Yes Ms Paulson

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Mother- Sarah Paulson Imagine

Summary: Your homophobic mother is on her death bed and you decide to visit her in order to try and gain some closure. Sarah won’t let you go on your own. Not really sure what this is...

"Are you ready love?" You and Sarah had been sat in your car for 20 minutes, just sat in silence, watching people come in and out of the hospital. Sarah's hand stroking yours slowly, just letting you know that she was there; right next to you. You couldn't remember whether you had spoken a word since you sat down in the car back home, but you probably didn't. Too much going on in your brain for any kind of conversation. Sarah had kept an eye on you though. Every now and then you felt her eyes on you, watching you concentrate on the road.

"Yeah... I guess." Your voice was shaky and your hands shook at the mere thought of facing your mother. You weren't scared of her and you knew how she didn't support you, but you were scared for Sarah. If your mother said the wrong thing or did something that hurt Sarah, you'd never forgive yourself. You couldn't bear it if Sarah left you because of your homophobic mother, you couldn't let that woman ruin the most perfect thing that has ever happened to you.

"Hey... you know you don't have to be strong for me right? You can talk to me" You turned to face Sarah, her eyes were full of worry.

"I can't lose you Sarah... the things my mother might say, they won't be nice... so if you think there's a possibility that you can't handle it or that it might upset you enough to leave me... then please tell me, because we won't go in there, we'll go home... because I can't lose you Sar" You wouldn't let the tears fall, not for your mother, you had to be strong, she wouldn't tear you down again.

"I'm here for the long run love, no matter what, okay? No matter what your mother will say, no matter what anyone says." Sarah's hand graced your cheek, her lips turning into a smile just for you. "We know what we have is special, not many people get what we have, and I'd be damn stupid to let this go. I love you silly, and I'm not leaving you anytime soon... now... lets go." Sarah squeezed your hands and turned to get out of the car; gesturing for you to do the same. Time to go...

You walked hand in hand towards your mothers room, the nurses had directed you, offering you a sad smile. You hated pity. Should you be more sad? You asked yourself... you didn't really feel anything. Only apprehensive of what was going to happen in those 4 walls; hoping and praying that your mother wouldn't freak too much to see you and Sarah.

"I'm right here love, always." You came to a stop when you reached her door, thankful that there were no windows on it, the last protection from the vicious tongue of the woman who gave you life. You turned to face Sarah and kissed her gently, the touch of her lips grounding you as they always did.

"I know Sar, lets go."

Your hand reached out and grabbed the handle, letting go of Sarah's hand as you pushed it open. She was laying on the bed, fragile and old, she had never looked like that before. Your mother had always taken great pride in her appearance, she had taken pride in everything. Her ego far too large, you blamed that and her ignorance for why she turned her back on you.

"Y/n? What are you doing here?" Her voice was full of spite, she obviously hadn't changed much.

"You're dying y/m/n, and you're still my mother" You hadn't moved from the doorway and Sarah was yet to be seen by your mother, your body guard her from your mother's line of vision.

"Well, if you're here, I'm guessing you've seen the light and realised your sins" Another great feature of your mother, deeply 'religious', however you were sure she used it merely as an excuse to be a hateful witch.

"I've just come to say goodbye, I know you don't understand me or the world that you currently live in, but I had hoped that maybe, just once you could realise that I am your daughter. You're dying for god's sake." You finally moved closer to the woman in the bed, you were slowly losing your temper. But this would probably be the last time that you see her, and you did love her, although you were sure that you probably shouldn't.

"Is that your girlfriend then?" You followed her eye line, and it landed on Sarah. The pair watching each other, trying to figure one another out. Sarah looked stoic, and if you didn't know her so well you wouldn't see the worried glint in her eyes, that you knew was for you; not for herself. Her eyes fell to you, waiting for you to tell your mother who she was, waiting for the woman's reaction.

You went to tell her that that was who she was, the woman of your dreams, the person you had been waiting for your whole life. But your voice hesitated, and it took a while for your brain to catch up. A few seconds for you to figure out what you were going to say.

"No"

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It’s not fair that Middle aged actresses are so heckin pretty

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I call lesbian hands

[cordelias-bitch]

Are suits made for women?

YES

Will I ever stop drooling over women in suits?

NO

Should you reblog this to spread the gay?

