yesterday, in my forested home in north carolina, i was sitting on my back deck. the air is moist, the wooden planks under me is damp, yet the trees are still bare from winter, spring has not yet sprung, but you can feel it in the air. my neighbors, a couple hundred meters through the woods, are rich and arrogant and entitled, are cutting down trees around their home. this is a mostly-necessary responsibility in living within a forest, especially one that receives not only hurricanes but also ice storms. however, these neighbors, who do not exist in real life, take their long and tall tree feller machine, stretch it all the way across our property line and up to the edge of our mossed yard, and cut down a tree. they cut down a specific tree, some kind of oak near my bedroom, one i grew up watching through my window. they cut it down really badly, the stump they left is about 9 feet tall, and when the tree fell it narrowly missed our roof, just by chance avoiding calamity. i was pissed. how dare these rude and selfish wealthy elite cut down a healthy tree on my property with absolute no communication or safety procedures. that tree still had lots of life to live and give! i go inside my home, i tell my parents and the other set of parents who live there what had just occured. they didn't care. i wanted to take the neighbors to court, 'you'll just spend all the money you make in the lawsuit on your lawyers'. what the hell yall. fuck.
the next day, its the peak of summer. my dad and i are taking sandy, the beautiful brindle plott hound pound puppy on a walk with our longtime neighbor and life long friend clara. she's my age and her favorite color is purple (always has been). from the vantage point of her bedroom window / roof she takes a time lapse video of the four of us walking into the sunset together. everything is bright solar orange and glaringly golden, all you see is our illuminated silhouettes prancing into the sun, over the crest of the meadowed hill, into the depths of the woods. i have never seen myself from this perspective in a dream before. my hair is braided with two strands left to frame my face. they are dancing in the air around me. we are beings of beauty and joy. i feel strong and enough.
i wake up, and i want to listen to wednesday's album bleeds. and so i do.
and also its metal march here at the station. and my aries boyfriend's birthday is this weekend, not to brag but hes in a texan powerviolence band. so theres a riff for everyone in this episode.
broadcasted live on CJLO march 20th 2026. happy new year babes
full playlist here(not to brag again but i put this all together in one fast paced morning) ;;; full episode here
here are some previous sandy themed episodes
about going home to her absence
about going home to her sickness
fade to black - so perfect
dogs - nouns
dogs - alien boys
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wild dogs - gazm
figurine - gouge away
rejoice in moribund - mortal decay
dogfood - MAH KEE OH
dogs eyes - heathers
big dogs - sour widows
dog food - 100 gecs
dog years (weird inside remix) - afternoon bikeride
MAN BITES DOG - femtanyl
xxx
reality tv argument bleeds - wednesday
i miss my dog - mhaol
i was a god - safeword
heaven - DILLY DALLY
