hihi hello !! i’m zoe. i’m a twenty one year old writing major that loves to write fanfic. i’ve been writing fanfiction since i was eleven and i am a lifelong fangirl of anything i enjoy. i am a little bit shy but i like to talk to friends so please don’t hesitate to message me or send me an ask <3 this blog is a little bit dry right now but that’s because i am not on my computer a lot. i hope to be more active but i also do not promise anything because my priorities will always lay outside of the screens in my life.
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im going to start fucking fighting people. wtf. even IF you dont like the new part of roommate!clark (weird but okay. i loved it. thank you so much for writing it. i wanna gnaw on that man.) why do you have to be a little asshole about it? what have you written? how will your sad life improve after insulting someone’s creative work? learn to love yourself and have the day you deserve
anyway. NEW ROOMMATE CLARK! thank you so much, i am in love with it
WAH thank you anonnie :(( seeing this message fly in right after I responded to that ask makes my heart feel happy. it was kind of a bummer to know someone felt so strongly about it that they had to tell me BUT I know there are more kind people like you who will always encourage me to keep writing .. ♡
also like idk I didn't wanna give that person too much attention but there's something so ironic about being a superman fan and spreading negativity. like ok feel free to read my self insert fics but know that the real Clark Kent would NOT condone your actions and he would NOT want you if you're being a jerk to random people 😭😭
I know that my like. niche of roommate Clark (bottom Clark, no PIV, top reader, and now also cross dressing Clark) isn't something for everyone but I'm glad we can all be little weirdos in our corner. so much love and kisses to everyone who has been kind about the new chapter.
hiii i love your writing and i was hoping for more roomate clark pls?
hello anon!!! yes this will come eventually however i'm kind of... cooking other ideas right now. i'm interested in exploring other avenues maybe (still with clark, just a different story i think)
You are genuinely the coolest!! I’ve been thinking about roommate!clark nonstop, he’s taken up permanent residence inside my head ever since I first read it back in September <3 hope you’re taking care!! Thank you for all you do!
THANK YOU WAH THIS IS SO NICE TO READ. roommate clark has made a home in all our hearts and that is so wonderful. i am taking care and thank YOU !!
hi!! first of all thank you so much for your work, you’re such a good writer 😭 every time i read your fic i completely forget the world around me. i have a couple questions, hope i’m not bothering you :)
has clark really never topped anyone? i swear i remember him saying in one of the earlier chapters that he’d never done it and i felt so bad for my boy lmao
i can’t remember if you said you’d never write piv or if you just hadn’t decided yet, but even if you don’t, are you planning to tell us how clark feels about it? like… does he want to but he’s too scared to ask? does he think about it 24/7? or has he just accepted his fate because his dick is way too big 😭😭 lol
SORRY ANON I THOUGHT I RESPONDED TO THIS.
in my opinion noooo he hasn't realllyyy topped anyone. he's kind of tried (twice. once back in smallville and once with lois) but it never really worked out. he feels too awkward to really do it and he's afraid of accidentally hurting his partner. so never proper top.
i think eventually there will be more talk about piv but idk. i do not think of them doing that im busy finding new ways of embarrassing and emasculating him </3 clark definitely thinks about it but not really seriously. he's kind of let that dream go i think... poor fella.
you would not believe how excited i was for the new chapter of yrc. genuinely i was helping my friend who works at a daycare decorate her classroom and the entire day i was like “do you think we’ll be done by 2:30?” (central time) and she was like “yes, we’ll be done in time for you to read your clark kent fanfiction.” i was itching for it.
GAH this is so funny to me. we are all just real people with real lives thinking about this dork named clark kent. i hope that it was worth the excitement anon !!!
summary: christmas comes late for you and clark and he is the gift that just keeps on giving and giving and giving.
tags: 18+ , smut, roommate!clark, established friendship, f!reader, clark is older than reader (non-specific,) reader doesn't know clark is superman, fluff, silly dialogue, typical clark corniness, okay smut tags now, cross-dressing, big dick!clark, big boobs!clark, nippleplay (m!receiving,) oral sex (m!receiving,) bottom!clark, sub!clark, top!reader, a lot of come, a lot of spit, and a facial.
a/n: thank you for all the patience on this one... and an even bigger thank you to 👙 anon who gave me this idea.
wc: 8k
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clark k: Just waiting for my bags and then I’ll be on my way home. See you soon?
You and Clark had both gone home for the holidays, leaving the apartment empty for a whole week. You came back sooner than Clark, not really wanting to spend any more time with extended family than you had to, and also because you could only manage to get one week of time off.
The “I love you” moment was difficult. You woke up the next morning fretting about it (typical) and Clark had to talk you down (also typical.) A lengthy and anxiety ridden conversation ensued, but you figured things out. No this isn’t a relationship, but no the two of you are not seeing other people. Yes you two are very eager for one another, but no there is never an expectation to fulfill the other person's desire. “I love you” is a reminder that each of you cares about one another, the way one loves a teddy or a blanket. It’s serious but also not serious.
But it is serious enough that you miss him.
At the least, it isn’t like he disappeared this time. Clark has his phone with him, and though it is spotty cell service on his parents farm, he makes sure to message you at least once a day. Previous to Clark you thought that “morning” texts were a bit corny, but waking up to them from him was different. He was up everyday at 5:00am, sending you pictures of the cows or the sunrise and wishing you a good day. On Christmas he messaged you a photo of him and his parents all in matching Christmas sweaters and it literally made you sick to your stomach from how cute it was. You love everything about that dork, his dimples, how his glasses raise up his face when his nose scrunches when he smiles, and how his eyes glimmer the way they do at you even through the lens of a camera. It’s nice that “I love you” isn’t such a big deal in your head anymore because you really do love so much of him. Now you can say that you love something about him and not think too hard about it. Like how you love that he’s helping you compartmentalize your anxieties instead of shoving them away until they explode.
Your phone buzzes with another message and you realize you’ve accidentally left him on read, not that he cares for that sort of thing anyway.
you: sorry omg!!! yes yes see you soon
clark k: Just got into the taxi and this guy is driving crazy… If I don’t get home within the hour you know why.
He thinks he’s so funny but the idea of him dying before you get to see him again fills you with dread. Annoyed dread.
you: not funny 👎
clark k: Sorry baby, just joking. Talk soon, love you.
It’s just so easy. The way he says it all the time and the way you always say it before bed or when he leaves the house. Things feel simple again, like how they did that first time you got down on your knees and randomly blew your roommate Clark just to see if you could fit all of that in your mouth. It’s been months now, and though you’re close, it is still a futile challenge. The ache of your jaw in the morning feels a lot better these days though when he can kiss where it hurts. Things have fallen into place. You aren’t getting tired of him and you aren’t thinking about him all the time but you do like knowing that he’s there when you get home in the evening. That’s why you miss him most, not because you need him there all the time but just because it’s what you want. And he wants you too.
At some point you should probably label this because the idea that he could technically go out and kiss another person drives you crazy, but you don’t feel the need to. The insecurities you once had feel minimal now.
Which is why you were brave enough to go out and buy him a gag gift for the holidays.
You were going to get him something anyways, but like a serious thing. A nice pen that he can use for journalist stuff, maybe a new phone charger since his is starting to look like a fire hazard, and you did buy those things! You did. But then you saw something in a store window and felt a smile spread across your face and a devil’s tail curl around your heart. The boxes are all wrapped up neatly for when he gets home but you’re waiting for tomorrow afternoon to exchange gifts. He’s going to be tired and he needs his rest for work. Besides, you aren’t turning down a tired Clark that just wants to pull you into him tenderly while his heavy arms surround you like the best weighted blanket in the world.
He needs to get the fuck home. You feel itchy all over right now which is not something you were feeling the last week without him. The anticipation of knowing that he’s on his way back to you right now is making you crazy. Your phone buzzes again, because Clark just can’t help himself from unintentionally torturing you, and you read the notification with loving despair.
clark k: Can we sleep in your room tonight?
That started happening just before you and Clark parted ways for the holidays. Clark doesn’t even fit on your bed, he has to curl up and it probably isn’t very comfortable, but he really likes it anyways. He likes wherever you are.
you: as long as you aren't too sore
He responds to your message with a thumbs up emoji and you literally have to shut your phone off. You don’t even know if he’s typing or not but you’re way too excited to even look. Before you give in to the urge to do something stupid like request his location so you can watch his little dot creep closer to yours on a digital map you shove your phone into the couch cushion.
You’ll do the dishes instead. Earlier today you cleaned up the rest of the apartment so Clark could rest as soon as he got in the door. His good naturedness won’t let him sleep unless the space around both of you is “set for tomorrow” as he says, so everything had to be tidy if you wanted any chance of him sitting down. The dishes are the last thing to do and they should take exactly as much time as it will for Clark to get home, right? He’s going to come home and you’ll just be putting the last dish in the rack and you’ll have successfully distracted yourself!
Unfortunately, gravely, wrong.
It seems the dishes take many minutes longer on days when your hands aren’t moving as fast as your heart rate. They’re done in about seven minutes, leaving you to pace and pace and pace. The kitchen tiles are cold even through your socks and the world around you feels so big and empty yet suffocating. You just need something to ground you, something big and warm and comforting. Like Clark. Clark, Clark, Clark, Clark. Thinking his name might summon him.
What the hell is your deal? It’s been a week, maybe just over a week if you’re counting by the hours, but you’re almost craving him. You squeeze your eyes shut and scrunch your face up as if to secrete this neediness from your being but it does nothing. Urgh.
jinglejingle–click,clickclick
Door. Door. Door. That’s the door. Clark– Clark outside. Go now. Clark. Clark at the door.
“Honey, I’m hooomeUFFH” Clark grunts as you practically throw yourself at him. His bags are behind his feet since he dramatically stepped into the apartment but he’s far too steady to stumble back into them, even with the force of your embrace.
“Jeez, hi! Hi, hi baby,” he laughs as you shove your face into his chest as deep as you can, fingers gripping into the navy hoodie he’s wearing. The fabric is cold but you can still feel the warmth underneath and you. want. in. Clark leans his head down and pushes his nose against the top of your head, pressing a humble amount of kisses there before eventually lifting you up into his arms. His foot kicks his bag through the door before he bumps it closed with his hip.
“Missed you,” you tell him as he carries you toward your bedroom, his unpacked bag ignored. ”Nobody vacuums at 7am like you do.”
Clark snorts as he gently places you down on the edge of the bed before yanking his hoodie up over his head. You let yourself appreciate his soft belly and the slight peek at his pecs before focusing on his face. His eyes are on you, as blue and sparkly as ever as he stares back down at you.
“I’ve been home for two minutes and you’re already perving on me,” he pouts while folding his arms.
You scoff but can’t bring yourself to fully immerse yourself in the role of defensive-yet-guilty-perv since it would include potentially taking your eyes off him and you just… can’t. Your heart rate has finally calmed down after who knows how long and you feel more relaxed the longer you stare at him.
His hair is a little messier than usual, curls flat on one side of his head from when he probably took a nap on his flight, bags under his eyes from how much he probably overworked himself for his parents sake, and his clothes are more rumpled than usual. Clark looks tired, but he looks just as perfect to you as he always does. You want him to rest, he deserves it after the week he’s had.
“... will you still lay down with me even if I am a little bit of a perv?” You ask him, pouting back even harder at him.
His chest puffs with breath and he pulls his gaze away for a moment, as if really contemplating. The line of his jaw sets as if he’s really frustrated at the idea of settling into the bed of his freaky little roommate but you know his mind was made up before he even left his parents house this morning.
—
“It’s actually cruel that they’re sending me to work,” Clark mumbles.
He’s fully in his work uniform, shoes on, pants pressed, briefcase in hand. If you shook him you’d hear the bus change in his pockets jingle.
“You could just call in sick,” you reply, your face once again smushed into his chest. Clark’s arms are wrapped around you like a boa constrictor who’s been starving for weeks. He is not looking to let go anytime soon.
“I’ve never been sick in my life,” he tells you, squeezing you tighter. “They wouldn’t believe that for a second.”
Ugh. Annoying.
“Will we do gifts once you get home?” You ask quietly. Clark nods and presses a kiss to your head.
“And a movie, baby. I promise.”
–
you: you’re LATE !!!!!
clark k: Traffic is nuts right now, sorry. Did you pick a movie?
you: so what’s her name… where’d you meet her?
clark k: Her name is traffic and I’m so deep in her right now.
you: shut up
you: we’re watching whatever garbage pops up in our recommended bar.
–
It’s easiest to exchange gifts back and forth since you each picked three things for one another. Clark opens the phone charger first, which he is exceptionally grateful for, and then you unwrap that new book you’ve been waiting for the library to get back for months. Then Clark opens the fancy new pen and you open up a new trinket dish.
Finally, Clark pushes a bigger looking box toward you. It doesn’t have wrapping paper on it, just a plain box with a lid. Gingerly, you open it and pull away the tissue paper covering the item.
Inside are mittens, knitted with a deep red yarn with a pink felt heart stitched into the palm, but this isn’t just a pair of mittens. Two of the mittens are separated, but the other two are conjoined, as if meant to be worn by a couple who wish to hold hands but not let the wind chill their fingers.
You’re speechless. A couples gift? You look up at him and he’s looking back at you nervously for once.
“Ma made them,” he admits softly. “Knitted them at the start of last year and just forgot to send them over. When Lois and I were still together.”
His Adam's apple bobs as he nervously swallows the saliva in his mouth.
“Ma didn’t think I’d want them anymore but I um… told her I had someone in mind.”
Your heart is doing flips in your chest. He told his mom about you? This gift has so many implications about what Clark has in his head for the two of you.
“Clark…” you say, your heart thumping still. Words feel too hard to form now but Clark seems to get it, knows that the way you express affection isn't always the way he does. His hand reaches out and he grabs yours as it pets over the soft knit stitches repeatedly.
“I didn't mention you directly,” he says. “She probably thinks I gave these to Jimmy and Eve. I'm not trying to make this weird.”
