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tourdion

classic post rant quora phrase

fairycosmos

leaves a suicide note that just says Omggggg

I feel like I need to go to jail for a bit

#from me

Dreams I had last night in order:

1. I cut my arm up, I think I was fighting with my dad. He kept trying to talk to me and I kept trying to get away from him. I covered it up after and he didn't know. He took me out for food somewhere I didn't want to go and I ran away and killed myself. I don't remember how but I remember looking down at my scabby rotted looking arm as I died somewhere

2. My middle school best friend. She was more or less as she is now. She was at a concert or something, I don't know if I was there too or if I was watching a recording after, and it was like she was glowing golden from all different angles. I was my emaciated 18 year old self and I was naked and trying not to look at my body

3. I was taking care of mama and baby animals. There were birds, hedgehogs, and cats, and I was feeding them and making sure they were okay. This was the best dream ever and I was woken up from it by my own mum calling me

#I didn't fall asleep until 4 bc I was really anxious #masturbated and set it off #then I got woken up by staff idk when but pretty early and I didn't get back into a deep sleep #I feel very disoriented #self harm cw #suicide cw #do I even tag those at this point on this blog #lol

reginaldjuice

Saying shit like "I hope you die before we break up so I can taxidermy you and keep you forever"

#from me

columbiformed

I was born in exactly the right generation I love to watch edits and hump my foot

columbiformed

It's all for free too

I was born in exactly the right generation I love to watch edits and hump my foot

#from me

As it turns out "idk what the doctor was talking about I'm fine and I don't need to be here" is more than enough to get them to release you with zero questioning or follow up W FAIL OF THE SYSTEM

#from me #LET'S GOOOO

iamanewvagina101

Yes

columbiformed

I'm feeling super hateful today

columbiformed

My blood pressure just read as 82/53 so maybe I need some water and a lie down before I start making plans

dorfs

getting overtaken as a pedestrian: people are seriously so caught up with themselves they can’t get somewhere 30 seconds later

overtaking people: come on girls it’s not a statue garden

I'm feeling super hateful today

#from me

pukicho

I put a belt buckle on the floor next to my bed, that way I can step on it and hurt my foot when I forget it’s there.

columbiformed

My dad has rage broken 4 keyboards and 3 monitors and I don't respect him

columbiformed

He's gone on about my mum's anger problems (which she does have) but I trust her more bc she's aware of them and has worked and continues to work really really hard on them. He doesn't think he has any anger problems he just thinks he's right 😭 or that he tried the best he could so his rage response doesn't matter

columbiformed

He has a really frustrating pseudo zen "you just do the best you can" "accept other people for their natures" sort of thing but it's kind of seethe and cope and it dissolves when something pisses him off and he can't hold it in anymore and starts screaming and breaking things. Bro I cannot trust you you are not honest with your own feelings and you are not capable of actually accepting other people the way you say you are

columbiformed

YOU ARE ALSO NOT CAPABLE OF HELPING ME. PLEASE LEAVE ME ALONE

#I actually feel really bad for him he's 63 and his life sucks and his psychological problems are numerous but I also need him to back off #bc I cannot deal with me and him as well #esp when he is actively doing dickheaded things to me and being impossible to talk with about anything #please. please please. go away #it's actually really frustrating bc there's tons of ways he could help me including some really major ones but he thinks they're unimportan #or too much work or not what I REALLY need so he won't do them #and instead gives me the same speeches about willpower every. time. we. talk #he says “someone needs to tell [me] what [I] need to hear”#thanks #no really thanks you've been great I really appreciate all the uhhh acting like I'm an idiot all the time

columbiformed

My dad has rage broken 4 keyboards and 3 monitors and I don't respect him

columbiformed

He's gone on about my mum's anger problems (which she does have) but I trust her more bc she's aware of them and has worked and continues to work really really hard on them. He doesn't think he has any anger problems he just thinks he's right 😭 or that he tried the best he could so his rage response doesn't matter

columbiformed

He has a really frustrating pseudo zen "you just do the best you can" "accept other people for their natures" sort of thing but it's kind of seethe and cope and it dissolves when something pisses him off and he can't hold it in anymore and starts screaming and breaking things. Bro I cannot trust you you are not honest with your own feelings and you are not capable of actually accepting other people the way you say you are

#I actually hate how much alike we are in that way

columbiformed

My dad has rage broken 4 keyboards and 3 monitors and I don't respect him

columbiformed

He's gone on about my mum's anger problems (which she does have) but I trust her more bc she's aware of them and has worked and continues to work really really hard on them. He doesn't think he has any anger problems he just thinks he's right 😭 or that he tried the best he could so his rage response doesn't matter

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