SnapCracklePop I'm Krispi

Just a blog to track my chronic pain and journey to figuring out what the fuck is going on with my body.

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Dreams 7/21/24 age 29

Weird Sherlock Holmes style ghost hunting dream, small partner house to a main house.

Trying to save a woman? But then I'm an elf that can switch gender presentation and the ghost story plot drops and instead we are trying to befriend her? Then other elves... That are somehow robots or programmable show up and try to befriend her too which we are trying to stop happening. They look like white robots until they show their outsides as elves? They have a toddler they want to program for a company so I program it to the wrong one and lock it so they get mad.

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Dream 5/29/23 - 28 years old

May 29 

Guy sent to a place to stop a demon? I'm an Older man asked by my friend to help. But this old friend knew my old partner who left me(a man too). I'm similar to Lucifer from the show?? I'm working out of a cute pizza shop/diner and the friend is actually running a cult out of his large old house (but there are just a bunch of people there that I just think he is helping??) 

Weird event where you have to say a phrase backwards and the thing you love to stop this demon summoned at a playground??

Changes to me in my body investing things. Buzzfeed style video where we invited Hannah witton (sex ed youtuber) to talk but we also wanted to invite more queer people and people who know about sex to the show so we find a politician who attends local pride stuff and gay bars? He slips coins into my hand to use at the vending machines in the corners of the club that have drinks and condoms?? The little shop by the bar also has ones with toys and candy. 

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Dream 5/24/22- 27, postpartum

May 24 

European online friend was celebrating something and Phillipino online friend actually could come visit her at the same time as the big party at like a weird resort house rental thing. So then I drop everything and come too. We were waiting for my spouse cause his passport wasn’t ready but for some reason my dad was there

I basically wrote that I was non-binary on a cake to show my dad for some reason…? And there were dumb games and for some reason fireworks

Eurofriend’s friends were all hanging around and kinda weird and all the inside jokes and they tried to describe these weird games we were going to play and I kept texting Spouse trying to get him to let us stay longer since he was buying his ticket

Phillipinofriend gets a titty hug and an ass slap XD 

Church being recobbled in the way of party. Switched to a business party for a moment with weird executives but then switched back to eurofriend+co plus my dad. Church inside was redone modern and looks like an evil lair. Needed something from the church but couldn’t remember what when I got to it. 

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Dream 05/15/22 - 27 years old, postpartum

May 15: I had a dream that Online Friend needed to go to Sam’s club (a store that sells bulk here and  you need a membership for) so I met up with him there and helped him buy a set of strange decorative bowls. But it was also the first time we met in person so we hugged a lot and then I saw a movie with my sister?

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Dream 04/17/24- Post surgery

I'm 29 and immediately post Top surgery/breast reduction

I fade in and out of consciousness a lot on the drive home from surgery in the passenger seat. I vividly hallucinate/dream that my friend isn't taking me home but instead she is taking me to chucky cheeses. Then the same but I think I am at work and doing normal work related tasks with my coworkers. A few more happen but I cant remember them much.

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Dream 02/15/22-26 years old, pregnant

X-men?? 

Mutliplicity/felicity. Weird power that lets them make 3 versions of themself to avoid lazers, hazards, etc. basically “past present and future?” 

They find an abandoned “lair” they hide in and were exploring and a teacher/finder comes to get them. Unfortunately the teacher gets hurt and they have to use their power to split them too and only have 2 parts left? Or they used a civilian to transfer consciousness?? They end up bringing the teacher back to her charges/husband who were waiting for them. He seems Unfazed by the change in his wife’s appearance and asks multiplicity to follow them back to their base. Weird train thing???

Multi’s regular friends wave to them and they run over and explain what is going on to their cheerleader friend. That mutants came to take them to somewhere where they can try to figure it all out.

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dream 01/29/22

26 years old. Still pregnant.

January 29 

I get my pump in the mail and got too excited. I use it in the middle of the night to check flange fit but end up doing a 15-20 minute pumping session. One boob has cholostrum with thick fattyness it it and the other is more watery. The pump somehow came with a sign that says pumping mom with ear plugs? I pumped about an pics of cholostrum and then like… 8 ounces of milk. Also in the dream milk comes out of a pore in my areola too on the left side. 

spouse reprimands me for tryin to pump so early. Coworker  helps me organize the bottles??? Some dude friend of Sistersboyfriendsmom’s try’s to get me to pee in a cup for him?