“No, no I'm not… Sorry. Words,” you say. He nods in response.
A few more seconds pass where you just kind of stare at these mittens. Nothing you two have ever done together has been public, save for the time Clark showed up at your work. Even then it was just your manager that saw him. But these mittens come with implications. Walking- in-the-park-together implications, probably with hot cocoa and some other classically romantic activity that Clark will pull you into. It’s just like him to get you something unintentionally anxiety inducing, but he’s never done you wrong before. So instead of starting to hyperventilate, like you want to, you just reach over and give him a hug.
“Thank you,” you mumble into his shoulder. His arms squeeze you for a moment before he pulls away, glasses askew from where your head bumped his frames.
“Of course. I thought of you as soon as Ma showed me.”
… This guy. All heart on his sleeve and feelings-y. Right before you give him your gift that is not nearly as feelings-y.
You gently put the mittens to the side and then lift up the last gift you have for Clark. Good god.
“Oooh,” Clark says as he picks it up. He looks away and to the ceiling as he shakes the box near his ear. “Hmm.. Probably bricks.”
You grin awkwardly. Not bricks, Clark. This whole thing seemed like a good idea when you were at the store. It was like a cutesy perverted moment between you and the store staff that didn’t give you a second look. They didn’t know who the gift was for. The cashier didn’t blink an eye when she wrapped it up in cream tissue paper. This was a joke between you and the flimsy cardboard box you wrapped the item up in at home.
He peels back the paper quickly and slides it off, letting it hit the floor near his socked feet. Your eyes are jittering around as you watch him lift the lid on the box, then as he pulls back the paper too.
His eyebrows go up right away, just a split second before his eyes widen as big as you’ve ever seen them and his ears go red.
“Oh,” he gulps, stammering a little. He picks up the bralette gingerly, the cream coloured mesh material light between his fingers. Clark’s eyes run over the floral pattern of the lace quickly and then he notices what’s underneath it.
“Are these,” he gulps, “for you?”
Is that why he’s blushing? He’s imagining you in this?
“I think they’re your size,” you say, the words barely scraping out of your throat. You’re not sure whether you’re going to laugh out of embarrassment or not and it’s hard to hold back.
He nods stiffly. His fingers drag over the soft mesh of the bra again. It’s an unlined set, totally sheer and made of a cream mesh and lace. The bralette has a triangular shape to the cups and has no underwire since you didn’t want it to press into him oddly. His tits aren’t shaped like yours are, they are pecs after all. You picked something flexible. Clark picks up the panty next. They match the bra perfectly, with a bow in the center of the waistband. It’s not a thong, you didn’t go that far, it’s more of a loose cheeky style.
It was a funny perverted moment in the store, but now that you’re looking at Clark as he looks at this gift he’s taking it oddly seriously. You were nervous he might take this as an insult to his masculinity. Just because he enjoys being penetrated doesn’t make him a woman, after all, but… he looks serious.
“Can I… try them on?” he asks shyly. He looks up at you through his glasses like he’s not asking but begging.
Oh. Oh he likes this.
“Yeah,” you blurt out immediately. This was like a stupid half-joke that’s taken a turn you didn’t really expect.
Clark stands up with both items in his hands and then hesitates. He looks at the undie and then sets it back in the box gently.
“Maybe I’ll just start with the uh… This one,” he lifts up the bra and you nod at it. He disappears into his room very briefly, not even shutting the door but still being out of your sight for the time being. There’s some shuffling of fabric, the sound of him tossing his shirt onto the floor, and then he reappears silently a moment later.
You turn to look at him as he stands in the doorway to his bedroom and wow!! Wow, wow, wow, boobs!!!
“Does it fit? I’ve never uh,” Clark is doing something kind of weird with his hands at his sides, not that you’re paying attention to that at all.
You picked perfectly. The bra fits his chest perfectly, gently cupping his pecs the way you wish you were right now. The lace looks pretty against his skin and the colour of the garment doesn’t wash him out either. It somehow doesn’t even look disproportionate with his more masculine build, or maybe it does and you’re just blind to everything when it comes to Clark because he’s always just so handsome.
“Yeah,” you breathe out heavily. “It’s not pinching anywhere, right?”
Clark shakes his head and then lifts his arms up to show that it isn’t pinching around the sides. His biceps flex in the process and press against the sides of his head.
“No,” he says, looking down at the bra. “No pinching. What about the back?” He asks before turning so you can see how it fits there. Nothing looks like it’s riding up or squeezing oddly but again you’re not really looking at the garment and more looking at how ripped his back is.
“Yep,” you affirm. “All good.”
What the fuck were you thinking giving him this? What did you think was going to happen? That you’d just giggle and move on? It’s already been well proven that Clark is willing to do anything you want, so of course when you give him a bra he’ll put it on. You could probably ask him to twirl in it and he would. Now, thanks to your clown-y foolishness, you’re both discovering things about yourselves.
Clark touches his chest, running his hands over the delicate fabric almost curiously as he looks down at his tits. “I like it a lot. Thank you,” he tells you bashfully. He sets his gaze on you just so you can see how genuine he is and god, god, thank god you don’t have a penis, thank god you can’t pop a boner. Thank god you only have to deal with the near unsettling stickiness in your underwear right now.
“Of course,” you reply easily, even though the words feel stickier than honey in your throat. “You look really good in it.”
The air is quiet, but not awkward. There’s a heavy new-ness to the air. This is obviously different, but it’s clearly welcome. Clark’s reaction kind of tells you that he may have even thought of this before, even just in passing curiosity, and it makes you feel less bad about the silliness of the gift.
“I think I’ll take it off and then we can watch our movie?” He asks, already reaching to pull the bra off like he would any old t-shirt.
Your arms are sticking out and you’re rushing toward him before he can yank the lace off his body.
“Wait, gentle!” You laugh, stopping his hands. “Come here. I don’t want you to poke a hole through the material,” you say as you guide him back into his room. Clark is a pretty strong guy and you know from experience how easily a fingernail can pierce into the delicate fabric of a bra.
He patiently follows you over to his bed and stifles a laugh as you step up onto his bed so you can help him pull the bra over his head.
“Sorry I’m taking it off already,” he says. “I’m kind of tired tonight. Had a weird day.”
It was a weird day, even for Metropolis. From what you saw online there was another massive weird creature somewhere in the city. Anytime this happens Clark usually comes back pretty tired since y’know, he’s known as the Superman journalist. Anything about that hero Clark is on scene and interviewing him. You never really talk much to him about his job though, but maybe you should? You do tell this guy you love him after all.
“Yeah I saw all that stuff on the news,” you mention as you pull the bra over his head with careful hands. Clark’s hands smack up onto his face and he holds his glasses in position. “Some big like… kaiju or something again. Did you catch Superman for another interview?”
You may as well have shot him.
“What?” Clark sputters. “Uh, yeah! Yeah no, of course I did. I mean that’s my thing.” His hand pushes his curls up and out of his face before he turns around. There’s a little frown tugging at his face and his eyebrows are slightly tensed.
“Sorry um. I just don’t really talk about work stuff, especially not about him. It’s kinda confidential. Journalist ethics and stuff.”
He won’t look at you. Weird. Maybe he’s just sensitive about his work.
“Oh,” you say a little flatly. You were just trying to get to know him better but maybe this is off limits. “That’s fine, I get it. He’s a pretty famous guy.”
Clark nods and then looks up at you more guiltily.
“Sorry,” he mumbles before leaning in and pressing a kiss to your arm. You’re still standing on his bed so you’re much taller than him for once. He kisses your arm again, right on the meat of your forearm. “Sorry baby. Let’s go watch our movie now, okay?”
He clearly feels bad and this night has been weird enough. You toss the bra into the hamper at the far side of his room and jump off his bed.
“Movie,” you agree solemnly before taking his hand and guiding him back out of his room, making sure he walks right past that shirt he took off earlier.
—
That night, as you lay in bed beside Clark, you feel like waking him up.
Somehow, despite how open he is about his feelings for you, it always feels like he’s hiding something. At first you worried that he still harbored feelings for Lois, but now you know that isn’t it. It doesn’t make sense to you. How can you feel like you know so much of Clark, his mannerisms, his likes and dislikes, and his heart, but still seem to be missing such a huge piece? And what is the piece?
Your hands scrub over your face. You know deep down he’s right, it’s unethical for him to talk about his work, especially when it comes to Superman. Clark is the only journalist in the history of Superman’s existence that’s actually been able to interview him. Surely they have some sort of secretive contract or… something. He just seemed so guilty for some reason when he was telling you why he couldn’t talk about it.
The ceiling is painted in soft blue light from the light pollution outside as you stare up at it. Clark is breathing heavy beside you, his hand resting on your abdomen as he sleeps. Are you ungrateful for wanting more? Is this not enough? What the both of you have is unlike anything you’ve ever experienced, this comfortable and intimately freaky friendship that feels untouchable. He’s so good to you, and always has been, but that just makes the secretiveness worse.
Briefly you think about when he disappeared and left nothing but a note. The image of his glasses left abandoned on the counter floats into your mind and it makes your stomach flip. He needs his glasses, he’s nearly blind without them. You’ve seen him from the side and those lenses are as thick as a pencil. Genuinely you can’t think about this too long because there’s too much weight in that small mistake.
You should really sleep, you have work tomorrow.
Your hand moves to rest on top of his, feeling the soft top of his hand with your palm as if just knowing he’s there will be enough right now. It won’t be, of course it won’t, so you feed yourself some convoluted story just so that maybe you won’t be a total zombie at work the next day.
Clark was probably with Superman and that’s why he didn’t wear his glasses. When he has to go see him he doesn’t bring his glasses because maybe Superman doesn’t want to be recognized as being around with a reporter… or something. Yeah. Yeah that’s it.
There’s still rocks stacked from your stomach to your throat as you close your eyes, but you just have to live with that tightness for now. Clark would never hide anything awful from you, right?
—
You wake up late the next morning, somehow having snoozed all five alarms that you set for yourself last night. When you leave your room in a rush you're still tugging your work shirt over your head, arms stuck in the holes while your head pushes against the neckline. Clark mumbles a sleepy good morning to you from where he's curled over the coffee machine. His favorite cinnamon roll flavored coffee creamer is to his right on the counter, which you bought earlier this week before you got home. You're sure he'll thank you later in one of his many ways…
That's to think about later at work though, when it's slow. Right now you need to dig through your laundry, which is sitting folded up in a basket on the living room floor, and find some matching socks.
“Sorry, I didn't know what time you worked,” Clark calls apologetically. You shake your head and make a grunt that's supposed to reassure him while you pluck two socks that might be a pair from the basket. After successfully pulling them onto your feet you head to the door. The coffee machine makes a clunking noise and you sigh.
“Clark,” you groan, coming toward him. He's so smart in so many ways but his lovely God given largeness is such an issue sometimes. The buttons on the coffee machine always give him trouble.
Just as you step beside him though, you notice something. Usually when he's bent over the coffee machine you can faintly make out the outline of the tank tops he wears beneath his white dress shirts, but today the strap seems thinner. Your lips pull into a slight frown as you step behind him to look at his back and Clark goes deathly still. The straps are thinner, pressing against his shirt in a way that they don't usually. You follow the outline of one while the new angle allows the sun to shine onto his broad back just right, enough to expose the imprint of the silver buckle that's pressing against his shirt. There's no way, right?
Your eyes frantically trace the outline lower, discovering how his flesh is pillowing around the bust. It draws your eyes to the center of his back and fuck, fuck, he's wearing it. You can see the clasps of the bra connected at the center of his back.
“Are you wearing the bra?” You ask. The tips of his ears are turning red when you look up at the back of his head like it'll give you an answer. He's still completely still.
“I just wanted to try it,” he admits. “I liked it yesterday.”
He sounds so embarrassed but that is definitely not the way he should be feeling right now. Not when you just felt your pulse behind your ears kick up to a level of anxiety that certainly wasn't induced by being late for work. With a careful hand you brush your thumb over the right strap, over his shirt. You really like this too. You liked it yesterday for sure, but that was in the safety of his room. This is different, this is Clark at work wearing the lingerie your perverted ass bought him. He's probably going to feel that fabric on his tits all day, his nipples pressing into that sheer fabric while he tries to keep his focus.
“Is that weird?” He asks when you don’t say anything. You flub out a response to reassure him and he just kind of nods.
Clark turns to face you and you focus on his chest right away. The bra isn’t totally visible through his shirt, just a faint outline that will likely be covered by his blazer and tie once he pulls them on.
This isn’t really how you anticipated him to use the gift. You thought it’d be a bedroom exclusive item, tucked away with his various toys and… other amenities. But no, instead he’s right there, wearing his bra under his work uniform.
“... I couldn’t wear the uh, bottoms,” he says, looking down at you with an almost apologetic expression.
Yeah no shit he couldn’t wear those under his normal clothes. It’d be the fire alarm inspection incident all over again. Everything would be out.
“That’s… that’s fine. Later did you want to try?” You ask, mouth still kind of dry out of your shock.
“Yeah,” he nods. “You’re off at six, right?”
—
Six doesn’t come fast enough for you.
Your bus actually gets stuck in traffic on the way home and instead of just waiting to get off on the same block as your building you get off a few stops back and literally book it home. The pavement skids under your steps as you barrel toward your building at full speed, knowing exactly what’s waiting for you.
Clark, probably showered, probably waiting right there on the couch for you in his little set that clearly makes him feel some kind of way.
The elevator takes too long. Finding your keys takes too long. Opening the door takes too long.
And then the door is open and you’re kicking your shoes off, dumping your bag on the floor and ignoring the thunk your water bottle makes as it hits the ground. You round the corner quickly and see him, there, perfect.
You were right, he did shower. Clark’s skin looks almost porcelain as he lays there in the glow of the lamp beside the couch. The bathroom door has been left ajar and you can smell his soap from where you stand, staring like an animal ready to tear into his flesh (you are.) He’s a little slumped, relaxed but eager in the way his eyes trace your face as you trace his body down, down, down.
