So i get no enjoyment out of basically anything anymore, I've all but lost any kind of real creative drive, I can barely find a reason to get out of bed at all let alone actually do proper work that needs to be done but even if i did and graduated and found a full time job it's impossible to move anywhere here + My free time is an increasingly isolated and static experience that id rather drug myself to sleep through than actually wait for time to pass ? well i guess i can stay true to my word and wait a year before blowing my brains out at least. Have some self respect right
Hello, my name is Caleb, and I am a disabled trans guy from the global south. I am indigenous southeast Asian.
I have chronic pain, and I am the sole caretaker of three other disabled people. I currently work three jobs, and am desperate for help. All three of my jobs are not stable income, as two depend on me having clients.
My mom and dad are both chronically ill, and both need battalions of meds like insulin, rosuvastatin, b complex to prevent seizures, and so much more (my mom is a survivor of a sepsis attack that resulted in a few minutes of brain death that caused nerve damage. She is a full time wheelchair user, and my dad's heart needs maintenance medicine) my parents medicine alone costs around 700-1000 usd per month- meds alone. And I still have to pay the electricity, water, internet for my work, my sisters tuition fees,.. etc.. for commissions I make around 750 usd, and then another 50-150 usd when folk tip.. I partially lose some of them because in southeast Asia, PayPal takes a small percentage each transaction, and then again for conversion, and then again as a fee when I transfer money to my bank... for my industry work, I've only made 10k usd for work worth three years now, and this is money am not even able to spend, because my contract has a morality clause, which means, if my publisher randomly decides to drop me or the author, I will have to return every penny I make, even if I have already drawn 390 pages of the comic..
I have been workinh so much I only have 4 hours worth of sleep per day for nearly 10 days now.. have no idea what to do.... I have not been able to work on my personal projects, all I want is to be able to play video games and work on my comic and talk to my friends and partner..
For three days now, my dad has been having symptoms that are worrying. Back of his neck is hurting, and his blood pressure is high, and his words when he speaks is slurred. He is afraid, and he is the only person in our household who does most of the housework. I would absolutely love to scrape by enough to get him to arrange a Dr's appointment tomorrow.. and everything else.. wiggle room until I can open again commissions for February. Sorry again, and I hope things work out for everyone.
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see the thing is normal christians dont have a particular issue with fantasy because its made up the same way it is for everyone else, but then there are these north american christians who are defined entirely and exclusively by "serving god" who act like fantasy writing is some kind of anathema to being christian so they think they're basically next in line to Christ for liking fantasy
ok well i guess it's that time again since everything is fucked and job searching is going miserably, if anyone could please spare anything at all I'd appreciate it so i can pay for classes and therapy and meds etc. if wanted i can do sound design work and some simple video editing as well.
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