Confessions Of A Ranting Freak

19 | F | My outlet to share life experiences, feelings and stories | Ranting | Asking questions | Answering them too | My life is a mess | Always open to talk just dont be a dick |

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I always hate starting a new anxiety/depression med the side effect are killer

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I'm honestly such a psycho bitch off my meds everyone should just steer clear of me in person .... like just hospitalize me or smthn 🤣

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It's been a while...

* "normal"spongebob voice* hi, how are ya?

Man just when I thought my life was turning around and things got a little better shit hit the proverbial fan making me take a break from posting anything!

So what's up? I'm sad hbu?

-K

[nikeypapi]

how do you deal with anxiety ?

i let it fuck me up then i go to bed

[confessionsofarantingfreak]

My unicorn

I've been home for almost a week now... and yesterday I got to see my favourite person in the whole world ... my bestfriend... and it was so great because honestly I've needed my bff time I've finally started to share all the bullshit I've gone through the past 2 years and it feels good.... it's also awesome cuz shes an absolute firecracker and isnt afraid to speak the truth and call me on shit.and tbh if you looked at her she looks like the type to be a outspoken haha.. I always joke that shes my unicorn 🦄 cuz shes a ginger (they're pretty rare dont ya know.... and yet I seem to attract all the gingers)and it matches her personality so well I think every one needs a gingersnap bestfriend 😉 shes amazing tho I cant express my appreciation for having someone that I trust so thoroughly

I'm bored heres a cat

-K

[borderlineasshole]

yeah I’m totally fine I just need to set myself on fire

[confessionsofarantingfreak]

Anything like this happen to you guys?

So I had an amazing opportunity come from my placement through college... I got hired .... yeah I know round of applause 👏 but holy sweet baby jesus was it a dream opportunity.... a few weeks back the town it is in got flooded ... the road collapsed to the camp and I hot a call... my job was cancelled.... now I'm jobless lol

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Graduation

Sadly I did not graduate .... I didnt graduate because while I was in a shitty relationship I let my grades slide and failed a class.... wanna know by how much % ? .....5.....that's it 5 percent and now I cant get my diploma ... I've been spending months trying to figure out out to fix this and get it .. everything keeps failing or getting cancelled lol so theres that

[confessionsofarantingfreak]

What do you do...

What do you do when everything you have going for you falls apart.... your job... your school... your future plans.... and everything you try to do to fix it and get back on track just keeps failing 😪 I'm tired

[confessionsofarantingfreak]

So theres this guy 😍

Hes honestly amazing, and after everything that's gone on this year, he makes me happy ....I even let him meet the 'rents and the bestfriend.... I hope he stays

[confessionsofarantingfreak]

Is it acceptable to drop out of college 3 months before i graduate......

Im tired 

[confessionsofarantingfreak]

I am NOT dead

I took some time (months) for myself after the shit show known as my life blew up lol but im here and better than ever

[queerlysad]

[confessionsofarantingfreak]

I see you

I see you watching all my stories and commenting on my friends pictures and ignoring me or forgetting that I was your bestfriend once ... you dropped me like i never even mattered .... I loved you bestfriends ... I struggled to show it but I did and now I watch as you forget me

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I'm tired of hurting

Everytime I think I'm okay I'm not.... I've been trying to lead a more positive lifestyle and be more in touch spiritually...(lol no one supports this) I've been sharing things that spark an interest in me specifically quotes about loss and breakups .... my "bestfriend" subtweeted(95%sure about me) saying smthn like "you destroy everything and everyone around you, then act like its everyone else's fault. Own up to ur f******shit and stop being a child... bye" well if that's about me .... I'm super hurt... I cant even fathom what emotion that and the other things she said to me make me feel. someone I love

[confessionsofarantingfreak]

Why cant I have more than one good day lol

Things start to look up for just one day and I actually smile like real genuine smile for the first time in a bit but then it all crashes .... hopefully tomorrow is better

[confessionsofarantingfreak]

I've lost 10 lbs

And idk whether to be happy or worried