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being stuck in a constant limbo between “really excited about things in life” and “why am i still alive when nothing really matters anyway” is genuinely exhausting to say the least

In love 24/7

stimgender

“Fidget toys make you less focused :)” that because you’re not adhd/autistic you fucking clod

non-boy-nary-archive

list of things i have heard from people without adhd/autism who used my fidget toy:

- it doesn’t do anything

- its a waste of plastic

- how do you pay attention in class

- it makes so much noise (it doesn’t make any noise, they just saw i had it in my hand)

- at least my fidget spinner actually does stuff (my toy does 6 different things. also they got their fidget spinner taken the same day)

- its gay (creative)

things my friends with adhd/autism have said after using my fidget toy:

- oh my god

- its so…. Good

- i could actually pay attention to shit in class

- where can i buy this???

- wait there’s More stuff like this

- i love you. (not related to the toy per say but that felt nice)

thefingerfuckingfemalefury

This right here is an important post

privateandersmiths

As a teacher, the whole “fidget spinners being marketed as toys” is the most terrifying trend my students have introduced me to. I gave a fidget cube to one of my 6th grade students who’s been struggling all year with his adhd, who is so smart but is failing math because he can’t focus in it. He was hesitant at first, about a teacher giving him something “to help” rather than punishing him, but agreed with me that it couldn’t hurt to try.

He hasn’t put it down.

Everyday since he got it, I’ve seen him with it. He holds it in his pocket, and hasn’t climbed on a table or cussed at a teacher since.

BUT

There are at least 20 other kids in our school who bring fidget spinners and play with them out on the table during lessons. They don’t pay attention in class, and they disrupt other students’ learning. These are not students with adhd or anxiety, these are students who are just playing because they’re kids and that’s what kids do.

What scares me is I know other teachers have been confiscating them. They’re going to be banned, if it continues to be a problem. And my 6th grader, who’s had noticeable improvements since he started playing with his cube, is going to get in trouble for using something that helps him learn.

teaboot

Oooh fuck I get the problem now

dumpstertrash

I remember when fidget spinners first came out and everyone had one. And as they died down, I got my first one. And it was so nice and then this one very very ableist girl in my AP class (she complained about accommodations disabled students get, and even went so far to say that kids with dyslexia shouldn’t have extra time on tests because they can’t read. Yeah. She was THAT extra and I hated her guts.) was all like “OMG CAN I PLAY WITH IT???” and it was a small class of 10 of us, and she said it loud enough for everyone to hear and so I very reluctantly handed it over. She spun it and then started shaking it up and down and was like “I dont get it. What does it do?” And I was just like see??? This is why I didnt want you to have it. And she created such a distubance trying to figure out how my fidget spinner worked that my teacher told her to give it back or he would take it. And IT WASNT EVEN HERS. Like god damn it all was fine until you had to see what I was doing and nearly get my spinner taken. I use it to focus, and help keep meltdowns at bay when classes get too noisy or overwhelming, and in those two minutes she had it, nearly cost me.

gay-mychemicalromance-disaster

but can we just make it clear that these fidgit toys are for, as well as people living with adhd and autism, people with anxiety as well? because im intensly anxious, and these fidgit toys work very well for me, and im actually sick of teachers telling me to put it away because there is “clearly nothing wrong with me”

gayemo

At my school so many people brought fidget spinners as the new trendy toys that at one point they did get banned,,,,,,

they’re typing like him they’re doing it like him, like he used to I know they might actually be hurting but it’s hard to look at that and how they say it and not think they’re just trying to use me I can’t help but see it and think

“THEY’RE LYING THEY’RE LYING THEY’RE LYING THEY JUST WANT TO U S E Y O U”

some habits will always strike that cord in me

sucks that it’s such a big trigger

#Bpd #actuallyborderline

drawandchill

Bpd in school

Feeling always isolated and different from others

Skipping class because everything is too much

Wanting to commit suicide just to punish your classmates/teachers because they don’t care about you

Going to the bathroom to calm down

Being called ‘dramatic’ and 'crazy/ psycho’

Embarrassing moments when you lose control and shout/ cry in front of others

Random need to cut/burn your arms/ destroy yourself in some ways

Self sabotaging by getting bad grades on purpose and isolating youself

Drawing eyes, spirals, guns, tears, creepy things on books during lessons

Needing special attention and affection all the time from some special teachers and being jealous of other classmates when they get more attention than you

Idealizing/devaluing teachers

Teacher ask you a question, but you can’t process what he’s saying because you’re dissociating

Nausea, irritability, muscle tension, palpitations and headaches caused by strong emotions

Feeling that everyone in the class is against you

Subconsciously absorbing the personality traits of the teachers

Tiredness, falling asleep in class

Feeling ignored and unwanted

badbops

lycan-of-chaos

Me: Man, it’s so nice out today! It’s cool and windy and-

Dragon brain: wings. Fly.

Me: but I cant-

Dragon: F L Y. Feel wind. Wings.

Now I’m stuck with them in an awkward angle, and only one wants to open correctly. C'mon wings.

catnamedsophia-deactivated20190

Wait,

so you’re saying that normal people don’t develop a crush on every single person who is nice to them/compliments them?

catnamedsophia-deactivated20190

I’ve seen a lot of posts talking about borderlines being sad and feeling empty, but I haven’t seen a lot of people talking about the rage they feel.

It is incredibly easy to piss me off, and when I’m angry (especially at the people I love) I start yelling at them. And I know that it’s not right, I feel terrible afterward.

The anger is just so strong and idk how to deal with it in other ways. Whenever my mom is angry she yells at people so I guess I must have gotten it from her.

clingybastardchild

god, I can relate to this on a spiritual level whwhw

I’m gonna fist fight god

#bpd #actuallyborderline