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The KQ rep confirming with Yunho over the phone that he broke up with his long-term girlfriend is upsetting to me, because the reported timing of the breakup (three months ago) coincides with that breakup post on a Naver blog that was purported to have been written by Yunho's ex. My heart broke for her when I read it because, while interpretations of her post vary, I believe most of her suffering was NOT self-inflicted.

To be clear, nobody knows for sure whether it's Yunho's ex who wrote it or whether it's about him. But I (personally) am convinced that she wrote it, and that it was about Yunho. The recent media coverage has dished information that fits her post too well for me to think otherwise. I won't go into why I'm convinced. I'm not interested in convincing people about why I was convinced of something that can't be known or proven.

The point is, this basically ruins any enjoyment I got out of being a hotteok because the 'ooh, what's he hiding beneath his opaque impenetrable facade' and joking about him being a bad boy beneath the carefully controlled exterior, is not so fun anymore when real people have been hurt.

The charitable reading of his persona has been that it's a carefully crafted buffer between his self and the world for maximum people-pleasability. The uncharitable reading has been that it's manipulative and insincere. But both readings were just fun fandom frolics for me. Until now, that is. Now it's gotten too real. Again, to be clear, there's no way to know whether that post is really about him or whether it all just coincidentally fits him and the information in the latest media missives. But because I personally believe her post is true, fangirling over him isn't fun for me anymore.

This sucks for me, but I've been a k-pop fangirl long enough to know that I'll soon find something else to imprint on. In the meanwhile I just wanted to give my atiny friends here a heads-up that I'm going to be filtering out Ateez and Yunho-related tags on tumblr.

I'm not hating or accusing anyone of anything (because like I said I DON'T KNOW the truth, nobody does!) I wish I didn't believe any of this either because it certainly would be easier on me emotionally. It sounds dramatic to say I'm grieving but I truly am just going through it right now, it's actually depressing. Losing something I enjoyed and relied on for inspiration and happy chemicals is just sucky. Maybe I should be grateful this comeback isn't my cup of tea because it'll make it easier to let go, I don't know.

#ateez yunho #jeong yunho

monebutterfly

"you have to save yourself" no thanks i'm a little tired of people always expecting me to stand on my own and never need anyone else

enhypendata

SUNGHOON’s DM

#i’m not a fan of the hair colour but he can pull anything off #enhypen #park sunghoon

shnehollander

thinking about sex and the performative nature of intimacy and porn and etc and always captivated by keke palmer, she was speaking on a podcast the other day and she was like "sex is just too serious! why aren't we being silly and making each other laugh like we do outside of this" and it was just so... refreshing & i loved the way she spoke about it, like why are we instantly switching into this serious mode that we aren't like outside of this one scenario. i love having sex and coming your brains out then laughing with your partner, laying with them and just talking, i love when you can smile and be each other without the guise of a performance and idk idk, thats what i think is sometimes missing with smut....... i'm a tender girl what can i say

psychotic-gerard

love seeing revisionism in the wild “free the nipple never meant you can walk around topless every where that’s still sexual harassment it just meant for like breastfeeding and stuff”no it literally means you should be able to walk around topless anywhere because get this. breasts aren’t fucking sexual organs.

roguebombshell

I remember when I was about 12, I watched a show on TLC that followed people as they got somewhat uncommon medical procedures.

There was one episode with a trans woman getting different gender-affirming operations, including breast implants. It showed the procedure, and (what I found so fascinating that it's stuck with me for decades), as soon as the doctor put the implant in, a censor blur popped up on the nipple.

And you just know there was a meeting between the TLC lawyers and the editors and producers of the show to discuss what the difference was between a "man nipple" (can be shown) and a "woman nipple" (no no must obscure, 'tis naughty). And they decided that as soon as the implant goes in and the nipple has more mass behind it, that's the moment when it becomes a woman's nipple and must be hidden to comply with TV rules.

But it's the same nipple. On the same person. I know what it looks like; I just saw it. But TV and obscenity rules are rules, and the rules say woman nipple = sexual and therefore explicit, but man nipple = neutral, just fine.

"Free the Nipple" was calling out arbitrary bullshit like that, because someone just existing with their body parts should not be considered obscene, and the double standard that men can be topless but women can't is so blatantly ridiculous. All nipples are just nipples. If you get turned on or bothered by them, that's on you.

cygnahime

Hanahaki disease is a psychosomatic illness. It's a thing that your body does in response to stress over constantly repressing/concealing your feelings in settings with high background magic. It's like you've been ignoring pain for a long time and suddenly your vision starts going dark, because your affected body is just YANKING on random alerts trying to get you to PAY ATTENTION there is a PROBLEM. Yes the flowers do really exist. So do non-magical psychosomatic symptoms. The flowers aren't special.

This does of course open up the trope to options for non-romantic concealed feelings. Which I think is great. There is something viscerally satisfying about the person who seems so outwardly chipper coughing and hacking and spitting up Depression Flowers so now everyone has to know they're hurting. Isn't there?

yum-nyang

consciousferality

@storkmuffin the second gif !!!

#txt yeonjun

fellshish

i know you said we ride at dawn but i’m not a morning person actually. can we ride after lunch

great-and-small

As I feel compelled to share any wholesome Sandhill Crane content that I find, I hope you will enjoy this great video from Busch Wildlife Sanctuary. (I added a watermark so hopefully they won’t mind me yoinking this vid to share with y’all here)

The rescue posted that this little family has been spotted several times since the introduction and they seem to be doing great 🥹

Please consider donating to this organization to help fund their efforts in wildlife rehabilitation if you are able!

xo-iceprince-xo

#park sunghoon #enhypen #beat ax vol.6 #250309

createcore

ever after high girl icons 🌹 like/rb if used?

pepperspoppies

Gyaru Summer Festival Pixel Set

future-crab

The key to writing good fanfiction is to harbor a deeply humiliating desire, and the trick there is that even pretty basic and societally-accepted desires like “being held” and “being wanted” CAN and WILL be humiliating if they’re intense enough. Become so estranged from human connection that the idea of someone playing with your hair fills you with yearning so deep you feel like you’re going to throw up and you will write some banger fanfiction. It might have some other consequences too but idrk about that.