Hey Y'all, so I'll get right to the point. My truck, which I use to make money, broke down, and I have no idea what's wrong or how to fix it. My friend had it towed using her AAA but on Monday I'm gonna get a mechanic bill of upwards of $1000 likely.
I lost my job awhile ago, I have no money, I'm already sinking what I have into finding a new place to live as the house me, my disabled fiance, and our kitty live in has to be sold within the next year, and I need help. If anyone could donate a little money or even just re-blog my posts, it would be really helpful.
I know I haven't been very active here but Vick has been one of the biggest supporters of this au (and me!!!). If you can't help, please reblog so maybe someone else can.
Ugh... I can tell I'm desperate if I'm bringing this stuff here. This will be the only time so please feel free to ignore it, and don't feel bad if you can't help.
No real nice way to say this but I'm probably not eating tonight unless someone helps me. I'll probably be okay tomorrow but yesterday I worked myself too hard and today I'm too exhausted to do anything with what little food I have.
If you give me a hand, I'll make stuff for you. Fics, reader pov headcanons, mood boards, smut, etc. Any extra money I have I'll send to my friend Tempest, because she's not eating tonight either. Please don't feel bad if you can't help, I know it's the end of the month, so money is tight to non-existent.
My Kofi is here, include your username when you send it, okay? That way we can talk about what you want. I also have Pay Pal and Cash app if that's easier.
An incline of the otherās head, a gesture that meant nothing to Niel, neophyte he was to the Court. The figure lounging on the plush yellow fabric drummed slender, glittering fingers. In the light streaming from the windows nearby, the masked figure, draped in gold, shone as his father did. The son of the King, beautiful, terrible, spoke.
āDoes he?ā the Prince said. Something inside Niel shivered.Ā
āHe mentioned you by name,ā Niel said. āIām not sure how he knows all this, but Iām trying to figure it out. You know - I donāt think heās a spy or something but, heā¦ Nobody normal should know about any of this.ā
The Prince shifted, rolled over onto his stomach. Niel tried very hard not to look at the body revealed beneath the fabric, the jeweled piercings and delicate chains accenting that divine body. Maybe he shouldāve tried harder. The eyes beneath the mask shone with amusement.
āYouāre right,ā the Prince said, kicking his upright legs in the air. āHe must have previous experience with the Court - and that could be trouble.ā A hand propped up his chin. āThis friend of yours is trouble, isnāt he? But not to us.ā
Niel shifted. āOāTipp wants him dead,ā he admitted. āAnd in Arkham, when he wants a man dead, that man wonāt have the time to write up his will. He rules that place, everywhere, except for the University.ā
āAnd youād come this far to save your friendās life.ā
āA little king,ā the Prince said, voice heavy with his smile, āA man who thinks he can rule without consequences.ā
The Prince reached out and picked up the goblet on the table between them.
Niel breathed.
āLazarus is a good man,ā he said. āAt least, thatās what I thought. He helped me get my job. I never wanted him dead. I want him safe. But if heās a runaway from the Court, or a spy, or a traitor-ā
āThat isnāt something for you to worry about,ā the Prince said, shifting. His legs crossed as he pushed himself upright. Lifting up the mask, Niel glimpsed human lips opening, and closing, as the liquid of the goblet flowed into the Princeās throat. The mask settled in place again. āA human being, living or dead, is a better offering than I expected you to make.ā
The goblet set down with a thud.
āI accept it.ā
Niel jolted. The Prince raised his head, the long hair streaming down over his mask. His eyes locked with Nielās, and the world began to sway, with fear, with relief.
āHe doesnāt know it yet,ā the Prince said, āBut whether he be traitor or pet, Lazarus Core will be mine.ā
There's no nice way to put this, I think I need help again. My abuser called me on Friday and left me so shaken I struggled to function for hours, and I'm still struggling even now on Sunday. Food isn't happening for me right now and I don't know what else to do than this. I'm so sorry for asking this. If you can't or don't want to help that's more than okay, you don't even have to reblog this. I know I've been asking for help so much but I'm hoping that things will get better this month. God I hope things will get better this month.
So my abuser found out she's being investigated and she is not taking it well. I got a call from her a bit ago and... well, if she thinks I did it, she didn't say it to my face. I'm... I'm shaken up not gonna lie, though definitely not as much as she is. I'm scared what she'd do or say if she finds out what I've done. And I feel like I've done something wrong, even though this was the only option I felt I had. I'm doubting if she really is abusive to me or not. What if this is all in my head after all? What if I'm the bad guy? At the same time I just. I want to know for sure. I want to eliminate the doubt, the anxiety, the dozens of people who have told me something is going on. And this was the only fucking way I've ever had.
I'm out of food but she told me she'll get me groceries somehow. I've no idea when. I'm sorry to ask for help again but if someone could help me get something to eat tonight I'd appreciate it. I feel like shit asking again but, I feel like shit already so it can't get worse, can it? My Kofi and PayPal are on my pinned post. I want to offer something in return but I just. I can't think of anything. Not right now.
Liu does have his scarf in this 'verse, though he doesn't wear it during missions. It's precious to him - Nina made it as a gesture of friendship, back when they were first teamed up and Liu was trying to navigate being around another Horror for the first time. He takes very good care of it and its rare he lets it out of his sight.
One of my friends - someone I used to date - is... gone. Not dead, dormant. He was the host of a DID system and now... he's not anymore. I don't really know what happened, just that I was talking to him a few hours ago, and then... I lost him. He's gone. And the other members of the system... they don't know if he's ever coming back. In my heart, I feel like even if he does, nothing will ever be the same, you know what I mean? I hope I'm wrong...
Probably won't be eating tonight. Second night in a row. Forgive me for asking for help but... if someone out there could help me get something to eat tonight, I'd be very grateful. I feel like I've asked for help too much, and not given enough back, but my friends encouraged me to try
Today I took a big step in getting out of my (probably abusive) irl situation. I don't have the energy to go into what's been happening behind the scenes right now, but for now I'm safe. I don't know how long that will last. This is the beginning of a war and I have no idea if I'm going to win it. I'm scared to hell and back.
Tomorrow, if my brain isn't fried like it has been today, I'd like to start working on making my Kofi something worth subscribing to. A lot of you have been kind to me and I'm grateful so I want to show that to you guys. I'm not putting anything behind a paywall, and I don't know the specifics of what I'm doing yet. That's not really something I can care about right now.
Tonight I just want something to eat. I've had no appetite for days after I decided to do this and I just. Cooking isn't happening tonight.
My Kofi and PayPal info are in my pinned post. Thank you all for being kind to me. I'm ashamed that I'm having to do this and I hope I don't have to do it again any time soon.
I'm getting disillusioned with my experience on here. Maybe I'm just burnt out. I can put up with all the changes done by the admins, it's the community that's the problem. I'm starting to feel isolated and alone on this social media website. But other than Substack - which is so very, very professional compared to Tumblr - I don't really know where else to go. Sure as hell not Xitter.
I'm probably not leaving entirely. Not yet at least. But I need a change.