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Dream 01/21/2022 26 years old, pregnant

Blood bank is a store? Like a grocery store. coworker stuck on the phone with shipping. Someone tried to buy all of our platelets for a music video.

littlest cousin works at Walmart and a lady bought 2 GIANT tutus that came with huge flowers that make you look like a fairy but didn’t want them and returned them. weird egg? “Easter egg” that Different Coworker thinks is funny that’s an egg attached to an egg

Switches to Encanto like family. Weird witches/vampires? Try to get the kids. Normalish dude the little girl has a crush on needs to get to work but we have an adventure instead. Some kind of wizard guy who does hardcover book leather art and accepts vision and future telling payments as literal bread. 

Goose king has new followers? Also kicks a little duck out a window. Little girls powers are teleportation/speed?? 

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Dream 01/09/2022 - 26 years old

January 9th 2022

Nightmare? 

Cousin invited us all to his memorial service. He was diagnosed with something terminal and wanted to see and celebrate with all the people he loved before he passed. (My IRL cousin is totally fine.)

I have a personal conversation with him about how weird it must feel to attend your own funeral. There was a lot of food ordered and weird tension between my Aunt and my parents. My siblings were pretty quiet.

I tell people about the naruto game we played when I was little. About how I wore out the sweatshirt he gave me for winning and how I still have a piece of it. His friends talk about other stuff. I cried. I wanted to talk about all the other things and how great he was but it hurt so much. 

He seemed to be doing ok… he just looked skinny and tired. He bought his friend "Gavin"(not a real person I know of) a “Gavin gavel” for some inside joke. his wife didn’t spend a lot of time out with the family. I was still pregnant. Didn’t eat a lot of the food there but I drank a lot of soda. 

Dream morphed into a weird montage of Laura Bailey, Travis and someone else being high speed chased Bonnie and Clyde sort of deal. I remember changing around a lot of music and trying to find porn on library computers.

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Dream feb 2018- 22 years old

A classroom. We are told to grab markers and write nice things on people. I write some on a girl I knew from middle school who was very sweet and quiet. Time skip forwards and I see her again but this time with a girl who knows no personal space and I really hated. Yelled at her that she needs to stay out of my personal space.

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EMG, MRI negative! BUT got a diagnosis of Rosacea and "probably something autoimmune going on" which is super fun and great. Going to go back to find my old sleep studies (from 2016 maybe?) and see what they actually said (Inconclusive for Narcolepsy was what I was told... but then they offered me stimulants immediately too and i declined at the time. ) In the meantime I thought it could be fun to post some of my crazy dreams/hallucinations when I sleep that I THOUGHT were normal dreams. Like last month(June 2024, I'm 29 years old) I had a whole dream I was getting a smoothie but I could taste the smoothie and feel my body walking around but then... also felt my body in my bed. So the overlap of sensations confused me and suddenly the "visual" of the dream shuts off. But I can still FEEL the air of the parking lot, my hand on the cold smoothie and the taste of it in my mouth being overlapped by the heavy feeling of my body in bed and my hands on my pillow. I try to open my eyes and cant, yelling in my dream that if I could just open them and see my room then maybe the overlapping can stop. Eventually I do get them open and am able to sit up in bed, rub my face and wiggle around a bit before laying back in a different position to go back to sleep

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Finallllyyu have a MRI date after a "totally normal" EMG like I said I would have since NONE of my symptoms are carpal tunnel related and the neurologist was so sure that I just had carpal tunnel. Sigh

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Fun times and new symptoms!

Got numb feelings in my hands and have been dropping things like crazy. I also have to use my cane almost every day now and not just on bad days to help me not fall over walking into work. Joint pain in my knees has been worse too.

I get to go to the neurologist tomorrow to get evaluated for Multiple Sclerosis or a trapped nerve. Starting with an EMG so yay for being poked with needles everywhere I guess.

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Cold and Flu TT.TT

Im so upset. I got a cold or something and had to postpone my appointment just in case it was COVID... Took 3 covid tests and they were negative but I still felt like I was run over by a truck.  Now I have to wait until the end of march to talk to my doctor because of how busy she is TT^TT 

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Dr: Do you have any pain?

Me: Oh, no, I'm fine, you know, it only hurts when I move.

Dr: What part?

Me: All of it.

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to my fellow hypermobile ppl, if you are turning while standing... do not simply rotate at the hips. it can fuck up your knees and hips.

instead... lift up the foot on the side you are turning towards. rotate that leg AND your torso towards the direction you want to go in. put foot down. bring your other foot in line with the first foot. make sure your feet point straight when you do this.

tada. you have turned more safely. if anyone knows a better way to turn please add on. may your joints not crumble.

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When you decide you need an emergency cane to go shopping with so you don't dislocate your ankles.