Post Substance Abuse College Life

Howdy y’all. You can refer to me as R. I struggled with substance abuse from the age of 12-22. I am currently 24 about to be 25 and finally going back to school to pursue higher education. I’m here for anyone who can relate and to romanticize this new challenge in my life that I’m so grateful for.

[warm-rot]

[zzzze]

Joel Meyerowitz (American, 1938-) The Screen Porch, 1980 chromogenic process color print (Ektacolor)

[thecybercelestial]

I am safe and secure. I do not worry about my placement in others lives. I am assured and highly valued. I am a unique one of a kind!

[tghphotography]

Late Summer

[maureen2musings]

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watchluke

[indistantdays]

[flowerytale]

Daphne du Maurier, from “The Apple Tree”, The Birds and Other Stories (1952)

[collegiatedegenrate]

What is it like to have a mother who loves you without restraints of her past?

I do not know, all I know is the hurt that she feels, as she takes it out on me every day.

I am the embodiment of my mothers pain. The wounds that never healed bleed into my porous brain.

I am everything that she hates.

[annakarenina]

Portrait de la jeune fille en feu + Paintings

Cafe Lovers by Joseph Lorusso Portrait of a Heart by Christian Schloe The Green Gown by Thomas Edwin Mostyn The Migration Series, Panel No. 55 by Jacob Lawrence Miranda, The Tempest by John William Waterhouse The Two Friends by Henri de Toulouse-Lautrec On the Dunes (Lady Shannon and Kitty) by James Jebusa Shannon Two Women in a Bed disturbed by a Cat by Jean Alphonse Roehn Portrait of Edith French by John Singer Sargent Portrait of Madame Seriziat by Jacques-Louis David

[thepersonalquotes]

[happyheidi]

[collegiatedegenrate]

Today was a rough day. Im pretty sure I gave myself an ulcer from all the stress I've been put under.

Not having supportive, or kind parents can really take a toll on you. Im not the kind of person that's able to let things roll of my shoulder, or easily let things people say bounce off me, at least not with family.

I moved home to be able to go back to college full time. The relationship with my parents has gotten worse and I do not think at this point it is worth trying to save.

But I have to meet my goals. I came back here to go back to college, get a good job, and do research on my family history as an adoptee with no paper trail. And I will reach all those goals, with or without the love and support from my adoptive parents. I am stronger than my adoption, and I am stronger than the family I ended up in. I will do this for myself, and for my siblings. I will never stop the search for them.

[thepersonalquotes]

[airlealilac-deactivated20250710]

"Hogwarts is home."

(Photos from Pinterest, none are mine.)

[littlebigarts]

La Sainte-Chapelle de Paris

1242 - 1248, Gothic Style

✨️photos are not mine✨️

[collegiatedegenrate]

I don’t know my biological mother, I don’t even have a name. I never had guidance figures I could lean on for support. When I cry my heart out, and my chest feels heavy, I sometimes imagine an older version of myself taking my face in my hands, and loving myself the way I always needed.

[poetry-siir]