. Little sugar flowers stuck on with the obvious contempt of a man who would call them stupid and still spend twenty minutes placing them one by one because he knew you liked them.
In the middle, piped slightly crooked, were the words:
One year of puttin’ up with me
You let out a noise that was half laugh, half helpless little gasp.
Cook, behind you, muttered, “Don’t take the piss.”
You looked over your shoulder. “It’s perfect.”
“It’s wonky.”
“I like wonky.”
“Well. Lucky for you.”
You touched one of the sugar flowers carefully. “You made this?”
“No, sweetheart, a cake fairy broke in.”
You turned to face him, smiling so hard it hurt. “James.”
He shrugged one shoulder, gaze cutting away for a second. “Used your daft cake book from upstairs. The pink one.”
“You used my recipe book?”
“Didn’t have to sound so shocked.”
“I’m not shocked,” you said. “Okay, I’m a little shocked.”
“Cheers.”
“I just…” You laughed again, softer now. “I can’t believe you made this.”
He leaned back against the counter, arms folding over his chest like he needed something between himself and the moment. “Wanted to.”
The simplicity of that hit harder than anything elaborate would have.
You looked back at the cake. “You did the flowers.”
“Regretted it instantly.”
“They’re cute.”
He made a face. “Don’t call it cute.”
“It’s very cute.”
“I’ll bin it.”
“You will not.”
He pushed off the counter and came up behind you, close enough that his chest brushed your back. “Can I point out,” he said near your ear, “that this whole thing was meant to go better before you tried to storm out like a nutter?”
You smiled despite the heat rushing low in your stomach at the sound of his voice there. “Maybe if someone had dropped even one hint.”
“Thought the danishes were a hint.”
You laughed and turned in the circle of his arms. “Those could’ve been for anyone.”
“They were apricot.”
“Yes?”
“You’re the only person in this place who likes the bloody apricot ones that much.”
“Oh.”
“Yeah. Oh.”
“And the box?”
“Been staring at it all night, haven’t you?”
“I was not staring.”
“You absolutely were.”
“I was observing.”
“You were starin’.”
He reached around you for a knife, opened a drawer, and set out two mismatched plates like he was all business suddenly, except he didn’t step away. One arm stayed hooked around your waist while he worked, hand spread broad and warm over your stomach.
You watched him cut the cake. The icing gave under the blade. He frowned in concentration like it was a much bigger deal than he was willing to admit.
“How long did this take you?” you asked.
“Long enough.”
“That’s not an answer either.”
“Why’re you interrogating me? You getting cake or not?”
You leaned back into him on purpose. “I’m getting cake.”
“Right.”
He slid the first slice onto a plate. A bit of frosting smeared onto his thumb. Without thinking, he swore under his breath and lifted the thumb to his mouth.
Your gaze caught there.
So did his.
Something changed.
Not all at once. Just a shift. A drop in the room’s temperature or a rise in it, impossible to tell which. The knife lay forgotten on the board. The radio hummed low and far away. His thumb lowered slowly from his mouth, icing gone, eyes still on you.
“Oh,” he said, very quiet.
You should have looked away. Instead you said, “What?”
“Nothin’.”
The way he said it meant absolutely not nothing.
He passed you the plate, and your fingers touched. His stayed there a second too long.
You set the cake down without taking a bite.
He noticed that too, of course he did. “Eat it.”
“In a minute.”
“Don’t you trust my baking?”
“I trust it too much.”
He huffed a laugh, low and warm. “Cheeky.”
You dipped a finger into the icing at the cut edge, took a small taste, and closed your eyes. “Okay. That’s actually really good.”
“Obviously.”
“No, I’m serious.”
“Painful, this. Getting compliments from your own girl in your own shop.”
“It tastes like you.”
His brows lifted. “Does it?”
“Coffee. Sugar. Slight aggression.”
That grin—there it was. Slow, crooked, all trouble. “And here I was worried you’d gone off me.”