YES

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So many times I have died alone in my room

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SHE-

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Merry Christmas everyone! And a happy new year🎉🎄❤

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After making sure Gryffindor wins the House Cup

Dumbledore: I'm so generous

Dumbledore: 10 points to Dumbledore

[cordelias-bitch]

Crimson Red🌃- Cordelia Goode

Request number 1🎉

"Oh god, you're bleeding"

Cordelia held the knife, twisting it in the daylight from the windows as if it could slice up the sun rays, her expression exaggerated by the dark shadows around her eyes. You wanted them to meet yours, to plead her to stop whatever she was planning. You knew whatever it was, it wouldn't be good, the sick feeling in the pit of your stomach told you that much. But she never looked at you, and you never got to her in time. The knife, a weapon without kindness, sliced through your favourite shirt of hers and straight into her pale white skin.

And then she fell.

With that thing in her chest, just poking out, impaling the love of your life. How could she do that? How could he do that? You wanted to kill him for what he had made your Cordelia do to herself, but she needed your attention now, harming him would have to wait.

"Cordelia!" You heard Myrtle from behind you, her voice ringing loudly in your ears. If anything, her strangled voice just pushed you closer and closer to Delia's still body.

You flinched when you reached her, her skin was so cold already, she was losing too much blood you told yourself. She was the supreme, no way was she dead. She couldn't die, you need her too much, she was the love of your life and you haven't had the chance to tell her yet. God couldn't... wouldn't be so cruel to take her away before you had the chance. No. She was just unconscious, you were sure of it.

Your hands shook as they moved across the woman's delicate skin. Everything screamed at you to leave the knife where it was, to plug the blood. But the sight of the cold, almost rusted handle sticking out of her beautiful body made you feel sick. It was out of place, it wasn't made to be there. Your hand wrapped around the handle and pulled, its darkness leaving the brightness that was Cordelia. It wasn't a heavy knife like those ones from the kitchen, but it still felt heavy within your hands, as if your limbs were weak.

"Oh god, you're bleeding"

The smell of iron filled the atmosphere and blanketed the room in a choking aroma, you should be used to the smell of blood. The familiar looking knife would drag over your arms and give you your own type of relief. But this smell wasn't inviting, it wasn't welcomed, it wasn't filled with relief and solace. It was horrid, and sickening. It was the worst smell you had ever smelt. Your hands clasped over the hole in her chest. You tried to stop the blood, but it was everywhere. It flowed out of Cordelia's limp body and splattered onto the floor. It seeped every corner of the room and made the once beautiful room look evil and dirty, every inch ruined by the gore of the red, flowing blood that covered your hands and arms.

"Come one Delia, open your eyes for me"

"Y/n, shes already gone" You could feel Zoe trying to pull you away, but you had to try and save her. You couldn't let Cordelia go just like that, you had hope even if they didn't.

"No, shes still there, I know it"

Your hands grabbed ahold of her cheeks, they were once filled with rich colour and now they were nothing but cold and white. Where had her colour gone? You missed it dearly already. You tried to shake her awake, but those beautiful eyes just wouldn't open, you willed for them to look at you one last time, to feel her breath leave her nose once again. If she was going to be dead, this was no place to die, you had to have her with you. Your legs rose with her in your arms, her limbs falling less than gracefully from her chest; the crimson red started to coat your clothes.

"Y/n? What are you doing?"

"I have to hold her so shes not alone. No-one deserves to be alone. Especially not my Cordelia". Maybe you should've left her there, but how could you when she meant so much to you?

Everytime you heaved her body further up your own as you moved through the house, more of the dark scarlet fluid ran down your arms and stomach. You'd be cleaning the house for days after, blood coating the carpets and floor like caramel over an apple.

You reached yours and Cordelia's shared room, your legs gave way underneath you as you laid her body on the bed. The crimson evil staining the white, crisp sheets of your bed. Her body was lifeless as you pressed your own body against hers, her arms no longer pulled you close. 

You always knew there was more than one type of death. You both had died this day, only you hadn't meant to. Your heart still beat and blood still cursed through your veins. And yet, both of you had become cold and numb, overcast with blue colour. No days were ever going to make this feeling you felt any easier. Life would go on, people would move, cars would fill the streets, the yellow street lamps would still light up at night. But you would remain here, in this moment; pixelated, unreal, distant.

"You can rest now Delia... I'll be with you soon"

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Kisses🌠- Sarah Character Preferences

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Sarah:

Most of the time they're soft, slow and meaningful. But, when you've not seen each other for a while, they easily become sloppy and hard. Your lips are her favourite because she loved how plumb they are. She also enjoys the taste of the strawberry lipstick that you often wear for work.

Billie-

It's always very passionate with Billie because she knows life is so fragile, she also loves to take control over you; in and out of bed. She loves to kiss your collarbones because she knows how much it turns you on.