He’s wearing the panties. It’s not an unusual sight the way you maybe feared it would be, but you definitely made the right choice when you picked ones without elastic around the leg. It would have contained him too much. This way, with the fluttering mesh, his cock lays against his leg, sticking out the side impatiently as if to tease you. The head looks just slightly wet, like maybe he had been leaking but shyly wiped it away. Somehow you manage to drag your eyes back up to his. His adams apple bobs as he swallows.
“Hi,” he offers nervously.
Words are pretty worthless. You can’t describe what you want to do to him and with the way he’s laid out he clearly wants it. You’ll skip the pleasantries.
Your feet stride across the apartment, into the living room, with hungry ease. It’s a familiar position, here between his knees, but you aren’t sitting back on your heels right now. Instead you keep yourself up, high enough to push him so he hits the backrest after he attempts to sit up.
“Oh,” he says as your hands drag down and cup his tits, squeezing them through the lace he’s wearing. And then he says it again as you lean to the right and lap at his nipple through the fabric. It’s “oh, oh, oh,” again and again as you massage his chest with your hands and mouth, licking at his sensitive nipples through the fabric. He’s poking through the fabric fiercely now, enough that you can graze his nips with your teeth as you tease them. When you look up at him you see his face all pinched up the way you like it, trying to stifle his noises because he just can’t help but make them. You pull everything out of him, he gives you whatever you want.
“Good boy,” you practically moan into his chest, your tongue sloppily lapping across his left tit now. The fabric is soaked to his chest and mostly see through now. Your praise yanks a whine out of his chest, sudden and short with surprise, and you feel him buck his hips up.
You do want to suck his dick, but you’re still not really finished with his tits. The stimulation is clearly doing something to him if you’re going off the way his dick has grown to be more against his leg than in the panties. Hastily, you reach down and squeeze the base of him through the fabric.
“Golly,” his voice cracks and you smile. You start to place kisses down his chest and across his belly, the muscle firm but still cushy the way you like. With your hands you guide his up to his chest, making him cup his own tits.
“Touch them,” you urge, pressing your lips across his hipbones. He nods a little shakily, listening without any protest as he begins to pinch at his own nipples through the bra. It’s a little surprising that he hasn’t asked to at least touch under, but he does seem fairly submissive tonight.
Now that he’s occupying his chest, god forbid it’s forgotten, you can focus on the main event.
Your hand grasps at Clark’s dick right at the base, where the fabric of the panties still covers it, jerking the material gently over the skin there. You don’t want to irritate him at all, but you want him to know what he’s wearing, even when his eyes are closed and his head is leaned all the way back. After repeating this motion a few times, you lean down to where the head of his cock is and pick it up between your lips, swirling your tongue over the tip before taking it into your mouth gently. Your eyes slide shut and you start to focus on working him in your mouth, thinking about how hot your mouth needs to be, how wet it needs to be so it slides against him easily. Tonight isn’t about getting him all the way down your throat, not like all the times before. Tonight you want to crack him open and make sure he knows that he’s yours to have, every fucking bit.
“Baby,” Clark chokes out, his fingers plucking at his nipples through the fabric. Your mouth is heavenly on him, your tongue swathing over his tip again and again while your hand works over the fabric of the panty. He feels pathetic, splayed out in the living room in lingerie as you worship his cock. Every sensation is rolling through him like a wave of static, numbing his brain and his tongue until he can’t do anything but touch himself and feel you on him. His brain isn’t together enough to keep from making noises as you suck down more of him, your lips meeting the hem of his panty. Clark gasps your name and his fingers twitch against his tits, aching for the familiar feeling of your head under his palm, but he resists.
“I want,” he starts and then loses his thought as you start to push your nose beneath the fabric. This is about as far as you’re going tonight, not wanting your throat and jaw to ache tomorrow morning, but it’s really all you need. Your fist keeps working him as drool slips out the corners of your mouth, slicking the hair at his inner thighs and shining the skin. You look up at him through glossy eyes but you can’t see his face. All you get is the sight of him desperately rubbing at his tits, almost like he wants the bra off but isn’t willing to just reach under. His chest is heaving, a light sweat glistening on his skin.
Again, you steel yourself and focus harder. This doesn’t need to be a drawn out event, not this time. Now that you know he likes this you’re going to be buying plenty of lingerie for him, whatever he wants. Cute sets, sexy sets, who fucking cares. You want to see him all whiny and pathetic under you as you fuck him, pinching and rolling his nipples like he is right now. He always acts like such a good person, he’s always doing everything for everyone else and that’s why it feels good when he begs you for more, for bigger, for harder.
You double your efforts, focusing on creating a suction within your mouth so that your throat tightens around what it’s managing to hold. Clark lets out a girlish moan and his thighs start to tremble, pressing closer around you. He’s getting close now and you know it. His toes curl into the carpet beside you slightly and his breathing almost sounds close to hyperventilating, though you know it isn’t. He’s always expressive, but tonight it seems like so much more. You keep up your rhythm but open your eyes a little more, only to catch him looking down at you. He has his nipples pressed between his forefingers and thumbs much tighter than you expected and you can see how fucked out he looks. His eyes are barely focused on you as he watches you try your best to milk his cock into your mouth, lips dry from how much he’s been breathing and babbling.
A noise, maybe a word or a plea, attempts to escape his lips and it makes you feel evil. He might have his secret, sure, but only you can make him fall apart like this. Only you have this sort of power over him.
So, just as you see his eyes cross and lose total focus, just as his chest hitches, you drop him out of your mouth. The expected result happens for just a moment, your hand gripped firmly around his base and squeezing as he looks at you with betrayal in his eyes. Then his brows pinch and he almost looks confused as he starts to come.
Clark always comes a lot, no matter what, but your attempt at ruining his orgasm only made it more intense. His cock is spilling everywhere, shooting across the bridge of your nose, onto the apples of your cheeks and on your chin, but also spilling down the length of itself, dripping onto the delicate fabric that was supposed to cover him.
“Oh my gosh,” he pants, hips bucking into your fist weakly as his chest shudders with breath. “Baby, baby– mh– sorry, sorry.”
‘There’s nothing to be sorry for,’ is what you should say, but instead you’re squinting one eye shut so you don’t get come directly in your eye. In your half-vision of him you can tell that this is a full body experience for him, his legs lifting his body fully off the couch for a second before dropping down as a second wave hits, this time weaker. You loosen your grip as his cock throbs against your palm, but don’t let go yet. He pulses out a little more release, maybe three more weak drips, and then finally, it’s over.
You haven’t said anything this whole time and Clark has been the only one speaking, but now it’s time to switch. Without a word you’re wiping off your hand on a towel that was very conveniently placed on the couch beside Clark, probably done by him before you got home, and then climbing onto the couch beside him. You’ll clean him up in a second, but this is the most intense orgasm you’ve ever seen him have and he probably needs a minute.
“Hey,” you coo, pulling his head against your chest. His curls are soft against your chin as you rest your head on his. You rub your thumb over his cheek while he catches his breath, his whole body still shaking.
“Did so good,” you promise him quietly, “so messy. And you look so cute, huh? You like wearing this?”
Clark blubbers a response but can’t find words still, his tongue tied in pleasure. The jerky nod of his head speaks for him well enough.
“Love you,” he manages after a series of shaky breaths. And you say it right back.
—
Three days later and you’re both still recovering from that night.
Clark hasn’t really been able to go again since, either too sensitive or too busy. Some story he just picked up about LuthorCorp’s upcoming plans for Metropolis, so he’s been out and about.
You’re still recovering because you can’t stop thinking about it, not that that’s unusual, for you to be thinking of him so much. The image of him helplessly coming all over himself and you is just too much to really digest. It might take you a month.
But that doesn’t mean you aren’t willing to plan for when that time comes.
Currently, you’re being a snoop. Clark is someone who’s very picky about chores and who does what. For the most part he does everything he can, but what he is absolutely immovable on is who does his laundry. You don’t really know why, maybe he’s scared that his laundry is gross or something, but you’re being super-duper bad right now. You’re digging through his laundry bin.
Back in your own bedroom sits your laptop, open to some luxurious lingerie site. You found a set that you think might fit his proportions, made of material with more give and no tricky loops or clips that might snap when you tug them over his broadness. However, you can’t remember what size the last set you got him was, hence you are here breaking Clark’s number one rule.
You roll your eyes as you dump the bin out on the floor finally, not willing to sacrifice your back just to find some flimsy little bralette. The fabric falls out in one big lump, like a sandcastle made of cotton undershirts and grey dress pants. You roll your eyes when you crack into the laundry-castle and the first thing you find is a t-shirt from his college days. He wears it to sleep sometimes and it shows in all the holes and frayed edges on it. With a swish you flick it up onto his bed. He’ll probably want it later when he comes home anyways.
Finally you see the cream coloured strap sticking out from between some material and you pull at it. You’re not in a total rush, but Clark is going to be home at some point and you don’t really want to upset him by doing this. So maybe you tug a little rougher than you should.
A puff of clothes explodes on the floor in an array of colours, making you laugh huffily. It’s more of a mess than you wanted now, but the bra is yours to inspect. The tag is still attached to the back of it, the size printed in black on the pink silk tag, proudly displaying an “xl” in pretty cursive letters. Triumphantly, you grab the laundry bin and start shoving his clothes back into it. The bra goes first, then you grab fistfuls of t-shirts and boxer briefs.
Or you think you do.
As you grab your second handful of clothes your fingers meet a material you aren’t familiar with. It’s tucked between some shirts and so you shake the material free.
Instantly you have questions.
Why the hell does Clark own bright red underwear? Like holiday ornament red. You hold them up, grinning like an idiot as you think of all the ways you can tease him about this. How had you never seen this pair? You take Clark’s pants off more than often enough to have seen his whole underwear drawer, haven’t you?
You tilt your head and then shift your body. Surely these are ones you’ve seen. The light hits them differently now you squint like you’re trying to match someone's face to a name in your head. Nope, nothing. You un-squint your eyes and shake the pair of underwear a little, forcing the light to catch… belt loops.
This is fucking crazy. Did he buy these thinking they were something similar to what you got him? And then get home and realize that the firetruck-red’s weren’t really the same vibe as before? He’s such a dork sometimes, seriously. The only person you’ve ever seen wear red briefs is Superman. Unless Clark is fucking Superman then this is possibly the stupidest thing he owns.
You smile to yourself. Hah. Clark is fucking Superman. Imagine that; two huge, gorgeous, brunettes with pretty blue eyes and big arms and kind hearts just.. going… at it..?
A fold forms between your brows and your dopey teasing smile fades into a frown of realization. Things start clicking into place before you want them to. Clark’s protectiveness over his work with Superman, his panic when you mentioned him, that time he disappeared for days without his glasses and without any contact… Clark isn’t fucking Superman. Clark is Superman.
Breath fills your chest in an uncomfortable inhale. You aren’t supposed to be in his laundry, you aren’t supposed to know this. You were likely never supposed to figure this out, but now you have and it suddenly feels like you’re in a lot of trouble. The briefs fall from your hands and you stare at the wall, frozen in realization.
You’re fucking Superman. And as if the world isn’t cruel enough, you hear the apartment door swing open and the jingle of Clark’s keys.
“Baby? You home?” he calls.
-<3-
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I was at the beach when I saw that my favorite fanfic had been updated, so there I was, under the last rays of sunlight, with the ocean breeze and the sand between my feet, reading about Clark wearing sheer lingerie for the first time. I just wanted to say that it was genuinely one of the most beautiful moments of my life.
this is actually crazy. every time someone lets me know that theyre reading my fic somewhere utterly beautiful im always so 😮😮😮😮 like wow. my fic was worth tearing your eyes away from the beauty of earth.
👙 anon here, and let me just tell you i am so glad yrc is back and i can't to be fed with untouchable!!
you guys should all know that bikini anon is why this chapter of yrc is the way it is. Everyone should bow and grovel at 👙 anons feet (like i have been forever)
summary: christmas comes late for you and clark and he is the gift that just keeps on giving and giving and giving.
tags: 18+ , smut, roommate!clark, established friendship, f!reader, clark is older than reader (non-specific,) reader doesn't know clark is superman, fluff, silly dialogue, typical clark corniness, okay smut tags now, cross-dressing, big dick!clark, big boobs!clark, nippleplay (m!receiving,) oral sex (m!receiving,) bottom!clark, sub!clark, top!reader, a lot of come, a lot of spit, and a facial.
a/n: thank you for all the patience on this one... and an even bigger thank you to 👙 anon who gave me this idea.
wc: 8k
my masterlist - my askbox
clark k: Just waiting for my bags and then I’ll be on my way home. See you soon?
You and Clark had both gone home for the holidays, leaving the apartment empty for a whole week. You came back sooner than Clark, not really wanting to spend any more time with extended family than you had to, and also because you could only manage to get one week of time off.
The “I love you” moment was difficult. You woke up the next morning fretting about it (typical) and Clark had to talk you down (also typical.) A lengthy and anxiety ridden conversation ensued, but you figured things out. No this isn’t a relationship, but no the two of you are not seeing other people. Yes you two are very eager for one another, but no there is never an expectation to fulfill the other person's desire. “I love you” is a reminder that each of you cares about one another, the way one loves a teddy or a blanket. It’s serious but also not serious.
But it is serious enough that you miss him.
At the least, it isn’t like he disappeared this time. Clark has his phone with him, and though it is spotty cell service on his parents farm, he makes sure to message you at least once a day. Previous to Clark you thought that “morning” texts were a bit corny, but waking up to them from him was different. He was up everyday at 5:00am, sending you pictures of the cows or the sunrise and wishing you a good day. On Christmas he messaged you a photo of him and his parents all in matching Christmas sweaters and it literally made you sick to your stomach from how cute it was. You love everything about that dork, his dimples, how his glasses raise up his face when his nose scrunches when he smiles, and how his eyes glimmer the way they do at you even through the lens of a camera. It’s nice that “I love you” isn’t such a big deal in your head anymore because you really do love so much of him. Now you can say that you love something about him and not think too hard about it. Like how you love that he’s helping you compartmentalize your anxieties instead of shoving them away until they explode.
