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header is not me thats art of my joyfriend :3

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Intro

.my name is { C O D E. }

.if you know me outside that name { nuh uh you do not =^°^= }

.i am literally an ophanim. { so act accordingly :3 }

.i { have:

npd,

adhd;

}

.i {am:

nawa,

queer,

A MINOR,

pangenderfaun;

}

.why am i joining { jiraiblr?:

Mental illness

Place where i can be myself better

Account where i dont have to keep up a persona

I need to be able to have an 'emo' phase SOMEWHERE. Cant have it irl or ill be bullied and inconvenience my family and my reputation and my loved ones so. Here is where i'll have it!

}

Okay thats all BYEEEEEEEE

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Relapsed

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I need to cut my body off and all my friends off they all fucking hate me everyone hates me and all of them fucking suck i hate thems o. Much i cant stand this

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I need to cut my body off and all my friends off they all fucking hate me everyone hates me and all of them fucking suck i hate thems o. Much i cant stand this

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I hate remembering thst i have sexual charaxteristics i fucling hatenit so much i need to cut these thigns off me i fucking hate when my moms ays that every part of my body is perfect and god made it for a reason no the fuck its not i want to kill myself and this is by design, god has made me human and put me in a body id hate even more BY DESIGN.

[hpdamechan]

there is no better supply/validation than someone having a crush on you.

[bittersweet--sys]

please read this if you're a jiraiblogger .

@/fyodie has a new account under the name of @/fyodieneverdies , they reblog posts with real life gore and unhealthily thin bodies . I'm pretty sure they're specifically targeting jirai blogs to purposefully trigger them

report + block them and reblog this to spread awareness

edit : at the moment they're also spamming F and R slurs and have the n𖥔zi symbol as their name , just be cautious when looking at their profile ...

@hpdamechan , @7daysj1rai , @x-kangelkawaiii-x , @vanillabean5645 , @thevo1dosphere , @yourlocalmonstermailman , don't know who else to tag gulp

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Hey jiraiblr

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I hate whenever I have to do something I'm not good at. I hate it so much

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Been seeing this annoying ass gay dude in my dash thst lukes love island. I have no problems with gay people in fact im a lil fag but. BRO. I HATE THEM SO MUCH. ANYBODY WHO LIKES LOVE ISLAND NEEDS TO GO TO HELL I HOPE EVERYBODY WHO LIKES LOVE ISLAND GOES TO HELL AAAAAAAAAAGAGAHHAIAWJWIHSAIAJJSJS

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Oh my godddd I fucking hate how annoying everyone is online they always be acting like theyre superior bro LIKE NO YOURE NOT SHUT UEPSOSJAOAK 😭😭😭 AAAAAAAUWHWIA SBUTBRUEUDURPRPE STOP FUCKING CALLING PPL DARLING LIKE SOME FUCKASS CARTOON VILLAIN ITS STUPID AS HELL???? OH MY GODDDDDDDDBOWBWJWJS

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One must imagine code from earth happy

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"Nobody deserves to be killed" I DONT FUCKING CARE. OH MY GOD I DONT CARE. IF I WANT SOMEONE TO DIE I HOPE THEY DIE AND ITS ALL THEIR FAULY. I CANT FUCKING STAND THE KIDS IN MY CLASS ALWAYS TALKING SOME SHIT ABOUT "hes a faggot!" "No you ARE gay" AS AN INSULT TO OTHERS I DONT GIVE A SHIT IF ITS NOT DIRECTED TO ME, I CANT FUCKING STAND HAVING TO KNOW I CAN NEVER BE EVEN THE LITTLEST BIT OF QUEER AROUND FUCKING ANYBODY WITHOUT BEING LAUGHED AT. THE ONLY WAY I COULD BE QUEER IS IF I WERE THE BEST FUCKING PERSON TO LITERALLY EVERYONE AND I HATE HAVING TO DO THAT EVERYDAY. I ALWAYS ACT KIND TO EVERYONE AND I CANT EVEN BE A LITTLE BIT GAY WITHOUT SOMEONE FINDING IT WEIRD.