Lana-

Soft but full of love and admiration. Most of them are in public so you have to be quick, but when you're on your own they're always deep and slow. Your wrists are her favourite place to kiss because it's where your veins are and she can feel your heartbeat.

Cordelia-

Your kisses tend to start off slow and tender but gradually they get more forceful and passionate. They're always full of love and affection. She loves to kiss your neck because it makes her giggle at how you squirm in reaction.

Bette-

She likes to tangle her hands in your hair and tug gently on it, the kiss is always soft and leaves you both wanting more. Her favourite place to kiss you is your hands or cheek because she believes it shows how much love she has for you.

Dot-

Normally very delicate with you but when it gets steamy you run your hands through her hair and she bites your lower lips slightly. She loves to kiss your temples as they're the perfect height for her to do so. They're also the easiest place for her to easily steal kisses during the day.

Sally-

She likes to take control so she wraps her arms around your waist and kisses you deaply. But she likes to be reminded often who is in charge, so she loves when you take the lead. She loves to kiss your stomach because the noise you make when she does, turns her on.

Ally-

Your kisses are always very passionate, your lips are her favourite place to kiss you, but of the noise you make when she does; so she makes sure to make them last. They're the type of kisses that get heated fast.

Audrey-

Quick and strong. She likes to leave you bewildered and it can quickly become sloppy when it gets heated. Her favourite place to kiss you is your lips because it signifys love and relationship.

Wilhemina-

Rough and extremely passionate. You both kiss like it will be your last because you know how fast everything can be snatched away. She likes to kiss your forehead as it's the perfect place while hugging because you're  considerably shorter than she is.

Tammy-

Kisses are very gentle but full of love and compassion. But she loves to kiss your lips because when you're alone, she loves how heated they can get.

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Jealous Part 3🌃- Cordelia Goode

Previous part

"I'm sorry?"

Cordelias hands found yours and she pulled you closer. You were intoxicated by her, but you didn't trust her words, she had to be saying it all to make you feel better. 

"Cordelia, please" you turned your face away and tried to get her to release your hands, but she just wouldn't give in. She was just making it all worse for you.

"I love you-"

"No! Stop it! You're just making this all harder than it already is... you can't mean those words... you shouldn't say those words when you don't mean them" you managed to move away and head off towards your class that you were meant to be teaching. Taking a breath, you prepared yourself and entered the classroom for the remainder of the day.

*Time skip*

"Y/n! Zoe needs you in the greenhouse. It's an emergency!"

You trudged yourself to the greenhouse. You used to love this place, you'd escape there to find Delia and spend the night chatting and most of the time other things. But now, the thought of being in there surrounded by such memories feels suffocating. Almost as if the whole room was mocking you.

It was completely dark outside, no light emitted from the greenhouse, and you were starting to think you had imagined being told about Zoe. Although, as you looked closer you could see small clusters of light around the building, like small floating glow worms. You didn't really have anything to lose, so walking into somewhere that from anyone's perspective looked a little creepy,  didn't really faze you. Nothing did anymore, not since everything ended between you and Cordelia. Everything felt kind of pointless, as if nothing truly made sense anymore. It was hard to admit to yourself, but you really have been lost without her.

"Zoe!? You wanted me?! Hello..." you recieved no answer, and yet something pulled you further into the building. Like some kind of magnet was causing your body to move on it's own accord.

Red blankets were laid down on the floor, just underneath your feet were rose petals, surely taken from the rose bush in the garden. It had taken ages for you to get that silly bush to bloom, but the petals looked pretty at least.

You were about to turn around and leave, pretty convinced that this set up wasn't for you. Who would have done that for you? You didn't have anyone, and Delia was only lying when she said she still did. But that's when her beautiful eyes connected with yours, and it was as of the world stood still for a split second. It was as if as long as the two of you were together, the power you held was strong enough to align the whole of the universe. Everything was slowly making sense again.

"I hope a somewhat romantic picnic in our place will convince you that I was telling the truth... to be honest I dont have any other ideas sweetheart... I do love you"

Her eyes were filled with tears; happy, hopeful ones. You weren't sure if it was the food or the atmosphere but something clicked and you truly believed her. She really still loved you?

"I love you more than anything Delia"

Your lips connected and everything truly became clear, like the world made sense and everything was at peace finally. You loved the woman in your arms, and you were never letting her go again.

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Jealous part 2🌌- Cordelia Goode

Part 1

"W-what?..."

By now tears were streaming down your face, you couldn't stop them, no matter how hard you tried to. You wanted to be strong. To hold yourself high when she told you she didn't love you back. But you were crumbling, from the inside-outwards. You felt sick. How could you just out yourself like that? Make Cordelia feel awkward? Ruin a perfect looking friendship?

