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[clevercorday]

clevercorday

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[pittangel]

i'm sorry the demonization of robby (esp on pittok) is actually starting to get both decently concerning and annoying. it's literally all i'm seeing with discussions in regards to his character. saw someone refer to him on here as "the devil himself" in a post that had 20k notes. commentary like this was funny at first, when it felt silly and unserious, but a lot of you are not joking. and that is weird. because why is this how you guys treat the mentally ill representation all of tumblr is constantly complaining they want? you finally have it. too real? too unsavory? that's literally the whole point of his character. to give a nuanced and unflinching portrayal of depression, suicidal ideation, unresolved trauma, and work related burnout that many healthcare workers experience. robby might not be real, but these vitriolic and insensitive things you say about him will impact real people who see themselves in him. not to be too extra but maybe this is why male suicide rates are so high. because this is how you guys treat and speak about men who are actively struggling.

some people are purposely witholding empathy for his character and being so critical of his actions specifically because he's a man, and that shit is really weird. and can i say it? he's not a misogynist. i'm not gonna talk too much about that even though i could write a whole thinkpiece if sufficiently prompted. just know arguing with a woman and being a little mean to them does not at all translate to misogynoir. that's just him being off-kilter and in a shitty mood (you know, because he's actively suicidal? but yeah let's just all ignore that part). in fact, if i can participate in the woke olympics for a second i think people who are labeling robby as as misognyist fit that bill much more themselves. so many people i see making this argument boil down characters like al-hashimi and mohan to the fact that they are just women instead of grown ass adults who are strong and capable of bumping heads with robby (and this is coming from someone who strongly disliked his treatment of mohan in s2).

robby is not the big bad wolf. you give him too much credit. these women are not weak-willed flowers who will crumble at the slightest bit of conflict. funnily enough, that trend of thought is super contrarian because it makes gender their sole defining trait in the discussion of their character. it also paints them as weak victims. did we watch the same show? because i saw 2 adults. who had an argument. there's no need to cry hatecrime. and i say this as someone who is so avidly feminist. we gotta stop throwing that term around. the way you guys talk about him makes him sound so cartoonishly evil you'd think he was running around the ER shaking kids down for candy or something. it'd be funny if it wasn't so disapointing.

you don't have to like him personally to watch the show (though i do think it's a bit odd not to, given he's the main character) but refusing to acknowledge the percieved complexities of his character in the "everybody is complex" show is weird. my opinion? robby is not a bad person. hell, he's not even morally complex. i see someone who has made mistakes, just like everyone else on planet earth. he's a good, genuine guy who has been ravaged by mental illness. he is just very, very lost. that's the point. that is what mental illness can do to you. he is not a perfect person, in fact, at many points during my viewing of s2 i sort of hated him. but i will always defend him, because he is not this malicious figure the narrative online is painting him as. the pitt fandom only has this attitude for him and quite literally nobody else.

also, i heard noah wyle is getting hate for the FICTIONAL CHARACTER he plays on a FICTIONAL SHOW and all i have to say is, you guys are so fucking weird and parasocial. please touch some grass. micheal robinavitch is not a real person. he cannot hurt you.

[backonmybullsht]

Thank you @pittangel and @club-medical for addressing how the Pitt fandom uses WOC as pawns in their little woke Olympics for clicks. As a WOC myself, it's fucking infuriating to watch mostly white girls act like these characters and real life actresses have zero agency and everything that happens is only happening TO them, and happening solely because of their gender and race. I certainly don't look at the events of my own life that way, good or bad.

It's so refreshing to watch a show populated with complex WOC who feel like real people, and to see more than one token asian woman as a series regular, to have a WOC executive producer, WOC writers, female DP, female directors, female casting team, female camera operator, female production designer, female medical consultant, etc. It's really fucking disappointing to then go online and see all the fandom discourse reduce the characters to nothing but their most superficial identities, and completely ignore all the contributions and the very existence of the female creatives working their asses off to make this show happen.

In conclusion, this fandom thinks it's holier than thou but it's actually really fucking racist and sexist.

[club-medical]

I’m gonna be frank and say I think it’s primarily ship wars using the struggles of real people as ammunition. Because when I look at the blogs of these people before I block them, it’s always a wall of mоhаbbοт tags. (And I have the deepest sympathies for normal fans who love that ship and are having to navigate finding joy in that space amidst frothing conspiracist maniacs.) It’s just all form, no substance. It’s “think of the children WOC!” and they go nuts over “directed by Shawn Hatosy” while I very much doubt they could name a single WOC writer or director.

They care very deeply and sincerely about seeing themselves as advocates—and being seen as advocates—but the fact that it doesn’t extend beyond egotistical motivation is pretty obvious in how they actually go about their “advocacy.” Which is mostly posting insane conspiracy theories.

[drac-harrington]

a BentonCarter addition to the Beach Day art I posted a week ago, inspired by the scenario @club-medical & @hatchet-boy left in the tags (below the cut)

I also took some creative liberties with this, I really just wanted to make Carter even more of a lobster >:3c

[clevercorday]

I’m getting the first 3 vampire chronicles books today mwhahahahahah

[therozanov]

Even now, still thinking about him.

[lostxanadu]

the thing about being bullied for being weird as a kid is that even if you've always embraced being weird your brain is still always looking for the line where it's too much. you can be as proudly and intentionally weird as you want and you can love being weird but your mind is still convinced there's a point where you get too weird and people start treating you like a weird looking bug again. also it feels like you reach that point 500 times a day even if everyone you've spoken to today found you pleasant and likable and even if you're completely alone in your house with nobody looking at you at all.

[tarmairons]

INTERVIEW WITH THE VAMPIRE (2022-) | S02E04 x S03E07

[lestatdelioncuort]

Assad Zaman as THE VAMPIRE ARMAND

THE VAMPIRE LESTAT | 3.07 "THE FAILURES"

[empire-of-light]

Is that what makes you so fascinating?

[hadesmediocreart]

That One DM Frame

[holographings]

HASHTAG NEVER KILL YOURSELDF!!!!!!!!!!!!!

[plq-to]

I hate to “It's not his fault!” a grown man's actions, but I think sometimes it's not appreciated how much Andrew Cody is never allowed to be his own person

[clevercorday]

(animal kingdom s4 spoilers!!) fuck dude. smurf was really trying to take pope down with her. she truly never gave a fuck about him, just liked that he depended on her. and now he’s mourning a mother who never even loved him. FUCK. this show man

[clevercorday]

I just finished season 4 of animal kingdom and HOLY FUCKING SHIT is all I have to say

[koifee]

Secondhand smoke 🚬

[reticent-vampire]

[clevercorday]

nothing pisses me off more than starting a fic and it seeming alright, but as you continue things just don’t quite make sense and something seems off about the language and then you realize oh, this is AI. I’ll never understand why people insist on uploading ai fics to ao3. you’re not doing some school assignment that’s obligatory, what’s the point of uploading something fake you didn’t make to an archive?? writing fanfic is a hobby. if you don’t like writing that’s fine! nobody’s forcing you to. but let’s not pretend something a machine created is your own art (because yes, fan fiction is an art form)