today I had to put my dog down
I know this isn't Starbucks related but idk where else to write this while staying anonymous...I had to put my dog down. he had an intestinal blockage & the surgery proved it was too late, his other organs were already damaged, sadly that meant we had to do what was best & end his suffering...he had just turned 5 years old in September & we had a fabulous party for him...this was the first pet I connected to, he was my everything. this might be tmi but I'm using the toilet & crying which I never thought was ever going to happen (unless I was in a related pain lol). I'm full-time in school & working part-time, I have no clue how Ima get thru this week being in public holding back tears...idk how people deal with death this shit fucking sucks!!! my eyes are so swollen I look crazy, I'm pretty sure I had panic attacks while crying cus I couldn't control my breathing. I know that every day will be better than the previous but I refuse to believe that bc my baby won't be here being smothered by me in my arms...please hug & kiss your loved ones (human & pets & inanimate objects - I don't judge lol) & tell them that you love them soo sooooo soo soo much. goodnight.