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Orthodox Christian ☦️ | Aspiring homesteader 24 (DMs Open)

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By time I'm 30, I'll either be married, missing/killed in action, or a monk; no exceptions

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My Biblically gorgeous girlfriend made this meme after I told her I want to get her a new hat (they look lovely on her and she deserves it and more).

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Powerlifting 4 days a week, boxing 3 days a week, running 2 days a week, rucking 3 days a week — let's see just how far I can push my central nervous system till it breaks. I have enough testosterone and caffeine in my system to tear down the altars of false gods with my bare hands.

"Then Samson said, 'Let me die with the Philistines!' And he pushed with all his might, and the temple fell on the lords and all the people who were in it. So the dead that he killed at his death were more than he had killed in his life." — Judges 16:30 ☦️

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My forefathers bearing witness as I stand triumph over that which should have broken me countless times over. With the full assembly of heaven behind me, I shall know no fear.

"One man of you shall rout a thousand, for the Lord your God is He who fights for you, as He promised you." — Joshua 23:10 ☦️

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With my end goals finally in sight, the path becomes increasingly arduous. Though I have sinned against heaven, I pray for God to uphold me with His righteous right hand that I might not stumble. Victory or death.

"Do not hide Your face from me; Do not turn Your servant away in anger; You have been my help; Do not leave me nor forsake me, O God of my salvation." — Psalm 27:9 ☦️

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"We need you to come into work early every morning this week. I guess you can't lift weights at 5:00 for a while."

Negative, it seems I'll be waking up at 3:00 now. Little do you know, I have a trick up my sleeve.

ТРИСТА ТРИДЦАТЬ ТРИ

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Pulled back muscle, inadequate sleep, near total exhaustion — yet I keep pushing forward each day with God and my (future) wife as my motivation.

"Have I not commanded you? Be strong and of good courage; do not be afraid, nor be dismayed, for the Lord your God is with you wherever you go.” — Joshua 1:9 ☦️

THE BAR BROKE BEFORE THE GUARD DID

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Saint Michael the Archangel absolutely obliterating every single demon he encounters.

"Saint Michael the Archangel, defend us in battle. Be our defense against the wickedness and snares of the Devil.

May God rebuke him we humbly pray; And do thou, O Prince of the Heavenly Host, by the power of God, cast into hell Satan and all evil spirits who wander the earth seeking the ruin of souls. Amen." — Prayer to Saint Michael the Archangel ☦️

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For years, I have run from the past. My childhood self demanded retribution — deliverance. I chased shadows of events bound to time, seeking a different outcome. I finally accept the path I took here; I can lay him to rest alongside those memories.

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All strength I possess has been granted to me by God. I pray for an increase of might that I may uplift those around me, as I too was in my time of need.

"Bear one another’s burdens, and so fulfill the law of Christ." — Galatians 6:2 ☦️

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On my "lifting weights at 5:00 AM" arc. I will become the shield that breaks, so that my future family does not.

"Blessed be the Lord my Rock, Who trains my hands for war, and my fingers for battle" — Psalm 144:1 ☦️

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I yearn for the bygone age with my brothers — a simpler time. Alas, one has long since departed to a distant land; the other has lost his way.

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Tell me, O partisan, was it worthwhile to betray your empire? You have deposed those anointed by God. The red banner unfurls — stained by the blood of innocents. Holy Rus mourns for her slain children.

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Against all adversity, against all odds; what is this temporal existence, but a lifetime of perpetual war against the powers of evil? Should the skies be below my knees, I will not kneel.

"Do not fear any of those things which you are about to suffer. Indeed, the devil is about to throw some of you into prison, that you may be tested, and you will have tribulation ten days. Be faithful, even unto death, and I will give you the crown of life." — Revelation 2:10 ☦️

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I pray to find my Fevronia soon, she who will be by my side till the end of the age. With her I shall feel most secure; she is made from the very rib that once protected my heart after all. I will love her as Christ loved the Church, and lay down my life for her.

"And the Lord God said, 'It is not good that man should be alone; I will make him a helper comparable to him.'" — Genesis 2:18 ☦️

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How beautiful it is to find your other half, (s)he that will be by your side through all ordeals. Even more so to be so blessed as to repose at the same day and hour. May this pure love find both my brethren and me.

"You were a precious branch from a pious root O blessed Peter, having lived devoutly in the world, and then with your wife, the most wise Fevronia, you pleased God by your alms and prayer" — Troparion of Saints Peter and Fevronia ☦️

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How many more steps until I've escaped this place – I have served my time here far too long. Night and day I march in rank down a path to nowhere; perhaps there is no destination.