NOW @UNCERTAINTYFOUND.

You're gonna go far, kid.

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hello all ! i’ve decided to move ram to my multimuse, because i just don’t have time for him here. the multi is @uncertaintyfound if you’re interested !!  i look forward to rping with you all over there !!

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hey, i went ahead and cleaned out my drafts! so, like this for a starter !!

[outcrying]

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:^/

            ❝   i’m just sayin’ man,  like,  if someone on the  TEAM  died it would be different,  but chandler wasn’t even a cheerleader.  she was hot enough,  but she wasn’t.   ❞    he shrugs,  lining up to practice a pantomime throw across the vacant lot.  kurt didn’t want to believe that ram ever cared about heather chandler.  from what it seemed like,  the feeling between those two had been jumbled  -  less than mutual.   ❝   shit man,  unless it was caleb.  i would’ve played like a superstar if caleb dropped dead.   ❞

           as far as ram knows, you aren’t supposed to speak badly of the dead. this is probably out of respect, but in this case, he won’t be surprised if heather chandler comes back to  HAUNT the people who she felt mistreated by. while this is certainly a concern, he is more offended than worried. it isn’t like he would’ve ever married her, but she had meant something ( undoubtedly shallow ) to him. “ we all would, dude, he brings the whole team down. just ... leave heather out, man, you trying to get her to go all  GHOST on you ? ”

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@sparrowboned from here

        snort, followed by a quick roll of her eyes – alice cradles her BRUISED ARM close to her chest as she snaps her answer, only further driving home his point. his voice is still in her head, even now: if you tell anyone, i’ll fucking kill you.     ❛  rich, coming from you, ram. when are you gonna stick up to your dad, HUH ? it’s the same fucking shit. i hate using that against you, i fucking do, but it’s the fucking same ! they hurt us but there’s shit all we can DO about it, so we don’t. fucking. do it ! it can keep happening, and it probably fucking WILL, and you telling me what CAN OR CAN’T happen won’t stop him, or stop it, so just fucking – don’t be so CONDESCENDING ! take your own fucking advice ! you see why he hits me now, DON’T YOU ? because i run my fucking mouth and take things the wrong way. jesus. i’m – i – fuck. sorry.  ❜  

           “ it isn’t the same thing. ” his volume rises, and he turns away ; he knows enough about himself to know that he’s no good to either of them when angry. he doesn’t want to hurt her. he doesn’t want to be like his father ( but he is, he is : if he wasn’t, he wouldn’t be here, choking on his ANGER ). “ that’s my dad ! i can’t be angry at him, at least HE stuck around ! ” it’s intended to be an attack on his mother -- despite all the times he’s defended her, he knows she’s never coming back ; she can’t handle two angry, violent boys -- but too late, he remembers her parents. apology doesn’t come, his inability to admit mistakes forcing him to move on. her apology goes by as f it’s just as NONEXISTENT. “ let me deal with it then -- i’d kill him if it’d make him stop touching you, you know i would ! ”

[stormwept]

what are you afraid of, kid? // bumps in the night, silence in the dark. // no, what scares you? // my mother’s eyes, my father’s temperament, the toxicity of my blood.

please, tell me i’m different.  (via stormwept)

[cittamemes]

In Depth Headcanon Prompts;

☠ : Are there any recent/daily thoughts they have about death or dying? ☯ : Do they believe for every darkness there is a lightness? If not, why? ♥ : Name one thing about the way their emotions work that they despise. ☆ : Would they ever wish upon a falling star? If so, what would they wish? ☁ : Describe how they would spend a stormy, overcast/rainy day. ☂ : Storms or clear skies? εжз : What about nature do they find calming? What about nature do they find disagreeable? ☎ : List three or more people they would call out for during an emergency. ☛ : What is their typical response to being given orders? ☢ : Describe a thought or dream that would cause them to have a mental meltdown. ✄ : Are there any reasons why they would ever think of self-harm? If so, what are they? ❤ : Describe a physical action that shows complete trust. ❥ : Describe a verbal way they would express complete trust. ✗ : Explain how they portray feelings of hostility or dislike. ⊗ : What is something that causes them to question themself? ☾ : On a sleepless night, what would they be found doing? ☤ : Is there anything about their health they are continuously on edge about? Something they disregard? ✓ : Name at least two people who can trust them with their life. ❣: Describe a way that will earn affection (whether platonic or romantic) from them. ✖ : Describe a way to make them uneasy or apprehensive. ♆ : Are they prone to violent outbursts or thoughts? ✏ : What are their creative outlets? ✉ : Do they tend to rely on words or actions more? ♡ : Is there a certain scent that brings about nostalgia? If so, describe a memory this scent brings back. ۞: Are there any inner demons they can never seem to get rid of? What are they?

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VERY UPSET.

@confidencefalsified !  |  call.

