Coffee Fueled Author

A crazy writer powered by feedback and caffeine. Author of Out of Place. This is where I post concept art, story ideas, open questions, and fan illustrations of my stories. My ask box is always open for your questions!

[frillythingy]

Goodbye

After years of drowning in depression that became severe enough that I abandoned everyone I knew, hid myself away, and cut contact with the world, I’ve finally reached my limit.

I want to mention that I didn’t abandon anyone out of anger, spite, or hatred. It was because I am a coward. I became so fearful of abandonment that I completely isolated myself before anyone could leave me first.

I left things open in the hopes that I would get better and return someday. But it’s become painfully clear that that will never happen. Life is more suffering than happiness. That’s not the life I want to live.

So I offer you all a farewell, as well as my sincerest apologies.

I can’t take being alone anymore. I don’t want to face the feeling of total abandonment on my birthday.

Goodbye. I hope I maybe mattered to someone out there for at least a little while.

[coffeefueledauthor]

I have so much concept art and random scribbles of every one of my stories. 

Which story are you here for? Which ones should I post stuff about? 

[coffeefueledauthor]

hey uh when do you think you’ll update your “Things Best Left Unsaid” fic?? also uh i hope youre feeling better. even just a little bit. you got this

Hello there.I am sorry about the long wait. I had originally intended to post the final chapter shortly after the first two. Unfortunately, my debilitating self loathing has come back full force. Convinced that I was annoying people, I isolated myself from my friends to give them a much needed break from my nonsense. But now, I am struggling with a crippling loneliness instead. I don't want to bother people, but I also feel so alone. It's hindering my ability to write.I still plan on getting the final chapter posted eventually. About a fourth of it has already been written. Hopefully I can start to feel better soon and I can finish it before long.I do thank you so very much for the message. The fact that there are people out there who legitimately enjoy my stories makes me feel like I might actually be worth at least something. TwT I sincerely appreciate it, and I promise that I will finish that tale no matter how long it takes. -Coffee

[coffeefueledauthor]

Please don't give up on your writing. Some of your unpublished ideas sound really interesting, and you don't want to let your fans down, do you?

Hahhh, I don’t want to give up on my writing. It just gets hard for me. I hit flare-ups in my chronic illness and my confidence levels go way down. 

But I still have every intention of finishing all of my planned stories! Was there one in particular that you found most interesting? It always helps to know which of my stories people would like to see. :3

[coffeefueledauthor]

I will give a heads up before I do, but there is a good chance I'll be deleting this blog soon. Mostly cuz I might be shutting down my fanfiction account as well. I'll give you a warning, though.

[coffeefueledauthor]

I lost something very precious to me. It's all my fault. I don't know if I can keep doing this anymore. I don't know what to do.

[coffeefueledauthor]

Urrrrggg. I'm super inspired and motivated to write, and I really want to work on one of my three newest novel-type stories or write one of my one shot ideas. But my brain can't pick ONE. So I write nothing. Whyyyyyy writing is so hard and I haven't even started yet.

[coffeefueledauthor]

This may or may not be a dumb question, but are you and frillythingy the same person?

Heh...Not a dumb question at all! For many many reasons (most of them dumb) I actually tried to keep it unclear at first. But those issues have long since been resolved.Yes, Coffee Fueled Author and Frillythingy are one and the same. I prefer to keep them separated, though. Frillythingy is my drawing persona while Coffee is my writing. While I don't keep it secret and will tell those who ask me, I keep them apart so that my writing is not judged based on my art ability and vice versa. It also allows people to choose if they want to follow my art, my stories, or both.So while they have separate accounts and I stick to the different screen names based on what I'm doing, I am still just the one person. Like I said, it's old and dumb and just my own weird weirdness, haha. Sorry to be so confusing!! TwT

[coffeefueledauthor]

So... Should I keep writing these stories? I'm not hearing a lot of feedback. Patreon exclusive concept art being posted tomorrow.

[frillythingy]

I don’t think enough people understand how important feedback is to someone like a fanfiction author.

There’s something so disheartening about posting a new story or chapter and not receiving one iota of response, be it good or bad.