"I'm sorry... I love you Cordelia and I can't pretend to be okay anymore..."

She just stared at you. Her lips plump and her arms tense. You wanted- needed her to say or do something. You needed her. Without realising what you were doing you leant into her, your lips almost touching. You could feel her enticing scent radiating from her and it drew you in even further. Probably not the most professional place to kiss your ex lover, in the middle of the school corridor, but you couldn't help yourself.

You felt her arms on your shoulders, her soft yet rough fingers folding over your small figure.

But they weren't pulling you in. They were pushing you away...

She was pushing you away.

"Y/n..." Her voice was almost a whisper. As if she raised her voice slightly higher, you would break and fall to pieces.

You couldn't speak, you didn't know what to say. Or how to feel. Sad. Heartbroken. Embarrassed. You stepped away from her. Shoving her hands away. The tears still making streams down your cheeks.

All you could do was run. Run from her. From her woman. From your feelings.

*Time Skip*

You had run from her that night. You ran for hours. You didn't know what to do.

You could run that night. But you can't run from your job. You had to go in, you couldn't avoid it anymore. You couldn't avoid her anymore. Not that there was any avoiding to do. There was no missed calls. No new messages. She hadn't even tried to find you in your room.

You walked into the kitchen, head down, trying to hide your face from anyone is sight. Anyone could tell you had had a few rough nights. The bags under your eyes gave it away. The redness appearing under your nose gave evidence of the tissues you had used to try and wipe away the pain. You didn't care what people thought anymore. The only person you wanted was Cordelia and you had ruined that already.

"Y/n? Are you Okay?" You glanced to see almost the entire house standing around you, excluding her and Misty- who was probably with her. Those two were always together, and if you weren't upset and already knew Delia had someone else, you'd be jealous of the pair.

It warmed you slightly to know there was some people who cared about you. Who noticed how ruined you looked and felt. But you couldn't answer them. You neither had the words nor the time. The room became distracted as Cordelia walked in, side by side with Misty. You couldn't look at her. She was probably doing fine, she would've left the house her girlfriend and went to bed holding her close. You couldn't look at her, it would tear you apart; even more so.

"Come on Girls, class is starting soon"

Everyone stood and walked towards the hallway. Everyone apart from you. You couldn't move. You felt stuck. You felt heavy, like something was weighing heavy on your shoulders. Pushing you under, drowning you. Maybe you wanted to drown. You certainly didn't want to be here.

"Y/n..." It was her. She was next to you, you could feel her, smell her even. You still couldn't look at her. The tears would only start to fall again.

"Y/n? Please. I need to talk to you..."

Your heart began to speed up. You could feel it getting harder and harder. You wouldn't be surprised if she could hear it too.

"We have lessons to teach" Your voice was almost a whisper, it was all you could muster. Your legs stretched and soon you were standing and walking away, you didn't really know where they were taking you. They felt numb. You felt numb. Everything was numb and dull and gone.

"I broke up with her... please talk to me..." Her voice made you freeze. You didn't believe what she was saying.

"W-what?" You stood facing away. Her hands once again wrapping around your body. This time pulling you close, spinning you around.

"I love you y/n"

[cordelias-bitch]

Surprising Sarah characters with Lunch🌠

Sarah:

You visited Sarah while she was on set for AHS cult, you knew she loved catering, but she loved your cooking even more. You had made her favourite the night before and decided to bring the left overs for dinner.

"Hey baby! What are you doing here?!"

She ran to you, still in costume and pulled you into the biggest hug. Anyone would think you hadn't seen each other in a long time, when in reality you had seen her a mere few hours ago when she woke up in your bed.

"You know I can't resist the brown hair and this costume makes your ass look great love... oh and I brought lunch"

"You're so cute"

Billie:

You found billie at the murder house, you knew how long Billie had spent preparing for this new adventure and how much energy she was using to make her show almost as good as she is.

"Hey ghost lady"

"Hey babygirl, what brings you here? I thought you said this place was unsafe?"

"I've brought you lunch... and I did, I still think it is but I know I'm safe if you're here"

"Always baby"

Lana:

Lana was half way through a day full of interviews and she was exhausted, all she wanted was you. She decided to give you a ring, although you were probably too busy to talk to her.

"Hello love, how are the interviews going?"

"Hello sweetheart, they're exhausting. I wish you were here"

"I'll bring lunch"

"You don't have to drop everything for me, I'm sure you're busy"

You smiled gently through the phone, you had been planning on taking Lana lunch anyway, you missed her like crazy.