“I was mad at you.”
“You were dramatic.”
“You were being weird.”
“Was trying to make a cake, wasn’t I?”
“Could’ve said that.”
“And had you stomp in here all smug, knowing exactly what was going on?” He clicked his tongue. “No fun in that.”
You set the plate down and turned properly toward him. “You’re impossible to be in a relationship with.”
“And yet,” he said again, softer this time, “here you still are.”
He brushed a bit of frosting from the corner of your mouth with his thumb. The touch was careful, almost absent-minded. More dangerous than anything cruder could’ve been.
Your breath caught.
His eyes dropped to your mouth.
The kitchen suddenly felt much smaller than it had a minute ago. Smaller than the whole bloody world, maybe. Just the two of you in a pocket of warmth and sugar and late-night quiet, the locked front door, the flour on his forearms, the cake he’d made with his own rough hands because somewhere in him the day mattered enough to work for.
“You could’ve just said happy anniversary,” you murmured.
“Did say it.”
“After I nearly left.”
“Yeah, well.” His thumb lingered at your lower lip. “Got there in the end.”
You smiled a little. “Romantic.”
“Shut up.”
You leaned in and kissed him.
Not hard. Not trying to start anything. Just a soft press of your mouth to his, a thank-you more than anything else, still a little dazed by the cake and the words and the fact that all day long, underneath the grumbling and the flour and the chaos, he’d been holding this in reserve for you.
It lasted all of two seconds before his hand came up to the back of your neck and the whole thing changed shape.
He kissed like he did most things—completely once he’d decided to do it at all. The hand at your waist tightened. The one on your neck slid into your hair. Your mouth opened under his on a breath and he made a low sound, something pleased and rough and hungry at once, like he’d been trying very hard all day not to get to this exact point too soon.
You stepped into him before you even realized you were doing it.
He smiled into the kiss, smug bastard, then bit lightly at your lower lip. “There she is.”
“You’re awful.”
“Mm. Say that again.”
He kissed you before you could, slower now, deeper, his tongue sliding into your mouth. Your back found the edge of the worktop and the cool metal shocked through your clothes. He followed until you had nowhere else to go, palms braced on either side of you for a moment, caging you in with heat and the smell of flour and coffee and him.
You tipped your head back. “James…”
“I know.” He sounded wrecked already, which did dangerous things to your pulse. “Been waiting all bastard day.”
His gaze dropped, took in your blouse, the necklace he’d given you on your birthday resting at your throat, the little rise and fall of your chest. When he looked back up again his expression had gone thinner around the edges. Darker. Familiar.
“You wore this for me?”
Your face warmed. “Maybe.”
He gave a short, disbelieving laugh. “Christ.”
“What?”
“Nothin’.” His hands slid down, over your sides, stopping at your hips. “Just here I am icing a bloody cake like somebody’s nan and you turn up lookin’ like that.”
You laughed helplessly. “Somebody’s nan?”
“Don’t quote me.”
“You said it.”
“Didn’t mean it.”
He bent his head and pressed his mouth to the side of your neck, not kissing properly at first, just breathing there, then dragging his lips slow enough to make your knees threaten mutiny. The scrape of stubble made you shiver.
“Thought you were gonna break my heart for a minute,” he muttered against your skin.
That softened you at once. “I was not.”
“Were. You had your coat on.”
“Because you were acting like you wanted rid of me.”
He lifted his head. “Never that.”
Simple. Immediate. Absolute.
You held his gaze for a second, and whatever sharp little hurt had remained in you after the reveal finally eased.
Then his eyes flicked lower, and whatever gentleness had just surfaced got swallowed by something hotter.
His fingers found the hem of your blouse. “What’s under this?”
You tried for innocence. “A shirt.”
“Don’t be clever.”
“It’s a blouse.”
