jewel

37 • nsfw • disabled and queer • she/her • southern gothic trash • cr spoilers ahead • a touch of the tism, a lot of trauma, and a hyperfixation issue • My AO3 • do it scared but do it; the time will pass anyway

[conditionaljewel]

I miss watching cr on Thursday nights, I’m virtually at the beginning of campaign 4 having only just seen the first handful of episodes and so like i still see people posting about what’s going on every week and i just. I want to watch but im so behind.

Sigh.

[gracekb-art]

She’s fun scary!

[chongoblog]

The world is so full of love. Even if its hard to find sometimes. Love will always be here. And it will always prevail in the end

[notlikingbestgirl]

Out of Touch

[is-it-out-of-touch-thursday]

Yes

[conditionaljewel]

not me crying sobbing to espn/abc using All These Things That I’ve Done for the Stanley cup final intro hype video package, nahhhhh not a tear at all there’s just something in my eye

[conditionaljewel]

Spharai Afterglow get 🥰🥹 ten long years of playing off and on finally paid off

[conditionaljewel]

All the little bitches in the ffxiv tags talkin bout the vana’diel crossover raids and how they wish this and that

Meanwhile I’m over here in actual ffxi tryna raw Promathia in ⭐️Dawn with trusts on normal mode and not eat a Meteor before I can get that chest piece

Ya girl is back on her bullshit, and she’s tag teaming the two best monsters a monster fucker could fuck, including the Shadow Lord, rocking his shit left and right like the little bitch he is

And don’t look now but Lady Lilith is ascending just around the corner, come here Mommy come play with meeeeee

You better before i snag these last 1700 plutons and get myself Spharai 119 III

Cuz then I’m cumming, and then I’m coming for your asses so hard you’ll rue the day that you tried destroying any part of the timelines of vana’diel. You’ll have to throw my body with leaden shoes off the cliffs of Qufim deep down into the sea, or else into the cauldron belonging to Ifrit, to stop me from the mess I’m gonna make of yinz

[conditionaljewel]

I’ve been incredibly depressed for a few weeks now

Therapy is only helping so much with the ocd thoughts and compulsions but it can’t do shit for me as far as fixing society and their standards and behaviors, and I’m just expected to continue acting like I’m normal when I’m not????

My birthday was no fun, i didn’t get to really celebrate and that added to my melancholy and depression. No amount of “it’s my birthday week” can fix not getting to celebrate on your birthday.

I keep butting heads with my best friend and it’s making me feel like shit

I’ve chain smoked for two weeks or so now because i have no weed, and that’s almost all I’ve put my very meager income toward, and that’s made me feel guilty but i can’t help it

I am just unhappy, plain and simple

I wish i were joking or exaggerating but im not

I’m literally so fucking depressed and i can’t even cry about it because im too fucking hot with this damn weather

[noctvrna]

I feel like I’m missing something that everyone else has

[conditionaljewel]

groundbreaking discovery

sitting outside when you’re severely depressed is a hell of a mood boost

more at eleven

[stonerparty]

[conditionaljewel]

If i have to hear one more god forsaken AI generated slop song I am going to drown myself in a pool of aerated water. I can’t fucking stand it.

[pngblog]

[daysleftofsecondterm]

Hey.

Yeah you- the person reading this. Stop scrolling for a second.

You’re going to be okay. You have to believe that. It might take a long time and who knows how much work, but you’re going to be okay.

You’re going to be okay.

You’re going to be okay.

[leebrontide]

Hey.

Low key tip from a therapist here for my likely-adhd pals. Like shh pretend you didn’t hear this from me but:

If you are trying to get assessed for ADHD as an adult and the assessor wants you to get your parents to fill out forms but your parents also have ADHD but insist they’re “normal” and you know they’re gonna fuck up your assessment by insisting you never did anything ADHD because thats just their “normal” or because they just think you’re lazy or whatever, then you just tell that assessor “Im not in contact with my parents”. Those are the major words. Swap it out for “family” if you also mean your siblings or whatever. I don’t care if you were at moms house last Saturday, do not allow this very stupid standard fuck your over.

I hate this standard. We KNOW that ADHD is the most heritable trait after height. But we assume everyone getting assessed has a prev generation member who is totally objective about this? When we know how stigmatized these symptoms have been and continue to be??? Why????

It is authentically helpful to have someone who knew you as a kid, but look around for someone else if you need to,

But you didn’t hear that from me.

[notlikingbestgirl]

Out of Touch

[is-it-out-of-touch-thursday]

Yes

[conditionaljewel]

i was never one for battling in pokemon as far as pvp goes, i dont understand the meta and have hardly dabbled in iv's, ev's, move sets, etc.

but i'm 8-1 in ranked battles in champions

bring on wolfey or whatever his name is