"Never too busy for you love"

Cordelia:

You knew Delia could get caught up in her work, so when she was absent at breakfast and lunch, you decided enough was enough. You found her office and knocked before entering.

"Delia?"

"Hm?" She didn't look up from her work, being a head teacher and supreme was tiring work you guessed.

"I brought you lunch, take a break for me"

"I don't have time y/n, I have to finish all this paperwork before tomorrow"

"Well take a break and I'll help you"

"I can't ask you to do that"

"You didn't, I'm telling you I am. You'll starve yourself if you're not careful"

"Have I told you I love you today?"

"Yes dear, but you can say it as much as you'd like, I'll never complain"

Bette and Dot:

You always brought the girls lunch no matter what day it was or how busy you were. It was just another way to show them how much you cared.

You always tried to make each day different, and today you had decided to make a picnic.

"How are my favourite girls?"

You walked over to the pair sat at their dressing table and placed a kiss on both their cheeks causing matching blush to grace their skin.

"Are we having lunch together!?"

"Bette..." Dot scolded her sister.

"Its okay Dottie, I love how excited Bette gets. And of course, I thought maybe a picnic would be fun today"

"Sounds awfully romantic! I cant wait!"

"Me neither Bette, me neither" You smiled at both the girls and pulled them towards you for a hug before lunch.

Sally:

You know that sally didn't need to eat because she was a ghost but that didn't stop you worrying that she wasn't taking care of herself.

"Y/n! I thought you wasn't coming back till later? I've missed you so much"

Sally was sat at the bar, the usual tears running down her cheeks at the pure sight of you. Happy tears of course.

"Well I brought food, I thought maybe we could have lunch together? I cant remember the last time you ate love"

"Thats sweet baby, but you know I don't need to eat"

"I know... you should still take care of yourself though"

"I love you"

Sally loved that you cared about silly things, although she didn't need the same things as humans do, that you did; she loved that you still wanted her to have them. Food, water, sleep. You looked after her, and she would be grateful for that forever.

Ally:

Both Ally and Oz were ill and you felt bad that you weren't there to look after them both. So you booked the rest of the day off and the day after and hurried to the shop for supplies before heading to Allys.

"Y/n? What are you doing here?"

"Well my favourite people are sick and need to be looked after"

"But you might get sick too"

"Then you can return the favour and look after me" you placed a kiss on Allys cheek and entered her house, finding Oz sitting on the couch.

"Hey little man, I brought you some stuff to keep you occupied. I'm sorry you're ill bud" 

You handed Oz some comics and some sweets and retreated to the kitchen.

"What did I ever do to deserve you?"

"How about you contemplate that while on the sofa love, and I'll make some lunch"

"Thank you"

You'd do anything to see that beautiful smile on her face every minute of everyday.

Audrey:

Audrey hated catering food, said it tasted fake, so she always took her own. However, that morning she hadn't had time to do anything so went to work without her usual meal in her bag. You felt bad for keeping Audrey up all night and therefore making her sleep in for longer than normal. So you decided to make her one of your family recipes and suprise her at work.

You knocked on her trailer door and waited for her to answer.

"Hey babe, what brings you here?"

"I brought you some lunch, I know you don't like catering and you have nothing to eat so I made you an old family recipe... its nothing special-"

"Im sure it will be amazing babe, thank you. I hope you made enough for the both of us, or you'll have to find something else to eat"

She winked at you and made your cheeks blush. You always loved lunch with Audrey.

Wilhemina:

Mina had missed lunch and you weren't quite sure why, she had looked under the weather this morning when you left her room. But she brushed it off and told you she was fine. Being a high ranked purple you instructed a grey to bring you wilhemina's uneaten cube. You were always kind with the Greys, hating the fact that even after the end of the word there was still a hierarchy.

"Mina? Are you in here?"

"What do you want y/n" you never took her tone of voice personally, especially when she was evidently ill.

"I brought you lunch, I know you're not well love"

All that was returned was a grunt and you took that as a thank you.

"Let's get you sat up, you need to eat and drink some water"

"Thank you"

"Always mina"

Tammy:

You knew where Tammy would be, at the loft with debbie and Lou and the rest of the team. You were only a small part of the team so you weren't that involved in day to day things. However, you made sure to visit every day to bring Tammy her lunch. The women were always getting caught up in their plans, that you were scared Tam wouldn't eat unless you made her.

"Hello beautiful lady"

"Hello, hows my favourite fence?" You placed a kiss on Tammy's lips as you placed a Tupperware box within her hands.

"Better for seeing you. Did you bring lunch again?"

"Of course, can't have you starving while making important plans"

She smiled down at you and thanked you with her eyes.