He laughed once under his breath and stepped closer, thighs bracketing yours where you sat against the counter edge. “You come in here all upset, all dressed up, nice things under your clothes, and expect me to behave?”
“I did not say nice things.”
“You didn’t have to.”
Your heartbeat was suddenly everywhere.
He touched the bottom button of your blouse, then looked up as if asking permission without ever saying the words. That was him too. All swagger on the surface, but always this under it with you—watching, checking, making sure the fire went where you both wanted it to.
You put your hand over his and held it there. “James.”
“What?”
“You’re getting icing on me.”
He looked down at the flour and frosting still marking his fingers and barked a laugh that knocked some of the tension sideways in the best way.
“Right,” he said. “Hold that thought.”
He grabbed the towel hanging from his apron string and scrubbed his hands hard, then untied the apron and flung it onto the nearest chair. When he turned back to you his hair was worse than before and his mouth looked sinful.
“There,” he said. “Professional.”
“That’s what you call professional?”
“Obviously.”
You slid off the counter only for him to catch your waist and haul you right back, making you laugh against his mouth when he kissed you again.
He was all warmth and impatience now, all the hours of holding off starting to show through. His hands moved with more certainty, more hunger. Your own found the back of his neck, then his shoulders, then the hem of his shirt where it sat warm over skin and muscle and the steady rise and fall of his breath.
The kiss broke because it had to.
He looked at you like the sight of you was getting steadily harder to manage. “Tell me something.”
“What?”
“You really thought I forgot?”
You groaned and hid your face in his shoulder. “Don’t start.”
He laughed and wrapped both arms around you, pinning you against him. “Nah, c’mon. Wanna hear you admit it.”
“I hate you.”
“No, you don’t.”
“No,” you said into the fabric of his shirt, smiling despite yourself. “I really, really don’t.”
He went still for half a second. Not much. Just enough that you felt it.
Then his hand slid up your back, slow and steady. “Good,” he said quietly.
You lifted your head.
There was a look on his face you knew well by now, even if it still undid you every time—something a little wrecked, a little disbelieving, like all this still surprised him. Like the bakery, the flat upstairs, the warm light, you standing in his arms at the end of an ordinary brutal day and calling it a life—like none of it quite fit with the boy he used to be, and he still had to check sometimes that it was real.
You kissed him first this time for reasons that had nothing to do with hunger and everything to do with tenderness.
It lasted only a moment before hunger caught up anyway.
His hand slid to your hip. Yours tangled in his hair. He made a low sound when you tugged, then turned and lifted you onto the worktop so easily it barely registered until you were sitting there, skirt pushed up an inch from the movement, his body slotting between your knees like the last piece of a now completed puzzle.
“James,” you said again, and this time it came out unsteady.
He kissed the corner of your mouth, your jaw, the spot under your ear that always made you catch. “Yeah.”
“The cake.”
“What about it?”
“We’re supposed to eat it.”
“We did eat it.”
“That was one bite.”
“Can have more later.”
His mouth found your throat. Your fingers dug into his shoulders.
“You want upstairs,” he said, voice rough, “or you want me to stop pretending I’ve got any patience left?”
You laughed a little on the breath you nearly lost. “That is not a fair question.”
“Didn’t say it was.”
He kissed you again—not soft, not asking. His tongue pushes past your lips and you taste the coffee he's been drinking all afternoon, the bitter edge of it, the heat of him. One hand cups the back of your neck, thumb pressing just under your jaw to tilt your head where he wants it. The other grips your thigh through your skirt, rough fingers dimpling the fabric.
You make a sound. You don't mean to. It comes out of your throat before you can catch it, a small wounded thing that makes him pull back just enough to look at you.
"Shh," he says. Not gentle. His eyes are dark, pupils blown wide, that electric blue nearly swallowed. "Been waitin' all fuckin' day."
"I know." Your voice is threadbare. "I thought—"
"I know what you thought." He says it against your mouth, lips brushing yours, breath hot. "Thought I forgot."
