There is Meaning in the Act of Trying

Just a 26 year old who loves her fictional characters way too much.

[clonneclub]

Anyone has any fanfic recommendations for stories that deal with the Laudna & Delilah pact dynamic?

I've just finished reading What Doesn't Break and their dynamic is so good (in a horrible way) I need more of it

[clonneclub]

Are there any Affair fanfics published yet? I need a fanfic fix until Friday 😭

[clonneclub]

This is more of a vent than anything, but I need to get it off my chest

It was my birthday recently, I turned 26, and I'm in that stage of my life where my friends are starting to settle down, get married, have children.

For most of my life I've known I was aroace, that I have no desire to achieve these things my friends are achieving in terms of romantic relationships, and yet somehow I still feel...sad, I suppose, because everyone I know is hitting (or has already hit) these milestones and I feel like I'm stuck.

I guess it's more to do with people's expectations of me than anything else (because no matter how much I say it, to my family being aroace is "just a phase").

This probably makes no sense, so I'm sorry for the rant.

[clonneclub]

Please, are there any cate X may fanfics out there

[paverics]

bro it’s half past 11 (pm) in the u.k what the hell do you mean it’s 20°C

[ragzonacamrencruise]

*Laughs in Tamizh*

[paverics]

i know other places in the world get hotter and some of it is a ‘we’re special little snowflakes’ kind of way just because psychologically we aren’t built to deal with heat that well since we rarely get it, but heat in the u.k is also different

i came back from ibizia like 2 weeks ago where it was like 33°C all week, and it was fine. it was warm. it was nice. i enjoyed it

u.k heat is different. it’s sweaty. it clings to you. everywhere is hot. you don’t get a break, even at night. it’s humid. pretty much every single building here is insulted and designed to keep heat in and it can genuinely be really difficult to cool them down

homes are not supposed to maximise airflow and they aren’t built with rising temperatures in mind. unless you’re in a hotel or maybe an office, the overwhelming likelihood is you don’t have ac

i really feel like you need to be here and experience it 😭 i’ve met people from typically hotter places (ie, somalia, australia, bangladesh) who agree that it feels hotter here when it’s hot. and if you do experience a u.k heatwave and still think we’re all just being dramatic, that’s fine too

[clonneclub]

Heat and cold varies so much depending on where you are.

Winters in Brazil are hell because yes, it's 8°C on an extremely cold day and for most people this is not cold at all. But our houses are meant to keep the heat out and retain the cold and nobody has AC or heaters here, so you end up having to wear 4 layers of clothing inside your own house and it's always warmer outside than inside 🙃

Comparing temperatures when you are from vastly different places is just pointless

[missmamibee]

I got curious and made this. Which do you see when you read? 

[clonneclub]

Breaking my silence to ask this: is there really a difference in pronunciation between Vax and Vex?

Maybe I'm phonetically deaf to these sounds because even when the cast would say "oh that's vex not vax" it would sound the same to me 😭 Update: I think my problem is that I pronounce egg and apple in the same way, both vowels have the same sound when I say it 😅😭

[clonneclub]

@myosotispalustris "OP, where on Earth are you from?" Brazil 😭 I've just realized I've been pronouncing apple incorrectly my whole life (like eh-pple)

[clonneclub]

Breaking my silence to ask this: is there really a difference in pronunciation between Vax and Vex?

Maybe I'm phonetically deaf to these sounds because even when the cast would say "oh that's vex not vax" it would sound the same to me 😭 Update: I think my problem is that I pronounce egg and apple in the same way, both vowels have the same sound when I say it 😅😭

[clonneclub]

Was having a perfectly fine day when the thought that Sam possibly feels guilty for Song's death hit me. I wonder if she partly blames herself for not standing up for her, for listening to her grandma and not following after her.

Especially now that she's essentially fighting the same battle, but her older sister has her back and is there fighting for her as well.

[clonneclub]

One thing that pisses me off sometimes is when Mon says Sam is "not being frank" with her, like in the lion scene. Sam was being SO frank there, and yeah, maybe she wasn't using her words, but she was being honest and straightforward about what she wanted. Mon talks a lot of honesty and trust but she's also the one who's keeping secrets and lying straight to Sam's face about what she's doing with Kirk.

[sapphicstacks]

to be completely honest, i am 100% happy no matter if imodna remains platonic or if it becomes romantic but every time i think about their relationship in any capacity i feel emotions in my teeth. iN MY TEETH Y’ALL

[clonneclub]

Going kinda insane thinking about this because yes, Percy is 100% correct in not wanting to bring Laudna back if it means bringing Delilah back too. Because he got to grow old, he got to grow a family in a world he believed was Delilah-free and he does not want to jeopardize it.

But as a viewer who knows Laudna's story it's just heartbreaking because she didn't get to have the same thing. She didn't grow old (the burden of looking the same as the day you died), she didn't get to grow a new family (at least for almost 30 years). All she got was the voice of the psychopath who murdered her and her family and people running her of out every single town she stepped foot in. Not even in death can she know peace and has to live in her worst memories courtesy of Delilah.

[clonneclub]

The more I think about Laudna the more my heart breaks.

Laudna who died confused, whose last words she heard were "is she your favorite?" directed to Imogen, once again a casualty. Laudna, who in death wasn't surrounded by those she love, but by the embrace of her murderer.

Laudna, who might be resurrected, and if so will be standing on the same land she was killed and brought back alive before. Seeing the same tree she was once hung from. A town which she hasn't come back to in 30 years. A town which prospered in these years in the absence of the Briarwoods, while Delilah Briarwood lived rent free in her mind.

[clonneclub]

I do not accept this... I can't lose laudna

[clonneclub]

I feel for Laudna so much, she has now shared twice that her patron took over her body and both times it was brushed off. The comment to FCG that they are a puppet just like her was also overlooked like... can someone actually listen to Laudna and help her out 😭

[clonneclub]

I can't get over how scared Laudna sounded when she realized Delilah had taken control of her body. And Laudna's first instinct was to reach out to Imogen...

But all Imogen sees is a broken gem, broken trust...Imagine losing control of your body (to the person who murdered you!) and not a minute later being called a liar by the person you'd do anything to help and protect.

[clonneclub]

God I just feel so bad for Laudna... Delilah had already taken everything from her: her old life, her family, her community. In her unlife all she got was mistrust, and fear, and a life of isolation for 30 years... and now that she has found a semblance of happiness, Delilah strikes again and takes it from her

And not only is she in her mind now, but she can also control her body and actions... to be Laudna and realize that Delilah already took her life, and now she might take over her new life...