Colourfulshadows

late 20's, he/him or they/them, ND, trans, DM's open, Multifandom (read pinned post), crazy about those vampires and those composers

[colourfulshadows]

Think it's time for a pinned post again.

This blog is a multifandom mess with added sprinkles of personal stuff, politics and just...random things idk :D

I write, I make edits, I also do other creative stuff sometimes, everything with the surprise bag of AuDHD (non-)motivation which equals very short phases of consistency until I run out of fuel.

Chronic illness team yaaaaay (EDS)

I speak German, English, and I remember some school-Spanish, but not enough to use it actively. Dabbled into like four other languages but not even close to enough to speak and understand really anything. ADHD curse :D

Talk to me if you want ^_^ I love to read infodumps especially if it's stuff that also interests me but I also just love witnessing people's passions in general.

I love music!

A tier list of fandoms/blorbos/ships that you'll find here or that I just like a lot:

Tier 1: Absolute Hyperfixations

- IWTV/TVL and Vampire Chronicles. Favourites are Armand and Lestat, favourite ships are Devil's Minion and Lesmand (and yes also Loustat but I don't feel the need to post about them much)

- Mozart l'opéra rock and Amadeus 1984, and any other version of Mozart and/or Salieri I come across, including the irl historial people

Tier 2: Long time favourites aka past hyperfixations that always return at some point

- Good Omens. Favourite is Crowley and Aziracrow lives in my heart

- Doctor Who, favourite doctor is 10 (and 14). Love 13 and 15 also

- Sherlock Holmes. BBC show or any other version honestly. Johnlock!

- Elisabeth (the Musical). Rudolf and Elisabeth are both my favourites but my favourite ship is Todolf

-Tanz der Vampire. Love Herbert the most, also the Count. Favourite ships are Herbert/Alfred and Count/Alfred

Tier 3: Things I love but that somehow never really got to the point of hyperfixation or that were hyperfixations for a week or so

- Sandman, I adore Dream/Hob

- Our Flag Means Death. Edward Teach kickstarted my acceptance process of being non-binary AND a trans man :D

- Hamilton (was thinking if I should put that one tier higher cause i do listen to it and sing it a lot but I don't engage with the fandom on Hyperfixation level)

- Star Trek TNG. Data is my blorbo there <3

- Other musicals like: Rebecca, Les Miserables, Next to Normal, Rudolf Affaire Mayerling, Artus Excalibur, Dracula, La Legende du Roi Arthur, uuuuuuhm....others too :D

- other stuff I've forgotten and will edit later

Tier 4: Things I enjoy occasionally and may get passionate about if poked, but not always and sometimes I even forget that these things exist or also just things I liked in the past

- Vikings! Haven't finished the show yet. Love Athelstan and Ragnar/Athelstan as a ship, also Ragnar/King Ecbert have insane (toxic) chemistry hihi

- Okay here it comes, I'll out myself as medical/EMS tv shows fan: Grey's Anatomy, Call the Midwife, New Amsterdam, 9-1-1, The Good Doctor, Transplant, uuuhm...have watched others probably!

- Lucifer! Castle! Those weird half-police-proceduals-half-personal-story shows. Also Mentalist, Criminal Minds (Spencer Reid <3)....uhm.

Okay I watch a lot of shows! Don't get me started on games too (or do hihi)

[loustatified]

Isn't that sexy?

[colourfulshadows]

WOLFKILLER, WOLFKILLER, MY LITTLE WOLFKILLER 🎵

I may have a new favourite song and it seems my brain likes to make a stim out of it oopsie

[batmanisagatewaydrug]

sorry to be a broken record every month but christ menstruation is a stupid concept. oooooh excuse me for not getting pregnant, why the fuck is there goo falling out of me about it? grow the fuck up and reabsorb that shit for nutrients.

[orpheuslament]

if i had a dick i would love to have a disappointing orgasm in the shower while thinking of something or someone that i felt i should not be thinking about & then stand under the water with my forehead against a wall watching the proof of my guilt & shame go down the drain

[krippe90]

The insight I get into the female mind thanks to this website is amazing.

[orpheuslament]

not a female 👍

[orpheuslament]

pause everybody take notes. real trans ally

[colourfulshadows]

Does someone know if there is any official way to watch TVL in Germany?

[colourfulshadows]

So so many things I theoretically want to do. So little energy. So little motivation. Oh well. Starts to feel like Groundhog Day

[spikybee]

I hate how nonbinary and trans intersex people are left out of trans discussion.

We can’t be sorted into TMA or TME easily, so people who use those labels tend to sort us based on our assigned sex.

Labels commonly used by intersex trans people are called useless.

Nonbinary people aren’t even included in trans rights posts half the time.

Intersex people are used as a way to prove that trans people exist.