"Hey love birds, how about you bring us all some lunch too, sharing is caring you know"

Lou was always teasing you for caring so much about Tammys lunch. But you'd still do it until the end of time if it meant you'd be looking after her.

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Remembered🎆- Wilhemina Venable and Cordelia Goode

I know it's short but wanted to post a part 2 asap🤷🏼‍♀️

Part One- Forgotten

You had retreated to a far away hotel, you didn't want to be too far away from your home town but far enough that Cordelia would struggle to track you. You didn't want to be found so easily nor quickly. It had been 2 nights and both you had spent crying into your pillow, ignoring the many calls coming from your phone; cordelia, zoe, queenie... but none from Wilhemina. You knew she was stubborn but you thought she'd at least care that you had left and were upset; you obviously didn't mean that much to her.

The school had fallen silent since you had left, always the life and soul of the party, noone really knew what to say. That didn't manage to silence Madisons opinions however. You pair had weirdly become close recently, she felt you were the only person she could truly trust in the academy, and she'd be damned if she let you be away for much longer.

"This is your fault you know! You both caused y/n to leave..."

"That's enough Madison-" 

"No Zoe! How come they have plenty of time to go out, show everyone how much they 'love' each other and make other girls fall in love with them... but don't have any time to pay attention to the girl who already is! You left her broken and you never even realised?!"

Cordelia broke down again at the words spoken by Madison, she never realised how much her and Mina had hurt you. How much they had done without involving the younger girl. It broke her heart even more to know that they had forgotten their anniversary with you. It didn't help that Wilhemina hadn't left her room since you had left, it had hurt her more than she was willing to let on. Cuddling immediately into your pillow and holding tightly onto cordelias hand at night, let Delia know just how upset Mina truly was at losing you.

"Look... you have to find her... I'll help as much as I can but you have to promise to not hurt her again"

"O-okay"

*time skip*

It had been almost a week before you heard a knock at your hotel door. You held your breath while making your way to the door. You knew there was a possibility it was just room service but you just had a feeling it was the people you weren't sure you wanted to see or not.

"Y/n? Oh my god... it's really you?"

"What do you want Ms Goode"

"Ms Goode?... I want you to come home with me, I need you, Mina needs you... we should talk"

"I'm not coming back there Cordelia, I cant be there with you two. You've hurt me, we can talk right here"

"I love you... you know that right?"

You laughed snidely at her, how could you believe that? You allowed her to come into your room, not wanting to cause a scene in the hallway. Your hands were shaking with adrenaline and you couldn't hold in your emotions.

"You have a funny way of showing it. I can't wait for you both to realise I exist anymore, I'm so tired of waiting Delia. I'm tired of putting in more effort than I recieve. I'm tired of holding on for nothing. I'm tired of getting my hopes up and being disappointed over and over again..."

"I'm so so sorry... I never want you to feel like we don't love you, I love you both more than I love myself-"

"How can you say that?! Everyday for weeks now I've watched you and Mina go on without me! Acting as if I dont exist, as if I don't matter... like I'm not a part of this relationship. It hurts like hell to see you both fall out of love with me, its tearing me apart-"

Cordelia reached out towards your hands but you flinched back. Knowing if her skin graced yours and she gave you that look, you'd fall right back into her hands and forgive her straight away.

"Don't ever say that! I love you! I'm always thinking about you when we're not together. Thinking about your smile and how much I love being with you. You're my babygirl, and I'll stay with you. Now, tomorrow and always. Because I love being with you. Because there's nowhere else I'd rather be. And mina? Shes crazy about you"

Tears were streaming down both of your faces now, emotions running high throughout the room and the open door.

"No... shes not here, she blamed me, she hasn’t even tried to find me... she doesn't love me"

"Of course I love you"

The woman in question, dressed in violet, appeared in the doorway. Featuring matched tear stains across her cheeks, you had never seen Mina show so much emotion, ever. She closed the door behind her and joined the two of you in your room.

"I'm in love with you, and I'm not in the business of denying myself the simple pleasure of saying true things. I'm in love with you, and I know that love is just a shout into the void, and that oblivion is inevitable... but I am truly, madly, deeply in love with you"

As much as you wanted to remain angry with the pair, you knew they were sorry. And if they promised to change then you had to believe them because you loved them. Your legs were no longer frozen to the spot and swiftly moved towards Mina before abruptly stopping, remembering that the taller woman hated hugs.

"Come here little one"

Mina pulled you into her arms and held you tightly, you felt Delia's arms wrap around you from behind, and you had never felt better than right now. 

"I love you both so much" you shuffled into Mina's neck.