Your phone buzzes with another message and you realize you’ve accidentally left him on read, not that he cares for that sort of thing anyway.
you: sorry omg!!! yes yes see you soon
clark k: Just got into the taxi and this guy is driving crazy… If I don’t get home within the hour you know why.
He thinks he’s so funny but the idea of him dying before you get to see him again fills you with dread. Annoyed dread.
you: not funny 👎
clark k: Sorry baby, just joking. Talk soon, love you.
It’s just so easy. The way he says it all the time and the way you always say it before bed or when he leaves the house. Things feel simple again, like how they did that first time you got down on your knees and randomly blew your roommate Clark just to see if you could fit all of that in your mouth. It’s been months now, and though you’re close, it is still a futile challenge. The ache of your jaw in the morning feels a lot better these days though when he can kiss where it hurts. Things have fallen into place. You aren’t getting tired of him and you aren’t thinking about him all the time but you do like knowing that he’s there when you get home in the evening. That’s why you miss him most, not because you need him there all the time but just because it’s what you want. And he wants you too.
At some point you should probably label this because the idea that he could technically go out and kiss another person drives you crazy, but you don’t feel the need to. The insecurities you once had feel minimal now.
Which is why you were brave enough to go out and buy him a gag gift for the holidays.
You were going to get him something anyways, but like a serious thing. A nice pen that he can use for journalist stuff, maybe a new phone charger since his is starting to look like a fire hazard, and you did buy those things! You did. But then you saw something in a store window and felt a smile spread across your face and a devil’s tail curl around your heart. The boxes are all wrapped up neatly for when he gets home but you’re waiting for tomorrow afternoon to exchange gifts. He’s going to be tired and he needs his rest for work. Besides, you aren’t turning down a tired Clark that just wants to pull you into him tenderly while his heavy arms surround you like the best weighted blanket in the world.
He needs to get the fuck home. You feel itchy all over right now which is not something you were feeling the last week without him. The anticipation of knowing that he’s on his way back to you right now is making you crazy. Your phone buzzes again, because Clark just can’t help himself from unintentionally torturing you, and you read the notification with loving despair.
clark k: Can we sleep in your room tonight?
That started happening just before you and Clark parted ways for the holidays. Clark doesn’t even fit on your bed, he has to curl up and it probably isn’t very comfortable, but he really likes it anyways. He likes wherever you are.
you: as long as you aren't too sore
He responds to your message with a thumbs up emoji and you literally have to shut your phone off. You don’t even know if he’s typing or not but you’re way too excited to even look. Before you give in to the urge to do something stupid like request his location so you can watch his little dot creep closer to yours on a digital map you shove your phone into the couch cushion.
You’ll do the dishes instead. Earlier today you cleaned up the rest of the apartment so Clark could rest as soon as he got in the door. His good naturedness won’t let him sleep unless the space around both of you is “set for tomorrow” as he says, so everything had to be tidy if you wanted any chance of him sitting down. The dishes are the last thing to do and they should take exactly as much time as it will for Clark to get home, right? He’s going to come home and you’ll just be putting the last dish in the rack and you’ll have successfully distracted yourself!
Unfortunately, gravely, wrong.
It seems the dishes take many minutes longer on days when your hands aren’t moving as fast as your heart rate. They’re done in about seven minutes, leaving you to pace and pace and pace. The kitchen tiles are cold even through your socks and the world around you feels so big and empty yet suffocating. You just need something to ground you, something big and warm and comforting. Like Clark. Clark, Clark, Clark, Clark. Thinking his name might summon him.
What the hell is your deal? It’s been a week, maybe just over a week if you’re counting by the hours, but you’re almost craving him. You squeeze your eyes shut and scrunch your face up as if to secrete this neediness from your being but it does nothing. Urgh.
jinglejingle–click,clickclick
Door. Door. Door. That’s the door. Clark– Clark outside. Go now. Clark. Clark at the door.
“Honey, I’m hooomeUFFH” Clark grunts as you practically throw yourself at him. His bags are behind his feet since he dramatically stepped into the apartment but he’s far too steady to stumble back into them, even with the force of your embrace.
“Jeez, hi! Hi, hi baby,” he laughs as you shove your face into his chest as deep as you can, fingers gripping into the navy hoodie he’s wearing. The fabric is cold but you can still feel the warmth underneath and you. want. in. Clark leans his head down and pushes his nose against the top of your head, pressing a humble amount of kisses there before eventually lifting you up into his arms. His foot kicks his bag through the door before he bumps it closed with his hip.
“Missed you,” you tell him as he carries you toward your bedroom, his unpacked bag ignored. ”Nobody vacuums at 7am like you do.”
Clark snorts as he gently places you down on the edge of the bed before yanking his hoodie up over his head. You let yourself appreciate his soft belly and the slight peek at his pecs before focusing on his face. His eyes are on you, as blue and sparkly as ever as he stares back down at you.
“I’ve been home for two minutes and you’re already perving on me,” he pouts while folding his arms.
You scoff but can’t bring yourself to fully immerse yourself in the role of defensive-yet-guilty-perv since it would include potentially taking your eyes off him and you just… can’t. Your heart rate has finally calmed down after who knows how long and you feel more relaxed the longer you stare at him.
His hair is a little messier than usual, curls flat on one side of his head from when he probably took a nap on his flight, bags under his eyes from how much he probably overworked himself for his parents sake, and his clothes are more rumpled than usual. Clark looks tired, but he looks just as perfect to you as he always does. You want him to rest, he deserves it after the week he’s had.
“... will you still lay down with me even if I am a little bit of a perv?” You ask him, pouting back even harder at him.
His chest puffs with breath and he pulls his gaze away for a moment, as if really contemplating. The line of his jaw sets as if he’s really frustrated at the idea of settling into the bed of his freaky little roommate but you know his mind was made up before he even left his parents house this morning.
—
“It’s actually cruel that they’re sending me to work,” Clark mumbles.
He’s fully in his work uniform, shoes on, pants pressed, briefcase in hand. If you shook him you’d hear the bus change in his pockets jingle.
“You could just call in sick,” you reply, your face once again smushed into his chest. Clark’s arms are wrapped around you like a boa constrictor who’s been starving for weeks. He is not looking to let go anytime soon.
“I’ve never been sick in my life,” he tells you, squeezing you tighter. “They wouldn’t believe that for a second.”
Ugh. Annoying.
“Will we do gifts once you get home?” You ask quietly. Clark nods and presses a kiss to your head.
“And a movie, baby. I promise.”
–
you: you’re LATE !!!!!
clark k: Traffic is nuts right now, sorry. Did you pick a movie?
you: so what’s her name… where’d you meet her?
clark k: Her name is traffic and I’m so deep in her right now.
you: shut up
you: we’re watching whatever garbage pops up in our recommended bar.
–
It’s easiest to exchange gifts back and forth since you each picked three things for one another. Clark opens the phone charger first, which he is exceptionally grateful for, and then you unwrap that new book you’ve been waiting for the library to get back for months. Then Clark opens the fancy new pen and you open up a new trinket dish.
Finally, Clark pushes a bigger looking box toward you. It doesn’t have wrapping paper on it, just a plain box with a lid. Gingerly, you open it and pull away the tissue paper covering the item.
Inside are mittens, knitted with a deep red yarn with a pink felt heart stitched into the palm, but this isn’t just a pair of mittens. Two of the mittens are separated, but the other two are conjoined, as if meant to be worn by a couple who wish to hold hands but not let the wind chill their fingers.
You’re speechless. A couples gift? You look up at him and he’s looking back at you nervously for once.
“Ma made them,” he admits softly. “Knitted them at the start of last year and just forgot to send them over. When Lois and I were still together.”
His Adam's apple bobs as he nervously swallows the saliva in his mouth.
“Ma didn’t think I’d want them anymore but I um… told her I had someone in mind.”
Your heart is doing flips in your chest. He told his mom about you? This gift has so many implications about what Clark has in his head for the two of you.
“Clark…” you say, your heart thumping still. Words feel too hard to form now but Clark seems to get it, knows that the way you express affection isn't always the way he does. His hand reaches out and he grabs yours as it pets over the soft knit stitches repeatedly.
“I didn't mention you directly,” he says. “She probably thinks I gave these to Jimmy and Eve. I'm not trying to make this weird.”
“No, no I'm not… Sorry. Words,” you say. He nods in response.
A few more seconds pass where you just kind of stare at these mittens. Nothing you two have ever done together has been public, save for the time Clark showed up at your work. Even then it was just your manager that saw him. But these mittens come with implications. Walking- in-the-park-together implications, probably with hot cocoa and some other classically romantic activity that Clark will pull you into. It’s just like him to get you something unintentionally anxiety inducing, but he’s never done you wrong before. So instead of starting to hyperventilate, like you want to, you just reach over and give him a hug.
“Thank you,” you mumble into his shoulder. His arms squeeze you for a moment before he pulls away, glasses askew from where your head bumped his frames.
“Of course. I thought of you as soon as Ma showed me.”
… This guy. All heart on his sleeve and feelings-y. Right before you give him your gift that is not nearly as feelings-y.
You gently put the mittens to the side and then lift up the last gift you have for Clark. Good god.
“Oooh,” Clark says as he picks it up. He looks away and to the ceiling as he shakes the box near his ear. “Hmm.. Probably bricks.”
You grin awkwardly. Not bricks, Clark. This whole thing seemed like a good idea when you were at the store. It was like a cutesy perverted moment between you and the store staff that didn’t give you a second look. They didn’t know who the gift was for. The cashier didn’t blink an eye when she wrapped it up in cream tissue paper. This was a joke between you and the flimsy cardboard box you wrapped the item up in at home.
He peels back the paper quickly and slides it off, letting it hit the floor near his socked feet. Your eyes are jittering around as you watch him lift the lid on the box, then as he pulls back the paper too.
His eyebrows go up right away, just a split second before his eyes widen as big as you’ve ever seen them and his ears go red.
“Oh,” he gulps, stammering a little. He picks up the bralette gingerly, the cream coloured mesh material light between his fingers. Clark’s eyes run over the floral pattern of the lace quickly and then he notices what’s underneath it.
“Are these,” he gulps, “for you?”
Is that why he’s blushing? He’s imagining you in this?
“I think they’re your size,” you say, the words barely scraping out of your throat. You’re not sure whether you’re going to laugh out of embarrassment or not and it’s hard to hold back.
He nods stiffly. His fingers drag over the soft mesh of the bra again. It’s an unlined set, totally sheer and made of a cream mesh and lace. The bralette has a triangular shape to the cups and has no underwire since you didn’t want it to press into him oddly. His tits aren’t shaped like yours are, they are pecs after all. You picked something flexible. Clark picks up the panty next. They match the bra perfectly, with a bow in the center of the waistband. It’s not a thong, you didn’t go that far, it’s more of a loose cheeky style.
It was a funny perverted moment in the store, but now that you’re looking at Clark as he looks at this gift he’s taking it oddly seriously. You were nervous he might take this as an insult to his masculinity. Just because he enjoys being penetrated doesn’t make him a woman, after all, but… he looks serious.
“Can I… try them on?” he asks shyly. He looks up at you through his glasses like he’s not asking but begging.
Oh. Oh he likes this.
“Yeah,” you blurt out immediately. This was like a stupid half-joke that’s taken a turn you didn’t really expect.
Clark stands up with both items in his hands and then hesitates. He looks at the undie and then sets it back in the box gently.
“Maybe I’ll just start with the uh… This one,” he lifts up the bra and you nod at it. He disappears into his room very briefly, not even shutting the door but still being out of your sight for the time being. There’s some shuffling of fabric, the sound of him tossing his shirt onto the floor, and then he reappears silently a moment later.
You turn to look at him as he stands in the doorway to his bedroom and wow!! Wow, wow, wow, boobs!!!
“Does it fit? I’ve never uh,” Clark is doing something kind of weird with his hands at his sides, not that you’re paying attention to that at all.
You picked perfectly. The bra fits his chest perfectly, gently cupping his pecs the way you wish you were right now. The lace looks pretty against his skin and the colour of the garment doesn’t wash him out either. It somehow doesn’t even look disproportionate with his more masculine build, or maybe it does and you’re just blind to everything when it comes to Clark because he’s always just so handsome.
“Yeah,” you breathe out heavily. “It’s not pinching anywhere, right?”
Clark shakes his head and then lifts his arms up to show that it isn’t pinching around the sides. His biceps flex in the process and press against the sides of his head.
“No,” he says, looking down at the bra. “No pinching. What about the back?” He asks before turning so you can see how it fits there. Nothing looks like it’s riding up or squeezing oddly but again you’re not really looking at the garment and more looking at how ripped his back is.
“Yep,” you affirm. “All good.”
What the fuck were you thinking giving him this? What did you think was going to happen? That you’d just giggle and move on? It’s already been well proven that Clark is willing to do anything you want, so of course when you give him a bra he’ll put it on. You could probably ask him to twirl in it and he would. Now, thanks to your clown-y foolishness, you’re both discovering things about yourselves.
Clark touches his chest, running his hands over the delicate fabric almost curiously as he looks down at his tits. “I like it a lot. Thank you,” he tells you bashfully. He sets his gaze on you just so you can see how genuine he is and god, god, thank god you don’t have a penis, thank god you can’t pop a boner. Thank god you only have to deal with the near unsettling stickiness in your underwear right now.
“Of course,” you reply easily, even though the words feel stickier than honey in your throat. “You look really good in it.”
The air is quiet, but not awkward. There’s a heavy new-ness to the air. This is obviously different, but it’s clearly welcome. Clark’s reaction kind of tells you that he may have even thought of this before, even just in passing curiosity, and it makes you feel less bad about the silliness of the gift.
“I think I’ll take it off and then we can watch our movie?” He asks, already reaching to pull the bra off like he would any old t-shirt.
Your arms are sticking out and you’re rushing toward him before he can yank the lace off his body.