His hand slides higher on your thigh. Your skirt bunches. His knuckles brush the inside of your leg and your hips roll forward without permission.
"Thought your boyfriend—what—didn't care enough to remember his own anniversary?" He pulls back, cocks his head. That smirk. That fucking smirk, the one that makes you want to slap him and kiss him and beg him all at once. "That what you thought?"
"You didn't say anything."
"Didn't say anything," he repeats, and his voice drops lower, gravel soft. "Didn't say anything all day. Let you get all quiet on me. Saw that little crease right there—" his thumb traces between your brows, flour left behind from his skin "—gettin' deeper every time you looked at me. Thought you was hiding it so well."
Heat floods your cheeks. "You're an asshole."
"Yeah." He grins. No remorse. "But I'm an asshole who baked my sweet girl a cake."
Your cunt clenches. Empty. Aching.
"James."
"Yeah, love. Tell me."
"Touch me."
"I am touching you." His thumb strokes your jaw again. "Right here."
"You know what I mean."
"Do I?" He's doing it on purpose. Drawing it out. You can see it in the tilt of his head, the way his eyes drop to your mouth and then lower, tracing the line of your throat, your chest, the place where your thighs press together under your skirt. "Say it. Tell me what you want."
Your face burns. But you've been together a year now, and you know the rules. He'll wait. He'll wait all night if he has to, that smirk on his face and his hands perfectly still, until you give him the words.
"I want your fingers." Your voice shakes. "Inside me. Please."
"There she is." He sounds wrecked. Like the asking did something to him. "My shy girl, asking for what she needs."
His hand leaves your jaw. Slides down your throat—palm flat, not pressing, just resting there for one heartbeat, two. Then lower. Over your collarbone. The swell of your breast through your sweater. Down, down, until his fingers find the hem of your skirt.
"Lift up."
You do. He pushes the skirt to your hips, baring your thighs to the cool air, the stainless steel under your ass making you gasp. He looks at you—fabric bunched up, the damp spot already soaking through your underwear—and makes a sound like a growl."Fuckin' hell. Look at you. All day I've been thinkin' about this. Couldn't even frost a cupcake without my hands shaking."
His thumb presses against the cotton of your panties. Right where you're wet. Through the fabric, pressure but not enough, and your hips jerk.
"Look at me," he says.
You drag your eyes up from where his hand is. Meet his gaze. His eyes are darker now, nearly black, but there's something tender in the set of his mouth.
"I remembered," he says. "Everythin'. The date. The cake. The way you looked at me the first time I said I loved you. Didn't think you'd make it a year with a fuck-up like me."
"James—"
"Let me finish." His thumb moves. Circles. Slow, deliberate pressure on your clit through the cotton and you can barely breathe. "I remembered because you're the only good thing I've ever managed to hold onto. And I'm gonna spend the rest of my life making sure you know that. Every year. Every anniversary. You understand me?"
Your eyes are teary again. Your hips are moving without you, grinding against his thumb, and you're nodding and probably crying and he's still looking at you like you're the sun.
"Now," he says, and his voice shifts, the smirk coming back, "let's get these off so I can taste you."
He hooks his fingers in the waistband of your panties. Pulls them down—you lift, help him, hear them hit the floor. Then his hands are spreading your thighs and he's going to his knees.
Cold tile. He doesn't seem to notice. His shoulders push your legs wider and his mouth finds you.
No teasing. No buildup. His tongue is flat and hot and right where you need it, licking into your cunt like he's starving. You grab the edge of the counter, knuckles straining. Your head falls back.
"Fuck— James—"
He groans against you. The vibration shudders through your core. His hands grip your thighs, thumbs pressing hard into the soft flesh, holding you open. His tongue traces up, circles your clit, then dips back down. Tasting. Drinking. The wet sound of it is obscene and perfect.
"You taste like mine," he says, pulling back just enough to speak, lips glistening. "My pussy. My girl. Yeah?"
