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This song I wrote about my best friend. I heard rumors that her boyfriend was cheating on her, but she never found out. Because of that, I started feeling guilty for knowing and not telling her. But I also decided not to say anything so I wouldn’t hurt her, thinking that one day she would find out everything on her own.

If I Told You

Verse 1

I know I’m not right

But I’d rather lie than watch you break

Under the weight of a betrayal

That you don’t deserve to face

He’s everything to you

The reason that your world still shines

And every time you say his name

I swallow the truth behind my eyes

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Pre-Chorus

But still, I keep wondering

If I’m really being a good friend

Lost so many hours of sleep

Waiting for this guilt to end

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Chorus

I will never tell you

I will never tell you

The truth hurts cruelly, bitterly

Would destroy you in every way

If I told you

If I told you

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Verse 2

Am I a good friend for hiding this?

Or am I only scared of what comes next?

You trusted me to always be honest

Now silence feels like a test

Every smile you give him

Every sparkle in your eyes

Makes it harder to say the words

That could tear apart your life

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Pre-Chorus

I’m sorry, I don’t want to hurt you

I’m trying to protect your heart

But every day I keep this secret

I’m slowly falling apart

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Chorus

I will never tell you

I will never tell you

The truth hurts cruelly, bitterly

Would destroy you in every way

If I told you

If I told you

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Bridge

Hope you never, never know

Hope you never have to feel this pain

We promised we’d be honest

But I can’t keep that promise today

All that matters now is your happiness

And the way you light up when he’s around

Maybe I’m wrong

But I can’t be the one

To burn your whole world down

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Final Chorus

I will never tell you

Never tell you

The truth hurts cruelly, bitterly

Would destroy you in every way

If I told you

If I told you

And that’s why I’ll never tell you

Never tell you

If I told you…

If I told you…

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This song I wrote is about insecurities, anxiety, and the feeling of being emotionally overwhelmed. It’s about someone who feels lost within themselves, struggling with constant negative thoughts.

Verse 1

I feel like I’m sinking in my loneliness

Deeper and deeper inside of me

Maybe there’s no way back from this

A vicious cycle I can’t break free

I don’t know if it will ever stop

I don’t know if I can hold on

A void that tears right through my soul

And pulls me further all along

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Pre-Chorus

And I try to understand

How I ended up like this

But everything inside of me

Feels like it’s made to resist

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Chorus

I’m drowning in my insecurities

Losing pieces of who I am

It’s killing me so quietly

And I don’t know where I stand

I’m drowning in my insecurities

And I don’t know who I’ve become

But even at the bottom of this

There’s still something holding on

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Verse 2

Sinking deeper in my thoughts again

Trapped inside, I can’t escape

Every day feels like a weight

That I can’t seem to shake

I feel everything falling apart

Like there’s no ground beneath my feet

And even when I try to hold on

I lose myself underneath

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Pre-Chorus 2

And I scream without a sound

In a silence no one hears

But somewhere deep inside of me

Something keeps me here

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Chorus

I’m drowning in my insecurities

Losing pieces of who I am

It’s killing me so quietly

And I don’t know where I stand

I’m drowning in my insecurities

And I don’t know who I’ve become

But even at the bottom of this

There’s still something holding on

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Bridge

I try, I try, I try to escape

But everything pulls me down

Like I was never meant to break

Like I’m just falling now

But in the middle of the dark

There’s still a spark in me

Even when everything collapses

I’m still here, I still breathe

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Final Chorus

I’m drowning in my insecurities

But I’m still standing here

Broken but still breathing

Even through the fear

I’m drowning in my insecurities

But I hear a voice inside

Saying even at my lowest

I can still survive

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Hey!

I’m going to start posting some lyrics I wrote here, if anyone is interested in reading them.

"I wrote this song about meeting someone unexpectedly and feeling an instant connection but it's a feeling full of guilt because they both have someone and over time she realizes that she didn't fall in love with him but for the love story she created in her head."

TRAITOR

Verse 1

And it all started when I saw you in the park

You were working, i was just messing around

Then I walked in and we both started talking

Everything flowed

That’s when I realized how much we had in common

And boom! It was an instant connection

Without us even noticing it

Having fun while we talked

Without even realizing what was happening

You started to sing a song and i started singing the next verse

Like the universe was giving us signs

Same favorite band, same favorite song

God, why did that have to mean so much?

It felt like we’d known each other our whole life

What a beautiful coincidence

But oops, I shouldn’t even be thinking about it this way

Chorus

And that’s why I feel like a traitor

A traitor, ah-ah-ah (It’s wrong!)

A traitor, ah-ah-ah (Don’t think about him!)

A traitor, ah-ah-ah (Forget him!)

Oh my god It’s like a forbidden love!

Verse 2

How did you get stuck in my head in just a few seconds?

You have someone and i do too

But I hated how easy it felt to be around you

Made me feel so in love

So special

Like I’m the luckiest girl in the world

But I’m sorry, baby

I feel stupid

But I started writing you into my favorite songs

‘Cause I can’t stop picturing us together

Every time I close my eyes

But oops, I shouldn’t even be thinking about it this way

Chorus

And that’s why I feel like a traitor

A traitor, ah-ah-ah (It’s wrong!)

A traitor, ah-ah-ah (Don’t think about him!)

A traitor, ah-ah-ah (Forget him!)

Oh my god It’s like a forbidden love!

Bridge

Oh God! Now I’m really fucking screwed (I’m really fucking stupid!)

I’m in love with some guy I just met

Someone who probably doesn’t even feel the same way that i do

Someone who probably forgot who i am the next day

And all the conversations that we had

But baby, i built a whole future out of it

‘Cause why am I smiling at somebody else’s eyes?

Why am I replaying one random night in my head?

You might be the one for me

This is getting insane

Final Chorus

And maybe I’m just a serial traitor

A traitor, ah-ah-ah (It’s wrong!)

A traitor, ah-ah-ah (Don’t think about him!)

A traitor, ah-ah-ah (Forget him!)

( what are you doing?)

(Stop thinking about him!)

Oh my god It’s like a forbidden love!

Falling in love with a fantasy I made

Turning one conversation into a hurricane

of feelings..

Calling it destiny

I’m in love with a fantasy in my head

Maybe I’m just turning you into a love story

(It’s like a forbidden love story!) - background vocals 3x or more

A traitor, ah-ah-ah

A traitor, ah-ah-ah

A traitor, ah-ah-ah

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