“Wait, gentle!” You laugh, stopping his hands. “Come here. I don’t want you to poke a hole through the material,” you say as you guide him back into his room. Clark is a pretty strong guy and you know from experience how easily a fingernail can pierce into the delicate fabric of a bra.
He patiently follows you over to his bed and stifles a laugh as you step up onto his bed so you can help him pull the bra over his head.
“Sorry I’m taking it off already,” he says. “I’m kind of tired tonight. Had a weird day.”
It was a weird day, even for Metropolis. From what you saw online there was another massive weird creature somewhere in the city. Anytime this happens Clark usually comes back pretty tired since y’know, he’s known as the Superman journalist. Anything about that hero Clark is on scene and interviewing him. You never really talk much to him about his job though, but maybe you should? You do tell this guy you love him after all.
“Yeah I saw all that stuff on the news,” you mention as you pull the bra over his head with careful hands. Clark’s hands smack up onto his face and he holds his glasses in position. “Some big like… kaiju or something again. Did you catch Superman for another interview?”
You may as well have shot him.
“What?” Clark sputters. “Uh, yeah! Yeah no, of course I did. I mean that’s my thing.” His hand pushes his curls up and out of his face before he turns around. There’s a little frown tugging at his face and his eyebrows are slightly tensed.
“Sorry um. I just don’t really talk about work stuff, especially not about him. It’s kinda confidential. Journalist ethics and stuff.”
He won’t look at you. Weird. Maybe he’s just sensitive about his work.
“Oh,” you say a little flatly. You were just trying to get to know him better but maybe this is off limits. “That’s fine, I get it. He’s a pretty famous guy.”
Clark nods and then looks up at you more guiltily.
“Sorry,” he mumbles before leaning in and pressing a kiss to your arm. You’re still standing on his bed so you’re much taller than him for once. He kisses your arm again, right on the meat of your forearm. “Sorry baby. Let’s go watch our movie now, okay?”
He clearly feels bad and this night has been weird enough. You toss the bra into the hamper at the far side of his room and jump off his bed.
“Movie,” you agree solemnly before taking his hand and guiding him back out of his room, making sure he walks right past that shirt he took off earlier.
—
That night, as you lay in bed beside Clark, you feel like waking him up.
Somehow, despite how open he is about his feelings for you, it always feels like he’s hiding something. At first you worried that he still harbored feelings for Lois, but now you know that isn’t it. It doesn’t make sense to you. How can you feel like you know so much of Clark, his mannerisms, his likes and dislikes, and his heart, but still seem to be missing such a huge piece? And what is the piece?
Your hands scrub over your face. You know deep down he’s right, it’s unethical for him to talk about his work, especially when it comes to Superman. Clark is the only journalist in the history of Superman’s existence that’s actually been able to interview him. Surely they have some sort of secretive contract or… something. He just seemed so guilty for some reason when he was telling you why he couldn’t talk about it.
The ceiling is painted in soft blue light from the light pollution outside as you stare up at it. Clark is breathing heavy beside you, his hand resting on your abdomen as he sleeps. Are you ungrateful for wanting more? Is this not enough? What the both of you have is unlike anything you’ve ever experienced, this comfortable and intimately freaky friendship that feels untouchable. He’s so good to you, and always has been, but that just makes the secretiveness worse.
Briefly you think about when he disappeared and left nothing but a note. The image of his glasses left abandoned on the counter floats into your mind and it makes your stomach flip. He needs his glasses, he’s nearly blind without them. You’ve seen him from the side and those lenses are as thick as a pencil. Genuinely you can’t think about this too long because there’s too much weight in that small mistake.
You should really sleep, you have work tomorrow.
Your hand moves to rest on top of his, feeling the soft top of his hand with your palm as if just knowing he’s there will be enough right now. It won’t be, of course it won’t, so you feed yourself some convoluted story just so that maybe you won’t be a total zombie at work the next day.
Clark was probably with Superman and that’s why he didn’t wear his glasses. When he has to go see him he doesn’t bring his glasses because maybe Superman doesn’t want to be recognized as being around with a reporter… or something. Yeah. Yeah that’s it.
There’s still rocks stacked from your stomach to your throat as you close your eyes, but you just have to live with that tightness for now. Clark would never hide anything awful from you, right?
—
You wake up late the next morning, somehow having snoozed all five alarms that you set for yourself last night. When you leave your room in a rush you're still tugging your work shirt over your head, arms stuck in the holes while your head pushes against the neckline. Clark mumbles a sleepy good morning to you from where he's curled over the coffee machine. His favorite cinnamon roll flavored coffee creamer is to his right on the counter, which you bought earlier this week before you got home. You're sure he'll thank you later in one of his many ways…
That's to think about later at work though, when it's slow. Right now you need to dig through your laundry, which is sitting folded up in a basket on the living room floor, and find some matching socks.
“Sorry, I didn't know what time you worked,” Clark calls apologetically. You shake your head and make a grunt that's supposed to reassure him while you pluck two socks that might be a pair from the basket. After successfully pulling them onto your feet you head to the door. The coffee machine makes a clunking noise and you sigh.
“Clark,” you groan, coming toward him. He's so smart in so many ways but his lovely God given largeness is such an issue sometimes. The buttons on the coffee machine always give him trouble.
Just as you step beside him though, you notice something. Usually when he's bent over the coffee machine you can faintly make out the outline of the tank tops he wears beneath his white dress shirts, but today the strap seems thinner. Your lips pull into a slight frown as you step behind him to look at his back and Clark goes deathly still. The straps are thinner, pressing against his shirt in a way that they don't usually. You follow the outline of one while the new angle allows the sun to shine onto his broad back just right, enough to expose the imprint of the silver buckle that's pressing against his shirt. There's no way, right?
Your eyes frantically trace the outline lower, discovering how his flesh is pillowing around the bust. It draws your eyes to the center of his back and fuck, fuck, he's wearing it. You can see the clasps of the bra connected at the center of his back.
“Are you wearing the bra?” You ask. The tips of his ears are turning red when you look up at the back of his head like it'll give you an answer. He's still completely still.
“I just wanted to try it,” he admits. “I liked it yesterday.”
He sounds so embarrassed but that is definitely not the way he should be feeling right now. Not when you just felt your pulse behind your ears kick up to a level of anxiety that certainly wasn't induced by being late for work. With a careful hand you brush your thumb over the right strap, over his shirt. You really like this too. You liked it yesterday for sure, but that was in the safety of his room. This is different, this is Clark at work wearing the lingerie your perverted ass bought him. He's probably going to feel that fabric on his tits all day, his nipples pressing into that sheer fabric while he tries to keep his focus.
“Is that weird?” He asks when you don’t say anything. You flub out a response to reassure him and he just kind of nods.
Clark turns to face you and you focus on his chest right away. The bra isn’t totally visible through his shirt, just a faint outline that will likely be covered by his blazer and tie once he pulls them on.
This isn’t really how you anticipated him to use the gift. You thought it’d be a bedroom exclusive item, tucked away with his various toys and… other amenities. But no, instead he’s right there, wearing his bra under his work uniform.
“... I couldn’t wear the uh, bottoms,” he says, looking down at you with an almost apologetic expression.
Yeah no shit he couldn’t wear those under his normal clothes. It’d be the fire alarm inspection incident all over again. Everything would be out.
“That’s… that’s fine. Later did you want to try?” You ask, mouth still kind of dry out of your shock.
“Yeah,” he nods. “You’re off at six, right?”
—
Six doesn’t come fast enough for you.
Your bus actually gets stuck in traffic on the way home and instead of just waiting to get off on the same block as your building you get off a few stops back and literally book it home. The pavement skids under your steps as you barrel toward your building at full speed, knowing exactly what’s waiting for you.
Clark, probably showered, probably waiting right there on the couch for you in his little set that clearly makes him feel some kind of way.
The elevator takes too long. Finding your keys takes too long. Opening the door takes too long.
And then the door is open and you’re kicking your shoes off, dumping your bag on the floor and ignoring the thunk your water bottle makes as it hits the ground. You round the corner quickly and see him, there, perfect.
You were right, he did shower. Clark’s skin looks almost porcelain as he lays there in the glow of the lamp beside the couch. The bathroom door has been left ajar and you can smell his soap from where you stand, staring like an animal ready to tear into his flesh (you are.) He’s a little slumped, relaxed but eager in the way his eyes trace your face as you trace his body down, down, down.
He’s wearing the panties. It’s not an unusual sight the way you maybe feared it would be, but you definitely made the right choice when you picked ones without elastic around the leg. It would have contained him too much. This way, with the fluttering mesh, his cock lays against his leg, sticking out the side impatiently as if to tease you. The head looks just slightly wet, like maybe he had been leaking but shyly wiped it away. Somehow you manage to drag your eyes back up to his. His adams apple bobs as he swallows.
“Hi,” he offers nervously.
Words are pretty worthless. You can’t describe what you want to do to him and with the way he’s laid out he clearly wants it. You’ll skip the pleasantries.
Your feet stride across the apartment, into the living room, with hungry ease. It’s a familiar position, here between his knees, but you aren’t sitting back on your heels right now. Instead you keep yourself up, high enough to push him so he hits the backrest after he attempts to sit up.
“Oh,” he says as your hands drag down and cup his tits, squeezing them through the lace he’s wearing. And then he says it again as you lean to the right and lap at his nipple through the fabric. It’s “oh, oh, oh,” again and again as you massage his chest with your hands and mouth, licking at his sensitive nipples through the fabric. He’s poking through the fabric fiercely now, enough that you can graze his nips with your teeth as you tease them. When you look up at him you see his face all pinched up the way you like it, trying to stifle his noises because he just can’t help but make them. You pull everything out of him, he gives you whatever you want.
“Good boy,” you practically moan into his chest, your tongue sloppily lapping across his left tit now. The fabric is soaked to his chest and mostly see through now. Your praise yanks a whine out of his chest, sudden and short with surprise, and you feel him buck his hips up.
You do want to suck his dick, but you’re still not really finished with his tits. The stimulation is clearly doing something to him if you’re going off the way his dick has grown to be more against his leg than in the panties. Hastily, you reach down and squeeze the base of him through the fabric.
“Golly,” his voice cracks and you smile. You start to place kisses down his chest and across his belly, the muscle firm but still cushy the way you like. With your hands you guide his up to his chest, making him cup his own tits.
“Touch them,” you urge, pressing your lips across his hipbones. He nods a little shakily, listening without any protest as he begins to pinch at his own nipples through the bra. It’s a little surprising that he hasn’t asked to at least touch under, but he does seem fairly submissive tonight.
Now that he’s occupying his chest, god forbid it’s forgotten, you can focus on the main event.
Your hand grasps at Clark’s dick right at the base, where the fabric of the panties still covers it, jerking the material gently over the skin there. You don’t want to irritate him at all, but you want him to know what he’s wearing, even when his eyes are closed and his head is leaned all the way back. After repeating this motion a few times, you lean down to where the head of his cock is and pick it up between your lips, swirling your tongue over the tip before taking it into your mouth gently. Your eyes slide shut and you start to focus on working him in your mouth, thinking about how hot your mouth needs to be, how wet it needs to be so it slides against him easily. Tonight isn’t about getting him all the way down your throat, not like all the times before. Tonight you want to crack him open and make sure he knows that he’s yours to have, every fucking bit.
“Baby,” Clark chokes out, his fingers plucking at his nipples through the fabric. Your mouth is heavenly on him, your tongue swathing over his tip again and again while your hand works over the fabric of the panty. He feels pathetic, splayed out in the living room in lingerie as you worship his cock. Every sensation is rolling through him like a wave of static, numbing his brain and his tongue until he can’t do anything but touch himself and feel you on him. His brain isn’t together enough to keep from making noises as you suck down more of him, your lips meeting the hem of his panty. Clark gasps your name and his fingers twitch against his tits, aching for the familiar feeling of your head under his palm, but he resists.
“I want,” he starts and then loses his thought as you start to push your nose beneath the fabric. This is about as far as you’re going tonight, not wanting your throat and jaw to ache tomorrow morning, but it’s really all you need. Your fist keeps working him as drool slips out the corners of your mouth, slicking the hair at his inner thighs and shining the skin. You look up at him through glossy eyes but you can’t see his face. All you get is the sight of him desperately rubbing at his tits, almost like he wants the bra off but isn’t willing to just reach under. His chest is heaving, a light sweat glistening on his skin.
Again, you steel yourself and focus harder. This doesn’t need to be a drawn out event, not this time. Now that you know he likes this you’re going to be buying plenty of lingerie for him, whatever he wants. Cute sets, sexy sets, who fucking cares. You want to see him all whiny and pathetic under you as you fuck him, pinching and rolling his nipples like he is right now. He always acts like such a good person, he’s always doing everything for everyone else and that’s why it feels good when he begs you for more, for bigger, for harder.
You double your efforts, focusing on creating a suction within your mouth so that your throat tightens around what it’s managing to hold. Clark lets out a girlish moan and his thighs start to tremble, pressing closer around you. He’s getting close now and you know it. His toes curl into the carpet beside you slightly and his breathing almost sounds close to hyperventilating, though you know it isn’t. He’s always expressive, but tonight it seems like so much more. You keep up your rhythm but open your eyes a little more, only to catch him looking down at you. He has his nipples pressed between his forefingers and thumbs much tighter than you expected and you can see how fucked out he looks. His eyes are barely focused on you as he watches you try your best to milk his cock into your mouth, lips dry from how much he’s been breathing and babbling.
A noise, maybe a word or a plea, attempts to escape his lips and it makes you feel evil. He might have his secret, sure, but only you can make him fall apart like this. Only you have this sort of power over him.
So, just as you see his eyes cross and lose total focus, just as his chest hitches, you drop him out of your mouth. The expected result happens for just a moment, your hand gripped firmly around his base and squeezing as he looks at you with betrayal in his eyes. Then his brows pinch and he almost looks confused as he starts to come.
Clark always comes a lot, no matter what, but your attempt at ruining his orgasm only made it more intense. His cock is spilling everywhere, shooting across the bridge of your nose, onto the apples of your cheeks and on your chin, but also spilling down the length of itself, dripping onto the delicate fabric that was supposed to cover him.