"Yes—yours—"
"Say it again." He flicks his tongue over your clit. Once. Twice. Lightning up your spine.
"Yours."
"Again."
"I'm yours, James, please—"
His mouth seals around your clit and he sucks. Hard. Your body arches off the counter, a moan tearing out of your throat that's probably too loud, definitely too loud, but the bakery's empty and the door's locked and his mouth is on you and nothing else exists.
Two fingers push inside you. Curl. The stretch is perfect, the calluses on his knuckles dragging against your walls, and he pumps them slow while his tongue works your clit. In and out. Curling forward. Finding that spot inside you that makes your vision white out.
"There," you gasp. "There, there, don't stop—"
He doesn't. He fucks you with his fingers and his mouth and you're climbing, pressure building low in your belly, thighs shaking around his head. His free hand presses flat on your stomach, holding you down, and you feel the cold of the metal still under you and the heat of his mouth and just when you're about to tip over—
He stops.
Pulls his mouth away. His fingers slide out. You make a sound of pure frustration, a whine you didn't know you were capable of, and he laughs—that low dirty laugh that makes you want to kill him.
"Not yet," he says. Wipes his mouth with the back of his hand. His chin is wet, shining under the lights, and he's never looked more satisfied with himself. "Wanna be inside you for that."
"Then get inside me."
"Needy," he says, but his voice is shaking now too. The confidence cracking just at the edges. "My needy girl. Come on."
He stands, pulls you off the counter. Your legs are Jell-O. He keeps one arm around your waist, steadying you, and his other hand cups the back of your head.
"Stairs," he says. "Now. You first."
The stairwell is narrow. Behind the kitchen, tucked out of sight, leading up to the flat above the shop. The walls are painted a color you can never name in the dim light, and his body is a wall of heat behind you as you climb.
You make it four steps before his hand catches your hip.
"Here's good."
"On the stairs?"
"On the stairs." He presses against your back, and you feel him—hard, tenting uncomfortably against his jeans, the length of him grinding into your ass. "Bend over, love. Hands on the step above you."
The wood is old and worn smooth. You brace your palms on the fifth step, your knees on the third. Your skirt's still bunched around your waist. You're bare and wet and he's standing behind you and you hear the slide of his zipper.
"Look at you," he says. "Presentin' for me like a gift. Best fuckin' anniversary I ever had."
The head of his cock presses against your entrance. Hot. Blunt. Not pushing in yet, just resting there, and you try to push back against him and his hand clamps down on your hip.
"Ah-ah."
"James, please—"
"Please what?"
"Please fuck me."
He thrusts in. One hard stroke, all the way to the hilt, and you cry out. The stretch is intense—he's thick, always so thick—and your body takes a second to adjust. He stays perfectly still, buried deep, letting you feel every inch.
"There," he breathes. "Right there. That's my cunt."
You whimper.
"Say it." His hips pull back, slow, dragging. "Tell me whose it is."
"Yours."
He slams back in. The sound of skin hitting skin echoes in the stairwell. Your hands scrabble against the wood. The angle is so deep you can feel him in your throat.
"That's right." He's fucking you now, hard and fast, one hand gripping your hip and the other tangling in your hair. Pulling just enough to arch your neck. "My pussy. My girl. Every fuckin' inch of you, mine."
"Yours, yes, I'm yours—"
"Thought I forgot." He leans over you, chest to your back, his mouth at your ear. His hips don't slow. "Thought I didn't care. You know how hard it was not to tell you this morning? Wanted to see your face when you realized. Wanted you to know I'd never—" thrust "—fuckin'—" thrust "—forget you."
His hand leaves your hair. Finds your clit. Circles it in time with the wet slaps of his hips and you're so close, right there, the pressure building again and the sound of you squelching around him filling the stairwell.
"Come for me," he growls. "Now. Wanna feel you."
