That Awkward Bean

I'm a closeted transmale, open to a select few of my friends. 

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Happy Lesbian Visibility Day!

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Something I get asked a lot

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Family <3

I'm out to one of my girlfriends family, and her dad didnt really say much to me, but her mom told us that earlier before we had woke up, they had went to a friends and her mom was talking about me and the person was like "Oh the girl your daughter was talking about?" Her mom tried to correct her, though she sometimes calls me a girl buy accident (my voice is higher, so if i start t it might help 😂) But her dad spoke up, "He. He identifys as a guy, so he is a man. Call him a man." After her mom told me that i felt like i found a family that already accepted me, and would support me. I almost started to cry, i refuse to come out to my own family as the comments my mother has said about transgenders, etc. So it was so amazing to have people who just met me accept me.

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Happy holidays, I got a wacom drawing tablet so I can try to draw now!

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Why is it so simple for some?

My mum bashes name changes, and makes fun of transgenders saying shes going to change her name and mocks them. Its one of the many reasons that I refuse to come out to her, at least while I live under her roof.  But both my bestfriends accept me even before I came out to them. I’m pretty sure they had their suspicions, but hell I’m pretty sure my little sister would accept me, and she’s only five. 

Why can’t people just accept how people are, not mock and criticize them. There’s been so many times that I’ve wanted to off myself, but as I’ve come out to my bffs and started to change how I looked at myself, binders, clothes, hair, now there are times where I get called a guy and It makes me smile, or a restaurant will call out MY NAME and I can’t stop grinning for the rest of the day. Why can’t people just stfu and get over themselves?

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Tips And Tricks?

Any one have some awesome tricks and tips for passing?

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I love you

You’re one of my best friends and you accept me no matter what. You let me vent and cry when I need you and you don’t care how I identify. You are amazing at helping me survive this and you never give up on me. You remind me everyday that I can survive this, I can make it into a life where I am me.  You trust me with things that you trust no one else with, and you have been there through thick and then. Even when we were miles away you were still my Bestfriend. You’re amazing and I love you. You’re the reason that I’m willing to put down the blade, take off my binder and breath, and the reason that I accept myself for who I am. 

I love you.

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It’s Hard...

Today after work my mom decided to tell me about this “disgusting” video she saw today. She told me that some “trannys were teaching 5 year olds how to be transgender and that it’s disgusting and I wouldn’t let my daughters ever watch this” She kept going on about how disgusting transgenders were and now I’m hoping that my girlfriends family will allow me to move in with them, as I’m willing to pay rent and help with bills and the other kids that live there...I can’t fucking do this, I swear.

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So this happened the other day.

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Don’t do something permanently stupid just because you’re temporarily upset.

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Hello

I am Toby. I am 17. I have my own job and can get my own binders, but I refuse to try to come out to my family, due to a very bad experience. I am open to a select few of my close friends I know won’t rat me out. SO yea!

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I’ve been wearing my binder since 10:30. Its 1:33 am....On a good note, i ordered a new binder. I love having my own money...<3

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HEY!

just because trans people aren’t passing/haven’t had surgery, it:

DOES NOT MAKE THEM THEIR BIRTH GENDER. 

DOES NOT MAKE THEM THEIR BIRTH GENDER.

DOES NOT MAKE THEM THEIR BIRTH GENDER

DOES NOT MAKE THEM THEIR BIRTH GENDER

DOES NOT MAKE THEM THEIR BIRTH GENDER

DOES NOT MAKE THEM THEIR BIRTH GENDER

they are the gender they identify with. calling them a “fake tranny” or “just a tomboy”. NO. she is a WOMAN. he is a MAN. if you want to be a goddamn bigot, GO BACK TO 1950. this is 2018. trans people exist. nonbinary people exist. gender non-conforming people exist. just because you want to be some southern hick boy who acts high and mighty because you’re a cisgender heterosexual does NOT make you better than people with REAL and TRUE kindness in their hearts.

thank you for coming to my goddamn TED talk.

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trans mlm demon aesthetic

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Posting this one a little late after Thanksgiving, but it still goes for the rest of the holiday season!

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This makes me really happy~