“Oh my gosh,” he pants, hips bucking into your fist weakly as his chest shudders with breath. “Baby, baby– mh– sorry, sorry.”
‘There’s nothing to be sorry for,’ is what you should say, but instead you’re squinting one eye shut so you don’t get come directly in your eye. In your half-vision of him you can tell that this is a full body experience for him, his legs lifting his body fully off the couch for a second before dropping down as a second wave hits, this time weaker. You loosen your grip as his cock throbs against your palm, but don’t let go yet. He pulses out a little more release, maybe three more weak drips, and then finally, it’s over.
You haven’t said anything this whole time and Clark has been the only one speaking, but now it’s time to switch. Without a word you’re wiping off your hand on a towel that was very conveniently placed on the couch beside Clark, probably done by him before you got home, and then climbing onto the couch beside him. You’ll clean him up in a second, but this is the most intense orgasm you’ve ever seen him have and he probably needs a minute.
“Hey,” you coo, pulling his head against your chest. His curls are soft against your chin as you rest your head on his. You rub your thumb over his cheek while he catches his breath, his whole body still shaking.
“Did so good,” you promise him quietly, “so messy. And you look so cute, huh? You like wearing this?”
Clark blubbers a response but can’t find words still, his tongue tied in pleasure. The jerky nod of his head speaks for him well enough.
“Love you,” he manages after a series of shaky breaths. And you say it right back.
—
Three days later and you’re both still recovering from that night.
Clark hasn’t really been able to go again since, either too sensitive or too busy. Some story he just picked up about LuthorCorp’s upcoming plans for Metropolis, so he’s been out and about.
You’re still recovering because you can’t stop thinking about it, not that that’s unusual, for you to be thinking of him so much. The image of him helplessly coming all over himself and you is just too much to really digest. It might take you a month.
But that doesn’t mean you aren’t willing to plan for when that time comes.
Currently, you’re being a snoop. Clark is someone who’s very picky about chores and who does what. For the most part he does everything he can, but what he is absolutely immovable on is who does his laundry. You don’t really know why, maybe he’s scared that his laundry is gross or something, but you’re being super-duper bad right now. You’re digging through his laundry bin.
Back in your own bedroom sits your laptop, open to some luxurious lingerie site. You found a set that you think might fit his proportions, made of material with more give and no tricky loops or clips that might snap when you tug them over his broadness. However, you can’t remember what size the last set you got him was, hence you are here breaking Clark’s number one rule.
You roll your eyes as you dump the bin out on the floor finally, not willing to sacrifice your back just to find some flimsy little bralette. The fabric falls out in one big lump, like a sandcastle made of cotton undershirts and grey dress pants. You roll your eyes when you crack into the laundry-castle and the first thing you find is a t-shirt from his college days. He wears it to sleep sometimes and it shows in all the holes and frayed edges on it. With a swish you flick it up onto his bed. He’ll probably want it later when he comes home anyways.
Finally you see the cream coloured strap sticking out from between some material and you pull at it. You’re not in a total rush, but Clark is going to be home at some point and you don’t really want to upset him by doing this. So maybe you tug a little rougher than you should.
A puff of clothes explodes on the floor in an array of colours, making you laugh huffily. It’s more of a mess than you wanted now, but the bra is yours to inspect. The tag is still attached to the back of it, the size printed in black on the pink silk tag, proudly displaying an “xl” in pretty cursive letters. Triumphantly, you grab the laundry bin and start shoving his clothes back into it. The bra goes first, then you grab fistfuls of t-shirts and boxer briefs.
Or you think you do.
As you grab your second handful of clothes your fingers meet a material you aren’t familiar with. It’s tucked between some shirts and so you shake the material free.
Instantly you have questions.
Why the hell does Clark own bright red underwear? Like holiday ornament red. You hold them up, grinning like an idiot as you think of all the ways you can tease him about this. How had you never seen this pair? You take Clark’s pants off more than often enough to have seen his whole underwear drawer, haven’t you?
You tilt your head and then shift your body. Surely these are ones you’ve seen. The light hits them differently now you squint like you’re trying to match someone's face to a name in your head. Nope, nothing. You un-squint your eyes and shake the pair of underwear a little, forcing the light to catch… belt loops.
This is fucking crazy. Did he buy these thinking they were something similar to what you got him? And then get home and realize that the firetruck-red’s weren’t really the same vibe as before? He’s such a dork sometimes, seriously. The only person you’ve ever seen wear red briefs is Superman. Unless Clark is fucking Superman then this is possibly the stupidest thing he owns.
You smile to yourself. Hah. Clark is fucking Superman. Imagine that; two huge, gorgeous, brunettes with pretty blue eyes and big arms and kind hearts just.. going… at it..?
A fold forms between your brows and your dopey teasing smile fades into a frown of realization. Things start clicking into place before you want them to. Clark’s protectiveness over his work with Superman, his panic when you mentioned him, that time he disappeared for days without his glasses and without any contact… Clark isn’t fucking Superman. Clark is Superman.
Breath fills your chest in an uncomfortable inhale. You aren’t supposed to be in his laundry, you aren’t supposed to know this. You were likely never supposed to figure this out, but now you have and it suddenly feels like you’re in a lot of trouble. The briefs fall from your hands and you stare at the wall, frozen in realization.
You’re fucking Superman. And as if the world isn’t cruel enough, you hear the apartment door swing open and the jingle of Clark’s keys.
“Baby? You home?” he calls.
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summary: christmas comes late for you and clark and he is the gift that just keeps on giving and giving and giving.
tags: 18+ , smut, roommate!clark, established friendship, f!reader, clark is older than reader (non-specific,) reader doesn't know clark is superman, fluff, silly dialogue, typical clark corniness, okay smut tags now, cross-dressing, big dick!clark, big boobs!clark, nippleplay (m!receiving,) oral sex (m!receiving,) bottom!clark, sub!clark, top!reader, a lot of come, a lot of spit, and a facial.
a/n: thank you for all the patience on this one... and an even bigger thank you to 👙 anon who gave me this idea.
wc: 8k
my masterlist - my askbox
clark k: Just waiting for my bags and then I’ll be on my way home. See you soon?
You and Clark had both gone home for the holidays, leaving the apartment empty for a whole week. You came back sooner than Clark, not really wanting to spend any more time with extended family than you had to, and also because you could only manage to get one week of time off.
The “I love you” moment was difficult. You woke up the next morning fretting about it (typical) and Clark had to talk you down (also typical.) A lengthy and anxiety ridden conversation ensued, but you figured things out. No this isn’t a relationship, but no the two of you are not seeing other people. Yes you two are very eager for one another, but no there is never an expectation to fulfill the other person's desire. “I love you” is a reminder that each of you cares about one another, the way one loves a teddy or a blanket. It’s serious but also not serious.
But it is serious enough that you miss him.
At the least, it isn’t like he disappeared this time. Clark has his phone with him, and though it is spotty cell service on his parents farm, he makes sure to message you at least once a day. Previous to Clark you thought that “morning” texts were a bit corny, but waking up to them from him was different. He was up everyday at 5:00am, sending you pictures of the cows or the sunrise and wishing you a good day. On Christmas he messaged you a photo of him and his parents all in matching Christmas sweaters and it literally made you sick to your stomach from how cute it was. You love everything about that dork, his dimples, how his glasses raise up his face when his nose scrunches when he smiles, and how his eyes glimmer the way they do at you even through the lens of a camera. It’s nice that “I love you” isn’t such a big deal in your head anymore because you really do love so much of him. Now you can say that you love something about him and not think too hard about it. Like how you love that he’s helping you compartmentalize your anxieties instead of shoving them away until they explode.
Your phone buzzes with another message and you realize you’ve accidentally left him on read, not that he cares for that sort of thing anyway.
you: sorry omg!!! yes yes see you soon
clark k: Just got into the taxi and this guy is driving crazy… If I don’t get home within the hour you know why.
He thinks he’s so funny but the idea of him dying before you get to see him again fills you with dread. Annoyed dread.
you: not funny 👎
clark k: Sorry baby, just joking. Talk soon, love you.
It’s just so easy. The way he says it all the time and the way you always say it before bed or when he leaves the house. Things feel simple again, like how they did that first time you got down on your knees and randomly blew your roommate Clark just to see if you could fit all of that in your mouth. It’s been months now, and though you’re close, it is still a futile challenge. The ache of your jaw in the morning feels a lot better these days though when he can kiss where it hurts. Things have fallen into place. You aren’t getting tired of him and you aren’t thinking about him all the time but you do like knowing that he’s there when you get home in the evening. That’s why you miss him most, not because you need him there all the time but just because it’s what you want. And he wants you too.
At some point you should probably label this because the idea that he could technically go out and kiss another person drives you crazy, but you don’t feel the need to. The insecurities you once had feel minimal now.
Which is why you were brave enough to go out and buy him a gag gift for the holidays.
You were going to get him something anyways, but like a serious thing. A nice pen that he can use for journalist stuff, maybe a new phone charger since his is starting to look like a fire hazard, and you did buy those things! You did. But then you saw something in a store window and felt a smile spread across your face and a devil’s tail curl around your heart. The boxes are all wrapped up neatly for when he gets home but you’re waiting for tomorrow afternoon to exchange gifts. He’s going to be tired and he needs his rest for work. Besides, you aren’t turning down a tired Clark that just wants to pull you into him tenderly while his heavy arms surround you like the best weighted blanket in the world.
He needs to get the fuck home. You feel itchy all over right now which is not something you were feeling the last week without him. The anticipation of knowing that he’s on his way back to you right now is making you crazy. Your phone buzzes again, because Clark just can’t help himself from unintentionally torturing you, and you read the notification with loving despair.
clark k: Can we sleep in your room tonight?
That started happening just before you and Clark parted ways for the holidays. Clark doesn’t even fit on your bed, he has to curl up and it probably isn’t very comfortable, but he really likes it anyways. He likes wherever you are.
you: as long as you aren't too sore
He responds to your message with a thumbs up emoji and you literally have to shut your phone off. You don’t even know if he’s typing or not but you’re way too excited to even look. Before you give in to the urge to do something stupid like request his location so you can watch his little dot creep closer to yours on a digital map you shove your phone into the couch cushion.
You’ll do the dishes instead. Earlier today you cleaned up the rest of the apartment so Clark could rest as soon as he got in the door. His good naturedness won’t let him sleep unless the space around both of you is “set for tomorrow” as he says, so everything had to be tidy if you wanted any chance of him sitting down. The dishes are the last thing to do and they should take exactly as much time as it will for Clark to get home, right? He’s going to come home and you’ll just be putting the last dish in the rack and you’ll have successfully distracted yourself!
Unfortunately, gravely, wrong.
It seems the dishes take many minutes longer on days when your hands aren’t moving as fast as your heart rate. They’re done in about seven minutes, leaving you to pace and pace and pace. The kitchen tiles are cold even through your socks and the world around you feels so big and empty yet suffocating. You just need something to ground you, something big and warm and comforting. Like Clark. Clark, Clark, Clark, Clark. Thinking his name might summon him.
What the hell is your deal? It’s been a week, maybe just over a week if you’re counting by the hours, but you’re almost craving him. You squeeze your eyes shut and scrunch your face up as if to secrete this neediness from your being but it does nothing. Urgh.
jinglejingle–click,clickclick
Door. Door. Door. That’s the door. Clark– Clark outside. Go now. Clark. Clark at the door.
“Honey, I’m hooomeUFFH” Clark grunts as you practically throw yourself at him. His bags are behind his feet since he dramatically stepped into the apartment but he’s far too steady to stumble back into them, even with the force of your embrace.
“Jeez, hi! Hi, hi baby,” he laughs as you shove your face into his chest as deep as you can, fingers gripping into the navy hoodie he’s wearing. The fabric is cold but you can still feel the warmth underneath and you. want. in. Clark leans his head down and pushes his nose against the top of your head, pressing a humble amount of kisses there before eventually lifting you up into his arms. His foot kicks his bag through the door before he bumps it closed with his hip.
“Missed you,” you tell him as he carries you toward your bedroom, his unpacked bag ignored. ”Nobody vacuums at 7am like you do.”
Clark snorts as he gently places you down on the edge of the bed before yanking his hoodie up over his head. You let yourself appreciate his soft belly and the slight peek at his pecs before focusing on his face. His eyes are on you, as blue and sparkly as ever as he stares back down at you.
“I’ve been home for two minutes and you’re already perving on me,” he pouts while folding his arms.
You scoff but can’t bring yourself to fully immerse yourself in the role of defensive-yet-guilty-perv since it would include potentially taking your eyes off him and you just… can’t. Your heart rate has finally calmed down after who knows how long and you feel more relaxed the longer you stare at him.
His hair is a little messier than usual, curls flat on one side of his head from when he probably took a nap on his flight, bags under his eyes from how much he probably overworked himself for his parents sake, and his clothes are more rumpled than usual. Clark looks tired, but he looks just as perfect to you as he always does. You want him to rest, he deserves it after the week he’s had.
“... will you still lay down with me even if I am a little bit of a perv?” You ask him, pouting back even harder at him.
His chest puffs with breath and he pulls his gaze away for a moment, as if really contemplating. The line of his jaw sets as if he’s really frustrated at the idea of settling into the bed of his freaky little roommate but you know his mind was made up before he even left his parents house this morning.
—
“It’s actually cruel that they’re sending me to work,” Clark mumbles.
He’s fully in his work uniform, shoes on, pants pressed, briefcase in hand. If you shook him you’d hear the bus change in his pockets jingle.
“You could just call in sick,” you reply, your face once again smushed into his chest. Clark’s arms are wrapped around you like a boa constrictor who’s been starving for weeks. He is not looking to let go anytime soon.
“I’ve never been sick in my life,” he tells you, squeezing you tighter. “They wouldn’t believe that for a second.”
Ugh. Annoying.
“Will we do gifts once you get home?” You ask quietly. Clark nods and presses a kiss to your head.