ITD BE A HUNDRED TIMES WORSE IF I TOLD EVERYONE IM TRANS BECAUSE "why are u in the boys lockerroom!?!?!? Youre not a boy!!" DUDE SHUT UP DONT ACT LIKE IM HERE TO LOOK AT THE BEER BELLIES YOU GUYS HAVE LIKE THIRTY YEARS BEFORE YOU SHOULD HAVR THEN I JUST WANT TO BE A FUCKING GUY IN PEACE. I HATE EVERYTHING. I HATE HOW FUCKING STRAIGHT EVERYONE IS. I HATE IT.

[manniskodus]

（ ♡ ） angelkin / divinekin tips that aren’t just « wear flowy dresses » and ritualized domesticity.

- - - disclaimer :: this is what works 444 me & my divine self-concept. if it does not align with your tastes, aesthetic sensibilities, or general tolerance for angelic theatrics, that is entirely expected.

— send emails !! write letters !! leave anonymous asks !! if your nature is that of a messanger, let your voice travel where your body cannot.

— study angelology across dispersed theological & esoteric systems. learning how divinity is structured across cultures, can in turn clarify your own noemata !!

— construct a shrine. it may be physical or digital. consider:

• what form could embody your presence ? (statue, effigy, framed likeness, abstract symbol) you can also make a statue out of clay.

• what sigil might function as your invocation mark ? make one !!

• what crystals correspond to you ?

• what plant/flower correspond to you ?

• what herbs correspond to you ?

• what incense/scent/oil feels like your atmospheric signature ?

• what candle colour corresponds to you ?

• what are acceptable offerings at your altar ? (dancing, singing, your favorite silly drink…)

• now, what offering would you reject ?hmm ???

• what ritual would petition your attention ? & conversely, how would you respond ?

• compose a prayer in your name !!

— engage with resonant frequencies such as 999 Hz or 1111 Hz, often framed as angelic harmonics. whether symbolic or perceptual, they function as auditory liminal spaces.

— pursue sacred linguistics. (hebrew, latin, arabic, indigenous languages..)

— DO BACKSTRETCHES !!111!!!111!!!! if you are of the angelic temperament, then the spine becomes a sacred column. loosen what has been carried too long. let the body remember it was not made only for endurance.

— try ancient methods of scribing if it calls to you. medieval scribal methods hold particular allure to me. you can age parchment with tea or coffee. vellum-making exists too, if you don’t mind the smell.

— if protective instinct is intrinsic to your nature, direct it at your favorite person with consent & clarity. being someone’s guardian angel, when offered freely, becomes a form of devotion rather than possession.

— seek elevation, both literal and perceptual. rooftops can serve as vantage points for contemplation. but stay safe please !!! height is meaningful only when it does not erase grounding.

— if your angelic identity is rooted in divine machinery rather than religion, cultivate technical literacy. learn systems of computation, networks, and code as one would once learn scripture.

that’s all for now, loves ♡ feel free 222 reblog this w/ more ideas !! — rem 🏹͙🪽⋆˙⟡

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bro I smell like complete shit can I please go home from school I'm so done bro

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Insane how the littlest of inconveniences will have me ending the day by searching for ways to get drugs

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Doing something to help myself feel better rq:

Things I like about where I live and my life:

I like the lights everytime night comes

I like how accepting all the adults at my school or around me are

I like that everyone thinks im nice and kind

I like that people think im attractive

I like that people think im cool

I like that people like that I draw, write, and do art in general

I like my boyfriend

I like how he makes me laugh

I like that I can cope easily right now

I like to laugh

I like that my state tries its best to keep me safe from the current administration

I like car rides

I like tacos

I like cutting onions

I like cutting cilantro

I like being able to learn things quickly

I like being resilient

I like being loved by people

I like being alive

I love my life

I am happy being human even if im not really human :)