I implore all you readers out there; don’t lurk in the shadows! These writers are offering you their works for free! Show you appreciate them by taking just a few moments to write them a review! It doesn’t have to be an essay! Just say if the plot worked or what made you excited or maybe what didn’t turn out so great and might need altering. It lets the writer know you’re reading their work! Nothing makes a writer happier than reading people’s responses. It’s a super easy way to make their day 2000 times better! And you might even make a friend out of it!

So please remember that writers live for feedback!! In fact, every artist does! Take a moment to let them know that you are enjoying their creations! It’s super important!

Now, if you’ll excuse me, I gotta dig myself out of a funk so I can get back to my stories.

[coffeefueledauthor]

Have you checked out the new stories on Fanfiction?

What do you think? Which ones would you be interested in seeing more of? Which ones seem the best? Which ones would you most like to see illustrations and or concept art for?

Remember that all these new stories are in my attempt to gain Patreons! Be sure to consider donating! Cuz all sorts of bonuses from ALL these stories are gonna pop up over there!

And hopefully we can get enough funding to finish off Out of Place!! Woo!!

[coffeefueledauthor]

Just wanted to let y'all know; None of these new stories im posting have covers right now. So if any of you have any suggestions for covers or if you'd like to draw one up yourself, just let me know!! Remember, I always LOVE to see your illustrations for my stories!! So please be sure to send them my way so I can reblog them and gush about how awesome they are!! TwT The Lost Testimony is being worked on today. I hope to get its first chapter posted soon!!

[coffeefueledauthor]

First chapter of Demons Don't Have Queens is up

[coffeefueledauthor]

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Have you checked out my Patreon recently? 

There’s now all sorts of concept art and illustrations for my current and upcoming stories posted there for ALL to see! And there will be even MORE art as well as factoids and bonus stories available for those who donate! 

Remember that these donations are what fund my writing and allow me to make it public! So if you want to see all these new stories AND the ending to Out of Place, please consider donating! I really need a steady income, as I’m really struggling financially. If I fail to raise enough donations, I will be posting all my stories for patrons only. 

[coffeefueledauthor]

Sorry for delays. I've fallen super ill. I'm doing what I can to get better. But I'm just sore and tired and lonely. Gahhhh, being sick bites. TwT

[coffeefueledauthor]

I'm now starting to write the beginnings of those fanfic ideas I posted. I'm also drawing up certain designs and concepts for said stories to be posted to my patreon. You guys still all good with this? I really want to see if we can get this to work out!

[coffeefueledauthor]

Progress and What is to Come

Alright, guys. I think its time I give ya another update on what’s going on.

I have been moving forward in my attempt to achieve a steady income via my patreon. If I can succeed in doing so, I will be able to finish stories hanging in limbo like Out of Place. I will also be able to write all day everyday, meaning so much more for you all to read! I’ll also be able to set up a work schedule that I will make public, so you can see when I am working on which stories and what days you can expect bonuses to appear on Patreon for donating members. This is the goal! I would so love to see this achieved! 

As promised, the two fanfictions that I had floating around my computer are now being posted on fanfiction.net. You can give those a quick read if you want to remember what you can expect from my writing style. 

Also! I have provided you with 13 of my current story ideas, complete with titles and short descriptions! They can be found here ! Go ahead and look through them to find what interests you. And if you can, please go right here and click on the Vote Now! at the top of the page to vote for which of these 13 ideas you’d like to see worked on! You get to choose up to five!

So where are we right now?

Right now I am just waiting for enough people to vote on the story ideas they like so I can begin the next step. When I have the results, I will be writing the first chapter for whichever choices had the most votes. This is so you can see just what the story would look like.

And that’s when I’ll have to pause.

Because of my financial situation, I will only be able to continue writing all of these stories if I have a steady income. If I cant make money from my stories, then I'll have to find a more profitable way to spend my time. I don’t have many options left, so I’m really trying my hardest to get this to work. 

If you are enjoying what you are reading from me, then please consider becoming a patron!! You’ll be helping me out more than you can imagine! And I’ll be able to offer you tons of behind the scenes goodies as thanks! The more patrons I can amass, the more bonuses you all will recieve!  Please press RIGHT HERE to check out my patreon page and donate! I will do as much as I can to make it more than worth it for you! And I will thank you with all of my heart!

This is my last idea to FINALLY stabilize my financial situation! I’ll finally be able to breathe again!

Thank you all so so so much for everything. I wish you all nothing but the best out of life!