“And a movie, baby. I promise.”
–
you: you’re LATE !!!!!
clark k: Traffic is nuts right now, sorry. Did you pick a movie?
you: so what’s her name… where’d you meet her?
clark k: Her name is traffic and I’m so deep in her right now.
you: shut up
you: we’re watching whatever garbage pops up in our recommended bar.
–
It’s easiest to exchange gifts back and forth since you each picked three things for one another. Clark opens the phone charger first, which he is exceptionally grateful for, and then you unwrap that new book you’ve been waiting for the library to get back for months. Then Clark opens the fancy new pen and you open up a new trinket dish.
Finally, Clark pushes a bigger looking box toward you. It doesn’t have wrapping paper on it, just a plain box with a lid. Gingerly, you open it and pull away the tissue paper covering the item.
Inside are mittens, knitted with a deep red yarn with a pink felt heart stitched into the palm, but this isn’t just a pair of mittens. Two of the mittens are separated, but the other two are conjoined, as if meant to be worn by a couple who wish to hold hands but not let the wind chill their fingers.
You’re speechless. A couples gift? You look up at him and he’s looking back at you nervously for once.
“Ma made them,” he admits softly. “Knitted them at the start of last year and just forgot to send them over. When Lois and I were still together.”
His Adam's apple bobs as he nervously swallows the saliva in his mouth.
“Ma didn’t think I’d want them anymore but I um… told her I had someone in mind.”
Your heart is doing flips in your chest. He told his mom about you? This gift has so many implications about what Clark has in his head for the two of you.
“Clark…” you say, your heart thumping still. Words feel too hard to form now but Clark seems to get it, knows that the way you express affection isn't always the way he does. His hand reaches out and he grabs yours as it pets over the soft knit stitches repeatedly.
“I didn't mention you directly,” he says. “She probably thinks I gave these to Jimmy and Eve. I'm not trying to make this weird.”
“No, no I'm not… Sorry. Words,” you say. He nods in response.
A few more seconds pass where you just kind of stare at these mittens. Nothing you two have ever done together has been public, save for the time Clark showed up at your work. Even then it was just your manager that saw him. But these mittens come with implications. Walking- in-the-park-together implications, probably with hot cocoa and some other classically romantic activity that Clark will pull you into. It’s just like him to get you something unintentionally anxiety inducing, but he’s never done you wrong before. So instead of starting to hyperventilate, like you want to, you just reach over and give him a hug.
“Thank you,” you mumble into his shoulder. His arms squeeze you for a moment before he pulls away, glasses askew from where your head bumped his frames.
“Of course. I thought of you as soon as Ma showed me.”
… This guy. All heart on his sleeve and feelings-y. Right before you give him your gift that is not nearly as feelings-y.
You gently put the mittens to the side and then lift up the last gift you have for Clark. Good god.
“Oooh,” Clark says as he picks it up. He looks away and to the ceiling as he shakes the box near his ear. “Hmm.. Probably bricks.”
You grin awkwardly. Not bricks, Clark. This whole thing seemed like a good idea when you were at the store. It was like a cutesy perverted moment between you and the store staff that didn’t give you a second look. They didn’t know who the gift was for. The cashier didn’t blink an eye when she wrapped it up in cream tissue paper. This was a joke between you and the flimsy cardboard box you wrapped the item up in at home.
He peels back the paper quickly and slides it off, letting it hit the floor near his socked feet. Your eyes are jittering around as you watch him lift the lid on the box, then as he pulls back the paper too.
His eyebrows go up right away, just a split second before his eyes widen as big as you’ve ever seen them and his ears go red.
“Oh,” he gulps, stammering a little. He picks up the bralette gingerly, the cream coloured mesh material light between his fingers. Clark’s eyes run over the floral pattern of the lace quickly and then he notices what’s underneath it.
“Are these,” he gulps, “for you?”
Is that why he’s blushing? He’s imagining you in this?
“I think they’re your size,” you say, the words barely scraping out of your throat. You’re not sure whether you’re going to laugh out of embarrassment or not and it’s hard to hold back.
He nods stiffly. His fingers drag over the soft mesh of the bra again. It’s an unlined set, totally sheer and made of a cream mesh and lace. The bralette has a triangular shape to the cups and has no underwire since you didn’t want it to press into him oddly. His tits aren’t shaped like yours are, they are pecs after all. You picked something flexible. Clark picks up the panty next. They match the bra perfectly, with a bow in the center of the waistband. It’s not a thong, you didn’t go that far, it’s more of a loose cheeky style.
It was a funny perverted moment in the store, but now that you’re looking at Clark as he looks at this gift he’s taking it oddly seriously. You were nervous he might take this as an insult to his masculinity. Just because he enjoys being penetrated doesn’t make him a woman, after all, but… he looks serious.
“Can I… try them on?” he asks shyly. He looks up at you through his glasses like he’s not asking but begging.
Oh. Oh he likes this.
“Yeah,” you blurt out immediately. This was like a stupid half-joke that’s taken a turn you didn’t really expect.
Clark stands up with both items in his hands and then hesitates. He looks at the undie and then sets it back in the box gently.
“Maybe I’ll just start with the uh… This one,” he lifts up the bra and you nod at it. He disappears into his room very briefly, not even shutting the door but still being out of your sight for the time being. There’s some shuffling of fabric, the sound of him tossing his shirt onto the floor, and then he reappears silently a moment later.
You turn to look at him as he stands in the doorway to his bedroom and wow!! Wow, wow, wow, boobs!!!
“Does it fit? I’ve never uh,” Clark is doing something kind of weird with his hands at his sides, not that you’re paying attention to that at all.
You picked perfectly. The bra fits his chest perfectly, gently cupping his pecs the way you wish you were right now. The lace looks pretty against his skin and the colour of the garment doesn’t wash him out either. It somehow doesn’t even look disproportionate with his more masculine build, or maybe it does and you’re just blind to everything when it comes to Clark because he’s always just so handsome.
“Yeah,” you breathe out heavily. “It’s not pinching anywhere, right?”
Clark shakes his head and then lifts his arms up to show that it isn’t pinching around the sides. His biceps flex in the process and press against the sides of his head.
“No,” he says, looking down at the bra. “No pinching. What about the back?” He asks before turning so you can see how it fits there. Nothing looks like it’s riding up or squeezing oddly but again you’re not really looking at the garment and more looking at how ripped his back is.
“Yep,” you affirm. “All good.”
What the fuck were you thinking giving him this? What did you think was going to happen? That you’d just giggle and move on? It’s already been well proven that Clark is willing to do anything you want, so of course when you give him a bra he’ll put it on. You could probably ask him to twirl in it and he would. Now, thanks to your clown-y foolishness, you’re both discovering things about yourselves.
Clark touches his chest, running his hands over the delicate fabric almost curiously as he looks down at his tits. “I like it a lot. Thank you,” he tells you bashfully. He sets his gaze on you just so you can see how genuine he is and god, god, thank god you don’t have a penis, thank god you can’t pop a boner. Thank god you only have to deal with the near unsettling stickiness in your underwear right now.
“Of course,” you reply easily, even though the words feel stickier than honey in your throat. “You look really good in it.”
The air is quiet, but not awkward. There’s a heavy new-ness to the air. This is obviously different, but it’s clearly welcome. Clark’s reaction kind of tells you that he may have even thought of this before, even just in passing curiosity, and it makes you feel less bad about the silliness of the gift.
“I think I’ll take it off and then we can watch our movie?” He asks, already reaching to pull the bra off like he would any old t-shirt.
Your arms are sticking out and you’re rushing toward him before he can yank the lace off his body.
“Wait, gentle!” You laugh, stopping his hands. “Come here. I don’t want you to poke a hole through the material,” you say as you guide him back into his room. Clark is a pretty strong guy and you know from experience how easily a fingernail can pierce into the delicate fabric of a bra.
He patiently follows you over to his bed and stifles a laugh as you step up onto his bed so you can help him pull the bra over his head.
“Sorry I’m taking it off already,” he says. “I’m kind of tired tonight. Had a weird day.”
It was a weird day, even for Metropolis. From what you saw online there was another massive weird creature somewhere in the city. Anytime this happens Clark usually comes back pretty tired since y’know, he’s known as the Superman journalist. Anything about that hero Clark is on scene and interviewing him. You never really talk much to him about his job though, but maybe you should? You do tell this guy you love him after all.
“Yeah I saw all that stuff on the news,” you mention as you pull the bra over his head with careful hands. Clark’s hands smack up onto his face and he holds his glasses in position. “Some big like… kaiju or something again. Did you catch Superman for another interview?”
You may as well have shot him.
“What?” Clark sputters. “Uh, yeah! Yeah no, of course I did. I mean that’s my thing.” His hand pushes his curls up and out of his face before he turns around. There’s a little frown tugging at his face and his eyebrows are slightly tensed.
“Sorry um. I just don’t really talk about work stuff, especially not about him. It’s kinda confidential. Journalist ethics and stuff.”
He won’t look at you. Weird. Maybe he’s just sensitive about his work.
“Oh,” you say a little flatly. You were just trying to get to know him better but maybe this is off limits. “That’s fine, I get it. He’s a pretty famous guy.”
Clark nods and then looks up at you more guiltily.
“Sorry,” he mumbles before leaning in and pressing a kiss to your arm. You’re still standing on his bed so you’re much taller than him for once. He kisses your arm again, right on the meat of your forearm. “Sorry baby. Let’s go watch our movie now, okay?”
He clearly feels bad and this night has been weird enough. You toss the bra into the hamper at the far side of his room and jump off his bed.
“Movie,” you agree solemnly before taking his hand and guiding him back out of his room, making sure he walks right past that shirt he took off earlier.
—
That night, as you lay in bed beside Clark, you feel like waking him up.
Somehow, despite how open he is about his feelings for you, it always feels like he’s hiding something. At first you worried that he still harbored feelings for Lois, but now you know that isn’t it. It doesn’t make sense to you. How can you feel like you know so much of Clark, his mannerisms, his likes and dislikes, and his heart, but still seem to be missing such a huge piece? And what is the piece?
Your hands scrub over your face. You know deep down he’s right, it’s unethical for him to talk about his work, especially when it comes to Superman. Clark is the only journalist in the history of Superman’s existence that’s actually been able to interview him. Surely they have some sort of secretive contract or… something. He just seemed so guilty for some reason when he was telling you why he couldn’t talk about it.
The ceiling is painted in soft blue light from the light pollution outside as you stare up at it. Clark is breathing heavy beside you, his hand resting on your abdomen as he sleeps. Are you ungrateful for wanting more? Is this not enough? What the both of you have is unlike anything you’ve ever experienced, this comfortable and intimately freaky friendship that feels untouchable. He’s so good to you, and always has been, but that just makes the secretiveness worse.
Briefly you think about when he disappeared and left nothing but a note. The image of his glasses left abandoned on the counter floats into your mind and it makes your stomach flip. He needs his glasses, he’s nearly blind without them. You’ve seen him from the side and those lenses are as thick as a pencil. Genuinely you can’t think about this too long because there’s too much weight in that small mistake.
You should really sleep, you have work tomorrow.
Your hand moves to rest on top of his, feeling the soft top of his hand with your palm as if just knowing he’s there will be enough right now. It won’t be, of course it won’t, so you feed yourself some convoluted story just so that maybe you won’t be a total zombie at work the next day.
Clark was probably with Superman and that’s why he didn’t wear his glasses. When he has to go see him he doesn’t bring his glasses because maybe Superman doesn’t want to be recognized as being around with a reporter… or something. Yeah. Yeah that’s it.
There’s still rocks stacked from your stomach to your throat as you close your eyes, but you just have to live with that tightness for now. Clark would never hide anything awful from you, right?
—
You wake up late the next morning, somehow having snoozed all five alarms that you set for yourself last night. When you leave your room in a rush you're still tugging your work shirt over your head, arms stuck in the holes while your head pushes against the neckline. Clark mumbles a sleepy good morning to you from where he's curled over the coffee machine. His favorite cinnamon roll flavored coffee creamer is to his right on the counter, which you bought earlier this week before you got home. You're sure he'll thank you later in one of his many ways…
That's to think about later at work though, when it's slow. Right now you need to dig through your laundry, which is sitting folded up in a basket on the living room floor, and find some matching socks.
“Sorry, I didn't know what time you worked,” Clark calls apologetically. You shake your head and make a grunt that's supposed to reassure him while you pluck two socks that might be a pair from the basket. After successfully pulling them onto your feet you head to the door. The coffee machine makes a clunking noise and you sigh.
“Clark,” you groan, coming toward him. He's so smart in so many ways but his lovely God given largeness is such an issue sometimes. The buttons on the coffee machine always give him trouble.
Just as you step beside him though, you notice something. Usually when he's bent over the coffee machine you can faintly make out the outline of the tank tops he wears beneath his white dress shirts, but today the strap seems thinner. Your lips pull into a slight frown as you step behind him to look at his back and Clark goes deathly still. The straps are thinner, pressing against his shirt in a way that they don't usually. You follow the outline of one while the new angle allows the sun to shine onto his broad back just right, enough to expose the imprint of the silver buckle that's pressing against his shirt. There's no way, right?
Your eyes frantically trace the outline lower, discovering how his flesh is pillowing around the bust. It draws your eyes to the center of his back and fuck, fuck, he's wearing it. You can see the clasps of the bra connected at the center of his back.
“Are you wearing the bra?” You ask. The tips of his ears are turning red when you look up at the back of his head like it'll give you an answer. He's still completely still.
“I just wanted to try it,” he admits. “I liked it yesterday.”
He sounds so embarrassed but that is definitely not the way he should be feeling right now. Not when you just felt your pulse behind your ears kick up to a level of anxiety that certainly wasn't induced by being late for work. With a careful hand you brush your thumb over the right strap, over his shirt. You really like this too. You liked it yesterday for sure, but that was in the safety of his room. This is different, this is Clark at work wearing the lingerie your perverted ass bought him. He's probably going to feel that fabric on his tits all day, his nipples pressing into that sheer fabric while he tries to keep his focus.