You shatter. Your cunt clenches around him, pulsing, and you hear yourself moan—a long broken sound that's half his name. He fucks you through it, grunting, the rhythm of his hips going ragged.
Then he pulls out.
"Up." He's panting. "Get up. We're not done."
You barely make it up the rest of the stairs. He's right behind you, one hand on your ass, steering you into the bedroom. The sheets are the ones you put on this morning—clean, still smelling like the dryer. They're cool against your skin when your knees hit the mattress.
Flour dust still clings to your forearms. Pale against your skin in the dim light from the streetlamps outside. He kneels behind you, runs his hands down your back, his thumbs pressing into the dimples just above your ass.
"Turn over," he says. "Wanna see you."
You roll onto your back. He's still half-dressed—jeans undone, cock jutting out, his apron abandoned somewhere between the kitchen and here. His t-shirt is dusted with flour and smeared with a streak of pink buttercream. He must have scooped some off the mixing bowl.
You reach for him. He comes willingly, settling between your thighs, his weight a familiar comfort. His face hovers above yours.
"Hi," he says. Quietly. The smirk is gone. Just James. Just the man who baked you a cake at three in the morning and called himself a fuck-up while he was making you cry on the kitchen counter.
"Hi."
"I love you." He says it like it's the simplest fact in the world. "Happy anniversary."
He kisses you. Soft this time. The kind of kiss that says everything he's not good at saying out loud. His hand cups your jaw and you taste yourself on his lips and when he pulls back his eyes are wet.
"Don't cry," you whisper.
"I'm not cryin'. There's flour in my eye."
You laugh. He laughs too, a choked sound, and then he's kissing you again and this time it's deeper. Slower. His hips settle against yours and his cock slides through your wetness, not pushing in yet, just rocking.
"One more," he says against your mouth. "Wanna come inside you this time."
"Please."
He reaches down, guides himself in. The stretch is easier this time, your body still soft and open from before, but no less intense. He sinks in inch by inch and you watch his face—the way his eyes flutter closed, the way his jaw goes slack.
"Fuck," he breathes. "Always so tight. Even after I've had you."
He starts to move. Slow. Deep. Not fucking now—making love. You can feel it in the way he holds himself, the way his forehead drops to yours, the way his thumb traces patterns on your hip.
"Wanted to do this right," he says, voice strained. "Didn't wanna just—fuck you on the counter and call it a night."
"We did fuck on the counter."
"Yeah, well." He grins, a ghost of the smirk. "That was for me. This is for you."
His hips roll. Deep. The head of his cock kisses your cervix and you gasp.
"Want you to feel it," he says. "How much I—" thrust "—care about you. How I'm gonna take care of you. Every year. Every day."
"James—"
"You're my family now." His voice breaks on the word. "You know that? Only family I got that matters."
You pull him down. Wrap your arms around his neck, your legs around his waist. He buries his face in your throat and fucks into you with a rhythm that's losing its finesse, desperation bleeding through.
"Say my name," he rasps.
"James."
"Again."
"James, James—I'm close—"
"Me too. Together. Come with me."
His hand snakes between your bodies, finds your clit, rubs hard. Two strokes and you're gone. Your cunt clamps down around him, waves of pleasure crashing through you, and you feel him let go—feel his cock pulse and spill, hot and thick, filling you exactly how he promised.
He groans into your neck. A long, ragged sound, your name tangled up in it. His hips keep moving, gentler now, riding out the aftershocks until there's nothing left.
Then he collapses.
Heavy. Warm. His heart hammering against your chest, your heart hammering back. The city outside the window is quiet. The bakery below is dark. All the flour has settled.
He's still inside you. Softening but not pulling out. His cum leaks down your thighs and neither of you moves to clean it up.
"James."
"Mm."
"We should eat the cake."
He laughs — a real laugh, the one that crinkles his eyes and makes him look younger. "In a minute," he says. "Gimme a minute."
