Lady Cool

18 💗 she Vent, not encouragement

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Welcome!

18/F

Disordered but dis blog is more 4 journalling thoughts…many of which happen to be about that so umm

Artist and writer, nerdier than id like people to know..

Fiiiiana appel superfan, luv peejay harpey and byerk and weak small horse.. i forget about the search filters sometimes.

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Fuck all of u anyway damn!!

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I HAVE A DATE WITH THIS RICH DUDE IN 10 DAYS I NEED ADVICE ASAP

How much weight can u lose in 10 days like feasibly !!!

I slacked off so much but now this guy wants to take me out and even on the offchance that things go any farther i need to be prepared ok help a girl out plsplspls does anyone have an outrageous routine for this

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can this fucking freak leave me alone

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bruteforcing my improvement

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I wish i could get thin in the way i like (badly) without having negative mental health

[worthnotwantnot]

the way i am is not entirely my fault! (yay!)

it is entirely my responsibility though (booooo)

[nymphsintallgrass]

it's always "i'll start tomorrow" girl tomorrow is not promised and you are FAT, come on already

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Get worse 🤭

[petiolus]

Why am I eating too much. I hate myself

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Ok domt fuck this one up girl u will literally lose everything if u lose him

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U STUPID BITCH BRO

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Isnt that funny how i thought he was the only thing in my life that mattered

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Im shch a freak about wjllam afottn i got so excited texting my friend abt him that i had to go on a walk to be normal

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There’s a lot of things in my head I could talk about that might get me some pity, but the fact is I don’t do well by speaking those thoughts. I’m a troubled person, and the thing about today is, yes, I felt that creeping sensation. It was not a huge, shocking thing. It just was. It was filtered into the queue, and it came out as naturally as the rest. It was a sentimental wave of relief; a little, “oh, there you are”. I had no idea I was doing this badly, but with that thought things just clicked into place. A neat little bow to lap around my brutish thoughts. It is the one thing I can organise to success.

I don’t want to write too much on it, it isn’t important. It’s happened before, it’ll happen again. It’s everyone’s backup plan nowadays, so I don’t have a lot to say that hasn’t already been said. It is sort of the most boring thing in the world to me. I spent my early teens obsessed with it, and at the midpoint I would type that acronym to my friends like a playful slap of the wrist. Now I am at the cusp of my teenage years and it’s a dull edge. I want it as much as I want a rock out of my shoe.

I’m going to get better, and I will pin as many motivational quotes to my walls as it takes to pull myself out of this. I am going to ask my friends to hang out, I am going to have that sleepover. This summer will not be spent alone because I am too old to do this. I have friends, I have the methods and the resources. I just need to get to it. I will stay alive.

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How it feels to be in this community when it’s killing u but if u leave u u can’t get it anywhere else

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Sometimes i feel ugly beyond words and everyoneis too nice to say anything

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Mom am i still young can i dream for a few months more

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Think i just need a smoke