“Is that weird?” He asks when you don’t say anything. You flub out a response to reassure him and he just kind of nods.
Clark turns to face you and you focus on his chest right away. The bra isn’t totally visible through his shirt, just a faint outline that will likely be covered by his blazer and tie once he pulls them on.
This isn’t really how you anticipated him to use the gift. You thought it’d be a bedroom exclusive item, tucked away with his various toys and… other amenities. But no, instead he’s right there, wearing his bra under his work uniform.
“... I couldn’t wear the uh, bottoms,” he says, looking down at you with an almost apologetic expression.
Yeah no shit he couldn’t wear those under his normal clothes. It’d be the fire alarm inspection incident all over again. Everything would be out.
“That’s… that’s fine. Later did you want to try?” You ask, mouth still kind of dry out of your shock.
“Yeah,” he nods. “You’re off at six, right?”
—
Six doesn’t come fast enough for you.
Your bus actually gets stuck in traffic on the way home and instead of just waiting to get off on the same block as your building you get off a few stops back and literally book it home. The pavement skids under your steps as you barrel toward your building at full speed, knowing exactly what’s waiting for you.
Clark, probably showered, probably waiting right there on the couch for you in his little set that clearly makes him feel some kind of way.
The elevator takes too long. Finding your keys takes too long. Opening the door takes too long.
And then the door is open and you’re kicking your shoes off, dumping your bag on the floor and ignoring the thunk your water bottle makes as it hits the ground. You round the corner quickly and see him, there, perfect.
You were right, he did shower. Clark’s skin looks almost porcelain as he lays there in the glow of the lamp beside the couch. The bathroom door has been left ajar and you can smell his soap from where you stand, staring like an animal ready to tear into his flesh (you are.) He’s a little slumped, relaxed but eager in the way his eyes trace your face as you trace his body down, down, down.
He’s wearing the panties. It’s not an unusual sight the way you maybe feared it would be, but you definitely made the right choice when you picked ones without elastic around the leg. It would have contained him too much. This way, with the fluttering mesh, his cock lays against his leg, sticking out the side impatiently as if to tease you. The head looks just slightly wet, like maybe he had been leaking but shyly wiped it away. Somehow you manage to drag your eyes back up to his. His adams apple bobs as he swallows.
“Hi,” he offers nervously.
Words are pretty worthless. You can’t describe what you want to do to him and with the way he’s laid out he clearly wants it. You’ll skip the pleasantries.
Your feet stride across the apartment, into the living room, with hungry ease. It’s a familiar position, here between his knees, but you aren’t sitting back on your heels right now. Instead you keep yourself up, high enough to push him so he hits the backrest after he attempts to sit up.
“Oh,” he says as your hands drag down and cup his tits, squeezing them through the lace he’s wearing. And then he says it again as you lean to the right and lap at his nipple through the fabric. It’s “oh, oh, oh,” again and again as you massage his chest with your hands and mouth, licking at his sensitive nipples through the fabric. He’s poking through the fabric fiercely now, enough that you can graze his nips with your teeth as you tease them. When you look up at him you see his face all pinched up the way you like it, trying to stifle his noises because he just can’t help but make them. You pull everything out of him, he gives you whatever you want.
“Good boy,” you practically moan into his chest, your tongue sloppily lapping across his left tit now. The fabric is soaked to his chest and mostly see through now. Your praise yanks a whine out of his chest, sudden and short with surprise, and you feel him buck his hips up.
You do want to suck his dick, but you’re still not really finished with his tits. The stimulation is clearly doing something to him if you’re going off the way his dick has grown to be more against his leg than in the panties. Hastily, you reach down and squeeze the base of him through the fabric.
“Golly,” his voice cracks and you smile. You start to place kisses down his chest and across his belly, the muscle firm but still cushy the way you like. With your hands you guide his up to his chest, making him cup his own tits.
“Touch them,” you urge, pressing your lips across his hipbones. He nods a little shakily, listening without any protest as he begins to pinch at his own nipples through the bra. It’s a little surprising that he hasn’t asked to at least touch under, but he does seem fairly submissive tonight.
Now that he’s occupying his chest, god forbid it’s forgotten, you can focus on the main event.
Your hand grasps at Clark’s dick right at the base, where the fabric of the panties still covers it, jerking the material gently over the skin there. You don’t want to irritate him at all, but you want him to know what he’s wearing, even when his eyes are closed and his head is leaned all the way back. After repeating this motion a few times, you lean down to where the head of his cock is and pick it up between your lips, swirling your tongue over the tip before taking it into your mouth gently. Your eyes slide shut and you start to focus on working him in your mouth, thinking about how hot your mouth needs to be, how wet it needs to be so it slides against him easily. Tonight isn’t about getting him all the way down your throat, not like all the times before. Tonight you want to crack him open and make sure he knows that he’s yours to have, every fucking bit.
“Baby,” Clark chokes out, his fingers plucking at his nipples through the fabric. Your mouth is heavenly on him, your tongue swathing over his tip again and again while your hand works over the fabric of the panty. He feels pathetic, splayed out in the living room in lingerie as you worship his cock. Every sensation is rolling through him like a wave of static, numbing his brain and his tongue until he can’t do anything but touch himself and feel you on him. His brain isn’t together enough to keep from making noises as you suck down more of him, your lips meeting the hem of his panty. Clark gasps your name and his fingers twitch against his tits, aching for the familiar feeling of your head under his palm, but he resists.
“I want,” he starts and then loses his thought as you start to push your nose beneath the fabric. This is about as far as you’re going tonight, not wanting your throat and jaw to ache tomorrow morning, but it’s really all you need. Your fist keeps working him as drool slips out the corners of your mouth, slicking the hair at his inner thighs and shining the skin. You look up at him through glossy eyes but you can’t see his face. All you get is the sight of him desperately rubbing at his tits, almost like he wants the bra off but isn’t willing to just reach under. His chest is heaving, a light sweat glistening on his skin.
Again, you steel yourself and focus harder. This doesn’t need to be a drawn out event, not this time. Now that you know he likes this you’re going to be buying plenty of lingerie for him, whatever he wants. Cute sets, sexy sets, who fucking cares. You want to see him all whiny and pathetic under you as you fuck him, pinching and rolling his nipples like he is right now. He always acts like such a good person, he’s always doing everything for everyone else and that’s why it feels good when he begs you for more, for bigger, for harder.
You double your efforts, focusing on creating a suction within your mouth so that your throat tightens around what it’s managing to hold. Clark lets out a girlish moan and his thighs start to tremble, pressing closer around you. He’s getting close now and you know it. His toes curl into the carpet beside you slightly and his breathing almost sounds close to hyperventilating, though you know it isn’t. He’s always expressive, but tonight it seems like so much more. You keep up your rhythm but open your eyes a little more, only to catch him looking down at you. He has his nipples pressed between his forefingers and thumbs much tighter than you expected and you can see how fucked out he looks. His eyes are barely focused on you as he watches you try your best to milk his cock into your mouth, lips dry from how much he’s been breathing and babbling.
A noise, maybe a word or a plea, attempts to escape his lips and it makes you feel evil. He might have his secret, sure, but only you can make him fall apart like this. Only you have this sort of power over him.
So, just as you see his eyes cross and lose total focus, just as his chest hitches, you drop him out of your mouth. The expected result happens for just a moment, your hand gripped firmly around his base and squeezing as he looks at you with betrayal in his eyes. Then his brows pinch and he almost looks confused as he starts to come.
Clark always comes a lot, no matter what, but your attempt at ruining his orgasm only made it more intense. His cock is spilling everywhere, shooting across the bridge of your nose, onto the apples of your cheeks and on your chin, but also spilling down the length of itself, dripping onto the delicate fabric that was supposed to cover him.
“Oh my gosh,” he pants, hips bucking into your fist weakly as his chest shudders with breath. “Baby, baby– mh– sorry, sorry.”
‘There’s nothing to be sorry for,’ is what you should say, but instead you’re squinting one eye shut so you don’t get come directly in your eye. In your half-vision of him you can tell that this is a full body experience for him, his legs lifting his body fully off the couch for a second before dropping down as a second wave hits, this time weaker. You loosen your grip as his cock throbs against your palm, but don’t let go yet. He pulses out a little more release, maybe three more weak drips, and then finally, it’s over.
You haven’t said anything this whole time and Clark has been the only one speaking, but now it’s time to switch. Without a word you’re wiping off your hand on a towel that was very conveniently placed on the couch beside Clark, probably done by him before you got home, and then climbing onto the couch beside him. You’ll clean him up in a second, but this is the most intense orgasm you’ve ever seen him have and he probably needs a minute.
“Hey,” you coo, pulling his head against your chest. His curls are soft against your chin as you rest your head on his. You rub your thumb over his cheek while he catches his breath, his whole body still shaking.
“Did so good,” you promise him quietly, “so messy. And you look so cute, huh? You like wearing this?”
Clark blubbers a response but can’t find words still, his tongue tied in pleasure. The jerky nod of his head speaks for him well enough.
“Love you,” he manages after a series of shaky breaths. And you say it right back.
—
Three days later and you’re both still recovering from that night.
Clark hasn’t really been able to go again since, either too sensitive or too busy. Some story he just picked up about LuthorCorp’s upcoming plans for Metropolis, so he’s been out and about.
You’re still recovering because you can’t stop thinking about it, not that that’s unusual, for you to be thinking of him so much. The image of him helplessly coming all over himself and you is just too much to really digest. It might take you a month.
But that doesn’t mean you aren’t willing to plan for when that time comes.
Currently, you’re being a snoop. Clark is someone who’s very picky about chores and who does what. For the most part he does everything he can, but what he is absolutely immovable on is who does his laundry. You don’t really know why, maybe he’s scared that his laundry is gross or something, but you’re being super-duper bad right now. You’re digging through his laundry bin.
Back in your own bedroom sits your laptop, open to some luxurious lingerie site. You found a set that you think might fit his proportions, made of material with more give and no tricky loops or clips that might snap when you tug them over his broadness. However, you can’t remember what size the last set you got him was, hence you are here breaking Clark’s number one rule.
You roll your eyes as you dump the bin out on the floor finally, not willing to sacrifice your back just to find some flimsy little bralette. The fabric falls out in one big lump, like a sandcastle made of cotton undershirts and grey dress pants. You roll your eyes when you crack into the laundry-castle and the first thing you find is a t-shirt from his college days. He wears it to sleep sometimes and it shows in all the holes and frayed edges on it. With a swish you flick it up onto his bed. He’ll probably want it later when he comes home anyways.
Finally you see the cream coloured strap sticking out from between some material and you pull at it. You’re not in a total rush, but Clark is going to be home at some point and you don’t really want to upset him by doing this. So maybe you tug a little rougher than you should.
A puff of clothes explodes on the floor in an array of colours, making you laugh huffily. It’s more of a mess than you wanted now, but the bra is yours to inspect. The tag is still attached to the back of it, the size printed in black on the pink silk tag, proudly displaying an “xl” in pretty cursive letters. Triumphantly, you grab the laundry bin and start shoving his clothes back into it. The bra goes first, then you grab fistfuls of t-shirts and boxer briefs.
Or you think you do.
As you grab your second handful of clothes your fingers meet a material you aren’t familiar with. It’s tucked between some shirts and so you shake the material free.
Instantly you have questions.
Why the hell does Clark own bright red underwear? Like holiday ornament red. You hold them up, grinning like an idiot as you think of all the ways you can tease him about this. How had you never seen this pair? You take Clark’s pants off more than often enough to have seen his whole underwear drawer, haven’t you?
You tilt your head and then shift your body. Surely these are ones you’ve seen. The light hits them differently now you squint like you’re trying to match someone's face to a name in your head. Nope, nothing. You un-squint your eyes and shake the pair of underwear a little, forcing the light to catch… belt loops.
This is fucking crazy. Did he buy these thinking they were something similar to what you got him? And then get home and realize that the firetruck-red’s weren’t really the same vibe as before? He’s such a dork sometimes, seriously. The only person you’ve ever seen wear red briefs is Superman. Unless Clark is fucking Superman then this is possibly the stupidest thing he owns.
You smile to yourself. Hah. Clark is fucking Superman. Imagine that; two huge, gorgeous, brunettes with pretty blue eyes and big arms and kind hearts just.. going… at it..?
A fold forms between your brows and your dopey teasing smile fades into a frown of realization. Things start clicking into place before you want them to. Clark’s protectiveness over his work with Superman, his panic when you mentioned him, that time he disappeared for days without his glasses and without any contact… Clark isn’t fucking Superman. Clark is Superman.
Breath fills your chest in an uncomfortable inhale. You aren’t supposed to be in his laundry, you aren’t supposed to know this. You were likely never supposed to figure this out, but now you have and it suddenly feels like you’re in a lot of trouble. The briefs fall from your hands and you stare at the wall, frozen in realization.
You’re fucking Superman. And as if the world isn’t cruel enough, you hear the apartment door swing open and the jingle of Clark’s keys.
“Baby? You home?” he calls.
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“I’ve been home for two minutes and you’re already perving on me,” he pouts while folding his arms.
You scoff but can’t bring yourself to fully immerse yourself in the role of defensive-yet-guilty-perv since it would include potentially taking your eyes off him and you just… can’t. Your heart rate has finally calmed down after who knows how long and you feel more relaxed the longer you stare at him.
His hair is a little messier than usual, curls flat on one side of his head from when he probably took a nap on his flight, bags under his eyes from how much he probably overworked himself for his parents sake, and his clothes are more rumpled than usual. Clark looks tired, but he looks just as perfect to you as he always does. You want him to rest, he deserves it after the week he’s had.
“... will you still lay down with me even if I am a little bit of a perv?” You ask him, pouting back even harder at him.
His chest puffs with breath and he pulls his gaze away for a moment, as if really contemplating. The line of his jaw sets as if he’s really frustrated at the idea of settling into the bed of his freaky little roommate but you know his mind was made up before he even left his parents house this morning.