He lifts his head. Looks at you. His hair is a disaster, his eyes are red-rimmed, and there's still buttercream smeared across his shirt.
"You know I'm gonna marry you, right?"
Your heart stops. "What?"
"Not tonight." He kisses your forehead. "Not tomorrow. But someday. When you're ready. I'm gonna marry the fuck outta you."
You can't speak. So you kiss him instead. Long and slow and tasting like salt and sugar and everything you've been too scared to hope for.
When he finally pulled back, he didn’t go far, just far enough to look at you and for a second, neither of you said anything.
He just looked at you like he was trying to memorize the sight.
Then his hand came up and brushed your hair back from your face, knuckles rough and warm against your cheek.
“Told you I remembered,” he said quietly.
You let out a breath that almost turned into a laugh. “You were still a prick about it.”
His mouth twitched. “Yeah, well.”
“Could’ve just said happy anniversary like a normal person.”
That got a soft snort out of him. “And ruin the surprise?”
“You nearly gave me a complex.”
He bent and kissed you once, lazy and warm. “You’ve already got loads, sweetheart.”
You made a face and he smiled properly then—small, tired, real. Not the cocky grin. Not the smirk he used when he was winding you up. Just James. Just the man who’d spent all day pretending not to care while secretly baking you a cake in the room below.
Your fingers drifted through his hair. “I really thought you forgot.”
He went still for a beat.
Not tense. Just still. His gaze dropped to your mouth, then lower, to where the sheet had twisted around your waist, then back up again.
“Wouldn’t,” he said.
Simple as that.
Not I wouldn’t do that to you. Not How could I forget. Just that one rough little word, spoken like fact. Like the sky was blue, like the ovens downstairs would kick on again before dawn, like remembering you was something as fixed and instinctive as breathing.
Your chest ached with it.
You touched his cheek. “I know.”
Something in his expression shifted at that—softened, maybe. Or maybe just eased. He lowered himself beside you with a quiet groan, dragging you with him until you were half sprawled over his chest, one of his arms banded around your waist.
You lay there for a minute, boneless and sticky and tired in the nicest way, tracing a lazy line through the flour still dusting his forearm. He shivered slightly under your fingers.
“Tired?” you murmured.
“Knackered.”
“Worth it?”
That earned you a look. A proper one. Blue eyes half-lidded, mouth gone soft with sleep and satisfaction.
“Yeah,” he said.
Just that.
Yeah.
It hit harder than anything prettier would have.
You smiled against his skin. “The cake’s probably solid as a rock.”
He made a low sound in his throat. “You are deeply unromantic.”
“I’m practical.”
“You’re greedy.”
“You baked me a cake and then fucked me into next week,” you said. “Obviously I want some.”
That got a real laugh out of him—quiet, tired, crinkling the corners of his eyes. He tipped his head back into the pillow and shut them for a second, still smiling.
“Christ,” he muttered. “Listen to you.”
You propped yourself up on one elbow to look at him. “Are we eating it or not?”
He cracked one eye open. “Bossy.”
“It’s my anniversary cake.”
“It’s my bed.”
You stared at each other for a second.
Then he sighed like you were the greatest burden of his life and tightened his arm around you before you could move. “Five minutes.”
“You said that downstairs.”
“And I meant it this time.”
“You’re a liar.”
“Mm.” He pressed a kiss into your hair. “Still here, though.”
The words settled somewhere low and warm inside you.
Still here.
Not graceful. Not polished. But that was him, wasn’t it? Nothing clean or pretty about the way he loved, and yet somehow it always landed exactly where it needed to.
You lifted your head just enough to kiss the bare skin over his heart. “Happy anniversary, James.”
His hand slid slowly up and down your back.
“Happy anniversary, love,” he said into your hair.
And with the bakery quiet below you, the cake waiting in its box, and the whole long day finally softened into night, it sounded exactly like what you’d been waiting to hear all along.