          ❝  so  -  you’re cancelling.  ❞   voice is stern,  deadpan,  and obviously disappointed.  her father had been planning the dinner at the country club for months now,  and heather knew how much mr. chandler adored ram sweeney.  he was everything his little bitch stereotype could ever want !  after claiming he had a game,  a practice,  or some shit,  the demon set in.   ❝  my dad is going to be very upset. ❞

           he always hates speaking to his semi-girlfriend’s parents ; even if they were fond of him, he never returned the feeling, and that led to a lot of awkward conversing about his future life plans and how his dad was faring, two topics he couldn’t care less about. “ i don’t choose when coach has practice, babe. i gotta deal with him first. ”

[themostperfect-combination]

I fucked the wrong people I slid my tongue In the wrong mouths I sipped too many drinks Of alcohol And smoked too many cigarettes

But I won’t apologize for the ways I killed my sadness. (via themostperfect-combination)

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“I’m giving what’s left of me to you.” - smallestdwarf remember when they DIED

some meme somewhere // @smallestdwarf

               if he were a poetic person, he could perhaps see the beauty in this : two kids, brought together in death to take part in what is almost a self-fulfilling prophecy. however, he only sees it something that should make him happy, but instead leaves him feeling slightly cheated. it’s the wording that catches him, perhaps -- ‘what’s left of me’, and the idea that they are less than themselves. “ yeah, that’s kind of all we got now. what’s left. ”

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i may not be able to do these for a bit, but like this for a starter !!

[tastefullyoffensive]

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smallestdwarf:

tastefullyoffensive:

Not all heroes wear capes, some wear booty shorts. (via anguyenballer)

@sparrowboned @confidencefalsified

[anakkin]

there’s a boy standing in front of the gates of hell.     he is all dark hair,                     dark eyes                         dark lips filled with sin      (and a mouthful of diamond teeth).       i look at him and i think i know him;      decadence smeared across his lips / luxury in his knitted brow,      these are the eyes that shone red with fire.      these are the hands that took my heart and watched it bleed through his fingers.      these are the beautiful thoughts of a boy damned and cast from heaven.                                                              *      there’s a boy standing in front of the gates of hell, and there’s a body lying next to him.

THE BOY | a.w. (via hermionee)

[moviestarred-blog]

          ❛ oh come on ––– really ?? because people definitely want to watch sweaty, borderline-neanderthals throw a ball around and push each other over rather than - oh, I dunno, real art. && I never even said my goal was to beat people up, what the fuck ? however ––––––––––– if I NEEDED to, at least I have the strength for it. ❜ 

            it was NEVER under good circumstances that bobby went on these defensive power trips. he wasn’t even sure he actually thought he could stand up to this meathead jock , honestly he just wanted to prove something - to not seem so weak.

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          “ obviously people do want to watch it. more people than your stupid art stuff. ” the stadiums were always packed at football games, not that ram expected a geek like this to know that -- he’d probably not know what a football was if it hit him in the face, something that’s becoming extremely fun for ram to imagine happening.               he doesn’t know what a neanderthal is, but it’s a common insult used against him, and it makes him even more irritated. “ maybe you don’t wanna beat anyone up, but i do -- you think you’re strong enough for that? ”             

[smallestdwarf]

@linebackcr !

           ❝  coach got the game on saturday cancelled all because chandler fuckin’ killed herself.  isn’t that bullshit ?  we’ve been practicing all week,  and now nothin’.  ❞   sympathy for the deceased demon queen is something kurt can’t muster up,  so he makes no attempt to.  unfortunately, that means his friend will be the main victim of his tantrums.  

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          that seems insensitive even to him -- he wasn’t the best semi-boyfriend in life, but he feels her absence, at least ( the feel good get together left a bad taste in his mouth, as if it wasn’t even for her, but for everyone else ). he shouldn’t tell kurt this, but he’s getting sick of listening. “ i mean -- she’s dead, dude. we can play the game another day. ”

[iwrite-myheartt-deactivated2016]

If you show me you don’t give a shit, I’ll show you I’m better at it. Even if it kills me.

Never underestimate my ability to hide my feelings Dec 18, 2014 (via ctxbdvl)

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@hvlfbloomed // from here !

           no OFFENSE or anything, but she’s genuinely terrified right now. she probably looks like she could be sick. ( she probably could.) she can’t even see him properly, she’s got her glasses in her hands. the confusion on her queasy face is CLEAR AS DAY. ❝ um-m — i th-think-k y-you – r-re ?? hav-ving-g … hot-t flash-shes. ❞

           he takes a moment to figure out what a hot flash is, but when he does, his response is an immediate ‘ew!’ followed by an only slightly exaggerated gag.  still, he doesn’t want to let this opportunity go ; she hasn’t completely rejected him. “ no -- no, i’m a teen guy, not -- ew. anyways, my name’s ram, and you are? ”