Do no Harm but Take no Shit

new nightmares | mack

You weren’t supposed to hear me come in. I’m going to get rid of it, you know. All of it. And you better fucking lose this scumbag’s number, because while I don’t want my ass kicked again, I’m not going to sit here and let him give you this shit… and if that means more broken ribs, so fucking be it.

#chat #v:poison #sweetsinnersp8

No, don’t... What does it matter, Rick? I’m clearly no fucking good for you anyways... Just let me bury myself.

new nightmares | mack

Matt? Where the hell are you?

#chat #v:poison #sweetsinnersp8 #[im going for dinner... cause i can't cry at dinner #i'll be back]

Ri-rich? I... didn’t hear you come in...

fullcravings

Easy S’mores Bites

#wants #put this on a donut

incoloure-deactivated20190202

I’m not used to being wanted.

red || mack

Richard had jumped when the door opened, his throat tightening as he looked at Matt. It killed him to see that Matt had clearly been crying, saying nothing as Matt moved to let him in. He stepped in, moving out of the way and watching Matt for a second before he spoke, voice cracking a bit. “I’m sorry, baby…” He had known this would hurt, and seeing Matt like this made it downright agonizing. Taking a careful step closer, Rich reached to take Matt’s hand, thumb moving over the back. “Can I hug you?”

#para #v:poison #sweetsinnersp8

He was closing the door when Rick took his hand. Looking up, his eyes met Rick's and he broke again, silently moving to wrap his arms around him, face pressing into his neck as he sobbed. He hadn't known if he would ever get the opportunity to hold Rick again so it felt a little unreal to be here now.

red || mack

Rich was shaking. It was stupid to be… he knew that. This was Matt. Even so, the night before had been the first time in over a month that he’d been face to face with the younger man, and a lot had changed in that time. He found Rob pretty fast (mainly since Rob was still in helicopter mode) and explained that he was bowing out for a while, then set off, heart stopping as he made his way to Matt’s room and knocked, waiting for him to answer.

#para #v:poison #sweetsinnersp8

Matt was a mess. Well, honestly he had been a mess for a month now, but the whole conversation with Rich left him with puffy eyes and tear stained cheeks. Knowing that Rick was coming, he tried to calm down a little, sniffling and wiping at his cheek as he heard the knock. It took him a moment to actually get up the nerve to open the door, but finally slowly pulled it open. He felt a lump in his throat the second his eyes fell on the older man. "Hey..." he mumbled, looking away as more tears threatened to fall and stepping back to let him in.

Text --> Ricky

Ricky: I love you, Matthew.

Matt: I love you too.

#text #v:poison #sweetsinnersp8 #[we can start one and then continue later tonight... i have to head out for a bit soon]

Text --> Ricky

Ricky: I just wanted to be sure...

Ricky: I'll grab him and be right there.

Matt: Okay...

Text --> Ricky

Ricky: Let me find Robbie and tell him I'm bailing out for a while... I'll be there in a second.

Ricky: Um... assuming you meant you wanted that right now, I mean...

Matt: Yeah... That's what I meant.

Text --> Ricky

Ricky: Where are you?

Matt: My room. 823.

Text --> Ricky

Ricky: I can't honestly blame you if you can't. If last night was as hard for you as it was for me, it might be too much too soon... I just-- I need you to know I love you. More than anything. Always have, always will.

Matt: Right... I-I know.

[delayed]

Matt: Rick... I know we have a lot of shit to work out. And it won't solve anything and maybe it's even me just being selfish... But, I just want you to hold me.

Text --> Ricky

Ricky: I miss you too. So fucking much... I wish karaoke had lasted longer...

Matt: Well... If I can pull myself together, maybe I will head to the concert...