"Don't ever leave again, do you understand?"

"I won't Mina"

"Good"

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Forgotten🌃- Wilhemina Venable and Cordelia Goode

You and your 2 loves had been together for almost 2 years and you had never been so happy. You had everything you wanted, and that had never happened to you before, maybe your bad luck was what had caused this all to happen now. You could feel them getting further and further away from you. At first you thought maybe you were imagining it all, but as movie nights grew further apart and the nights spent alone increased; you knew you weren't losing your mind. Being busy was the excuse of this week, last week it was tiredness that had supposedly kept them away. You were starting to feel alone even when you were with them, as if their minds and bodies were focused on something completely different. 

"Everything okay y/n?"

Zoe's voice was muffled as she sat down next to you at the kitchen table, her dinner between her hands.

"Huh?"

"I said are you okay? You're totally out if it"

"Yeah just tired, had a long night"

You tried to force out a smile for the other witch, but it come out more like a grimace. You truly had had a long night, you had waited up for your girlfriends to join you in bed until around 2am when you gave up and decided to venture out to find them. It broke your heart when you found them curled up together on the sofa, a movie on the telly long forgotten. The site woke the demons in your head, and they told you your worst fears; 'they don't love you' , 'they're better off without you'. 

"They keep you up all night long?"

"Oh you have no idea"

It was 5am before you finally drifted off to sleep, with tears surrounding your face. You looked a mess and felt even worse when your alarm went off for breakfast at 7. You hadn't seen the pair yet, but that was probably because you were trying your hardest to avoid them. You didn't know what to say to them. As soon as you open your mouth they'd know something was wrong, and you really didn't want to have that conversation; at least not yet.

You were hoping that today would be different. It was the 2 year anniversary of you joining the pair, and you were clinging onto the hope that they'd remember. You all had spoken recently about what you would do to celebrate, and you had all decided on a meal at your favourite restaurant in town. You'd been planning your outfit for days and had finally found the perfect dress hidden amongst all your clothes. It was a red off the shoulder dress that ended just above the knees and fitted around your curves perfectly. Delia and Mina would love it, you were sure.

"Where are you going dressed like that anyway?"

"I'm just waiting for Cordelia and Wilhemina to get ready, it's our anniversary"

"O-oh..."

"What?"

"Its just... I saw them head out about a couple hours ago, they said they were going to the movies? Didn't they tell you?"

"No. No they didn't"

"I'm sure it's just a misunderstanding"

"Yeah"

You stood up and left the room swiftly, you wouldn't allow anyone to see you break down, you could wait until you found your room. They had actually forgotten. You couldn't believe it, you weren't sure if you were upset or angry; maybe a mix of both. You'd reached the stairs when the front door opened and the older two walked in giggling and holding hands.

"Hey you, why are you so dressed up? You look-"

"...Happy anniversary.. "

You carried on up the stairs with your head hanging, tears threatening to fall again. Which was nothing new, all you seemed to do was cry over them recently.

"Oh no" you heard cordelia mutter under her breath.

"Y/n, please wait" Wilheminas voice was heard this time. 

But still, you didn't stop, you couldn't; your legs appeared to be on auto-pilot. You just wanted to reach your room, so you could find a bag and leave. You couldn't be here anymore, not in the same house as those two, your heart wouldn't take anymore pain.

They followed you up the stairs, Cordelia a little in front but you couldn't hear what they were saying. They sounded miles away, the ringing in your ears far too loud.

"Stop!"

You spun around at the sound of Mina's voice, she had no right to raise her voice at you.

"No! You stop! Stop talking! Stop following. Just stop. Leave me alone!"

You turned again and walk towards your shared bedroom and locked the door. Cordelia appeared to ignore your wishes and continued to bang on the door.

"Come on Delia, we have no time for your immature actions. Find us when you are ready to act like an adult"

You couldn't believe her, this wasn't your fault, it was theirs. You grabbed as many clothes as you could and stuffed them into a duffel bag, you had to get out. Your shared room felt like it was suffocating you, reminding you of how much they were better off without you and how they'd left you behind in the relationship. Your sadness soon turned to anger as you thought about how wilhemina was blaming you. They've caused this.

You walked quickly towards the door, not wanting anyone to see you escaping, and you managed to make it out. You weren't sure where you were going but as long as it wasn't here you didn't really care. You were going to make them miss you like you've missed them.

