🔮 What do you see in your muse’s future?
Honestly! How character development in isola turns out for J depends on a Lot of uncertain variables, so I'm not sure! I can only speculate.
Thouuuugh, it's pretty clear that for the time-being, the train 's headed downwards. J is not coping all too well with knowing that her memory is Not safe from interference either, even without defying Cyn, because of alternative allegory proving that the stars are capable of messing with it also. So, she's doubling down on the repression & insistence that she's a mere robot to avoid a crisis over the lack of anything Solid, and uhh… yeah its just a huge spire mountain of self-dehumanization man
her constant mood is just. Functioning. right now. not Good not Bad just. STATUS: FUNCTIONING. yea
BUT! It's a pretty frail state to be in, so I'm not expecting the trend to last. It should tilt to either directions, depending on future events.
I'm honestly going to let ✨ The Story ✨ take the wheel instead of manually tipping the scales to a favoured direction, buuuuuut… i Will say that it'd be really sweet to see if J, maybe, in the far future, gets the opportunity to get ahold of autonomy again and just… figure out what she wants to do for Herself instead of what she is Supposed To™
its one of these things where I feel like, from an outside perspective, it'd not be much of a shift in change — still being the bossy, confident superior employee spouting corporate jargon at you. But, it'd be an immense shift internally; how she thinks of herself, how she makes decisions, how she values those around her, etc. etc.
& it would be a subtle change from the outside, too: a less frustrated, and especially less tired disposition, replacing her current "confidence" with a more healthy version of it.
It's also where I'd reaaally like to include my trans headcanon in; I enjoy transitioning as a narrative device for self-discovery, and Gender for drones really is usually just a topic of self-expression — except, I'm sure J has just been going with what Tessa had given her at the start, instead of spending the time and introspection necessary to Indulge in aforementioned self-expression, considering how she doesn't do that kind of "What Do I Want"-introspection for all other aspects in her life, too. It just makes sense that she hasn't yet with self-expression, either.
Learning to loosen her iron grip on old memories, giving herself the free reign to discover and express who she is, altering her appearance to be Different than from all those years where she'd always been attached to some form of strings, be it the previous owners, the elliotts, or cyn, and transitioning to a Not perfectly binary appearance to let go of the obsessive need to be a model example of a jcjenson product, to let go of the obsessive need to not be broken— in just so many ways, I feel the headcanon plays so nicely with these themes.
But! Ya know. That requires A Lot! veryyy possible she'll just continue doubling down after doubling down, Especially with how she now feels Double trapped within spirale </3 Whoopsie!