Nonbinary people’s identities are disregarded and we are either considered basically just our assigned gender/sex, or basically a trans man/woman, depending on which thing makes us easier to hate or disregard.

It feels like binary and perisex trans people don’t give a shit about us, and it also seems like they don’t think the specific oppression we face is real. If they do, they don’t fucking talk about it.

Accepting and supporting trans people means accepting ALL trans people. Not just the binary ones, not just the perisex ones, not just the white ones, not just the abled ones, not just the ones you’re comfortable with. ALL OF US.

Talk about the lesser represented trans people, PLEASE. Talk about people with unconventional identities. You don’t support trans rights unless you support those of us with more complicated or conflicting identities.

[colourfulshadows]

I worry a bit because of that "I love you Lestat" - "Christ" scene, because uhm

Yes of course what we saw in 2x3 was a twisted version of the truth, which Armand imagined, I'm not trying to say that they kissed and were intimate like that and that Lestat confessed his love, but to have Lestat react disgusted like this? In the books, it's canon that Lestat loves Armand too (albeit less/differently than how he loves Louis) but can't be companions with him cause Armand's love would consume him and he doesn't want that/couldn't endure it without losing himself. Only because a companionship doesn't happen, doesn't mean the love isn't there.

I worry that they will make it show canon that Lestat never loved Armand and won't, to center Loustat even more and make it more attractive for show-only fans (don't get me wrong, I love Loustat and I enjoy show-Louis greatly. But the books don't center only on them, there is so much more outside of that particular romance or any romance in fact and I'd hate to see that getting tossed out)

Now, it could be that Lestat just presents it like this because he doesn't want people and especially Louis to *know* that he loves Armand in a way, because of how Claudia died and because he wants to get back together with Louis... I hope that's the case

I just don't want things to feed into the belief some fans seem to hold that Armand just lied about *everything* and doesn't tell the truth *ever* because that's simply not his character

[json-derulo]

they put my blood through every test under the sun and yet nowhere in the pages and pages of lab reports do they tell me what my blood type is

[json-derulo]

your neutrophils absolute? 2.71. anion gap? why, that's 11! hemoglobin A1C? a solid 5.4. and don't fret, champ—your VLDL (calculated) is a cool 12. real fascinating stuff. hm? what's that? you want to know what kind of blood you have? like, so you won't have to look your next ER nurse in the eye and tell her you have no clue what type you have right after giving her a date of birth that confirms you are over 30 years old? psh, don't be silly! we can't tell you that! it's a ✨secret✨

[json-derulo]

do you know your blood type??

yes, I'm certain of it

I think my family told me what it was but I'm not sure/no recent test to confirm

no, I have no clue

I don't have blood/results

Voting ended onJun 2

[sawed-on-shotgun]

hello my name is Stray Hair snd my big dream is to play the itsy bitsy spider on broadway. doyou mind if i practice on the side of your head.

[your-friendly-sleep-demoness]

I KNOW HE DRANK A BLOOD

[redstonedust]

its probably a normal sign for the economy that all of my adulthood fantasies are like "imagine having your own kitchen living room and bathroom to decorate" "what if i could get on a train" "maybe one day i could purchase a sturdy pair of shoes" "i should save and invest in a single bicycle"

[colourfulshadows]

I'm really worried I won't be able to access TVL when it comes out because my fucking country doesn't have access to amc+ and no not even as a prime channel. Not sure if vpn would work with smth you pay for and even if, then I'd probably need to pay with credit card which I don't have and djjfjekekdndiskskksks sometimes I hate loving english language media as someone in a non-english speaking (officially i mean) country, gives me so much trouble.

And I see people posting the interview thingy saying "it's out" and like dhiwindjeieieje no, not for me and won't be

We didn't even get IWTV on Netflix cause Germany goes fucking crazy with the license laws etc I don't even know

Nobody here who's not chronically online and on tumblr has even heard of the show

(yes yes I know, 🏴‍☠️, but I'd really like to watch it legally actually but if they don't give me that option...)

[musiicpix3l]

Yes yes i know love is love. But they are still killing CHILDREN. over this.

[saprotrophix]

[sunriseverse]

genuinely i don’t think it’s possible to easily explain the explicit part of online friendships to people who don’t Understand. i don’t mean like, explicit in the sense of “oh you’re sexting” or whatever. no. i mean when you and your friend start gleefully making up explicit sexual scenarios for your shared blorbos and you get giddier and giddier as you add more detail and you’ll be grinning at your screen as you type away at mach speeds. and it’s entirely nonsexual in an interpersonal sense, you’re not really getting Into it, but ohhhhh it’s soooooo fun and satisfying. and you can NEVER tell someone who doesn’t also do this that your mood is actively improved like fivefold because you and your friend played Sexual Tuoys together because they’ll go “what the FUCK.”