[cordelias-bitch]

Blame🌇 - Sarah Paulson

Another long case, another Friday, another drunk night at the club with the cast. This had become routine, especially after your violent breakup with your particularly violent ex-boyfriend, the taste of liquor on your tongue and the numerous bodies pressed up against offered temporary numbness from the pain you felt. You had asked yourself the same question over and over again so many times; why could noone love you? Was it too hard? Was something wrong with you? You couldn't find the answers, so you threw yourself into the job, which in turn killed you too; no sleep and hours of relentless work didn't mix well at all.

By this time you had definitely had too much, you and Evan were on the dance floor; both looking for someone to take home- each others wingmen, the perfect arrangement. All you wanted to do was dance and try and wish away the bad thoughts and bad memories. You flung your arms up as your favourite song started to ring out of the massive speakers situated at the front of the large, sweaty room. Your hips moved to the beat occasionally, you couldn't care less if you looked ridiculous anymore; you were just as drunk as the rest on the dance floor. The beat was flowing through your veins and you were having the best time. No matter how drunk you were, the blonde woman was always in your thoughts; always in the far corners of your minds. In your thoughts at the very start of the day, and the very end of the day. Needless to say, you were quite enamoured with the actress. You felt hands press against your waist, and a body grind into your back, moving to the music.

Sarah watched as the stranger attached himself to your body. Something she had watched all night. A ting of jealousy bit at her, she tried to hide it by sipping at her drink but it was there and anyone paying the slightest attention to the woman could see it. Her darkened eyes followed as your bodies moved as one unit, your bodies brushing more than gently; it looked almost forced in her eyes. She'd been worried about you for weeks now, all you seemed to do was work and drink; she missed the old you- the joyful, free woman who was her bestfriend long before that man came into view. Sarah knew that he was trouble, her gut told her something was wrong; but you seemed happy and she didn't want to appear like the interfering- Jealous friend. But how she wished she had intervened. Months of abuse, and she had turned a blind eye- of course she didn't mean to. You hadn't even gestured to a problem, especially not one as big as that; so she remained the friend on the sideline and she hated herself for it. She wanted you so very badly; she'd watch your lips as they moved wondering how they'd feel against her most delicate skin. How your fingers would feel-

"Hey! Why don't you just tell her bird?" Her very private thoughts were interrupted by a soft voice. She ripped her eyes from you for a second, just wishing she could watch and stare at you in her arms just once.

"Huh? What?" She knew exactly what Elizabeth was talking about. She knew that everyone but you knew how she felt about you. How her eyes melted at the very mention and thought of you.

"Y/N. You know what I'm talking about. You need to tell her. She's killing herself, all she thinks about is work. What happened to her wasn't your fault and the sooner you admit that to yourself the better. She's mad about you; almost as much as you are for her." She smiled slightly at the brunette but waved her off as she saw you approaching.

You watched as Sarah left the table for the bar. Her hips swaying as they always do; you knew something was wrong by her face. Something had been off with her since your boyfriend became your ex.

"Sarah? What's going on?" You sat next to her; trying not to fall off the stool in your drunken state.

"Hm?" She looked confused but her hands playing nervously with the label on her newest beer bottle.

"Somethings wrong. I know you, your my bestfriend. Please talk to me" You placed your hands on hers and she flinched slightly; making you frown.

"I- I let you down... I'm sorry"

"Is this about Brandon? (random name. No offense😂)"

Sarah's face fell and a tear fell down her cheeks onto your embraced hands. You hated seeing her like this, and the thought of her emotion being about you killed. You grabbed her chin and lifted it to meet her eyes; you were so close in that moment. You could feel her breath on your neck, it gave you shivers and you fought the urge to pull her into you. She didn't feel the same. Right?

"It wasn't your fault. I er- I got good at lying... at covering the bruises. I didn't want to burden anyone so I kept it quiet, I wanted to believe that it was just a phase. That he would've stopped and it would go back to normal. But he didn't. I- I loved him, you know. And my family- and you- you all hated him; but I didn't. It's just hard to admit when you're wrong. I didn't want to do that. I should've told you, and I didn't. That was my fault, not yours; so please don't blame yourself for my mistakes"

She still hadn't said a word. She just sat there with tears in her eyes. The adrenaline ran through your body and before you knew it you were leaning into her. You wanted to pull away, but something was holding you there. It was like a magnet was pulling you closer and closer and you couldn't stop it, you didn't want to.

Her lips connected with yours and it felt so much better than you had ever imagined. The opposing alcohol mixed and created a taste that you would remember for ever. The bliss you felt was unimaginable; you felt her tongue glide against your lip and you gave in, allowing her entrance. Your tongues battled for dominance and of course the blonde won. Your hands found their way into her hair and you felt as hers stroked up against your hips.

You pulled away for air and leant your forehead against hers.

"Please don't blame yourself"